I couldn't speak. My body was tired and sore, but at the same time I yearned for more. It wasn't enough to just be near them ... I needed them both inside me, like I needed water to survive. I'd never desired one person this much in my entire life... let alone two people. The feelings and emotions swimming through my bloodstream were just second-nature. I couldn't control them any more than I could control the weather outside.

I knew what I wanted ... what I needed. Connor squeezed my hand gently, assuring me that whatever I wanted, he would give me ... without question. Murphy reached across my body to my opposite hip, and rolled me over on top of him, "Do ya trust us, love?"

I spoke without hesitation, "With all my heart, Murph".

He exchanged a glance with Connor, and I felt the passion in the air vibrating from each of them equally. I didn't have to say a word ... Connor, just got up and scooted my hips towards the top of the bed, so I was kneeling directly over Murphy's head. He placed my hands on the headboard, and whispered in my ear, "just relax, love ... we'll take care of ya"

You let me violate you
You let me desecrate you
You let me penetrate you
You let me complicate you
(Help me...)
I broke apart my insides
(Help me...)
I've got no soul to sell
(Help me...)
The only thing that works for me
Help me get away from myself

My eyes closed as I drew in a deep breath. Murphy grabbed the mounds of my hips and gently pulled me down onto his mouth, as he exhaled hot air onto my sex, without touching me. He teased me over and over, panting heavily, making me wet with nothing more than the moisture in his breath. Connor knelt next to me and wrapped one arm around my waist. He kissed my shoulder while his other hand trailed down to the small of my back, slowly slipping lower to massage each cheek roughly. His mouth covered my neck with sweet, hot kisses.

Murphy ran his tongue around my entrance very slowly and delicately until I wanted to beg him for something more, but I knew I needed to be patient. As he continued his agonizing circles, Connor slipped his hand in between my legs from behind and found the furrowed opening that I was anxious for him to explore. He slipped his finger inside my pussy to wet it some more, before rubbing our juices up and down the valley between my legs. I gasped at the very moment Murphy decided to stick his tongue inside me and Connor poised his finger for access.

Murphy brought his hands around to spread my folds apart, while Connor softly pushed one finger into my tight crevice. I reached around to grab Connor's head, scratching his scalp with my shaking fingers, as he continued to assault my neck and shoulder with his mouth. The pressure was building in my stomach as Murphy took control and worked his tongue back and forth over my quivering clit. My legs started to tremble and my knuckles were white from grasping the headboard so tightly. Connor held me steady and gripped my waist a little tighter, as he felt my orgasm draw near.

"Tell me when you're coming" he demanded ruggedly. Murphy slid a finger inside me then pleaded, "We want ta hear ya". Somehow their movements fell into sync, like they always did, and I could feel Connor's finger wiggling gently inside me from behind, while Murphy matched the rhythm and all of the sensations together crashed over me in a matter of seconds.

"Ohhh God Connor ... I'm ... " my voice trailed off as the climax took over my body. Nothing I did at that point was voluntary, including the jagged howl that escaped my lips. I felt release of my own arousal on Murphy's lips as he took it all in. At the exact moment my muscles relaxed in between contractions, Connor slid another digit inside me. My breath hitched, and I dropped my jaw as I let my body get slowly accustomed to the feeling, and relax around him. He gently rotated his fingers very slowly, stretching the taut skin to accommodate what was to come.

I wanna fuck you like an animal
I wanna feel you from the inside
I wanna fuck you like an animal
My whole existence is flawed

You get me closer to God

Together they carefully pushed my hips backwards to meet Murphy's. While Connor was still fondling my ass, Murphy reached up to caress each breast tenderly, ghosting his thumbs all around my nipples, tormenting me and exciting me all at once.

"Connor ... get over here" I ordered him. He withdrew his fingers and I leaned to the side to take him in my mouth, as he shuddered my name in a raspy breath. I did my best to lube him up with my tongue and mouth, as he used his hand to spread it over himself. I sat upright and met his eyes. Murphy took the opportunity to lift my hips, just enough to slide into me and I moaned at the perfect way our bodies fit together ... like some Kama Sutra jigsaw puzzle.

"I want you inside me too" I bellowed into Connor's eyes. He kissed me tenderly, then carefully positioned himself behind me, straddling his brother's legs and urging me down on my elbows. Murphy leaned up to kiss me and circled his tongue around mine sensuously, tugging at my upper lip with his mouth. I trailed a line of kisses down his neck to his chest and sucked on his nipple, causing his cock to twitch inside me.

Connor ran the head of his cock along my already pulsing hole, spreading the moisture everywhere as I bucked my hips in response. Connor leaned over me, his chest gently scratching my back. He poised himself just outside my virgin entrance, and whispered into my ear, "I need ya to breathe, love ... put yer hand on Murph". He grabbed my hand and placed it on Murphy's chest so I could feel the rhythm of his heartbeat.

