Hey guys! i am so sorry i have not updated in forever! i feel so terrible! i was busy with school,then i graduated and now i've been looking for a job. but here's the next chapter! i hope u gusy don't hate me and are sill with me lol anyways i don't own anything Stephenie Meyer does!
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Ch. 30 Talk Pt. 2
I knew Edward was freaking out as I drove away, I saw it in his expression as I told him I was leaving. I wish he didn't worry so much. I had already told him everything would be fine, but I guess since my visions are subjected he wasn't reassured.
As I drove to Bella's how I tried seeing how Bella was doing. I could see her sitting in bed, looking absently down at her hands with tears in her eyes. It broke my heart to see her like that. I cared deeply for Bella. She had become my best friend in such a short time, but I already considered Bella as my sister since I knew that Bella would always be part of our family, although Edward refused to turn her into a vampire and end her life. He didn't take in fact that Bella would want this life later on. Right now Bella still had so much to deal with. She had to find herself, mature and stop being a stripper and actually get an education for her to realize that she wanted this life as a vampire.
I looked ahead into the future everyday trying to see if that time would come soon but it still seemed far away. Her future would scare me at times because her future sometimes would become blurry because of uncertainty or someone else's and it bothered me not knowing. Also the fact that she was human made it slightly harder for me to see her future.
As I parked outside her house I could hear her sniffling and Vivian and Anne persuading her to eat and trying to get her to talk.
"Bella what happened? Did you and Edward fight?" Asked Vivian worriedly.
"Did what happen with Riley bring back memories?" Anne asked her in a cautious tone.
She didn't answer but I guess she nodded.
"Oh Bella! I am so sorry that you have had to go through so much in your life. You deserve happiness and to move on from the past but it's kind of hard when you know they are still alive and could find you." Anne said in a heartbroken voice.
I'm glad that Bella had these loving sisters that cared for her. As I walked up to the house I wondered what memories they were talking about that put Bella in this state. I would try and find out.
I rang the doorbell to their house and I heard the all freeze upstairs. I knew it was Bella's heart that started beating rapidly and also her breathing. She thought it was Edward.
"I'll go get it." Anne said.
"Anne, if it's Edward please tell him I'm not too sure if I'm ready to see him. Although I'm sure he already heard. Tell him I'm sorry but I need more time to think." she said her voice breaking into a sob.
"But Bella you need to talk to him…" Vivian started to say but Bella cut her off.
"I know I do… but I'm not ready yet..." She said as she continued to sob.
It was breaking my heart to hear her so heartbroken. This talk with her was going to be harder and was going to be longer than I imagined.
Anne opened the door and seemed surprised to see me.
"Oh! Hi Alice! How are you? Come in." she said smiling at me slightly as she closed the door behind us.
I guess the whole Bella thing had her really sad.
"I'm doing fine thank you. How about you?" I asked.
She sighed, "Fine I guess. So I'm guessing you are here to see Bella and talk to her?" she said knowingly.
I nodded, "Yes I am."
"How's Edward doing? She hasn't told us anything but if she is devastated, I'm guessing he's probably the same." She said looking at me expectantly.
I sighed and nodded, "Yeah he is pretty sad and nervous that Bella won't take him back or talk to him again, which is silly of him to even think that after I told him things would be fine." I said getting frustrated remembering Edward's stubbornness.
I swear Bella and him were perfect for each other because they were so similar and great for each other.
"You can go right up and talk to Bella Vivian and I can give you girls some privacy." She said sweetly.
I nodded, "That would be great! Although it's pretty pointless to not tell you girls since you will eventually find out, but I feel that Bella will listen to me better if it's just the two of us."
She nodded in agreement.
I sighed and walked up the stairs where I could hear Vivian trying to convince Bella to tell her what happened.
As I reached Bella's room I could see her eyes were all puffy and red.
I walked to the door and knocked quietly and they both looked up at me.
"A-Alice?" Bella said as broke into another sob.
I rushed to her side and hugged her.
"Shh… it's okay Bella." I said soothingly, smoothing her hair out.
Vivian quietly got up, gave me an encouraging smile and walked out the door and shutting it giving Bella and I some privacy.
I rocked us back and forth trying to calm her down. I could feel my shirt getting socked with her tears.
"Bella what happened?" I whispered.
"Y-you a-already k-know I'm s-sure." She sobbed.
I sighed, "Yes but I want to hear it from you as well."
She took a deep breath trying to calm herself.
"Edward said something that really upset me, so I kicked him out. I do feel bad because he didn't know but I hate that he tried pushing me to tell him something I'm not ready to tell him." she said sounding tired.
I wondered if she had slept at all. First we had to talk then she could sleep.
"Are you willing to talk to him? Because he's pretty devastated much like you are."
"Really?" she asked in a small voice.
I nodded, maybe this is the best way to get her to talk to Edward.
"Yes he's dying to come over but is scared that you don't want him anymore." I said sadly.
"I'm a terrible person." She sobbed.
