Hate That You Don't Love Me
Chapter Two: Can You Feel The Love Tonight?
"Can you feel the love tonight?
The peace the evening brings
The world, for once, in perfect harmony
With all its living things…"
-Can You Feel the Love Tonight? from Disney's The Lion King
Isabella Marie Swan-Cullen
Two months, two absolutely wonderful months filled with nothing but happiness. I can't say I have ever truly felt happiness at any point of my life until now. My soul has always been filled with feelings of depression, self-loathing, loneliness, and hatred. Happiness was a whole new experience. It bubbled up inside of me and had me on a seemingly constant giggle-filled high, and it felt amazing. This was coupled with an incredibly pleasant sensation in my soul that was even more of a foreign concept to me than happy. That delightful sensation is, in a social context, called love. Could it be possible that, after only two short months, I was already falling in love for Embry? I knew now that not every love story ended in pain and suffering; most ended peacefully and the lucky ones never end at all. If you would have asked me this a year ago I would have told you that I wasn't sure if it was probable that a person can feel so many pleasurable emotions around and for one single person, as I had never witnessed that before my adoption. Now, I think it is possible to be happy and to love without fears of pain.
The immense love my adoptive parents shared was the most beautiful thing I had ever had the pleasure of being exposed to. Carlisle and Esme had been married for almost 25 years now and had three children, including me, and still looked at each other with the same love and adoration that could be seen in their wedding photos. That is true love.
Both of the Cullen boys had found that one special person and each relationship was filled with so much love that it almost brought me tears every time I caught a glimpse of one of the fairytale couples. Completely curious as to how it feels to truly be in love with someone, I asked each of them separately to tell me their own love story.
Emmett had met Rosalie Hale his freshman year in high school. She was the popular head cheerleader and he was the freshman quarterback of the football team. He had asked her out multiple times only to be shot down again and again. He never gave up hope though and ended up chasing her for a good year and a half before they got together in the middle of their junior year. Emmett may be a huge goof ball around his friends, but when it came to Rose he was almost a whole different person. He loved, cherished, protected, and worshipped her like a goddess. Now, they are headed to college in the fall, together and stronger than ever. That is true love.
An overly shy Jasper met a very charismatic Alice Brandon her freshman year at Hollywood Arts. Alice was part of the chorus for the musical the school was putting on that year and Jasper, a sophomore at the time, was working the curtains for said musical. She was interested from the first time she set her sights on him, but of course Jasper never had the nerve to peruse anything more than a friendship with this blue-eyed beauty. Alice just couldn't wait for him to make a move as she was an extremely impatient person, so when opening night came Alice made her feelings known quite vividly. After curtain call she marched right over to Jasper, grabbed him by his t-shirt, and kissed him like there was no tomorrow; they have been a happy couple ever since. That is true love.
The moment I realized what Embry and I had was true love I was sitting in my sophomore English class, doodling absently in my notebook as teacher drowned on about the uses of rhetoric in persuasive writing. I flipped through my notebook, trying to find a blank page to doodle on when I came across a note from Embry.
My Beautiful Bella,
Every moment we have spent together has touched our lives, our souls forever. The things that we shared and learned are permanent growth of ourselves that we've earned. The person that I have grown into today did not get there by chance; I am who I am partly because of you. The changes I see and what I have learned about me are a mere response to how we affected our lives and what we discover in each other's eyes. We are connected on such a deep levels that no one can remove that, not even the devil. Our feelings might be different a year from now, but you are part of me forever somehow. A part of me will always be you, no matter what happens, our souls are one until life closes the curtain. I will love your forever for worse or for better. You are tattooed in my heart, and nothing can tear our souls apart. I promise to always lift you up when you are feeling down. I promise to wipe your tears when you feel you need to cry. I promise to keep you smiling to show off that beautiful smile you have. I promise to be your strength whenever you fall weak. I promise to be your voice when you can't find the words. I promise to be your eyes when you cannot see. I promise to be your ears when you cannot hear. I promise to always tell you what's real when you want to hear the truth. I promise to be your dream catcher to chase away your every fear. I promise to be your smile when you're frowning. I promise to always cheer you up when you are down and blue. I promise to give you faith when you are feeling insecure. I promise to keep you sturdy when you are feeling unsafe. I promise to listen when you need to talk. I promise to tell you no lies, just what is true. I promise to always lend you my shoulder for when you need to cry. I promise to always hold you when you need someone. I promise to always care for you wherever you are I promise to always be there. I promise to never hurt you and never break your heart. I can't promise you the world. I can't promise you the sky. I can't promise you that we will never fight. I can't promise you that I will never cry, but I can promise you that I will always be true to you. Baby I promise that I will always love you more than anything, with all my heart. No matter what happens or what we go through, I'll be your guardian angel. That, my Bella, is my promise to you.
All My Love,
Embry's sweet words brought a smile to my face and a deep crimson blush to my cheeks. I looked up from my lap, meeting Embry's eyes from across the room. That's when it hit me like a ton of bricks; I was completely and totally in love with Embry Call. I was in love with his smile, his rich brown eyes, his slightly shaggy black hair, his kind heart and giving soul, just everything about him. My stomach fills up with butterflies every time my eyes lock with his. I search for words, but he leaves me speechless. I can't think straight, my heart starts to race. Just the thought of him warms me even on the coldest day. His smile is like a ray of sunshine; it brightens the darkest corners of my soul. His touch alone resurrects my heart that was dark as coal. He has been able to bring it back to life, given it a reason to beat. He gives me the inspiration to wake up, the power to stand on my own two feet. Surprising enough, I'm not scared to love him. I'm okay when he's around. He's kind of given my heart a soundtrack and I happen to like the sound. He has given me hope for a better life like an angel guiding me out of my sorrow.
I love the way he tells me that I'm beautiful, and the way he make me laugh like no one else. I love the way he moves the hair away from my eyes, and then kisses my face. I love the way he sings to me at random moments, and then looks at me and smiles. I love the way the smell of his cologne lingers on my clothes after we hug. I love the way he sends me my favorite flowers along with an "I LOVE YOU" card just because he feels like it. I love the way he speaks his mind and tells me about his opinions. I love that he is not afraid to cry and show his feelings. I love the way he calls me in the middle of the day just to say I love and miss you. I love the way he tells his friends about me and smiles the whole time. I love the way he whispers into my ear, the way his voice sounds so close to me that it feels like I'm dreaming. I love how he is not ashamed to do all of these things in front of his boys. I love the way he treats me and I absolutely love being his.
Author's Note: So I am so sorry it has taken me so long to update this story, I've had the chapter written I just had no time to type it! So again I'm sorry.
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