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Carlisle convinced Charlie that it was best Bella stay with us for the night, so he could be sure that she was okay. He reluctantly agreed, but the way Bella was clinging to me really made up his mind. She refused to go to bed so that we could finish our conversation with Rachael. I knew she would fall asleep. If I was honest with myself, I'd rather hold her in my arms than have her in my room while I'm downstairs with everyone. So, I settled on the couch with her curled up on my lap, and wrapped in one of Esme's quilts. She sighed contently and snuggled in closer. I kissed every inch of her face I could reach, which granted me one of her beautiful giggles. "Sleep, love, I will not let you go."
"I'm not sleepy, Edward. I'm part of this family, so just have your conversation. I'm a big girl, I can handle it."
"I know you can, that is what worries me, love. You shouldn't have to be exposed to this life. I know there's nothing I can do about that now, but I'd still like to keep you away from it as much as possible," I tell her softly.
"But tonight you're not going to; you're going to let me stay down here with everyone," Bella says in a commanding tone.
"Yes, love. Unfortunately, I am." I sighed heavily. She stroked my cheek with her tiny hand, instantly calming me. I love the effect she has over me at times. Sometimes it gets me into situations I'm not the least bit comfortable in, like now. Rachael comes down the steps with Ben to begin the discussion of what's happened to her since she left.
"If everyone will settle down, we'll begin," Carlisle calls everyone to order.
"Rachael, I'd like for you to start from the time you left and end with tonight. Do you think you can do that?"
"Yes, but will you understand if I don't go into complete detail," she replies.
"Of course, begin when you're ready," Carlisle responds. Rachael breathes in deeply; Ben rubs her back with one hand and holds her hand with the other. She smiles lovingly at him, and then begins.
"Well, when we left after school that day, we went straight to our home in Russia. Elliot didn't speak to either of us the whole trip. As soon as we arrived, he sent Ben to hunt. He didn't want to leave me, but Elliot promised him that I would be safe. I believe that he used compulsion against Ben, which in itself is amazing, since he got that power from Ben. Anyway, after Ben left, he told me to go to my room. In this house, my bedroom is actually in the basement, and like all the houses, this basement is complete with his arsenal of torture devices. Ben came home later. I could hear them arguing, but not what was being said. I lost track of the days. I was in the basement alone. The day that Emmett and Jasper rescued us was the day that things were at their worst. Elliot had left me down there with no food or contact, up until that day. He beat and raped me multiply times. Ben came home during one of his beatings. Elliot was so angry that he left, and that's how we escaped." Rachael looked down at her hands, twirling the ring on her finger.
"Ben, what did you say to Elliot that made him leave?" Carlisle asked.
"I didn't really say anything. He kept me under compulsion for the most part. He was angry with himself and shouting at Christina and me, then ran out of the house. I think the power was finally getting to be more than he could handle."
"That was my doing, really," Rachael said quietly.
"How was it your doing?" I asked.
"Well because, before we left, Carlisle had given me all those doses of venom. My power was strong, not strong enough to fight him off physically. But I was healing faster and taking powers from him, then using the powers against him. I was slowly making him crazy, though it didn't really work to my advantage, because the beatings and raping were happening more often." I cringed, I hated that she had to go through all this, but at least now it was over for good.
"How did you kill him?" Bella asked. I had thought she was sleeping.
"I took all his powers, and then turned them all on him at the same time. It was too much, it was like he burned from the inside out, then he exploded into ash."
"Do you still have these powers?" Emmett asked. I could tell by his thoughts he thought it was awesome, and she was a total badass. I had to admit to myself, she did seem pretty badass.
"Yes, I retained them once I had the large dose of venom. It was like; it corrected whatever problem occurred in my change. I don't get as tired now, and can "sleep" for ten minutes and feel completely refreshed. I don't think it cured me of any of my eccentricities, but at least I don't feel so weak anymore."
"Thanks for helping us. We greatly appreciate everything you've all done," Ben said sincerely.
"You're family, that's what family does. No thanks needed, but you are both most welcome. We'd like for you to stay here with us. Of course, if you do not feel comfortable we would understand, but please visit often," Carlisle said.
"Thank you, Carlisle. Ben, can we stay?" Rachael asked with hope filled eyes.
"Of course, sweetheart, as long as you'd like." She squealed excitedly and kissed him. A little too much for my liking, so I did what any good brother would do and I cleared my throat.
