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I felt bad for how I behaved this morning while Bella was getting ready. I'm not really sure what happened. One minute I was happy and looking forward to the day, the next I was brooding by the window. I haven't been feeling right since the accident. I have a lot of guilt to deal with but this was different, not to mention that I actually produced tears. When Jake had taken me to the kitchen after my breakdown, he sat me on the counter and with a wet rag wiped my face, cleaning my tears away. He was so worried about me, I could see it in his eyes. "Jake, I'm sorry."
"Claire, stop. I don't want you to say you're sorry again. Everyone has forgiven you for what happened; it's time you forgave yourself." I knew he was right; I couldn't let it consume me and chase away everyone I loved. I still felt I deserved to be alone for all eternity.
I took a deep breath. "Okay, I promise I won't bring it up again. I am sorry that I messed up Bella's morning. I don't know what's wrong with me, Jake. I feel weird." He looked worried and puzzled. Carlisle came over to check on me.
"Claire, how do you feel?"
"Okay, I guess. I feel off, I can't really explain."
"Jake, why don't you take her on a quick hunt? It may not help but it certainly wouldn't hurt."
"Sure, come on, babe." He said as he lifted me off the counter. We hunted and I did feel a little better but still off.
After Bella and Edward left for their cabin, I asked Jake, "Can we go lie down for a little while?" He looked at me puzzled but didn't argue.
"Sure, babe." We said goodnight and went to our room. I changed into some comfy pajamas and climbed under the covers. Jake climbed in behind me and wrapped his arms around me. "Babe, you promised you'd let this go."
I turned to face him. "Jake, I promise you I did let it go. This isn't about that, I just feel bad like I'm sick."
"Sick? How's that possible, Claire? You can't get sick."
"I know but that's the only way I can explain how I'm feeling." I nuzzled my face into his neck. "I'm so tired, Jake." I yawned and closed my eyes. When I opened them again, I was looking into the faces of my family minus Bella and Edward. "Umm. Why are you all in our room?"
"Claire, you've been asleep or something like it for the past eight hours. We were about to go get Bella." Carlisle said.
I sat up. "Asleep? I was just talking to Jake."
"No, babe. You said you were tired, yawned and then passed out. If it wasn't for your breathing, I would have thought you were dead for real."
"What, how's that possible?"
"I'm not sure, Claire. How do you feel now?" Carlisle asked
"I feel fine, well rested actually."
"Okay, if you start feeling tired again, come tell me." I nodded and everyone left the room. Jake sat on the bed beside me.
"You had me worried. Don't do that to me again."
"I'll try not to, I don't know what happened."
"Did you dream?"
"No, I didn't even know I was sleeping. What time is it?"
"Have you eaten?"
"No, we've all been in here watching you. Charlie freaked when he walked past the door and saw us all standing here, stiff as boards."
"Is he okay?" I worried that one day all this crazy would be too much for him.
"Yeah, we told him what was going on. He's fine now that you're awake."
"You should eat, come on." I got up to get dressed. While I was changing, I caught sight of myself in the mirror and froze. "Jake," I said panicked.
"What, are you okay?"
"My shorts won't zip."
"Oh, want some help?" He grinned but stopped as soon as he stepped into the closet and saw my face. His eyes traveled down my body. I was only wearing my panties and shorts. I grabbed my bra and tank top.
"Did you buy the wrong size?" he asked.
"No, Alice bought all the clothes and she doesn't make mistakes. My stomach is swollen. Look!" I said pointing to my belly. I panicked and ran out of the room. Everyone was in the kitchen. I looked at Carlisle and said, "My shorts won't zip."
He laughed and said, "I'm sorry, sweetheart. Maybe Alice got you the wrong size." He chuckled at my panic. I was really tired of everyone laughing at me.
Anger surged through me. "No, they are the right size, my stomach is swollen." Carlisle looked more serious and walked around the kitchen island to see for himself.
"May I?" he asked, pointing to my stomach.
I was really annoyed. "That's why I came to you, Dad." I said sarcastically. He chuckled and pulled my shirt up a little. He pushed around on my belly.
"I don't know, Claire. I've never seen anything like this."
"So, I'm supposed to walk around with my shorts unzipped?"
Emmett snorted and said, "Just walk around in your bikini, like Rose."
"My father is here and I'm not walking around all the time in my underwear." I said annoyed.
