Scarred Memory

~Mikan's P.O.V~

"WE'RE GOING TO THE BEACH!" Narumi screamed first thing in the morning, I'm tired and grumpy and he screams like a buffoon, just fucking great. I mean yeah I'm excited I'm just not showing it right now.

"When are we going?" Sumire asked, representing the whole class's question. "We're going to leave tonight because it's Friday, and stay for the whole weekend!"

"Where are we going exactly?" Yuu asked, because himself, and everyone else in the classroom knows that the school would not let us go out with humans. "Well actually the school owns a private beach that is only a two hour drive from here, it is quite lovely" Well then I guess that's settled. "So we have no school today and everyone can go pack, then at 11:00am we will meet in the front of the school and board the busses!"

Everyone left the classroom along with the conversations of exited students. Nate and I went back to our house to pack, and since none of our brothers are in the same grade as us we're the only ones going. "So do you think this is going to be fun, or just stupid?" I looked at Nate as if he were crazy. "Well as long as we make it fun it will be, silly!"

At eleven everyone was standing outside of the school with their bags in tow. No teachers were here yet and there were about 160 students here, because there are five classes in our grade. There's so many faces I don't recognize, and I'm still looking for all of my friends so I'm all alone right now. I think people are starting to stare, and they're whispering, and was that a finger I just saw point at me? That's rude.

"Hey, You're Mikan, the vampire princess right?" I quickly turned around to be face to face with a boy and girl. The boy had dark blue hair and eyes; he wore a beanie and had a star tattoo under his left eye. The girl looked like cotton candy, with her dark pink hair and eyes, but she is very pretty, along with the boy.

"Yes I am, but who are you?"

"I'm Tsubasa Ando, and this is Misaki Harada" he said pointing to the girl next to him. "Nice to meet you" Misaki stuck out her hand and I took it. "Would you like to sit with us on the bus?"

"I would love to but I'm still looking for my friends, I told them that I'd sit with them" I really did too, that wasn't a lie, and I actually should continue looking for them. "Well everyone's already on the busses so I guess you have to sit with us; it's your lucky day!" I whip my head back to where everyone was a couple minutes ago, but notice I sad was. Everyone's already boarded the busses. I guess I'll just have to wait till we get there to find everyone.

~Normal P.O.V~

Everyone got to the private beach safe and sound, Mikan had some trouble on the ride there because she couldn't get her two stalkers to stop asking her questions, and honestly it was getting on her nerves. Mikan eventually found her friends and even got to share a room with all of the girls!

"Guys, what bikini should I wear?" Sumire held up two bikinis, a gold one and a shiny green one. Everyone agreed with the green one. "Well it's a good thing all of you have cute bathing suits too or else I would set up a one on one session on the fundamentals of fashion, and that's about four to five hours of studying."

"Geez Sumire thanks for your caringness." Mikan looked over at Anna and stifled laughter because it was obvious she was being sarcastic, but Sumire didn't catch on to that. "You're welcome!"

After about half an hour of talking, gossiping, and fangirling over each other's clothing, they were finally ready to go down to the beach. All of the girls were in their bathing suits, flaunting all of their goodies to the public eye, but Mikan had a loose T shirt on over her bikini, she's not self-conscious, she just wants to wait for the right time to take the shirt off.

~Natsume's P.O.V~

The guys and I were all on the beach waiting for the girls to get here, but you know girls can be girls and therefore take for fucking ever getting ready. After like half an hour of them doing god knows what, they finally got here, in all of their bikini glory. I was only interested in Mikan though, so why in the fuck is she wearing a T shirt!?

"All us girls are going to go swimming, do you guys want to join us?" Nonoko asked. "No we're fine here for now, thanks, you look lovely by the way!" God Yuu can you be any more obvious? "T-thanks" Nonoko and Anna just rushed off towards the water, Sumire followed after when she noticed that Hotaru was talking to Mikan.

"Well are you guys going to go?" Koko said looking at the two remaining girls. "Shut up Yome" Hotaru shot back. She started whispering something to Mikan, She looked hesitant but Mikan quickly took off her T shirt and ran with Hotaru to the water.

My eyes widen, and I rub them to make sure I'm not seeing things. "Guys did you see that scar on Mikan's back, the one from her right shoulder blade to left lower back?" Okay Ruka saw it too, but why does she have a scar that brutal? "Yeah.." was all I replied with.

~Mikan's P.O.V~

"Just take your shirt off, then I'll run with you to the beach, and don't look back to see their faces. You can do this Mikan, don't let the past hold you back from having fun" Hotaru whispered to me. I smiled to her, she's an amazing friend. Alright let's do this.

It was already 6pm; the girls and I have been in the water all day, literally. I look like a prune right now. Everyone is standing on the beach waiting for Narumi to tell us something, he called us here for an important announcement.

