The Forest of Edward's Mind

Story by Roshandra Mitchell Simon

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Chapter 1

Prelude

Living without Bella was impossible. My determination to not change her became my purgatory. Does true love have a happy ending? I hoped so, for being an immortal was part of my equation. I could not exist without her. So began my test of Love and Fate...

From the moment I met Bella in high school that day in Forks, Washington, I knew then she would either be the death of me or the life of me. What I had not known was that she was the doorway to my own enlightenment and the discovery into my change. She almost was destroyed when we broke up and I wanted her forgiveness, after all she saved me from destroying myself that day in Italy. Despite everything I still felt like I had that first day, that it was best if we stayed apart. To let her live her life and maybe be with Jacob. I agreed with Jacob that day, that Jacob was by far a better choice for Bella. She could live a normal well, a more normal – life than with a vampire. What I had not known was that FATE has a way of bringing star crossed loves together, even when they try to fight destiny. I tried to fight it and did not want Bella in my dark world, the world of vampires and endless thirst. I wanted her to be happy, I wanted her to have children and live out a full human life. I would always watch over her. After all, I felt my penance was to protect and observe her from a distance. The love I felt for her could not be explained and I rationalized it over, always at war with myself. However, I always came back to the same conclusion: I needed to remove myself from her life. I felt the shadows is where I belonged, there but not there for her to see, to know that I was looking out for her, protecting her.

I could look in on her as I did when we spent that time in high school. Now, though, I had to be wiser and I had to leave her to lead her own life. She had healed me when she saved me and I was so glad she had not died in that foolish jump off the cliff that day. Alice thought she'd drowned. Bella was having a moment of facing demons and adrenaline highs. She was doing that to drown me out, or maybe find me. I was so cruel allowing her to be a part of my foolish desires of loving her. My obsession with her tore me up inside. Her scent was my drug… I almost killed the one I loved by letting her be around me and introducing her to more problems than she ever needed. I knew it was the right thing to do, the noble thing to do. Let her GO. Edward let her go!..Let her live now in peace and find her way. Let her love another...Let her go... my immortal self grabbed onto her so tightly that I knew my heart would shatter if I released her. But, it had to be done. I didn't deserve her Love or faith in me or her devotion, and her acceptance. I was going to walk away from her once for all. To live a half existence, always remaining in the shadows, serving this penance for loving Bella, so FATE took me. I dared to hope that I could remain in the Shadows where Bella could not see me or sense my presence protecting her, even from me..

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~ August 11, 2011 ~ all rights of "The Forest of Edward's Mind" is reserved and owned by Roshandra Mitchell Simon ~ characters of this story belong to Stephanie Myers of Twilight. ~ Story Created by Roshandra Mitchell Simon for Fan Fiction. Please email Roshandra at booksbyroshandra

The FOREST …

of Edward's Mind and his LOVE..Bella…

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Fan Fiction by Roshandra Mitchell Simon ..this story belongs to Roshandra the original author of this and the CHARACTERS of this story belong to Stephanie Myers Twilight…respectfully Roshandra ~ booksbyroshandra

Chapter 1

The Forest

All paths lead us through the forest and into a journey of the Love we seek. We are all upon a journey of love and our Hearts guide us. The forest is the time we cannot see where the path is taking us and so we are the fools walking through this shadow and grace and quiet of the trees that surround us. As we enter deeper into the forest and the forest of our minds…we often find ourselves Lost. This is the moment we truly begin to go deeper into that part which guides our footsteps. The trees quietly placed a gentle hush over us and our heart's breath. The mind ceases its endless meanderings and we rest there for a moment. This is when we often discover the pathway through this forest and our hearts can breathe. It is the time in the forest that nourishes us even if we cannot see where She will take us. The Knowing of the Trees and this Forest Blesses us and we find love and protection and clarity through the mist and a pathway for our lives. The book opens and we are with the Trees. The fairytale is within us.

Fate takes us…

Blessings Roshandra

~ I also believe in happy endings and stories that keep unfolding…

No matter the challenges or how thick the forest is…

I believe in Fairy Tales and LOVE..