"Sorry," she said sheepishly. We all laughed.
I stood with Bella in my arms. "Since we've got that all settled, I think I'm going to take Bella up to bed. Good night everyone."
"Goodnight," everyone called after us.
"Edward, I'm really not sleepy anymore," she said as we entered my bedroom.
"You don't have to sleep, love. I just couldn't have you on my lap, squirming like that anymore." I chuckled.
She blushed. "I'm sorry. I was trying to sit still."
"It's okay. I really didn't mind."
"Oh! You mean … oh my God, Edward. I'm so sorry, you should have told me."
"Love, I really didn't mind, and I couldn't have told you, everyone would have heard." Though technically they all still heard now, but at least she wasn't embarrassed about that.
"Right, so would you like me to help you with that problem?" she asked as she reached for the button on my jeans. She popped it quickly, then following with the zipper. My pants fell to the ground, leaving me completely naked from the waist down.
"Edward, why didn't you tell me?" she asked as she took me in her mouth, effectively cutting off all of my coherent thoughts. It didn't take her long to work me to my release. "Bella, your mouth is heaven. But you know you don't have to do that to me. I don't expect it."
"I know you don't, Edward. But I know you like it, and I like it, so it's a moot point."
"Okay, love." I lay beside her on our bed, and pulled her shirt off her body, leaving her top half bare to me.
"What are you doing?" she asked.
"I love seeing your belly, and your breasts are always a perk." I winked and she laughed.
"You're ridiculous, you know that."
"No, I'm just completely and irrevocably in love with the most beautiful woman on the planet, and she happens to be carrying my child, who is the most wonderful miracle." I bent down and kissed her belly. I pressed my ear to her listening to the baby's heartbeat and sounds of the womb. It was enough to lull me into a trance. After a while, I looked up at Bella who was now sleeping peacefully. I sat up and pulled the blankets around her, and pulled her against my chest.
Months have gone by without a single problem. Bella was getting bigger, and much to her disappointment, was still the talk of the town. The chief of police's daughter and the local surgeon's son, ruining their lives by having a baby. I never really understood how a baby could ruin anyone's life. I'm sure babies come at inconvenient times, but they are always a blessing. Maybe I just think that because I never, in my hundred years, thought I'd have that blessing.
My Bella has been extra cranky lately, which I happily bear the brunt of. I know it's just the hormones, and she is extremely uncomfortable. She reminds me daily that this is all my fault. It is, but I just can't feel that badly about it. Currently we are lying in our meadow, her head is on my thigh and I'm running my fingers through her hair. "What are you thinking?" she asks.
I smile. "Isn't it my job to ask you that?"
"True, you do normally ask me. But here lately, you haven't talked to me very much and I miss your voice." I chuckle lightly with her.
"I'm sorry, love. I just don't know when it is okay to talk to you. I'm scared of you right now, quite frankly."
She laughed. "I'm sorry, Edward, I know I haven't been fair to you. I'm just so miserable, and you are always smiling and happy. I can't stand it half the time." She huffed.
"I'm sorry, love, I really am. I'm so excited for the baby to come. I forget sometimes that you're miserable. What can I do to make you feel better?"
"I don't know, Edward. I just want the baby to be here already."
"I know, baby. You only have four more weeks." She sighed heavily. I was treading on thin ice at the moment.
Bella sat up and pulled at a blade of grass, ripping it to shreds. "Edward, do you still want me or do I disgust you?"
"You will never disgust me. I want you forever, you know that." I pulled her face up so I could see her expressive eyes.
"I'm all huge and fat and have stretch marks! What if they don't go away when I'm changed? I'll be marked up for eternity, you wouldn't like that."
"You are not huge or fat. You're pregnant, and I love the way you look. Having stretch marks is part of being pregnant. But I can assure you that they will not carry over with the change. It heals your skin completely."
"Why are you always so sweet to me? I know you're lying."
"Why do you think I'm lying?" I fought hard to hide my smile. She was just so damn cute.
"Because I have eyes, Edward. I'm a frickin' house and you can't convince me otherwise."
I held her face in between my hands, and kiss her lips softly. "Bella, love, you're beautiful. I love your baby belly, because I know it holds our miracle." She sighed again. "I should get you home, Charlie will be home soon."
"Yeah, I need to make dinner. You have to help me since I can't bend to get stuff out of the oven anymore."
