pairing: Spencer/Toby
prompt: 'pretending to hate you is killing me.'
requested by an anon on tumblr :')

takes place during the finale, right after she tells him he doesn't have to be "that guy."


I can live without you - but without you I'll be miserable at best
-mayday parade

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She paused, uncertain, at her car door.

Biting down on her bottom lip, she turned back and moved, seemingly without thinking, towards him again. She didn't know what she was going to say - she knew nothing, in that moment, except that she couldn't live without him, and also that she couldn't live with him; not like this, not with him hating her.

She opened her mouth to speak, to tell him how much she missed him; how much she loved him. How it hurt her to be without him; how every time she saw him, he stole the breath from her body. But before she could speak, he did.

"Pretending to hate you is killing me."

Spencer swallowed hard, shocked. That was the last thing she had expected from him. And yet, she found herself fighting a smile. "Does that mean you don't hate me, then?" Her voice was low, a mere whisper, and once again she found herself gravitating towards him.

He turned to face her as she came to a stop inches from him. "It's impossible to hate you," he murmured. "I spent so long trying, but I couldn't. Because, the inevitable truth is, I'm in love with you - and I'm always going to be. I'm okay with that now, Spenc. I'm ready to forgive you," he murmured.

A bunch of mixed emotions surged through Spencer - fear, happiness, anger, and mostly, love. She moved her face up, wrapped her arms securely around his neck. "I love you," she breathed, before pressing her lips hard to his, just as his phone started ringing. She started to pull away from Toby, but he stopped her.

"Let it go to voice mail," he murmured against her lips.