August 11, 2011 ~ all rights of "The Forest of Edward's Mind" is reserved and owned by Roshandra Mitchell Simon ~ characters of this story belong to Stephanie Myers of Twilight. ~ Story Created by Roshandra Mitchell Simon for Fan Fiction. Please email Roshandra at booksbyroshandra

The Forest …of Edward's Mind

Chapter 2

Of Edward….Rio de Janeiro'

Bella in 'the Forest of Edward's Heart

The statue of the Christ's outstretched arms on top of the cliff there in Rio beckoned me to visit before I flew out of this location. It so reminded me of the cross I now carried. Was it not bad enough, I carried my own burdens? Something I never asked to become was an immortal, but I carried on, having found love. And then having to both times to tell Bella this would not be wise? I deserved the pain that the universe was giving me, but what had Bella done to deserve this pain? What kind of fate was this that was placed upon me that had my world crumbling? I promised Bella I would not die and yet that meant I had to live without her. Well, without really being in the light of her life. I could watch her from the shadows. My plan was to survive this pain and burden in the darkness of those grey clouds. My feelings became a clouded veil for me to hide from Bella, knowing what was becoming of me.

I needed to hunt before I left Brazil. The conversation I had with Bella at the hotel, left me with a smashed cell phone and damages to the hotel wall. I would need to pay for that damage before I checked out. I breathed in and sighed. I hoped now, that Bella would settle her heart and be with Jacob. Bella had the right to a life now and I felt that in our final conversation she believed my reasons. I tried to explain to her that becoming an immortal like myself was not anything I would change my mind on ever. I knew Bella was stubborn and resourceful. I promised Carlisle no more melodrama of my own death or the Volturi. I promised my family that I was resigned now and would be fine. I would join them soon and try not to dampen the goodness Carlisle created for our family. We were different among our own kind. I wanted to be with them, for I loved and missed them very much.

Bella would be fine. Jacob was in love with her. She held love and friendship for him. I wanted to leave Bella alone, that last conversation was hard on us both. She was mad and she did tell me off. But Bella had left me this time. That was a sign that she would move on with her life. The conversation ran through my mind as I headed to check out of the hotel, and pay for the damages of the wall in that fit of anger.

"Excuse me, I would like to pay for some damages not on my bill". I told the clerk.

"What damages in your suite, sir?" One eyebrow shot up and a professional calm was on the face of the desk clerk. He shook his head when I handed him my card.

"Sir, I am sure that the hotel is more than happy to handlewhatever happened. We will place it on your bill after we view the suite. Is that ok with you, sir"?

"Yes, of course. Does the Concierge have a car ready for me? I'd like to check out now."

"The Jaguar you requested is here and your bags will be in the car shortly. The directions to the spots you requested are set in the car's navigation system. Will you need anything else?"

"That will be all. My stay was not what I expected it to be, but your city has been a good place for what had to transpire. Thank you". This of course left the clerk in a puzzled but affable state.

There was the key walking to Edward dangling like his neck was on a noose. How could she say that to me? She hadripped out my heart in that conversation. But then, wasn't that the plan?If I got her upset enough, she would want to be rid of me. The old story of the leave-e or the leave-or. It was better for her to leave me now. But what she said cut me to the quick. Bella had a way of finding just what upset me most and always being so stubborn and independent. She cut right through the heart like a slash across it. Bleeding I was, but that was part of being strong enough to handle her anger and let her rip into me. I figured that was the plan, but she went further than I expected. My heart was bleeding and I had to go talk to the gods now. If only someone would rescue me and help this blood I was losing.

The internal conversation turned off. I sighed and smiled, handing a folded bill to the concierge. A silver Jaguar was waiting there, ready with the door open. My mood sulked into it. It was not the Volvo. That held good memories, but that was also the past and the foolishness of being a 17 year old in high school. Now at least I could be a Postgraduate and figure out a new life plan. Again a new plan, pretend to fit in and live amongst the humans and appear to be normal. My family missed me and my last words with Carlisle was to promise him I would be back in Forks before they all left that region and moved to the Forests of England. I wanted the east coast as I felt she never would show up there, but the family would talk about that. The Jaguar was purring now and the directional system in the car gave voice commands to move through the bustling city of Rio. Finally, I could breathe somewhat, but holding this bleeding slashed heart tightly. I felt I needed to get through the morning check list and along to a reality that gave some quiet and peace again. Oh, how I loved her and oh she slashed my heart deeply.

