Writer's Note: This is something that would not leave my mind. I am not giving up on my other fics, don't worry. RL is still being difficult. Truthfully do not know where this came from. It popped in my head and wouldn't go away. I even dreamed about it. As crazy as it is. It is a short fic. Nothing too long... As always, this fic is Non-Canon/AU

- Takes place after Jacob and Bella kiss just before the fight with the newborns in Eclipse. -


Do Not Own Twilight.

"Love is the beauty of the soul."

- Saint Augustine


Loving the Sun


-The Decision-

Bella was anxious for Jacob to come back to her. She made her decision; she knew who she truly loved all along. It was her sun, her best friend, her light in the darkness - Jacob. It had always been Jacob. She had been too blinded by Edward to figure it out sooner.

When he ran toward the forest, a large part of her soul left with him. She hoped with every fiber of her being for his safety. For him to return to her unharmed. Eventually, she walked away from the side of the mountain top and made her way to the tent where Edward was waiting for her.

He merely had to look at her to know - she was no longer his. Bella gave him a soft, sad smile. She would always care for him, but she no longer maintained the overwhelming need to be near him. He gave her the oversized jacket to keep her warm and alerted her when the battle began.

She waited.

And waited.

All of a sudden Seth's ears perked up; Edward stood in front of her to protect her from a coming threat. The first thing she saw as she peered over Edward's shoulder was the fiery-orange hair - Victoria.

She found them.

Before Bella could react, Edward began to fight Victoria; their hand to hand combat almost evenly matched. They moved faster than her mind could comprehend. Their abilities made them formidable opponents. Seth took down Riley, dragging him away so Bella would not see him destroy the vampire.

Edward was trapped; Victoria pinned him under her and grasped the sides of his head. Bella had to think quickly in order to save him. She found a sharp rock on the ground and sliced her arm. She knew the scent of her blood would distract Victoria long enough for Edward to regain the upper hand. Bella closed her eyes; she did not want to witness the violence in front of her. The crystal clear sound of cracking glass pierced her ears.

She felt a cold hand touch her arm and wrap itself around her wound. She screamed, her eyes shot open, terror filled her until she took notice of the golden orbs looking back at her - Edward. He tore off a piece of his shirt and tied it around her arm to stop her bleeding.

Seth came back a short while later; the sandy colored wolf whined and howled into the air. Bella's heart plummeted and twisted. Something was wrong.

Edward avoided her gaze. He stared intently at Seth as he heard his thoughts. Bella felt a foreign ache, one that was not her own; she fell to her knees. Edward picked her up and ran in the direction Seth hurried off to. She asked him who was injured. Someone was hurt, she could feel it. Who was it? Edward shook his head 'no'. He did not want to be the one to tell her. He didn't want to be the one to destroy her.

She hit him. She yelled, she kicked, she screamed, she cried.

She knew. Deep down inside she knew…

They reached the small clearing in a matter of minutes. Bella jumped out of Edward's arms and ran toward the wolves. They were circled around a large figure splayed out on the grass.

Jacob.

Leah and Paul moved out of her way; she slowly lowered herself to the ground next to her true love, her sun. His eyes were closed, his breathing labored, and she could see how badly his ribs were distorted.

"Carlisle! Help him! Please!" she yelled.

Carlisle stepped forward and put his hand on her shoulder, "I can't Bella. If they move him - his bones… Bella I'm sorry. He doesn't have much longer."

She slapped his hand away from her, "You're lying! Help him! Now damn it!"

Carlisle eased away from her. He understood she was not in her right mind at the moment. He knew the young Alpha had only minutes left. The stray newborn managed to crush his entire torso. His ribs were mangled, piercing organs, and causing him extreme pain. But the young Alpha would not go… not without having one more chance to see Bella. Carlisle watched the scene unfold in front of him. The rest of his family slinked away as well, it felt intrusive for them to be near the wolves while they were so utterly vulnerable.

"Jacob? Jacob! Please. You can't do this to me. You can't leave me." Bella screamed. She didn't want to believe it. She didn't want to accept it. He could not leave her. He was her choice. She wanted to be with him. Why was he being taken away from her?

She felt him stir underneath her. She leaned back, giving him a small amount of space so he was able to move his arms. His eyes opened and she choked back a sob. Those deep, brown eyes that always seemed to look straight into her soul had little light left in them.

He was leaving her.

A ghost of a smile played at his lips. His hand reached up, his fingertips caressed her cheek. His voice was barely above a whisper when he spoke. "Bells... You're here."

The tears flowed freely. She nodded her head and traced the outline of his face. She wanted to cement to memory every single second with him.

He closed his eyes once again and took in a languid, rattled breath. He coughed, crimson stained his lips, "I wanted to take in your scent. One more time. Take it with me."

Her heart felt like it was being violently ripped from her chest. She couldn't do it. She couldn't be brave, and let him leave. She grabbed his hand and kissed his palm. "You can't leave me Jake. I won't let you go. You hear? We're going to get married, have as many kids as you want, and we're going to grow old together. So just stop. Don't talk like we aren't walking out of here together."

He wearily opened his eyes, they locked onto hers, and what happened next angered Bella at the wolf gods. She felt it. The pull, the completion of her soul, and the burn of his misery - he imprinted on her.

Jacob remained in his trance, his gaze never leaving hers. "I knew it was you. It was always you, Bella. It will always be you."

An insurmountable amount of pain surged through her. Jacob gasped and groaned; more blood dripped from his mouth. She could barely understand Sam's far away voice, "He doesn't have much longer."

She shook her head and pressed her lips to Jacob's. They were already cooler. She kissed him over and over, attempting to give him some of her life. When she leaned over once more, he held her still and kissed her back. Her heart began to break as he poured every ounce of love and the last remnants of his strength into the kiss. He was saying goodbye.

She didn't want it to end. She didn't want to pull away from him.

She ran her fingers through his silky black hair. She touched his skin, she held onto the warmth he had left. Please don't take him away. Please don't take him away.

His hands slipped from her face and fell to his sides. She laid down next to him, wrapped her arms around his body, and breathed the woodsy masculine scent that reminded her of home. She closed herself off from everyone who surrounded them.

Jacob's heart stopped beating...


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