My heart is beating fast, I'm scared, really, really scared. My mother watches me from the bed, I pace back and fourth my long white dress following my movements. I don't think I have ever been this scared in my entire life, Except maybe when the baby kicked for the first time. I place my hand against my baby bump that was poking out of my dress. Sometimes when I'm really stressed out about something placing my hand on top of my son really soothes me. Peeta and I are having a boy which shocked the hell out of me because I was so convinced it was a girl. I have had dreams about it at night, about a little girl smiling and offering me beautiful flowers. It was a shocking day when Peeta and I went to the doctor in district 12 and got the ultra sound. The doctor wanted to know if we wanted to find out what we were having, Peeta jumped at that offer and said yes before I even had a chance to open my mouth. When they doctor told me it was a boy I was somewhat disappointed considering the fact that I had bought 200 dollars worth of girl clothes. Peeta found this hilarious that I would just assume the baby was a girl. We had to take all those clothes back and get a full return.
We have been back in district 12 for almost 2 months now and so far everything was going good. The capitol has not yet tried to make contact with us, but it was still early yet, give them time and I'm sure they will be pounding down my doorstep wanting baby pictures. No I take that back they will probably be here today. MY WEDDING DAY, begging for pictures of the bride and groom. The star-crossed lovers that have been through so much together. I bet they will even be wanting to take a picture of my baby bump as well. Hopefully that won't happened the mayor in district 12 said I had nothing to worry about, that he'd intervene if they try and bolt for the woods. The woods that is where we are having are wedding. Most of our guests find it completely absurd that We have instructed the planners to decorate my woods. I showed them the spot where I wanted to have it and they immediately went to work not questioning me. I picked the spot where my father taught me how to swim and hunt. That place was speacial to me and it was the only place I felt truly close to my father. I wanted him to witness the day when I marry the man I love, if only in spirit.
I continue pacing back and fourth across my bedroom floor. I had 20 minutes to go, 20 minutes left of being Katniss Everdeen. In 20 minutes I will no longer be Katniss Everdeen, girl on fire, the mockingjay, The war-hero everyone rant and raves about. In 20 minutes I'll be Mrs. Peeta Mellark, Wife to a baker and a good person. I'm going to be someone's wife. WIFE.
"Relax" My mother says raising from the bed and coming over to me.
"No, Your not, come here"
I ignore her and continue pacing and rambling. "Do I look okay? Does the baby show at all? Do I look fat?" My mother comes up to me and places her hand against my lips. She kisses me on the forehead quickly and fixes the strand of hair that had comes loose. She then fixes my crown and veil, those were gifts from the capitol. They arrived only a couple days ago. My mother takes a good look at me and her blue eyes start filling with tears.
"You look beautiful. I'm so proud of you, Katniss. I truly am" She gently grabs me into a hug and kisses my forehead again. "My baby is getting married. My baby is gonna be a mommy. Oh, Katniss I'm so proud"
"Thanks mom." I mutter and fiddle with my crown, even though it was from the capitol and I swore I would never have anything to do with the capitol again. The crown they sent me was incredibly beautiful. It fit my head just right and it was covered in real shinning, beautiful diamonds. I not only wore the crown, but the diamond earning that came with it and the locket Peeta had given me. It definitely didn't match my dress, crown or earrings, but I didn't care about any of that it was my wedding day and I will wear what I please. Hell, I wanted to wear my boots instead of high heels , but Effie, Octavia, Venia and Flavius all ganged up on me and put their foot down. I argued and argued telling them they had no right to tell me what to wear on my wedding day, but after hours of arguing I decided to give in.
My mother's voice breaks me out of my thoughts. "Your father would be so proud of you and so would Prim." She smiles.
"I wish they can be here today" I mutter looking down at the floor. I have the stop the tears because of my make-up. My prep team will have a fit if I ruined my make-up and I only have 15 minutes before I become Mrs. Mellark and that is no time at all to fix my make-up.
"Honey, they are here in spirit." I hug my mother again, she is gentle because of my baby bump. She pulls back from the hug and examines me one last time. "You got 15 minutes, Gale will be up here to get you in a few."
"Am I supposed to be this scared? I feel like I'm going to throw up and I know it's not the baby's fault either"
"I was scared when I married your father, but once my father took my hand and lead me down the aisle everyone and everything seemed to vanish as I got sight of the man I loved waiting for me at the alter. My fears slipped away and only him and I mattered."
"What if I"m not a good wife?"