I turned on the music. Everything reminded me of Bella, though, and it all came crashing down on me again. Snap out of it, man. Control your thoughts, don't let this bleed you dry. Focus. You are just like any other male on the planet when a girl dumps him. So snap out of it and get on with your life for that is what you had hoped Bella would do in the first place. Snap out of it.

August 11, 2011 ~ all rights of "The Forest of Edward's Mind" is reserved and owned by Roshandra Mitchell Simon ~ characters of this story belong to Stephanie Myers of Twilight. ~ Story Created by Roshandra Mitchell Simon for Fan Fiction. Please email Roshandra at booksbyroshandra

Chapter 3

The Jaguar ~

The Jaguar growled and snaked along the road now and up to the cliffs toward my salvation. I could already see the edges of the forest and I thirsted. I could climb a little more and find a location to pull off so I could hunt and get my thirst under control. I had a flight later that night and I needed to quench my thirst. The voice directional guidance system was already insisting I keep moving ahead. I leaned forward and turned the beast off. Thinking to myself, why did they use a female voice? I knew why, but still it bothered me, for I did not want to hear any female voices as Bella's words were still ringing through my ears and heart. I found a spot to slip the Jaguar into off a narrow roadway.

As the Forest began to shroud me, I thought to myself how perfect this was. The cover of the forest would hide me and what I was about to do. This region of the world had their own share of my kind, so while hunting, I had to be cautious. I was only hunting game, but I had to proceed with stealth. Vampires are in this city and location. They hunted human kind or where busy in the drug areas or the banking business. I wanted a few moments to myself to handle my thirst. I also had to deal with my anger with myself. I had left Bella to get lost in the forest the first time I left her. I will never forgive myself for that mistake. Her life was in danger on that incident alone. I kept reaffirming that to myself as I got out of the car and walked into the silence of the lush trees. This time it was her idea. I planned it well. This time she left me. Now I was left in the forest to myself.

Ok Edward SHUT UP. Go hunt. And feed your thirst, while your heart is cracked open and bleeding, all over the dumb mistake of getting involved with someone that was not of your own kind...get a grip and shake this off.

As the Forest began to shroud me, I thought to myself how perfect this was. The cover of the forest would hide me and what I was about to do. This region of the world had their own share of my kind, so while hunting, I had to be cautious. I was only hunting game, but I had to proceed with stealth. I wanted a few moments to myself to handle my thirst. I also had to deal with my anger myself. I had left Bella to get lost in the forest the first time I left her and I would never forgive myself for that. I would never call it a mistake, because I made that decision. I made that decision consciously and did it on purpose. Her life was in danger on that incident. I was grateful that this time it was her idea. I planned it well. This time she left me. Now I was the one that was left in the forest to myself.

Okay, Edward, shut up. Go hunt. Feed your thirst, while your heart is cracked open and bleeding – though of course, you don't bleed – all over the dumb mistake of getting involved with someone that was not of your own kind...get a grip and shake this off.

The forest called to me now and I gave myself over to my primal instincts letting my survival and predatory senses take over. No one would see me off road now and there was prey here. Another being sensed me as well. Walking deeper into the forest I was just listening as my mind hushed. Silence as the hunter shroud moved over me. Time to HUNT.

The Game here was so different in this part of the world. I had to laugh at myself thinking in terms of Eco consciousness. Bella would ask when I traveled with my family as to what kind of game we hunted. This caused me more and more to think of her and how the endangered species raised her conversations to not hunt those animals. I shook it off and focused. This region had BIG CATS. Neither sweet little fauna here nor easy heavy herds of deer like the Pacific Northwest. This was all game and natural prey here for hunting. There were also monkeys and birds, but really? How much blood can you drink from an exotic bird. I chuckled at my own sense of humor. Then there are the snakes here, but that was even funnier.