"I'll do more than help. I'll cook dinner, and you can put your feet up and watch TV."
"You don't have to do that, Edward."
"I want to." I scooped her up bridal style, and ran through the woods to my car.
"Is it harder to carry me being this fat?"
"You're not fat, and it's no different than before you were pregnant. You still seem light as a feather to me."
"That's good because, I don't think a regular man could carry my fat ass." I laughed loudly, causing her to scowl up at me. We arrived at her house in record time. I put her down on the couch with the remote and a drink, and then started dinner.
"Edward, since you're slaving over the hot stove, you should really stay for dinner and enjoy your cooking with us." I paused, I wasn't sure if she was serious or not. It was extremely hard for me to tell these days, and I didn't want to do or say anything that would set off her temper. She was absolutely adorable when she was angry. She looked like a fiery little kitten.
"Love, if you want me to stay and eat, I will. But I know I won't enjoy it in the slightest, and I'll have to choke it back up later." She looked at me with a devious grin. Shit, she was going to make me stay to torture me. I swallowed loudly.
"Please stay, Edward," she pouted. Damn, that stupid word and that adorable face. I was useless against it.
"Okay, anything for you." I said quietly as I stroked her cheek. Tears built in her eyes, and spilled over. I didn't know what I did now.
I frowned. "Love, what's wrong?"
"You'd really stay and eat human food for me?" She sobbed between her words.
"Yes, Bella, I'd do anything for you." I stroked her hair back from her face, and kissed her forehead.
"I don't de … de … deserve you," she cried. I laughed and pulled her onto my lap as Charlie walked in the door.
"Bella, what's wrong?" He rushed to us, sitting on the coffee table.
"Nothing, Edward is just the most wonderful boyfriend in the universe," she wailed.
Charlie smiled and chuckled underneath his breath. "So, that makes you cry?"
"No, he was going to stay for dinner, even though he hates what we're eating. He was going to eat it for me." She cried even harder. I was starting to worry about the effect this would have on the baby.
"Well, that was very nice of him, sweetheart. Are you going to be okay?" he asked, patting her knee.
"Yes, I'm fine. I'm starving, is dinner ready?" She said with no trace of sadness left in her voice. Charlie and I laughed quietly, my beautiful little manic.
"Yes, love." I picked her up, and carried her into the kitchen. I loved that she didn't protest to being carried around anymore. I knew she could walk, but I liked having her in my arms.
"Love, would you be okay if I ran home quickly? Esme needed a few things from the store; I told her I'd pick them up."
"That's fine, Edward. Will I see you later?" she asked.
"Of course, see you later. I love you." I kissed her cheek, and left quickly. It didn't take me anytime to arrive at my house. Rachael met me in the garage. "How are my sister-in-law and niece?"
"The baby is just fine. Bella is a little crazy at the moment, it's making me tired." I snorted, as I sat by her on the steps.
"Why don't I go over? I haven't seen her in a while."
"If you'd like, they are eating dinner right now. I'm sure she'd love to see you." She nodded, and ran off towards Bella's.
I walked into the house and wandered over to my piano. I played for a couple of hours without even realizing. Esme's thoughts flooded my head and brought me out of my trance. "Edward, sweetheart, Bella is on the phone. She said she's called your cell a few times." I jumped up and ran to the phone. I can't believe I hadn't heard my phone.
"Edward, thank God! I've been trying to get a hold of you for hours," Bella said frustration evident in her voice.
"I'm sorry, are you okay?"
"Yes, I'm fine. I just missed you. Rachael left a couple hours ago, and I want to go to bed. I can't walk up the stairs by myself. I'm afraid I'll fall, and I don't want to ask dad to help."
"I'm so sorry, sweetheart. I'll be right there. I love you."
I raced out of the house to Bella's.
I knocked lightly on the door. "Come in, Edward." Bella called in her normal speaking voice.
"Bella, I'm so sorry." I kissed her sweetly.
"It's okay, will you take me to bed? I'm so tired."
"Of course, sweetheart." She was asleep before I laid her in the bed. "Thanks for being so involved, Edward. Carlisle and Esme really raised you right. Most boys your age would have done anything to get away from their pregnant girlfriend." I turned to see Charlie in the door frame.
"I'd never do that to Bella or the baby. I love them too much to ever leave them," I told him honestly.
"I'm glad to hear it. Your sister was over earlier, she seems just as excited about the baby as you are."