"Honey, you will be. You love Peeta and Peeta loves you; both of you will be good to each other and..." Her eyes cast down to my baby bump, "You will be the best mother this baby will ever have."
I wrap my arms around my child and feel the small movements below. He is up and moving around. I can feel his gentle kicks against my stomach. There are nervous knots in my stomach and I soon begin hyperventilating at the thought of becoming somebody's mother and someone's wife. Two things I swore I'd never do. My mother gently takes me by the shoulders and pushes me on the bed. My breathing is still heavy and my palms are shaking so badly. I'm marrying Peeta. I'm going to be his wife and he is going to be my husband.
"Breath honey, your fine."
There is a knock on the door and it only makes my breathing go faster. My mother moves across my bedroom and cracks open the door. "Ah, Gale, Are they ready for her?"
Gale nods. "They sure are." He glances over to me. "Ready Catnip?"
I ignore him and rub my baby.
"I can tell" Gale chuckles. He walks over to the bed and offers his hand to me. I take it and he pulls me up gently. "Lets give you away" I chose for him to walk me down the aisle because Gale was my best friend, my brother and a person I could depend on no matter what, despite his horrible attitude he had when he first came to district 12. I'm glad Gale straightened up and fell in love, I'm glad we were able to rekindle our friendship and become even closer. This was a start of a beautiful future and after everything we have been through I'd say we deserve it.
I feel my mothers soft hand at my bare back and the next thing I know I'm being lead outside in the cool spring air. It is beautiful and warm outside. It is the middle of spring and everything has blossomed. Gale leads me through district 12 and into the meadow. I don't have to duck under the fence or anything because the Mayor of district 12 has removed a good chunk of the fence out of our way, so our guests can get into the meadow and get to my father's speacial place. I had debated weather or not I wanted people to know about the beautiful pond in the woods. If I have my wedding there all of district 12 would discover the beauty of the pond and I would feel like it was no longer My father and I's secret area, but after discussing it with Peeta and really thinking about it I decided thats were I wanted to marry him.
Gale hung onto me, making sure I didn't trip and fall on my face. The designers and decorators made a smooth path that would eventually lead to my fathers pond. I was excited to see what they have done with the place.
I decided to loosen my tension a bit by starting a conversation with Gale. "You'll be doing this soon"
He chuckles. "Uh...I think Del would flip if I asked her to marry me, besides we're not there yet."
"You will be" I giggle.
"yeah, hopefully, but I want to make sure she is completely right for me and I for her. It's good so far though"
we chatted for a couple of minutes before Gale stops and smiles. He gazes around the forest and so do I. The sight in front of me is simply amazing. There are so many decorations all over the place, mostly flowers though. There a chairs lined up everywhere and every one of those chairs are taken. The aisle is covered in flowers and a thin white rug is laid down on the forest floor. The rug stretch all the way to the pond. I look towards the pond and there is a huge white arch that is glistering in the sunlight, under that arch is Peeta. He has his back to me, everyone does, nobody has seen Gale or I yet. Peeta is dressed in a very expensive tuxedo, his blonde hair is slicked back like it was during our interviews of the first game. He has his hands tucked neatly behind his back and it would appear he is gazing out into the pond, so very deep in thought.
"You ready?" Gale whispers in my ear.
"Yes" I say staring at Peeta.
Gale singles a woman and slow music starts to fill the forest air. Everyone in the vicinity stands up from their chairs and looks at me. I feel nervous again so I cast my eyes down at the ground beneath my high heels. Gale lowers my veil and gives me a safe warm smile. Then he offers me his arm and I loop mine around his. He starts walking me down the long white rug and I swear it is the longest walk of my entire life. As I walk down the aisle towards my future I gaze at every single person in the audience starting with my mother, there are tears in her eyes and as our eyes locked she mouths 'I'm proud of you', Haymitch sits next to her followed by Effie. I pass by all my friends and family, My mother, Haymitch Effie, Vick, Rory, Posy, Delly. I pass by Dr. Aurelius who just smiles at me and gives me a small wave. My whole prep team, Johanna Mason who has seemed to finally come out of hiding. I was glad she healed. I passed by Annie an Little Fin and next to them was Hass. My smile grew so wide when I saw him that I almost had half a mind to stop, but I didn't. I mouthed 'I missed you' to him and continued my journey.