"Suit yourself, tubby." That was it, he was going down! If I were human, I would be boiling red with anger.
"That's it!" I yelled as I lunged at him. Jake grabbed me around the waist and before I knew what was happening, I puked all over Emmett and myself. Blood is completely nasty to throw up. Charlie passed out. I guess it's one thing knowing your daughter drinks blood, but it's a whole different ballgame to see confirmation.
"What the hell!" Emmett yelled as Jake dropped me, and I crumpled to the floor.
Carlisle was by my side in an instant. "Claire, are you okay?"
"I don't know. I think I'm okay to go shower and change though."
"Okay. Jake, stay with her please." He nodded and picked me up. He carried me to the bathroom and took my clothes off, then helped me into the shower. He threw my ruined clothes in the trash. He stepped in behind me and grabbed the body wash and washed me from head to toe, not saying a word. I just stood there completely still only moving when he tapped or turned me.
I smelled something. "What's that smell?"
"Smells like bacon and eggs. Stuff like that."
Oh, I should have known that. I was really off. What's wrong with me? "Jake, I'm scared. What's wrong with me?" Before answering, he wrapped me in a fluffy towel. He picked me up and carried me to the bed, then disappeared into our closet. He came out with a bikini and some stretchy shorts and a tank top.
"I don't know what's wrong, honey. But we'll figure it out together." I nodded as we walked to the kitchen. I sat beside Jake and leaned my head on his shoulder. Esme put a huge plate of bacon, sausage, pancakes, scrambled eggs, toast and juice in front of him." It smelled so good. I watched him intently as he put bite after bite in his mouth. He noticed and stopped eating. "Claire?"
"Can I have a bite?" I asked. He just stared at me but stabbed some eggs and raised the fork to my mouth. I noticed that the family was staring at me, but I didn't care. I wanted those eggs. I opened my mouth and he put them in, I chewed and swallowed. Everyone was still gaping at me.
I shrugged and said, "Esme, can I have some?" She looked at me worriedly but scooped some on a plate and handed it to me with a fork. I ate the entire plate, then reached over to Jake's plate and grabbed a piece of bacon and his juice. I set the glass back down and looked around; everyone was still staring at me.
"What?" I asked. Carlisle was the only one to speak.
"Claire, you just ate human food. It's not something a vampire does; it's just surprising. How do you feel?"
"I feel good actually; better than I've felt since we've been here." I answered.
"Can you feel the food in your stomach?"
"No, I can feel it moving down actually." I gasped and grabbed my stomach.
"What? What's wrong?" Jake asked.
"I don't know, my stomach feels weird."
Carlisle reached over and placed his hand on my belly. "Impossible," he said.
"What? What's impossible?" I asked panicked. It happened again; a fluttering feeling. Carlisle dropped to his knees and pressed his ear to my belly.
"Sweetheart, what is it? Is she okay?" Esme asked. He slowly stood up and took my hands in his.
"I don't know how this has happened, Claire, but I think you're pregnant." I fainted. I came too with the sounds of Rosalie yelling. "That's fucking insane. I've wanted a baby my entire life!"
"Claire, are you okay?" It was Jacob. I looked up at him, he looked so pale.
"Yeah, I think. What happened?" I asked.
"Well you, Jacob, and Charlie passed out." Carlisle explained.
"Dad, are you okay?"
"Yeah, sweetheart, I just wasn't ready for that one."
"Me either, believe me. Carlisle, what's going to happen?"
"Well, I'm not exactly sure. This is completely unheard of and it appears that you are developing at a high rate. You look two or three months along, not weeks. Since you don't have a menstrual cycle, it's hard to pinpoint a conception date."
"We'll, I think I can. Jake and I haven't had sex since Friday, and before that right before the accident." I tried not to look at my dad but he was glaring at Jacob, so it was kind of hard not to look at him.
"Well, that is helpful. I'd say if the pattern holds true, you'll be giving birth next weekend."
I just stared at him. I heard a loud thud. I turned around, both Jake and dad passed out again. I probably should check to see if they are okay, but I couldn't. I just turned back to Carlisle.
"How is this possible, what is it?"
"My guess is that it's a baby; half you and half Jacob."
"What? So it's going to come out looking like a puppy baby?" I sobbed.
"No, I think it's going to come out looking like a baby. Jacob's werewolf gene came out in adolescence. I'd say the same would apply here if your child gets that gene. Seeing that you are craving human food makes me think that he or she is more human than vampire."