So I hunt what would challenge me. Spotted leopard? Puma? Hmmm. Jaguar like the car I was driving. Just a male or two and that would be exactly what I needed. My hand grabbed the car keys and found a log to hide them under and then I began to scent the air. All kinds of animals flocked to my primal mind and then one stood out. Definitely a feline scent so carefully I headed deeper into the forest to let the hunting began.

Bella would not approve of course. She seemed fine with deer, marabou and elk. A bear almost mauled and killed Emmett prompting his birth into this life. Rose rescued him. This cat was what I needed now, a real predator to fight me. Just like Bella did and shredded and bleed me. This kind of predator could cause damage to me and if he managed to wound me, I would bleed out as a vampire. I would not entertain those thoughts. I'm faster and smarter than any being or jaguar. I hunt like the Englishman in Africa on safari. My instincts go tribal in seconds. Kicking that stuff out of my mind, I go hunt.

This is the Plan.

Quench my thirst. Seek mental redemption at the Christ the Redeemer. Visit the chapel (even though it's not open to the public), I need this to get my mind and body back in order to rejoin my family close up the house and move with them. Yes, this was the new plan.

A snap of underbrush caught my attention. Looking up into the overhead trees, I realized that I was face to face with the cat I was tracking. Its tail switched and I knew it was female. I could smell her and I knew she was a young one – all the hormones, you know, deadly, of course, but still young. I smiled and nodded, letting her be. She put her head down as she had no cubs to protect or she would have attacked me for being in her region of forest. I decided to run deeper into the forest to see what scents I would come across.

Then it hit me.

I smacked into a strong male scent of cat energy and he had marked his territory. Standing very still I scanned the region and spotted, three young males stalking me - the little bastards. When I come off hyper speed dash animals cannot see or sense me. The animal mind is instinctual, predatory even. They wonder why I would be here in their territory.

Well, food is food and I believe I've become the hunted. This is going to be fun. In the back of my mind I considered the mature male. A well seasoned mature male was carefully stalking me. These three young cubs were clearly a group of adolescents hunting as a pack. What bothered me was the fact that there might be the mature male watching me while the threesome took me on. That is where the attack would come. This meant four of them. I straightened up, Why the hell not? Emmett would love this story if I come out of this one okay. Maybe even lose a limb. By this time the three have shifted into hunting mode, I could hear the growls. They thought they had a treat, an easy human snack. Boy they were in for a surprise. They really didn't know – but I was in hunter mode, too! I was almost jubilant at the thought of the fight.

Turning on my heels I allowed them to circle me and give chase. Each set of eyes honed in on me and then I nodded. Come on boys try and catch a vampire for lunch.

Then I bolted off, just slow enough that they could chase me. I felt my adrenaline rise. The hunt and being hunted allowed me to free my mind, to let the beast within take over. My senses told me to jump now, so I did. I was running on pure instinct. I was almost flying through the tree tops when I noticed it. Another vampire, a female had joined the chase?

Suddenly all went still.

I saw the pack turn on their heels, confused.

I saw the female and the den of three young males caught sight of her. Lunch again for sure they thought!
The woman was not human and she was going to take on the three. I wanted to watch this and figure out why she showed up and she did not notice me? She hunted and in a flash she attacked number one from behind. She went for the weakest one. She was a vampire but to my knowledge very few if any of them lived as our family did. This female though was cat like and she clearly was only going for the blood of these felines and males too. The leader of this group then turned on her and she leaped out of way up into the trees and holding her freshly killed prey between her teeth.

Suddenly she saw me and we stared into each other's eyes. She was in shock not moving from my stare. My eyes were locked on her and I was hungry. I wanted the blood she had just caught but in respect of her hunting I knew I had to leave this stare to hunt for my own catch. The Blood of the young Cat was driving me mad. Pools of venom were collecting in my mouth which wanted to be released into my prey. I nodded and leaped to another section and so left this interesting find alone.