"In for three ... and out for three, okay?" he asked, pulling my hair behind my ear. I complied as Murphy and I breathed in unison to the beat of his heart. After a few breaths, I felt Connor push himself inside me from behind, and a sharp mixture of pain and pleasure shot through my torso. Murphy reached up to cover my hand with his and used the other one to cradle my face, sliding his thumb across my bottom lip. My breath became ragged and erratic until Murphy caught my gaze and squeezed my hand in time with his pulse, reminding me to breathe again.

You can have my isolation
You can have the hate that it brings
You can have my absence of faith
You can have my everything
(Help me...)
You tear down my reason
(Help me...)
It's your sex I can smell
(Help me...)
You make me perfect
Help me become somebody else

Connor stroked the skin along my spine as Murphy gently pulled out a little and back in, over and over slowly, forcing my muscles to relax around Connor. The pain was now completely taken over by the immense amount of ecstasy coursing through my bones and crawling over my skin. Connor raked his nails down my sides, gently kneading the soft flesh around my hips. Murphy pulled out, ever-so-slowly just as Connor pushed in and my hormones were thrust into violent mode, right then and there. A long, low growl escaped my lips and I cried out, "Fuck me …" just as I felt the boys' tense up with their own desire.

They quickened their pace, sensing that I was ready for more. Murphy ran his fingers around my mouth until I snaked my tongue around them and lapped at them feverishly. He proceeded to play with my nipples, the moisture from his fingers, causing them to tighten instantly. Connor reached around my hips to fondle my swollen clit as he pushed inside me once again. The constant rhythm of Murphy pulling out, while Connor pushed in, and vice versa, was driving me insane with pleasure. I could feel Murphy's cock, slippery with my own juices, sliding in and out at as Connor slammed me from behind. The surge of endorphins hit me like a freight train, and I clutched Murphy's chest.

I wanna fuck you like an animal
I wanna feel you from the inside
I wanna fuck you like an animal
My whole existence is flawed
You get me closer to God *

"Oh God Murph! I'm coming" I bellowed. His hands rushed to my hips and Connor followed suit, the two of them tugging at me like a kid with his favorite toy. I yelled over my shoulder, "Fuck me Connor". His thrusts became harder and faster as my whole body feel into an abyss of passion. I shuddered into a powerful orgasm that started in my belly and crept to every nerve in my body.

"C'mon love … let's hear it" Murphy spat, just as my lungs filled with air. Connor placed a well-centered swat, directly on one cheek as he groaned, "Christ almighty". The area between my legs twitched with sensation as I felt Murphy fill me with his spending at the same time Connor shook with his own release. My screams echoed in the tiny bedroom and undoubtedly masked the identical shrieks from the twins. The wave of continual bliss that wracked my body lasted so long, I collapsed on top of Murphy, my wetness still flowing uncontrollably. Connor eventually crumpled into a heap on top of me until I was fairly sure that Murphy couldn't breathe, and I forced Connor to roll over on his side. The three of us lay still, a mess of tangled, sweaty limbs and rugged gasps of post coital euphoria.

Once I was sure my heart wasn't going to beat right out of my chest, I rolled over on my stomach and propped myself up on my elbows. I gazed at the two most beautiful human beings I had ever seen, as a smile stole over my lips. Connor reached up to brush the backs of his fingers down my rosy cheek. I just smiled at him as Murphy got up to grab the half-empty pack of smokes from his jeans. He lit one for me, then for Connor before lighting himself one and lying back on the bed, with the ashtray balanced on his stomach. The three of us sat quietly, inhaling the sweet rush of nicotine until a light haze hung over my bedroom. The ashtray was moved to the nightstand, and I curled up into Murphy's side, my head on his shoulder and Connor's arms flung haplessly over my hip.

A loud growl broke the silence of the room, and Connor and I both looked at Murph.

"What?" He questioned as we both snickered, knowing Murphy's metabolism kept him constantly hungry.

"Mmmm ... you know what sounds good?" I mumbled into Murphy's side. Connor rolled all the way over and nuzzled into my neck, "What's that?"

I exhaled lovingly, "A pint". There was a brief silence before they both sat up and looked at me, with a sparkle in their eyes ... like I had 'Guinness' written on my forehead.

"McGinty's?" I asked, grinning from ear to ear. I swear I had never seem them get dressed so fast in my life. I followed suit and fifteen minutes later, the three of us were trudging through the chilly Boston air arm in arm. I thought about all that had happened in the last twenty-four hours and I was grateful that we had gotten thru it together. We sauntered into McGinty's and took our usual spots at the bar, Connor on my left and Murphy on my right. Doc gave us all a beer and as we clanked our glasses together, I caught sight of the three of us in the mirror behind the bar. I couldn't help but smile at how well we fit together. The sea of piercing blue eyes that reflected my gaze in the mirror melted my bones and although not a word was spoken … I knew that I had found my place beside them; my place in their hearts; my place in this world.

*LYRICS to "Closer" by Nine Inch Nails