I don't turn back toward his Majesty aka Edward Cullen as I step forward and hug Riley. Only then I look at him. Once again his face is calm, but it is the calm before the storm that I can see brewing in his eyes,
Serves him right...
Who the hell does he think he is? How dare he do this to me? Is the fact that the boy who took my virginity is his cousin had him so riled up, so possessive of me or is it just his nature?
My eyes on him are steady, the feminist in me refusing to bow in front of him, no matter how much the submissive girl in me wants to do the only reason I'm being brave right now is because of the company I'm in right .Riley's arm wraps around me and I see Edward's lips twist, just a little twist that I would have missed if I had not been looking at him so closely. I feel smug but it is soon overcome with the anger as I remember why I'm doing this. I know soon hurt will set in but I'm alright with this anger, it's easier to deal with.
Riley presses his neck into my neck, his breath fanning on the hickey his cousin has given me this morning. I avert my eyes from Edward and step away from Riley. I try to hide my grimace as Riley gives a squeeze to my waist. I had to endure it, if only to antagonize Edward.
I smile and go to sit on my seat as Riley follows me like a puppy, because that is how I think of him. If he had really been something else he wouldn't have apologized to me the way he did. He is an idiot,the exact opposite of the person I had known a year before. Lunch goes on as everyone fills in Riley about what has happened in the last year while Riley keeps a hold of my hand on top of the table. I want to snatch my hand away but the fact that Edward is sitting right across from me and his eyes are on our connected hands helps me to resist doing so.
The bell rings signalling the end of Lunch and Riley turns toward me to ask me if I would meet him in the parking lot after school. I agree. The fact that Riley is asking me doesn't sit well with me. I like it when Edward demands me to do something and anything he wants me to sick is that? I make a move to get up when the table jostles, causing the half empty coke bottle to tumble over my skirt. I watch in horror as the black liquid soaks my skirt before the remaining makes it's way down,flowing down my legs. My eyes shot up toward Edward and I glare at him. He is such a...
He has the audacity to smirk at me. I take a deep breath trying to get my anger in control and turn towards Riley who is looking at me with horror.
"Oh god Bella!"
I close my eyes as I try to ignore the way Riley had just spoken. It was so...girly, to say the least. What the hell happened to him? Smiling softly, I lean forward and gives him a slow, long kiss. There is a sound of growling from somewhere to my right.
"You are so sweet Riley, always so caring."
I internally roll my eyes at myself. I would have felt bad for using Riley but the way he fell right under Edward's trap doesn't make him worthy of any feeling from me. Maybe it's rude and I'm being heartless but right this moment, I don't care. I lean back and smile at Riley.
"It's alright, Riley. Why don't you guys go ahead and I will go into the girl's washroom to tidy myself."
Concerned, he tells me that he wouldn't mind waiting for me. I open my mouth to decline when I hear a throat clearing somewhere from the side and we both turn to see Edward giving a disapproving look to Riley. Riley looks chagrined and ashamed at something and mumbles about seeing me later. And then he is walking toward the cafeteria doors. I follow suit without giving another glance to the man who I had failed to judge.
I furiously wipe away the tears but they keep coming back. I look into the eyes of the girl who is looking back at me from the mirror, her eyes bloodshot with the tears she has shed in the past five minutes.
I hate Edward Cullen.
I roll my eyes at myself as I realize that I have been repeating this line since the moment I met him. Why would he do something like that? Why would he encourage Riley to kiss me? He is such a bipolar man. On one hand he tells me that I belong to him and then he goes to his cousin suggesting him to kiss me.
What an asshole...
The door of the bathroom is banged open and I'm not surprised to see a seething Edward standing in the doorway. Turning around I glare at him even though a glimmer of fear ignites inside me. Clenched jaws,hands fisted and eyes filled with fire, he looks like the devil. Beautiful but a devil eyes are locked with each other in the mirror and I visibly shudder as the door closes behind him, the sound of a click loud in the air. He stalks toward me like a predator would stalk a prey, our eyes still locked on each other, his gaze filled with his possessiveness and anger.
