A/N: As I promised, here is chapter 8 straight after chapter 7!
He loves me. He loves me. What! I mean I like him I really do. But the question is do I love him. I really need to talk to someone. But the question is how can I be with him when I can't even be honest with him. Who do I talk to? Esme yes I can talk to her. She will help me out I know that she will. So I left the room and went one a search for Esme. I soon found her in the kitchen baking.
"Hey Esme is there any way I can talk you for a second. I have a little bit of a problem."
"Sure honey what's up?"
"Well I was just with Edward listening to a new song that he just wrote and he told me that I changed him. I was the reason that Alice and him were close again. Telling me that he loves me."
"What did you do when he said this to you?"
"I told him that I could not let myself feel that way again. I told him about my ex-boyfriend that told me he loved me and not even a week later I found him in bed with my cousin. And then I just walked out. But that is not even the worse thing. I think that I may love him. No I do love him."
"Than what is the problem honey?"
"How I am I suppose to be with him when I can't be honest with him. It is not like I can tell him who I really am. You know that when this man is caught that I leave and go back to my life my real life. The tour will be back on again. I can't do that to him. I care for him to much."
"I see the problem. But you have to do what is best for you and if being with Edward is what you want then you will find a way to make that happen. If it is meant to be than it will find a way."
"I hope that you are right. But what if I tell him that I am Izzy and then he does not see me the same. I don't think that I could handle that."
"Well what do you think Izzy would right about now."
"I would not be afraid to go and get what she wants."
"Then go get what you want Izzy."
Just then someone comes bursting into the room. I turn around to see a very very excited and mad looking pixie. Oh shit. This can not be happening. Why me? She was not supposed to find out this way.I thought to myself. Esme runs over to her and puts her hand over her mouth.
"Alice honey please calm down. You are not going to scream are you?" Alice just shook her head no. "Ok I am going to take my hand off of your mouth. But if you do scream you are going to be grounded and I will take away all of your credit cards and you will not be allowed to shop for two months." Alice's eyes went wide and as Esme was taking her hand Alice actually stayed quite.
"Ok Alice now I am going to explain everything but is there place that we can go so that no one else hears up. I really don't need people hearing what I am about to tell. But you have to understand that nobody can know about me ok. Not Jasper, Rose, Emmett and especially not Edward. Please this is matter of life and death. I am not kidding."
"Let's go to the back yard I know a place that only I know about."
We headed out the back door and through a section of the garden that I did not even know was there.
"Alright talk Bella or Izzy whoever you are."
"Alice I know that you must be very mad at me. But you have to understand that I was keeping this a secret for my own safety and within the time that I have gotten to know you all then it became your safety. I could not live with myself if something to any of you." I could see the sadness in her eyes but there was also understanding.
"Bella I mean Izzy you are my friend and I can not even begin to understand what you went through that night but I will try. So why don't you tell me what happened that night." I knew that I could trust her but did I really want to relive that night. But she is my best friend so I guess that it would be ok.
"Alright I will tell you everything but this stays between you and me until I am ready for the others to know. It was after the concert in LA that a fan got out of control and told me that if I did not marry him then I would die. That is when my body guard tackled him to the ground. But the last words I heard before I got out of there was no matter where I was he would find me. I was his and no one else's. That is when I was put into the witness protection program. Everything that I once was is in the past until that man is caught. I feel like a fraud when I am around all of you."
"Izzy you don't have to feel that way. You were my friend before I found this out and you are my friend now and I will keep your secret. But there is just one thing I want in return."
"See that is why I did want to tell anyone they always want something from me."
"Izzy it is not like that I just want you to be honest with me and I really want to see your closet."
"Really that is all you is to see my closet."
"Of course I have to see what your real style is like. I mean this one is cute but I have to see if you really dress the way I see in the magazines."
"Ok that I can do and what do you want me to be honest about."
"How do you really feel about my brother? I can tell that he really likes you but I have to know what you feel for him."
"That is actually really funny I was just talking to you mom about it. Edward told me that he loved me. But I didn't say anything back I kind of just got up and left. Now I feel bad because I love him very much. But how can Edward and I be together if I can be myself with him."
"Izzy you will figure something out I know that you will. You just need to ask yourself some questions. Those questions are do you want to be with him? Then you have to be honest. And if it makes a difference he would keep your secret he would never do anything to hurts the ones he cares about. I can promise you that. But whatever you decide to do I will be there to support you."
"That is what friends are for now go get him Bella." This just made me smile. She was right I am going to tell him I am Izzy Swan after all.
I was walking to his music room only to find that he was not there he must be in his bedroom.
I was right outside his door when it suddenly opened.
"Oh hey Bella what's up? I was just on my way out."
"Well this should only take a few seconds. I wanted to talk to you about what happened earlier."
"Bella there is nothing to talk about I can see that you don't feel the same way so we are cool."
"Edward you just listen. Please."
"You Bella I really don't have time for this I really have to get going." He said as he pushed past me. I could see the hurt in his eyes.
"I love you!" I yelled down the hall. He stopped mid step.
"What did you just say?"
"I said that I love you. I am sorry that I didn't say anything before. It was just that I was afraid…" I was cut off when Edward lips crashed into mine. This was a kiss of urgency. He was kissing me as if I would suddenly change my mind.
"I love you too Bella so much." He kissed me again and but this time it was softer and sweeter. "Bella there is something I want to ask you will you go out with me this weekend."
"Yes of course I will but there is something that I really need to tell you. But I have no idea how you are going to take it."
"Bella love there is nothing that you can't tell me."
"Alright here goes nothing. My name is not Bella it is Izzy as in Izzy Swan. My mom thought that this would be the best place for me to go after what happened at my last concert."
"Really Bella what are you playing at. I mean really what is this some sick joke I tell you how I feel and then this is your way of telling me what."
"Edward I am just trying to be honest with you. That picture you saw in my music room was really of me and my dad after my very first concert. I was not allowed to tell anyone. It was a matter of life and death please you have to believe me. I love you everything that I have ever felt for you has been real. I want you and only you but I can understand if you don't want to be with me." once again he comes over to me and kisses me.
"You talk way too much of course I still want to be with you only you. I will do whatever it takes to keep you safe. I love you and only you. We can get through this together. Ok Izzy." This just made me smile.
"Please can you call me Bella everyone is supposed to call me that. But mostly it sounds so much better than Izzy and when I actually go back to being Izzy it will be nice to know that someone still thinks of me as Bella."
"Of Course whatever you want love."
"Or you could call me that." We spent the next couple of hours talking about well anything and everything. I spent the night in his room falling a sleep in his arms.
A/N: So Edward knows! What do you think?
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