"Oh," was all I could think to say. Jake sat up and wrapped his arms around me. We were all still sitting on the floor where we had fallen. I felt it again; the flutter. I grabbed Jake's hand and held it to my belly, turning in his arms to look in his eyes. "Do you feel that?"
"Yeah," he said hoarsely. "That's our baby." He slowly smiled and leaned in to kiss me softly on the lips. He picked me up and carried me to our room for privacy.
"Claire, are you really okay?"
"Yeah, I'm shocked of course but I'm really happy. I never thought I would be able to give you a child, Jake. I really want this baby to be okay. I'm terrified that it will be some kind of a monster."
"Anything that is part of you will never be a monster, sweetheart."
"I am a monster, Jake." He sighed and held me tighter.
"Claire, we've talked about this. It was a mistake; that doesn't make you a monster."
"You're not worried that the baby will not be a baby?"
"No, it will be exactly that; a baby, half you and half me. If I'm lucky, he'll have your green eyes." He smiled as he ran his hand through my hair. My eyes started to drift close. "Sleep, love," he cooed. I felt the heaviness of sleep falling on me. It was weird feeling this as a vampire. I woke up feeling very disoriented. I looked all over for Jake but he wasn't in the room. I tried to listen to see if I could hear anything but no one was in the house. I sat up slowly and my hand hit something crunchy. It was a note from Jake.
I went with Carlisle to the mainland to get supplies for you. There's a bottle of blood in the warmer in the kitchen. Carlisle wants you to drink it. Your dad is fishing on the yacht with Emmett. I'll be back soon. I love you both.
I stood up feeling very stiff. This is so odd, vampires do not feel stiff. How could this change my body? I'm made of stone. I looked down and couldn't believe my eyes; my stomach is even bigger. I went to the kitchen and found the bottle of blood, then headed out to the yacht. It was a few hundred yards from the dock. I took off my shorts and tank and threw them on the dock, and then I dove into the water. It felt wonderful; it was so warm it made me feel human. I reached the yacht in no time and climbed aboard.
"Claire," my dad said in surprise.
"Hey ya, Dad. How's the fishing going?" He just stared at me till I was feeling really uncomfortable and exposed. He was staring at my belly. "Dad, are you okay?"
"Claire, are you okay? You've gotten bigger since this morning."
"Yeah, I noticed. Is Esme here?" I asked, knowing she was below but I felt like Charlie didn't need any more weirdness.
She was at my side in an instant. "Claire, oh dear, we better call Carlisle. How do you feel, honey?"
"I feel fine, slept like a log. I'm hungry, is there any food on board?"
"Yes, come on, I'll fix you something to eat." She called Carlisle as she was cooking. He said they were on the way back to the island. They arrived minutes later.
"Claire, I'm sorry I wasn't there when you woke up." Jacob said as he rushed to me.
"It's okay, sweetheart. I'm fine; I'm just waiting on some food." I smiled sweetly to my love.
"Jacob, would you like something?" Esme asked.
"Sure, whatever she's having is fine."
"Claire, did you drink the blood yet?" Carlisle asked.
"No, it's here. I'm having a hard time since puking the stuff up earlier."
"I understand, but you should try a little at least," he pressed.
"Okay," I said with a sigh and opened the bottle. I was prepared to be completely grossed out but I wasn't. It smelled so good, I drank it down quickly. Carlisle came over and measured my belly.
"You're three inches bigger than this morning. I think the baby may get here faster than what I originally figured."
I stopped breathing and stared at Jake. He smiled with pride. I tried to relax but I couldn't. I was too worried about what is growing inside of me. I loved whatever it is, unconditionally, but I still worried for its safety and the safety of others. The rest of the week went the same way; I ate human food and drank animal blood at least once a day. For some reason, blood is not sustaining me like it should. I didn't eat food as much as a human, but still, any is more than a normal vampire. We still haven't told Edward and Bella. I wanted them to have enough time to be a normal newlywed couple. By the following Sunday, I was looking like a six months pregnant woman. Everyone was super excited. They wouldn't let me lift a finger, well, except Rose. She stayed at her and Emmett's house; she refused to come near me. I couldn't blame her, but it did hurt my feelings.
"How's Rose?" I asked Emmett on Sunday evening after watching him beat Jake at a video game.