Moving to this other tree section I dropped to the ground and looked around and then took off. Shorter journey than expected and then saw what was watching me and watched both the young group of males that now was one shorter. I was being hunted and this suited me fine. The Girls eyes though left an impression in me. Her eyes where GREEN and Cat like. She was lithe like Alice on her feet and agile like a cat. She had locked deeply into me in her surprise with green almond cat like eyes. Brushing that off I realized hunting here was a bit crowded. Laughing to myself, I shook that off.

I saw the female and the den of three young males caught sight of her. Lunch again for sure they thought!
The woman was not human and she was going to take on the three. I wanted to watch this and figure out why she showed up and she did not notice me? She hunted and in a flash she attacked number one from behind. She went for the weakest one. She was a vampire but to my knowledge very few if any of them lived as our family did. This female though was cat like and she clearly was only going for the blood of these felines and males too. The leader of this group then turned on her and she leaped out of way up into the trees and holding her freshly killed prey between her teeth. Suddenly she sees me and we stared into each other's eyes. She was in shock not moving from my stare. My eyes were locked on her and I was hungry. I wanted the blood she had just caught but in respect of her hunting I knew I had to leave this stare to hunt myself. The Blood of the young Cat was driving me mad, pools of venom were collecting in my mouth which wanted to be released into my prey. I nodded and leaped to another section and so left this interesting find alone.

The cat had me on his radar and my primal instincts came in now. 'Male to male'. I was so thirsty now that I did not even care if this cat tried to shred me. I wanted blood now and I was on a hunt for a Pride male, the leader of the pack. He was a loner and was mature on hunting. Just what I had in mind till I realized the two confused younger males where suddenly in the bushes coming in from the circumference? I calculated quickly that that distraction was part of how this group could hunt and determined to not run. Let myself be the prey and feast. WHY NOT? My anger and thirst demanded all three would suit me just fine. Then I felt the quick attack from behind at my heel. One of the feisty young ones had overshot and missed by a mile. I gazed into the cat's almond shaped eyes, knowing they would be lifeless soon. Mano y mano, but I smelled blood. My own blood and that caused a moment of concern.

My Achilles' heel had a swipe taken out of it. I began to feel it drain and thought of the Roman and Greek times. The warrior Achilles' and his one weakness is how he went down. Right Edward, focus. Dinner is coming. Taking a deep trenched position of sinking into my heels I positioned myself for the frontal attack of this BIG JAGUAR Cat. And so be it I thought. Come and get me and I am going to eat you up! The big cat attacked but at the same time the second young male grabbed my arm and grabbed on tight. I twirled and it was then the large male grabbed me at the throat. Blood I could smell spilling forth and it was my blood.

Then in a split second the third young male was on my foot and the three of them were taking me to the ground. Above I sensed that girl again and she was waiting and watching? For what? To see these cats try to make dinner of me? Well enough on that and with that I kicked the one young cat off my leg. Then I heard him smash into a tree trunk. Then another clamped onto my arm and a chunk of meat left with the cat…it too bounced and hit a tree. The big cat was now free to wrestle me to the death as I was bleeding out more and more, faster and faster. The predator's teeth were in my neck, not letting me go. The cat did not know this prey was a vampire. Then with power and focus I rolled and got my hands on either side of its jaw. I forced the mouth of the jaguar to open. I released my neck from his bite. I then stood up bleeding and grabbed my own throat to put pressure on it for a moment. The cat shook his head as I had tossed him into the trees too and he hit hard. This surprised the cat in hunting mode. Humans don't do that? Then again cats are the predator and humans the prey if they wander too deeply into this forest of theirs. This was supposed to be a quick hunt and then see the one sightseeing spot and head to the airport. Now I was bleeding out and might really not make it through this. Kick it out of your mind Edward. Kill the animal and get your needs met now.

Then it was the moment. The CAT reeled on his feline feet and agile body came at me from the side while the younger two male cats both attacked at cross hairs. I would be CAUGHT between two opposing forces and prey would be done in instantly. UP I went with much effort and turned in mid air and down again and kicked the young males out of the way and SNATCHED the big CAT. In a second my mouth was at his Throat. The two smaller cats spun and were back and then SHE jumped in. Clearly she wanted more food herself and took one and knocked the other out of the way. She batted it away like an annoying fly. I drank in the Male Jaguar and reached for the last cat. I would have two now and that was that!

