I do not own FMA! I do own Kendra though! I like reviews. They are nice and make me smile! This is the last chapter! The story was originally suppose to be a one shot but I broke it up so that it was a short story. I hope you guys like how I ended it...! ENJOY!


When I woke up again it was dark. That was to be expected however since I had worked until dawn. I moved into a sitting position and saw the note still on my nightstand. Tears welled up again. Why the fuck can't I just be a normal person and take what I'm given? Why was I fighting this so hard? Because he was my boss? That didn't stop anyone. Ever. I put my head in my hands and let out a strangled noise that was between a sob and a groan. Why couldn't I find the happy medium? I looked at the clock. 8pm. Maybe Havoc was up. I lifted the phone of the receiver that sat on my nightstand and dialed Havoc's number.

"Hullo," Havoc answered sleepily.

"Hey Jean."

"Kendra, what's wrong?"

"Nothing I can explain over the phone. Can you come over? I have a lot to spill."

"Sure. I'll be there in a few minutes."

We hung up and I got out of bed. Without bothering to get dressed, I went to the kitchen and made some coffee. Just as it finished brewing, my front door was opened and closed. I looked up to see Havoc standing there in civilian clothes. He came over and enveloped me into his arms. I breathed in his familiar sent of smoke. He always did smell like an ashtray.

"What's wrong, Kendra?"

His voice was soft and there was no hint of joking at all. His voice was full of concern and worry.

"Everything seems to be falling apart. And it's only been one fucking day since it began," I said sighing.

He pulled away and held me at arms length. He looked really confused but the worry was still there. So I gave him a cup of coffee and let him lead the way to my living room. He'd been here so much it was if he lived here most of the time. When we were both settled I spilled everything. From the weird meeting with Mustang to work the previous night. I took a slow sip of my coffee when I finished and let everything sink in.

"I can see why you are spacing yourself," he began.

I looked up. I was hoping he'd call me an idiot. Get angry and tell me that I needed to get back with Roy. This calm voice made me feel worse about what I'd done.

"But," he continued, "you shouldn't let work get in the way of being happy. Trust me I've made that mistake before. Actually I've made that mistake a lot. And when I eventually meet a girl who can either handle that work is a big part of me, or a girl who I can space myself from work for, then I'll settle down. For you however, fucking go for it. He's probably one of the best men to choose. Granted he may have not made perfect choices in people in the past, but I do know for a fact that he wants this to work."

I looked at him confused.

"He spilled his feelings to me when he was driving me home last night."

I nodded. I watched Havoc drain his coffee cup before standing up. I set mine on the coffee table and stood up too. He gave me another bear hug and then held onto me when he pulled away. The look in his eyes was completely serious.

"Just fucking go for it. Don't even think about work. That can be handled easily."

I nodded and let him kiss my forehead before following him to the door.

"I'll see you at work tomorrow."

I smiled and shut the door when he was out of sight. Unfortunately I knew he was right. All reason had to be put aside and I had to do what I wanted. I rushed up the stairs and dressed in my civilian clothes before running out the door. I flagged down a taxi and gave them the address. I just hoped he really meant what he wrote on the note and that I didn't fuck this up.

I stood in front of the door poised to knock. I couldn't bring myself to do it. Why was I here? I obviously didn't have the fucking guts to deal with this. As I turned to leave again, I heard Havoc's voice in my head. Just fucking go for it. I turned and knocked on the door before I could walk away. I sat there, anxiously playing with my earlobe. I heard the door unlock and saw the doorknob turn. When it opened, those beautiful black orbs that I loved to see so much stared at me in surprise.

"Kendra, what are you-," he began but I stopped him with a kiss.

I tried to put all my feelings into the one kiss. God how could he mess with my mind so badly? In the span of one day. All I knew was that I needed this. I needed someone to be close to that wasn't family. I needed someone to be there as a lover and a friend. I needed Roy Mustang.

"I'm so sorry. I'm a fucking idiot. I let my brain take over and tell me what to do when I should have just let my heart do what it wanted. I want you Roy. Whether you take me back or not I needed you to know."

God I sounded so fucking cliche. I couldn't care at that point however. I just spilled my guts out to the man who I was in love with. I waited, my heart racing faster then a car on a high speed chase. Finally he gave me his answer. He capture my lips into a kiss of want and love. Havoc was right. I really didn't need to worry about work. That would be dealt with when it had to be dealth with.

"I love you Kendra. I have ever since you opened up to our team. You are such a bubbly personailty and I've needed someone like you in my life for a long time. I want you to stay. I need you to stay."

My heart soared. Those were the words I'd been wanting to hear.

"I'm so sorry," I mumbled as he hugged me to his chest.

"Don't be. Just promise me you aren't going to leave me again. I don't think I could take that to be honest."

I smiled at him. "I love you, Roy. I couldn't leave you again if I tried."

He kissed me again and pulled me inside. Instead of having sex again we spent the night cuddling in front of the TV watching movies. It was a perfect way to spend the night. Neither of us had to be to work until later in the day so we didn't go to bed until the wee hours of the morning. And when we did, I wore one of his t-shirts and curled into his chest. His arms wrapped around me and I felt safe. Happy and safe. This is what I've needed and I'd finally achieved it.