I push back the images of last week when he had punished me and the pain that accompanied it, stubbornly refusing to back down. Stopping right behind me, he lifts his hand and I'm spun around toward him. My chest heaves and I'm thankful that I am no longer crying. I'm too shaken and angry for that .
I narrow my eyes as his lips form the word and I try to shove him back, not succeeding even a bit.
"Why,Edward Cullen? You are asking me why? You really have the guts to ask me this question after the stunt you pulled out there."
The fire in his eyes flare but I am on a roll right now. Nothing is going to stop me from saying what I want to...what I need to.
"For the last four days, you have been claiming to own me, claiming to be the only man who would ever touch me and then you are actually suggesting your cousin to go after me. What the hell is wrong with you?"
I'm panting,looking at him with disdain. His right hand grasps a hold of my hair, yanking it back causing my head to tilt back a little but my eyes don't leave him. He comes forward until his lips are just mere inches away from me and his breath softly caressing my lips.
"Why? Because I wanted you to let the fucker know that you belong to me. I wanted you to be the one to tell him to fuck off and not in the polite way you did."
He stops,waiting for an answer, but I have none to give him.
"You should have just told him that you belong to me. I was so proud of you when you told him to stay away from you that I thought about rewarding you."
My breathing becomes heavy as I feel a finger softly creasing my lower lips. What the hell? I hadn't even realized that Edward's hand had made it's way inside my skirt. My hands grip the vanity I have been pushed against,in order to get back my bearings. His fingers, parting my folds have me distracted from my anger and I can feel myself getting aroused.
"But no you had to do ruin it."
I gasp as he inserts three fingers inside me at once but it's not painful. I'm that wet.
"You belong to me Bella."
He informs me while he pumps his fingers in and out of me. Somewhere at the back of my mind, I'm aware of the fact that I need to push him back for some reason. However, the feel of his talented fingers have made it difficult for me to focus.
"You have no idea how much I wanted to break his fucking fingers when he touched what was mine. And that kiss Bella. I would say you have some guts to do that after this weekend."
The memories of the weekend's spanking mixed with what happened this morning gives me power that I didn't think I possessed. I curl my fingers around his wrist and push his fingers out me. I'm as surprised by this as him.
Did I really deny myself an orgasm?
Yes, yes, you did you idiot.
I internally cry out but I'm too hurt by what he did to me, what he let happen. Does he really think of me as property, like I'm not an actual living being? His eyes become slits of green and white and he abruptly removes his hand from my hair. I lean back against the vanity to steady my shaking body. I have to be strong. He can't do with me as he pleases. I am not a thing. I have feelings dammit But all this might sound absurd as I see him walking backward. I can't deny the fact that I love him. I do, but I need to stand my ground.
"I didn't sign on for all this Edward. You never told me about your relationship with Riley, even after being alone with me for the whole weekend. You don't get to walk all over me."
I take deep breaths trying to get my bearings together, readying myself for what I'm about to do.
"I don't want to be with you."
It's a lie. I want nothing more then to be with him but I need to stay away from him, for my own sanity. He will destroy me if I let him. He looks like someone has just told him that he is going to die, horror stricken. And something tells me that death would not be able to faze him. His eyes fill with pain, but only for a moment before afire ignites in them.
"And that baby...find someone else for it."
I have no idea why I said it, I just did. My voice is so calm that I'm worried, there is no trace of the blubbering girl I had seen in the mirror just minutes ago. In her place, there is a confident girl who is telling someone to fuck off. This is so unlike me but for some strange reason I like it. Edward's eyes narrow at me, his eyes commanding me to take back what I just said, but I won't, I can't.
I avert my eyes from his face to his hand and I watch as his hand grips the doorknob, twisting it till it submitted, opening. It's not until the door is open that I lift my eyes toward his face. I wish I hadn't. His eyes have gone blank. at least earlier there was fire in them, but they are nothing but hollow right now.
"I think you are right. I will find someone else to have my baby."
The carefully concealed control that I had on my emotions snap like a twig under the weight of Edward's words and my breathing picks up, but Edward is not waiting for my reaction. He is gone, leaving me to wail in my misery.