"Yes, she is. We never thought I could have children, so it's really a miracle, even though it's not the best timing. My whole family is ecstatic." I smiled slightly.
Charlie's brow bunches together. "You mind me asking why you didn't think you could have kids."
"I was really sick as a child. The doctors said I'd never father a child of my own."
"Yeah? They say some high fevers can do that sort of thing." I just nodded; high fever was an understatement for what I went through. "Well, I'm going to bed. Goodnight, Edward."
"Night, sir." He turned and went to his room. I was surprised that he was letting me stay. "Leave the door open, Edward."
"Yes, sir." I curled up by Bella on top of the covers.
Bella had one week left before she was due and was so uncomfortable that she did nothing but lie in bed. I tried to keep her comfortable. We even moved her to my house, so we'd be closer to Carlisle, in case she went into labor. I thought Charlie would baulk at the idea, but he was on board before I even finished explaining.
I was down in the kitchen, getting Bella something to eat when she yelled. "Edward, Carlisle!"
We both took off in a flash, she was panting hard and clutching her stomach "My … water … broke." She breathed out between pants. Carlisle quickly had Alice gather the supplies he needed, as I helped Bella get her pants off. She screamed out again.
"Breathe, love, breathe. You can do this." It was agony seeing her in so much pain. I truly hated myself in this moment.
Carlisle positioned himself between her open legs and said, "Okay, Bella, on the next contraction, I want you to push." She nodded and as the next one hit, she pushed. She was squeezing my hand so tightly that if I were human, she would have seriously injured me. "Good, Bella. We're almost there." Another contraction hit and she pushed again. This continued for several contractions. "Last push, Bella. You can do this."
She started crying "Edward, I can't do it. I can't, I'm too tired."
"You can do it, love. One more push, and you'll get to hold our baby." She nodded and pushed as hard as she could. The next sound I heard was the most beautiful sound I've heard in my whole existence. My baby crying, she was okay.
"It's a girl!" Carlisle said, as he handed me the snips to clip the cord. I cut it with a shaky hand. I've never felt so human. "Bella, would you like to hold your daughter?" Carlisle asked.
"Yes please," she smiled. I was the luckiest man in the world. I had the two most gorgeous girls on the planet, here in my arms forever.
The rest of the family and Charlie ran in as soon as Carlisle and Alice had finished helping Bella clean up. I gently laid our sleeping princess in her arms.
"She's beautiful, Bella." Charlie whispered quietly as he sat down on the bed beside her. "Have you picked out a name?"
"Yes, dad, her name is Elizabeth Renesemee Cullen."
"Renesemee?" he asked.
"Yeah, Renee and Esme put together. That way, we have all our mom's names. Elizabeth was Edward's birth mom."
"That's wonderful, Bella." He was beaming with pride. My mom came and sat by Bella's feet.
"Thank you both. I'm truly honored," Esme said.
"No need to thank us, mom. You've been a wonderful mother to me." I kissed her cheek.
"Oh, Edward," she said choked up, and unable to finish her sentence.
The whole family gathered in my room to take turns with the baby. Alice snapped tons of pictures. It was one of the happiest days of my life. Eventually everyone left. I curled up in bed with Bella and Lizzy.
"How do you feel, love?"
"So much better, I can breathe now." She chuckled.
"She is perfect, isn't she?" I said, as I rubbed her soft pink cheek. She looked a lot like Bella. She had my oddly colored hair, but was curly like Bella's. Her eyes were green, like my human eyes. They matched Rachael's perfectly. The shape of her eyes and nose was Bella's. She was perfect in every way.
"She's perfect, just like her daddy."
I snorted, "Love, I'm far from perfect."
"You're perfect to me, and that's all that matters." I rolled my eyes, but didn't argue with her.
"So, when are you going to change me?" I froze; it was a bit early to start talking about that.
"Bella, we have plenty of time. But anytime you're ready, since little Lizzy here has a vampire diet. But, love, please consider it for a while. You'll have to leave your family and friends behind."
"I know this is what I want. But I feel horrible taking her away from Charlie, like my mom took me away. I'm so torn right now. I'm scared that she'll grow too fast. That she won't be immortal. Edward, I don't think I could handle it if she died."
"Carlisle is very confident that once she reaches the end of her growth cycle, she'll stop aging."