I hugged her tighter, "No you're not!" I argued.
"Yeah I am! Why am I so mean to him? Ugh! I hate myself! I don't blame him if he doesn't want to talk to me." She said in a weak voice.
"Bella he's dying to talk to you though!" I exclaimed.
"I'm not sure I'm ready to talk to him though. Although I feel terrible, I'm mad at him for trying to push me. He should respect my decisions Alice! I hate that he tries forcing me to do something I don't want!" she said angrily.
I sighed, this was going nowhere.
"I know Bella, but you have to understand him. He loves you and only wants the best for you. He wants to protect you and I know sometimes he's too overprotective but that's just Edward." I tried explaining.
She stayed quiet and I looked down to see her with her eyes droopy.
"Bella did you sleep last night?" I asked remembering the fact that she looked tired.
"Yes…" she started to lie but I stopped her.
"Bella…" I pressed.
"Fine! I barely did, like two or three hours." She answered exasperated.
"You should sleep and get some rest so you can think clearly." I said.
"But…" She started to protest but I stopped her once again.
"No buts! You need to sleep. Please?" I said begging her in a sweet tone.
"Ugh! Fine! Are you staying?" she asked.
"If you want me to I will." I answered.
"I want you here." She answered with a yawn.
I chuckled, "Then I'm not leaving. Sleep then." I commanded as she settled back into bed and closed her eyes.
"Thanks Alice, you're a great friend." She mumbled.
After five minutes she fell asleep. I slowly got out of bed and decided to call Edward before he died of a heart attack.
I dialed his number and he answered on the first ring.
"Alice?" he said anxiously.
"Hey Edward! Everything is fine, don't worry. She's sleeping right now, she hadn't slept much the day before so I made her sleep so she can think clearly later." I told him.
He sighed, "I feel terrible because it's my fault she didn't get any sleep."
"Edward! Don't say that!" I said getting angry.
"But it's true!" he defended.
"So…what did she tell you?" he asked carefully.
"Well she feels bad that you're suffering because of her. Though at the same time she's mad at you because you tried pushing her to tell you something she isn't ready to talk about. Before you ask, no I don't know what it is." I said.
"Ugh! It frustrates me not knowing! And I hate myself for pushing her. I should have respected her decision of not telling me. Tell her when she waked up to not worry about me. I'm fine."
"Edward you should come right now, so when she wakes up you're here." I suggested.
"Do you think that's a good idea? I don't think that's fair for her to not give her a heads up."
I tried looking ahead to see how Bella would respond if he came without a heads up and if we did that she would be really mad and would kick him out again. So his idea was better.
"Yeah you're right." I said after a while.
Two hours later Bella woke up. During those two hours I had gone down to talk to Anne and Vivian and explained them the situation. I kept looking in Bella's future to make sure when she would wake up so I could be there when she did.
When she opened her eyes and looked at me, she looked relieved but at the same time she seems disappointed. I guess at the same time she was hoping Edward was here.
"Hey sleepyhead." I said teasingly.
She chuckled slightly, "Hey…What time is it?" She asked groggily.
"Um it's almost one in the afternoon." I answered.
"Ugh!" she groaned stretching out, "I should probably get up."
I needed to ask her if she was ready to talk to Edward, although I already knew her answer.
"Hey Bella?" I asked hesitantly.
"Yeah?" she answered looking up at me.
"Are you ready to see Edward? He's dying to talk to you and see you." I said carefully.
She took a deep breath and was quiet for a while. Thinking about what she wanted to do.
"I guess I better get this over and done with, so yeah I guess I'll be ready as I'll get." She answered.
I smiled happy that both her and Edward were gonna be able to finally talk and get this fixed.
I quickly dialed Edward's number and again he answered at the first ring, "Alice? Is she ready for me?" He asked nervously.
"Yeah she is." I smiled smiling.
I heard him sigh in relief, "Finally" He murmured more to himself than me. He was so impatient.
"Ok then see you." I said before I hung up and looked over at Bella who looking like a mess, with her hair looking like a haystack and her eyes all puffy.
"Bella, you should clean up before Edward comes or else he will freak out if he sees you like this. Go wash your face and I'll do the rest." I commanded.
She walked to her bathroom without a complaint. I should text Edward and tell him to take a little longer because knowing him he's probably already halfway here.
Take a little longer getting here; I need to get Bella cleaned up. – A
*Sigh* Fine, but you better do it fast; I'm dying to see her. –E
Don't worry, I'll try not to ;) – A
I guess her got mad because he didn't answer back, which made me giggle.
I quickly got up and looked through Bella's closet and picked up a white tank top, a green cardigan, and some black jeans and a pair of green low cut converse. She was lucky I didn't make her wear some heels or flats. She's lucky I knew that Edward was taking her too the meadow. I could make her wear heels since Edward would be carrying her but I didn't want them to get ruined.