"She'll come around, but for now, she's still pretty upset." I nodded softly. Dad sat beside me and put his arm around my shoulder.
"How's my grandbaby?" I smiled at him and leaned my head on his shoulder. He has really come to terms with all this weirdness.
"Fine, I think asleep." He smiled and rubbed my belly just as the baby stretched. We could see a tiny perfect footprint impression protruding out of my stomach. I gasped. Alice always ready with the camera took a ton of pictures while tears streamed down my face. I was so relieved to see a human foot. I was terrified it would be a puppy. "It's not a puppy." I sobbed and turned to my dad's shoulder. He wrapped his arms around me as everyone chuckled.
"Of course it's not a puppy. It will be perfect just like you, sweetheart," Charlie said very sincerely. Charlie let go and was replaced by Jake, who picked me up and carried me to our room. He did this anytime I started to cry, which seemed like constant thing.
"Claire, have you been thinking this whole time that our baby would look like a wolf?" I nodded and he chuckled quietly.
"It's not funny. I worry about it all the time. I still do. What if it's like a half horse - half human things? But instead of a horse, it will be a wolf."
"Sweetheart, I don't think that will happen. We aren't born wolves. It only happens during puberty. So, maybe if our baby is a boy; we'll have to worry about that when he's a teenager. No reason you should worry about it now. "
"Leah is a girl, I can't help but worry. I'll try if you're sure it will look like a baby."
"I'm positive, and Leah is a wolf because she's barren." I sighed in relief and hugged him tightly.
"Do you want a girl or a boy?"
"It doesn't matter as long as it's healthy. But I think I'd like to have a girl with your green eyes."
"That would be nice, but I don't have green eyes anymore."
"You never know," he said.
"What about names?"
"Whatever you pick is fine, sweetheart."
"Well, I was thinking if it's a girl. I'd like to give her my mom's name. Maybe Penelope Renee, call her Penny for short, like my mom.
"That sounds great," he said as he stroked my hair again. We were sitting on our bed, Jake against the headboard and my back to his chest.
"For a boy, I was thinking a combination of your and Charlie's name. Maybe Jacob Charles."
"I really don't want to name a kid after me, babe."
"We'll decide later. I really think it's a girl anyway." We sat there in comfortable silence. I heard him drift off to sleep. I lightly got up and left the room. I was having a mad craving for human food.
"Claire, would you like something to eat?" Esme asked me.
"Yes, please. This is so incredibly strange. Has Carlisle found anything out?"
"No, dear, but if something is out there to find, he will." I nodded and hopped up on the stool in front of the island. I heard his thought's before his scent.
"Edward and Bella are on their way here. I bet they're gonna be surprised." We both laughed.
"Surprised about what?" Bella asked. I stood and walked around the counter, Bella's mouth fell open. Edward thoughts completely stopped.
I laughed at his expression. "At least you didn't faint. Jake, dad and I all fainted."
"How could you faint? You're a vampire."
"Well, this pregnancy had proved that not much applies to me at the moment. Like food, for example, that's for me." I got back up on the stool and started eating the spaghetti Esme had fixed.
"Thanks, Mom, this is wonderful. Do you have garlic bread? Wait, garlic doesn't hurt us right?" She laughed at me.
"No, sweetheart, it doesn't; here you go." Bella finally collected herself and walked over to me and put her hand on my belly.
"Wow, really you're having a baby?"
"Yes, and we found out this afternoon that it's not a puppy." Edward snorted in laughter.
"Did you really think it might be?" Bella asked with worry in her eyes.
"Yes, but no one else did. We saw its foot imprint on my belly today. Alice took tons of pictures."
"Here they are," Esme said as she handed Bella the camera. Bella flipped quickly through all the photos Alice had taken over the week.
"Oh my God, Claire. How in the world are you getting so big so fast? Is this you sleeping?"
I chuckled. "I don't know how it's growing so quickly and yes I'm really sleeping. I sleep about three hours a day, and eat a couple times a day, and have a thermos of blood every day. Emmett, Jasper, and Alice are out hunting for me right now. Enough about me, why are you guys here? How's the honeymoon?"
"The honeymoon is wonderful. We just came by to see everyone. We missed you guys."
"We missed you too. Emmett wanted to go spy on you guys, but Carlisle has prohibited him from doing so. I've been playing devil's advocate, because his punishment is pretty bad if he goes through with it. I think it would be hilarious. He deserves it, he calls me tubby now." Bella smiled.