"She is not even a day old, and I can tell she has grown. Look at her sleeves; they were long when I put it on her, now they are too short." She started to cry, barely completing her sentence. I squeezed her tightly to me. Unshed tears filled my eyes. I wanted to believe Carlisle, but I was scared. I couldn't lose either of them. We sobbed quietly together. After a time, Bella's breathing evened out. I gently took the baby from Bella, putting her in the bassinet, and then tucked Bella under the covers. I sat and watched my girls sleep all night. I couldn't believe how incredibly lucky I was. I never would have imagined in my long existence that I'd be a father and one day soon, a husband. With everything going on around here, I'd forgotten about the wedding. Hopefully, Bella will want to wait to be changed until after we are married. Bella had been sleeping for about three hours when Lizzy started to stir.
"Shh, shh, baby girl. Daddy's got you. We'll go down to the kitchen and get you a bottle. So we don't wake Mommy," I cooed, as I kissed her face. She smelled unbelievable. She was the perfect mix of mine and Bella's scents. Thankfully, her scent didn't make me thirsty.
Esme had her bottle ready before I got to the kitchen. "Thanks, Nana." She smiled brightly.
"Edward, I'm so proud of you, sweetheart. This couldn't have happened to a more deserving person."
"Aww, thanks, Mom," I said, acting embarrassed.
It didn't take Lizzy long to finish her bottle. As I was putting her bottle in the sink I heard, "Mmmmm. Thank you, Daddy." I looked down into her big green eyes, shocked.
"Did you say something?"
"Daddy," she said again mentally. The biggest smile spread across my face.
"Edward, what's got you grinin' like a big fool?" Emmett asked.
"I can hear her thoughts. She just said, 'Thank you, Daddy'."
"Awesome! Bet you're glad she's not like Bella."
"I would have been happy either way, but this is wonderful. I can tell what she needs, and there won't be a reason for her to suffer while we figure it out," I said happily.
"That's cool man. I knew my niece would be smart. You take after Uncle Em, don't ya?" He cooed to her. I just rolled my eyes. "Em, would you mind watching her for me while I go talk to Carlisle?"
"Really? Yeah, thanks. I haven't gotten to hold her." He beamed, taking her from me.
"Seriously? Sorry man, I thought everyone had a turn."
"Well, Rose hogged my turn." He chuckled.
I hurried to Carlisle wanting to make our conversation quick, so I could get back to Bella before she woke up. "Come in, Edward," Carlisle told me mentally as I approached the door.
"Do you have a minute?"
"Of course, I always have time for my children. What can I help you with?"
"I can hear Elizabeth's thoughts. I'm excited by that, but what I really want to talk to you about is Bella."
"That's wonderful news. I'm curious to see if she will possess a power like yours. Is Bella alright?"
"She's fine. I know Alice has already told everyone, but I asked Bella to marry me and she's agreed with the condition that we wait until the baby was here. Now that she is, I'm hoping that the wedding will be soon. But more importantly, I'd like to talk about her change."
"Congratulations, son. I'm very happy for you both. Does Bella want to change soon?"
"I haven't really had a chance to discuss it with her. I'm worried if the baby doesn't stop aging that Bella will want to stay human for her. Because she would eventual grow old and die. Carlisle, I don't know what I would do if Bella chooses that option. I can't live my life without her. I want her for all eternity."
"I understand, son. But you can either let her decide and respect her decision, or you can force her to change, and change Elizabeth once she's of age."
"I can't force either of them, Carlisle," I said with a disgusted look.
"I don't think you will have to. I really believe that Elizabeth will stop aging once she's fully matured. I think it would be best to change Bella now, unless you plan on having another child."
"I never thought about other children to be honest. I guess I really need to talk to Bella about this. I know I haven't really said much, but thanks, Carlisle. Just voicing my concerns to you has helped."
"You're welcome, son."
I left Carlisle's office just as confused, but at least I knew one thing, Bella had to be changed. I couldn't live in this world without her. The thought of more children did intrigue me, but it was all up to Bella. I would never force her into anything she didn't want. I'd wait a little while before we talked about all this. It was more important right now for her to rest and heal. I quietly opened my bedroom door; she was still asleep and looked beautiful. I quietly curled up on the bed behind her and held her close, as I often did in her room at Charlie's.
She murmured in her sleep, "Edward." I smiled. It was always a great pleasure to hear her talk of me in her sleep. I would miss that, but I needed her so much that I was willing to give up all her human traits to have her forever. Selfish, I know, but I am a selfish creature."