When Bella came out I shoved the clothes at her and made her get changed once she did I told her to sit on her bed as I brushed her hair and put it in a ponytail since it was impossible at the moment. I also put a little makeup, so her eyes didn't look so puffy, also to cover her bags. She complained the whole time.
"Alice I don't need to get dressed up, we are just gonna talk." She protested.
"Bella you need to show him you are a strong women." I said hopefully she would be happy with my answer.
I didn't want to tell her that Edward was taking her to the meadow. That was going to be a surprise for her, plus Edward didn't even know himself that he was taking her to the meadow yet. He would once he got here.
"Okay I'm done." I told her as I put the final touches.
"Finally!" she said relieved.
"You know it hurts me that you don't like this. I sometimes think its me." I said teasingly.
I guess she didn't notice I was teasing, "Alice that's not it! I just hate being Barbie Bella! You know that!" she defended.
I laughed, "I know I was messing with you."
I guess Edward had gotten impatient because I heard his car coming around the corner.
"Alice, you had me believing that I hurt your feelings! You suck!" She
yelled, throwing her pillow at me but missed when I moved out of the
"You should know better than throw something at a vampire. You know
we have ninja skills." I said teasingly.
She laughed, "That's true."
"Okay so Edward is here. I should get going and give you too some
privacy." I said putting all the stuff I used away.
I heard her heart beat faster, and when I looked up her eyes were wide
And she looked scared.
"Bella, what's wrong?" I asked concerned.
"I'm just nervous. I don't know what to do. I wish you didn't have to
leave because what if I need you?" she said panicked.
"Bella if you need me I'll be here so fast that you didn't have time to
wait for me." I assured her.
She nodded reluctantly. I grabbed her and hugged her tightly to me; of
course not so much that I was crushing her.
I walked out her room saw the girls and told them to come with me. I
wanted Edward and Bella to be by themselves.
We were walking out the door as Edward was just arriving at the door.
I gave him a sympathetic smile, "Good luck and remember to be patient with her." I told him seriously.
"You better not hurt her again Edward or you will regret it. I know I can't do anything but I can find a way." Vivian threatened.
He nodded, "Don't worry I won't." he promised.
Then Anne said, "I'm sure you guys will fix this, don't worry Edward. Bella is a very special girl who's been through a lot she just needs a lot of patience, love and understanding." She said smiling slightly.
Edward nodded but furrowed his brows slightly. I guess she was thinking of something that wasn't good.
"We'll see you later Edward." I said waving goodbye at him as he entered the house.
As he walked inside I looked at the girls excitedly, "So who wants to go shopping?"
I slowly shut the door behind me and made my way slowly up to Bella's room. I was so nervous to see her since I didn't know how she would react. What if we got into another fight and she kicked me out again?
I heard Bella sob slightly which made my non-beating heart ache.
I slowly made my way toward her door where she came into view. My heart started aching even worst. She was really pale, her eyes were red and she had bags under her eyes. This was my entire fault, I had caused this! I hated myself so much at this moment.
I guess Bella heard me because her head shot up and her eyes met mine.
Her heart started to beat faster. "Edward…"she croaked.
I smiled slightly, "Hey." I said standing at the door.
"How are you?" she said after a minute.
"I could be better." I answered honestly.
She grinned slightly, "I know what you mean." She said so softly.
I sighed and slowly made my way over to her. I sat on the other side of her and crossed my arms and legs.
We were quiet for what seemed like eternity, both of us waiting for the other to speak. I needed to say something before I went mad.
"Bella… I'm so sorry I upset you yesterday. I feel so terrible." I said looking down at my hands for a second then looking up at her.
She started shaking her head and saw tears forming in her eyes again. My heart clenched, was she not gonna take me back?
"Edward…you really pissed me off yesterday and hurt me. I know it's kind of my fault for not just telling you what's going on with me, but you have to understand there are something I'm not ready to tell you about…"
I sighed, "I know Bella, and I feel like a total ass for not respecting your decision. It's just you know how hard it is for me not knowing what you're thinking when I'm so used to hearing everyone else's thoughts. You need to understand though that I need to know what's going on with you so I can help you out if I can, but also because I want to know everything about you."
She sighed, "I know...Edward I forgive you but I also want to apologize to you as well. I need to remember we are in a relationship and that in relationships you need to be honest to each other to make it work. I'm not used to this Edward. I know I've told you this a lot but I need you to be patient with me."
Alice's words were now being spoken by Bella. I knew they were both right. I needed to be patient and it's a good thing I've lived 109 years because I've learned all about being patient, but all these new emotions that I'm experiencing make it harder.
"Thank you so much for forgiving me and I accept your apology as well. I promise I will try to be better at this relationship business too. You aren't the only clueless one when it comes to relationships you know."
I said teasingly putting my arms around her.
She laid on my chest and smiled, "I know."
"I'm glad we had this talk." I said smiling kissing her hair.
She chuckled and snuggled more into my chest, "I know me too."
Our relationship wasn't perfect so far we had a lot of things to learn about each other and talk about but I will work on making this relationship perfect or close to it…
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