I dropped to the floor of the Brazilian rain forest drinking. The heat of the cat was in my blood as well as the adrenalin. I was being satisfied by the primal energy of this Big Cat and emptied it in no time. My hunting skills where swift and always walked away clean but not this time. I was bleeding still myself and I was torn to shreds. My clothes where a mess and bloodied too. This was how my heart was from Bella, torn to shreds. How fitting this was!

The Big cat was lifeless and the smaller cat was now my focus but as I released one and began to drain the next kill my eyes began to clear and I saw HER watching me. Her Green eyes had just flashed as she was biting into her second cat. I did not expect to turn into the prey and yet it was fitting. My mind was fogged due to my anger and my wounding and this would kill my family if after all that I have put them thru only to be killed in this way. I could hear my brother Emmet laughing his butt off at that. On the other hand was this green eyed vampire female I stumbled upon in her forest sent to be my angel and watch over me so my life would not end. I would never know that for I had to finish and get out of this mess. I finished the young male quickly and stumbled to my feet. She did not stop staring at me.

I looked down at my clothing and noted what bad shape I was in.

She finished and walked calmly to a tree and grabbed some of the bark and leaves and walked back and pointed to my leg and his neck. She was beautiful, clearly regional and clearly a vampire.

Not saying a word and staring at me she pointed to wanting to help me in some way. It seemed that she was going to help me and the gentleman in me could not refuse her aid. The vampire in me though was wary and with good reason. Who was she and did she speak?

"Ah, thank you. Do you have a name?"

She looked right through me and she nodded and put her finger to her mouth to quiet any talk. I looked around and noted that she was maybe not alone in this forest hunting. It seemed best to let this all go and just let her stop the bleeding out and then get back to the other Jaguar and head to the places on the list and the airport then.
She reached down to the floor of the forest and with one finger wrote a word. 'Libera'.

Puzzled I nodded as I figured this was her name maybe. I felt obliged to write my name then and my finger went to 'Edward Cullen' and 'thank you'. She smiled and nodded and she looked in the direction of telling me she was not alone and it was time to leave. She reached for the Big Jaguar and opened its mouth and I knew I was to take a tooth of the cat. I was going to take one then thought two for I bagged both the big cat and the smaller. As I did she grabbed the smaller cat and extracted two teeth from them and handed to me. I shook my head and only took one from her hand because she hadbagged both the males and I got one young male and the big cat. Her eyes penetrated into me and she felt my body respond. My kind could look deeply into another and I never felt this with Bella. With her it was something else. With her she had those beautiful deep delicious chocolate eyes I swam in and was lost in. With Bella I was in the mystery of learning to swim in her and try to understand what was happening. Libera though penetrated me to be core and this was new for me. She saw right into me. Something flashed in my mind to leave now and fast. I watched as suddenly Libera was digging a hole for my blood covered leaves and clearly hiding my scent. She bit into the dead carcasses of the cats and I knew she was not alone now for sure. I stretched out my mind hearing others thoughts and began to pick up on someone. In fact I could hear foot falls now and I knew I had to move fast and back to my car. One more long stare into those Green eyes and I was gone. She did not look up once and finished her work I assumed.

My bleeding had stopped and I was at the Jaguar car in no time. My clothing was a mess and I took off everything fast. Grabbed the clothing leaving no traces and naked I had the car keys in his hand and hit open trunk. Unzipped the carryon luggage and went for jogging sport pants and a t-shirt and b-cap. Grabbed the Ray Bands and threw the soiled clothes in a plastic bag and hit the trunk shut and dashed for the car door and the Jaguar engine on. The car hummed as she sped out of the forest…satiated and thirst handled. I looked in the rear view mirror at my neck, teeth marks and bruising. That would heal and felt the arm that a junk of my muscle and meat was gone now. Carlisle would aid that and I would have to regenerate tissue there. The Achilles' tendon was not torn but Carlisle needed to patch me up some for sure. I could walk and cope with the pain there. I laughed and shook my head and the navigational system began to speak to me again. A woman's voice – I just shook my head.

