I know what you are thinking, "WHAT? Nerdified Elf, publishing a finished story?" Well there's a first for everything! This is my first one-shot. Hope its good.

SPOILER ALERT! Scene from Tiger's voyage.

I was reading Tiger's Journey and I cried into my pillow at their break-up. The next day, I was listening to random songs on my computer and found this song. Thought of Kelsey and Ren instantly!

I do not own the Tiger's Curse series or Unbeautiful by Lesley Roy

"If you do this… if you leave me again… there won't be another chance."

Another fat tear plopped onto my cheek. He took a step closer, reaching out his finger to the teardrop. Our eyes met and my heart thumped horribly in my chest. I loved him so much it hurt. How could he do this to us? It felt wrong. These words he was saying were false. I knew it in my mind, but my heart was in pain regardless. My Ren would never say these things to me, but was he still my Ren? Had he really changed that much?

Ren studied the teardrop as he rubbed it between his finger and thumb. He looked up, his blue eyes hardened sapphires. "I won't need another chance. I won't be seeking you out again."

Maybe he wasn't really my Ren anymore. Maybe I've been fooling myself all along, wishing and hoping for something I'll never get back. Angrily, I said, "You'd better be sure, because if I commit myself to Kishan, I won't leave him for you. It wouldn't be fair to him."

Ren laughed wryly. "I consider myself duly warned."

He walked off as I whispered, "But I'll still love you."

If he heard me, he didn't stop. I stood at the rail for a long time trying to figure out how to swallow again. Emotion clogged my throat, and I could only inhale in shallow breaths.

The next night was chilly. I would know, since I spent some of it on top of the wheelhouse in a little spot no one else knew about.

I was sitting on a silk cushion I had woven out of the Scarf. I found a small portable radio in one of the numerous cabinets in the wheelhouse.

I had managed to tune into a station that played American music. Low static underlined the songs, but if I turned it up loud enough, I didn't notice it.

Don't hang up. Can't we talk?
So confused, it's like I'm lost
what went wrong? What made you go?
Don't pretend you don't know
this is me - I'm unchangeable

The beginning was a bit staticky, and then it cleared. I dropped my head against my knees and listened to the song in silence.

When did we fall apart?
Or did you lie from the start
when you said it's only you?
I was blind, such a fool
thinking we were unbreakable

All the memories rushed through me: Me and Ren, our first night as a couple, him sticking poems in my bag, and his intense eyes never leaving mine as we danced on Valentine's Day.

It was you and me against the world
and you promised me forevermore
Was it something that I said?
Was it something that I did?
'Cause I gotta know what made me unbeautiful

I sniffed, forcing myself to keep the tears from falling. Songs like this always seemed to know exactly how you felt.

I've been told what's done is done
to let it go and carry on
and deep inside, I know that's true
I'm stuck in time, stuck on you
We were still untouchable

I remembered the overwhelming sense anger and sadness when finding out that Ren had purposely blocked me from his memories. I'd waited all those months, shaping my anger into energy, preparing myself to fight Lokesh only to have Ren forget.

It was you and me against the world
and you promised me forevermore
Was it something that I said?
Was it something that I did?
'Cause I gotta know what made me unbeautiful

Even afterward, we still tried. Did it mean anything to him? "Always" I had said. "My kamana" He had said.

Wake up, wake up, wake up, wake up, 'cause I'm only dreaming
Get out, get out, get out, get out, get out of my head now
because we're much better altogether
can't let go

I would try, but I knew it was hopeless. I wouldn't be able to let him go; at least all of him. He would stay with me forever.

It was you and me against the world
and you promised me forevermore
Was it something that I said?
Was it something that I did?
'Cause I gotta know what made me unbeautiful

His words replayed in my head; "You are not right for me. I'll find someone else. Someone… prettier." I thought of all the times he had called me beautiful. Apparently he had lied to my face.

it was you and me against the world
and you promised me forevermore
Was it something that I said?
Was it something that I did?
'Cause I gotta know what made me unbeautiful
made me unbeautiful

A single tear escaped. I started as Kishan settled down next to me. He reached out and wiped away my tear, just as Ren had. "This is Kishan. Not Ren." I thought. I smiled weakly at Kishan and he pulled me into him, wrapping me in his arms.

I promised myself they would be the last tears I ever cried for Ren.