We stopped at the alter, Peeta and I lock eyes for the first time in the last 24 hours. Gale takes my hand and gives it to him. Peeta gladly takes my hand and we turn to face each other, waiting for the preacher to begin. Peeta takes my veil and lifts it back over my head. His hands stay on my cheek and he gently leans in to kiss me, even though it isn't time yet. It's only a peck though and there is a 'awe" coming from the crowd.
The preacher straightens his tie, opens a book and then begins. People took their seats and immediately became quiet.
"Ladies and Gentlemen, Friends and family were are presented here today to witness the union of these two people, brought together by god. Two people that have survived the toughest of challenges, two people who will be remember throughout history. We are here to celebrate, to support the union of these two people, Peeta Joshua Mellark and Katniss Rose Everdeen, as they pledge their love and bind themselves to each other. " The Preacher turns to Peeta with a smile on his face. "This woman by your side is going to be your wife. Do you swear to comfort her, to protect her, support her, love her, for richer or poor, for better or worse, until death due you part?"
Peeta turns to me, his grip on my hands have tightened. "I promise in front of my friends, my family, that I will comfort you, protect you, support you, love you, in good times and in bad, for the rest of my life. I will cherish you until the day I die" I smile at him, fighting back the urge to cry, His words are so sincere.
The preacher turns to me. "This man by your side is going to be your husband. Do you swear to comfort him, protect him, support him, love him, for richer or poor, for better or worse, until death do you part?"
My eyes never leave Peeta's "I promise in front of everyone here that I will comfort you, protect you, love you, cherish every moment we have, in good times and in bad, for the rest of my life. I will love you until the day I die."
"Now, The bride and Groom will now exchange vows."
Peeta takes a deep breath and begins. "Katniss rose Everdeen, since the moment I saw you, your hair in two braids instead of one, I've known that there was something speacial about you, something I couldn't put my finger on. I have loved you for a very, very long time Katniss and now today standing up here in front of everyone I get to tell everyone just how much I love you and how much you mean to me. You've always said I have been good with words, but as I stand up here today in front of you, in front of all our friends and family, I'm lost for words, the words that describe how I feel about you. My love for you goes beyond words, beyond love, it is in a category all its own. I love you and everything about you. Your a brave warrior Katniss, beautiful, smart and fierce. I promise every beat of my heart is yours, every breath I take I take its for you. Your the love of my life, The mother of my unborn child" He pauses and places a hand against my baby bump. "And now I can call you my wife. I will spend every waking moment of my life with you. I promise to be a good husband and a good father. I will always protect the both of you, I will love the both of you until I die." He finishes up and kisses me quickly.
"Now the bride" The preacher says.
"Peeta Joshua Mellark, Your my boy with the bread, The love of my life, my future, my everything and I promise I will do my best to cherish every moment we have with each other. I love you so much and I'm so sorry its taken me so long to see it. I have never expected to get married and have children, but I guess fate went against that. Your the most amazing, wonderful human being that...that" My voice is breaking and happy tears threatened to spill, "That I have ever met and I'm so happy with the way things have turned out. You mean everything to me Peeta Mellark and I wouldn't trade the time we had together in for anything. I love you, I love you, I love you."
The preacher turns to Peeta. "Do you Peeta Mellark take thee Katniss Everdeen, to be your lawfully wedded wife to have and to hold from this day on, in sickness and in health, for richer and poor as long as you both shall live?"
"I do" Peeta says.
"Do you Katniss Everdeen take thee Peeta Mellark, to be your lawfully wedded husband to have and to hold from this day on, for richer and poor, in sickness and in health as long as you both shall live?"
"I do" I say with a smile.
"If anyone has any objections as to why these two should not be wed speak now or forever hold your peace." The woods were dead silent, nothing can be heard but the sound of joyful tears and laughs. Peeta and I slid each others rings on our fingers and wait for the next direction the preacher has to give us. "By the power vested in me, by the country of Panem I now pronounce you man and wife, Mr. and Mrs. Mellark, you may kiss your bride." Peeta doesn't hesitate he crashes his lips to me and drives me into the most passionate, deep, meaningful kiss we have ever shared in our entire life. We kissed and kissed and kissed, the crowd erupted into applause, but we pay for little attention to them. I hear the minister say "Ladies and gentlemen I present to you Mr. and Mrs. Mellark" My lips remained locked with his, arms wrapped around his neck, his on my waist.
"OKAY, thats enough, your making me sick" Haymitch shouted with a chuckle.
Our lips part. "I love you Mr. Mellark"
"I love you, Mrs. Mellark."