Season 7 - Episode 24 - "Run" - Living A Lie
JJ couldn't believe that Rossi had done all of this.
And she couldn't believe that she had just gone through with it.
When she had asked Will to ask her again, and then had said yes, only an hour later she had been regretting it. She had still been in shock and had been desperate for an affirmation of love, and she'd done the one thing she could think of to hold onto the illusion.
Yes, she loved Will…but not enough to marry him.
And now it was too late.
She danced with him most of the evening, the entire time keeping her eyes away from Hotch. The true love of her life.
He had brought Beth with him, but every profiler there could see that he was holding back with her, that the smile he gave her never truly reached his eyes…that Beth was nothing but a temporary emotional crutch until he moved on.
But only he and JJ knew the truth.
He had already moved on.
With Jennifer Jareau.
As soon as she was able to, she pulled away from Will and said she had to go inside and use the bathroom, and ran into Rossi's mansion and bolted upstairs to a room and began to cry.
What the hell was she going to do? How was she going to tell Will that it had all been a huge mistake? That she couldn't be married to him?
She had learned to fake it over the years, but of course, Aaron Hotchner was the only one who wasn't fooled by her forced casual smiles or her awkwardly flirtatious manner whenever she was around La Montagne.
She heard footsteps on the stairs, and she quickly brushed the back of her hand across her eyes, and stood…
…and was shocked as she saw Hotch enter the room.
He gave her a look.
They stood there for a moment…and then it was broken as they seemed to move at the same time and reached for the other.
Their mouths merged, and JJ couldn't help but let out a small moan of pleasure as his hands slid up her bare arms, over her shoulders, and his fingers wound themselves in her hair. She was in what was easily the most bittersweet moment she'd ever been in.
Yes, she was kissing the man that she loved…but she was now married to the one person she didn't truly love.
She cared for Will enough, but her heart had been taken by Aaron Hotchner ever since Prentiss had supposedly "died".
While the two of them had shared that secret, they had found solace in the other.
They had found love.
As he slowly pulled back from the kiss, Aaron could hardly believe what all had happened. She was married and still wearing her wedding dress, for god's sake! But he found that some part of him simply didn't care, and wanted nothing more than to lay the woman in front of him down on the floor and make sweet to love her all night.
He reigned in his impulses, and pressed a soft kiss to her forehead, lowering his hands to her neck.
"Aaron…what are we going to do?"
He shook his head, not knowing what to say. Suddenly, JJ's eyes bolted open and she pulled back.
"Wait, what did you tell them when you came into the house?"
He gave her a soft smile, brushing a lock of hair back from her face. "I told Rossi that I needed some time alone, and then asked him to keep Beth distracted for the time being."
JJ gave him a look, arching an eyebrow.
"And he didn't ask any questions?" Hotch shook his head. "That's a first."
Her hands moved up to his, where they rested on her neck, and she let out a deep sigh. He could feel the tension that had collected along the muscle, and he gently kneaded it with his fingertips, trying to ease the ache.
However, she slowly pulled back and sat down on the small couch in the room that they'd hidden away in.
"Aaron…I really screwed things up. I mean, I really screwed things up. I never wanted to marry Will, and I know that I would never want to in the future, and yet here I sit as a married woman."
He knelt down so that he could meet her eyes, and gently grasped her hand.
"I know, JJ…I know. I'm here for you, you know that, right?"
She nodded, but then tears filled her eyes and he found himself sitting on the couch next to her, grasping one of her hands in his, her head resting on his shoulder. He couldn't help but admire the dress that she wore; it was absolutely elegant and perfect for her in every way.
"I like your dress…"
She gave a hiccupped laugh. "Yeah. I thought…well, I thought that I would wear this for you, one day. But now…"
He squeezed her hand tightly, and slowly stood, bringing her with him.
"JJ, you probably need to get back."
She nodded, but held fast to his hand as he tried to leave the room. He gave her a confused look, wondering why she hadn't let go.
Her voice was barely a whisper when she spoke.
"Aaron…run away with me."
He looked at her in shock, not quite believing what he had just heard, but she ignored his look and pulled him back towards her, wrapping her arms around his neck and pinning him with a deep and serious stare.
"I mean it, Aaron…run away with me."
He still didn't quite believe her, but then he heard a faint clink on the floor behind him, and she slid her hands to his chest.
He looked down at her left hand to see…nothing.
"JJ," he began to protest. "I've got Jack-"
"And I've got Henry, I know, Aaron, but they're both safe here for now. They couldn't be in better hands. Just…just come away with me long enough for me to get it annulled, and then… Well, then who knows?"
He looked at her as though he had never seen her before in his life, and she gave him a soft smile.
"Aaron, for once in my life I want to be selfish…I want us to have what we want, not what other people want for us."
At that he smiled.
He leaned in and gave her a soft kiss, slowly pulling back and placing his forehead against hers.
A.N. - I felt the need to write this as I was furious for the last fifteen minutes of the show! Yes, I know I'm evil because I wanted Will to die, but it would have set it up perfectly for Hotch to pull away from Beth and begin to support JJ and then for the two of them to fall in love! AAARRRRGGHHHH! (I was making that noise for the entire last part of the finale) Now, I know that they would never really run away together, but I was writing for comfort, so this is what came out...love it, hate it, don't care, just review it! Love to all of my readers and reviewers!