The female voice said to turn at the road coming to my right and I was 8.7 kilometers from my destination. I felt if I was followed I could not trust spending much time here and I would shorten my trip to Redemption of Christ visit. Grab a few snap shots and head to the airport. I needed to pick up another cell phone since I damaged and destroyed the one I had when I finished talking to Bella. It was dangerous for me to not be connected by phone to my family and whatever occurred in that rain forest there was something intriguing about that girl. In my hand I held two large canine incisors and one small one….that would be proof to my brothers. The damage though I took on was also a sign of how badly I was damaged with love that shredded my heart. Now this body matched it. Now I needed to make this peace with this Redemption of Souls. Bella's Soul was not going to be compromised by me or my way of living in that world I was caught in. The danger of my selfishness of wanting this love with her was the soul she was. I still believed I had no soul...even though Bella believed I did. I had only pain. Shredded and pain and almost mangled by Jaguar cats. Funny it all was and I was driving a Jaguar car up this mountain to the Christ Redeemer. Oh, the irony. Okay, what else before you get out of Rio, Edward?

Navigational system made a gentle announcement the car was approaching my destination and could see the parking lot and knew the rest of atonement was in order now.

The tram had a space and jumped onto with the ticket the concierge had placed in the Jaguar for this. The Red Tram moved along smoothly up the hillside of Corcovado. Then there it was. Christ with open arms and looming ahead for what was hoped redemption and some kind of suture to sew up this bleeding slashed heart. Cameras snapping and then the ride brought everyone to a stop and there it was. Huge art deco Christ and arms stretched open and a man approached me.

"Sir, are you Mr. Masen Cullen"?

Spinning fast and on my aching heel, I nodded to him and answered. "Yes, Edward Masen Cullen…yes."

The ticket to see this private part of the tour was met with no ticket in hand? Realizing when I got out of the Jaguar that I had apparently left it on the dashboard.

The guide nodded and said that it was not a problem. The concierge had set this up. The docent guide assumed I was the right fit and person and so we walked away from the group. The Chapel inside the lower section of this Statue of Christ the Redeemer was where my curiosity was taking him. I needed a moment to gather myself and just enjoy the quiet. The view was amazing but my focus was on that door and the key the guide was walking us to. The Art Deco Base of this Statue was in Black marble squares. All black while the Huge Statue of Christ was all White, a beautiful contrast. My guide began sharing all the background information on the Statue and the years and the engineers and artist from France that did the head of Christ. We walked briskly to the door.

Corcodova had a breath taking view of Rio and there with the Statue shrouded in the fog and clouds protected this visit. The purpose after all was to go into the private chapel and ask for forgiveness and maybe see if this redemption could aid this tormented heart. The anger now had subsided and the guide was very quiet while he drew out a key to unlock the door in the base of the Statue so that entrance could be gained.

"Sir, this is considered to be a janitor's closet. Admittance to it is rare as you know and the concierge' said that you would only need a brief visit inside."

Inside was a bigger surprise then the Jaguar episode. The entire small private chapel was a wonder itself. Simple, stark and all Art Deco of black marble floor and wood carved simple antique pews and a single Altar. There were three side windows on three directions with black glass and the view with in a hush of mystery and majesty. All this was hidden behind a small janitor's drape that blocked the view of this inner sanctuary. There where stairs to the side to access the internal statue as it was hollow. This one black drape shrouded this inside state of quiet and solitude and observation views. There was total silence and this presence of this mountain and View of Rio.

August 11, 2011 ~ all rights of "The Forest of Edward's Mind" is reserved and owned by Roshandra Mitchell Simon ~ characters of this story belong to Stephanie Myers of Twilight. ~ Story Created by Roshandra Mitchell Simon for Fan Fiction. Please email Roshandra at booksbyroshandra

Chapter 4

His Miracle…if you wish to call it that and the Angel

Then it all smashed in on me…as fast as her words had done to my heart. The wrecking ball.

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