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The True Meaning of Love
After Edward dropped me off, I went upstairs to my room. I nearly jumped out of my skin when I saw who was sitting on my bed. "Jasper, you scared the hell out of me."
"I'm sorry," he said. I had the feeling he wasn't just apologizing for scaring me.
"I don't blame you, Jasper. I know how hard it is for you, not just because of your own blood lust, but because of the blood lust everyone else was probably feeling as well." I didn't know if anyone else realized it, but I did. Jasper was an empath. He felt everything everyone else felt, including blood lust. He felt it from everyone in that room, save Carlisle.
"It doesn't matter. I should've been able to control myself. Everything that is about to happen is my fault," Jasper said.
I went to tell him that it wasn't true when I caught what he said. "Wait, what do you mean 'what's about to happen'? What's about to happen?"
Jasper apparently hadn't meant to say that because he suddenly looked like a deer caught in the headlights and seemed to be trying to decide what to do next.
I started to get uneasy. "Tell me, Jasper."
"I'm sorry. It's my fault," Jasper said guiltily.
"What is?" I asked.
Alice had a vision. What happened tonight scared Edward, and rightfully so. He's gonna take you to the woods in a day or so and he's going to tell you that we're all leaving. Apparently we'll all be gone by then. In fact, he's probably at the house convincing everyone to leave right now," Jasper explained.
"Okay, hold up. What do you mean leaving? Leaving for where?" I asked confused. This didn't make any sense to me. Why would the family decide out of the blue to just leave Forks?
"I don't know where yet. I do know that Edward won't be going with us. He'll be going off on his own," Jasper said.
"Are you telling me that Edward's planning to leave me?" I asked in shock. I couldn't believe what I was hearing. Edward wouldn't really leave me, would he? What was I saying? Of course he would. He'd tried to do it in Phoenix.
Jasper nodded sadly. "He's going to tell you that he doesn't want you anymore. He's going to say that you don't belong in his world. But he won't mean it. He's only doing it to protect you.
At first I was shocked. I couldn't believe what I was being told. Not only was Edward leaving me, but he was going to try to convince me that he never loved me in the first place? I just couldn't fathom him doing that. Leaving me I could see him doing. Like I said, he tried it once before, but to actually tell me that he didn't want me?
After shock came anger. Edward was really going to do this to me? He was going to break up with me in the freaking woods of all places and tell me that I never mattered to him? And he knows I'd believe him too. It never made sense for him to love me. Of course I'd believe him. Well, if he thought that I was just going to sit back and wait for him to leave me, he had another thing coming. It was like something had just been woken up inside me. I was done doing things like Edward wanted.
"Bella, please say something," Jasper said. He looked really concerned.
I took a deep breath to try to keep as much anger and hurt out of my voice. "When is this supposed to happen?"
"Tomorrow or the day after," Jasper replied.
"Then I guess I have to be gone by then," I said.
Jasper stood up from the bed. Unsurprisingly, he seemed taken aback by what I said. "Wait, what? What do you mean?"
"I'm not going to sit back and wait to be left. I'm gonna give him the satisfaction. He wants to break up, fine, but it's going to be on my terms, not his! I'm leaving Forks."
I was completely shocked by Bella's declaration. I had no idea she was going to react like that. I figured she was going to fall apart. That she would go running to Edward and would beg him to stay. But she didn't. Instead she was talking about leaving herself. "Bella, think about this. You really want to leave Forks?"
"I didn't want to come to Forks in the first place, Jasper. I came because my mother didn't really want me there anymore and I could see it. The only thing that kept me here for so long was Edward and the rest of the family. But now you're all leaving. So what am I going to do? Just sit here and wait for Edward to dump me? I don't think so. And I'm certainly not going to stay here afterwards when every single good memory I have of this town has to do with him or the rest of you," Bella explained before grabbing a bag from her closet. She then started to pack.
"What about your father?" I asked.
"He'll be fine. I'll leave him a note saying that I need to get away for a while. I'll call him later. His life can go back to the way it was before all the drama I've brought him by coming here. Believe me, if I stay here, things will only be worse," Bella said as grabbed some clothes from her dresser.
"Bella, you don't have to do this. Go talk to Edward. I'm sure you can convince him to stay," I urged. This was just so wrong. Bella shouldn't feel like she had to leave her home because Edward was an idiot.
Bella finally stopped and looked at me. "Yeah, maybe I could, but why should I? Why, so can see me as this pathetic little girl that can't live without him. I don't think so. If he doesn't want to be with me, I am not going to beg him to stay."
"Bella, he does want to be with you. He's trying to protect you," I told her. Edward was wrong for what he was going to do, but I did honestly believe he was trying to protect her.
"No, you don't do that, Jasper. You don't just walk away from someone you love, and you certainly don't tell them that you never love them. If Edward really thinks he's going to say that to me then he doesn't love me. He never did," Bella said. There was mixture of pain and anger in her voice. She seemed to be trying to focus on the anger, but the pain was evident even without my gift.
I couldn't really argue with what Bella was saying. She was right. You don't just abandon the person you love, and certainly not the way Edward was going to. That's why even I was surprised by what I said next. "Let me come with you."