"What's the punishment?" she asked.
"Cleaning the hospital bathrooms for a month, and going back to high school while everyone else goes to college, but that's conditional on if we go to college. If we decide to take a break, then he'll be the only one at school. He'll only be able to miss because of weather, no cutting."
"Wow, Carlisle came up with that?"
"Yep, he was really stern too, even in his thoughts."
"Did you hear that?" Edward asked. I listened then I heard a faint noise that I couldn't quite make out. I listen harder. "Waaaa waaaa"
"Edward, what is that?"
"Claire, I think your baby is crying?"
"Crying, why is something wrong with her?" I panicked. Carlisle came through the door right at that moment and picked up on my distress. He was by my side in an instant feeling my belly.
"What's wrong, sweetheart?"
"Edward thinks the baby is crying. It sounds like crying." Carlisle put his ear to my belly and smiled.
"Babies experience everything inside the womb that they do outside. I think it is crying, but it doesn't mean anything is wrong." I relaxed as he explained.
"Edward, can you hear the baby's thoughts?" He paused for a minute then shook his head. "Maybe you're not far enough along for the baby to have coherent thoughts."
"True, I can't either, I was just wondering. Well, I hate to break this party short folks, but I need a nap. I've been sleeping a lot more today. Do you think it means anything, Carlisle?"
"No, the baby is getting bigger. Maybe sleep helps the little guy grow." I just shrugged. I was going to enjoy the sleep while it lasted.
"Night, guys. Are you going to be coming around more?"
"Yes, now that we know. When's the due date?"
"Based on her progress so far, I think Wednesday or Thursday."
"Wow! I'm so excited, I'm going to be and aunt. Can you believe it, Edward?" He smiled at her but I could hear the sadness in his thoughts. I responded to him with my thoughts, "I'm really sorry, Edward. I wish there were some way for the two of you." He smiled again and said, "I'm happy for you guys, Claire. I'm excited about being an uncle." I smiled and wished them good night, went to bed and curled up next to my sexy man.
I woke up a few hours later in extreme pain. I screamed Jake awake.
"Babe, what's wrong?" Jake asked panicked but I couldn't answer. Carlisle was in our room in a split second followed by Emmett, Alice, Jasper, Esme, Bella and Edward.
"I think the baby is coming," I panted. It felt like I was being ripped in two. Carlisle pulled back the blankets to see the bed was soaked.
"It looks like your water has broken. Esme, go get towels and blankets. Alice, I need my medical bag. Emmett and Jasper, please get the supplies I put in my office." They were all gone in a flash.
All the commotion woke Charlie up. "What's going on? Is Claire okay?"
"Yeah, Dad. She's having the baby." Bella answered him.
I screamed again. "It hurts, it hurts."
"I know, babe, just hang on. I love you," Jacob reassured me. I just glared at him because he is the reason I am in this predicament. I was perfectly fine with never having children.
"Shut the hell up, Jacob Black. This is all your fault!" I yelled at him. I immediately felt bad when his face crumpled; he looked like a sad puppy. I couldn't take back what I said; I was in too much pain.
"Carlisle, how much longer? I can't take this much longer," I ask breathing deeply.
"I can see the head, Claire, just a little longer. At the next contraction, I want you to push."
"Okay," I grunted.
Bella came and sat by my other side. "You can do this, Claire. You're doing great and when it's all over, you'll get to hold your beautiful baby." I nodded but didn't say anything. Jake was sitting on the bed, but not touching me. He looked so nervous.
Carlisle looked up at him and smiled. "Jake, it's going to be fine. All mothers yell at the fathers, they forgive them after the baby is born." He gave a nervous laugh and relaxed a little.
"I'm sorry, Jake." I couldn't handle his sad puppy face any more. "Hold my hand please."
"Sure, babe." He leaned down and kissed my forehead sweetly. When I felt pain again, I pushed.
"Good, Claire, keep pushing. The baby is almost out." I used every bit of strength I had and pushed down hard. The sound of a baby's cry was the best sound in the world to my ears. "It's a girl!" Everyone just stood there staring at her as Carlisle got her cleaned up a little.
"Can I hold her?" I whispered, and then was hit with pain as bad as my change. I let out an extremely loud scream and everything went black.