"We're going to have a campfire!" Everyone cheered and hollered, campfires were always fun. "I've got pairs of who is going to get fire wood" He started naming people in twos and sending them off to a certain area. Then he called me and Natsume, really? Just my luck, I'll have to fight my lust back, it's not going to get the best of me. "Let's go" Natsume said to me and started walking off in the direction Narumi pointed to.

When I caught up with him we were in an awkward silence. All I heard was the crunch of leaves and twigs under our feet, and the faint sound of talk and laughter from the beach. Crunch crunch crunch.

"Okay I think this is a good spot to collect some sticks and stuff" We both stopped and I turned to get some sticks and twigs. I think Natsume has something on his mind, he hasn't really said anything and he seems pretty focused. I found myself start to think about everything about him, his hair, his voice, his eyes, oh god his eyes.

I was still standing faced away from Natsume; he must think I'm stupid cause' I'm not doing anything, just standing here. In the next second I feel a warm hand on my back, shocked I turn around, but can't completely, Natsume held onto my arm. I relax for a second until I feel his finger tips tracing down my scar. Unwillingly tears form in my eyes and roll down my cheeks.

"What is this from?" Natsume let my arm go after he was finished looking at my scar, I turn to him and cant form words cause' I'm crying so hard, he looks so pained, like he knows what I'm feeling, like he knows that at this very moment I'm reliving memories that I still can't comprehend.

He grabbed both my arms and pulled me into a hug. I don't know how long we were like that but it felt like hours, but I think it was actually like ten minutes. I don't know if I can trust Natsume, but when it looked like he understood the pain I was in, it was reassuring almost, and I have faith in him.

"When I was seven I was driving in the car with my mom, it was my father's birthday and I really wanted to get him a cake, so my mom brought me to the store, even with her busy schedule. We got to the store and I picked out a big blue one, which was his favorite colour. It was so pretty, and I asked the lady to write 'happy Birthday daddy!' so she did." I looked up at Natsume and he was staring intently at me, he nodded his head signaling me to continue.

"On the way home I was so excited, I mean it was my father's birthday and I got him a really cool cake, I was definitely showing my excitement on the outside. I told my mom to look at the cake again, I knew she already saw it but I thought it was so pretty. After briefly glancing at the cake she looked at my face and smiled at me and I gave her my hugest smile back 'your father will be very happy, I'm sure of it' she said. But she ran through a red light, and a car collided with the driver's side of the car. My father was anything but happy." Natsume's hold on me was tight, and I'm pretty sure I was crying again.

"I was in a three month coma, and when I woke up my father was livid, I didn't even know what was going on. I thought he would be happy about the cake I got him. I guess he didn't feel like explaining it because all he did was hand me an envelope, so I opened it. What was inside truly broke me. It was a picture of the wrecked car, and a blue smear on the road that was covered in blood." I hugged Natsume tight.

"It's okay" That's all I needed to hear from him.

When we got back to the campfire it was already up and running, of course me and Natsume brought fire wood back, if we didn't that would be suspicious.

We both sat on opposite sides of the fire and started to talk to our friends. I decided to look at him, and when I did I saw that he was smiling at me, but he looked away right away. "Hey Mikan you should play a song!" I am going to kill Nate. Everyone agreed with him right away.

"I don't have my guitar" "Here use mine" said a random girl.

"My voice hurts" "Liar" Hotaru! You trader!


Play ~State of Grace, Taylor swift. Acoustic~

I'm walking fast through the traffic lights
Busy streets and busy lives
And all we know is touch and go
We alone with our changing minds
We fall in love till it hurts or bleeds, or fades in time

And I never saw you coming
And I'll never be the same

You come around and the armor falls
Pierce the room like a cannon ball
Now all we know, is don't let go
We are alone just you and me
Up in your room and our slates are clean
Just twin fire signs, four blue eyes

So you were never a saint
And I love the Sade's are wrong
We learn to live with the pain
Mostly of broken hearts
But this love is raging and wild

And I never saw you coming
And I'll never be the same again

This is a state of grace
This is a worthwhile fight
Love is a ruthless game
Unless you play it good and right
These are the hands of fate
You're my Achilles heel
This is the golden age of something good
And right and real

And I never saw you coming
And I'll never be the same

And I never saw you coming
And I'll never be the same

This is a state of grace
This is a worthwhile fight
Love is a ruthless game
Unless you play it good and right

For a good chunk of the song I was looking at Natsume, and he was looking back. Everyone congratulated me on how well I did and they were amazed with my voice. I thanked them of course, but all I could think about was Natsume.

After the campfire ended everyone went back to their cabins. The guys were mostly talking about girls, except for the geeks, they were studying. And as for the girls, some were having pillow fights, some were painting their nails, some were talking about boys. But for Mikan and her friends, they were in their beds, almost sleeping.

"Goodnight guys!"