Blood runs down my arms

I love the smell

The taste

It gives me a rush

It makes my pulse race

When I slash my wrist open

The moment of pain

The moment when reality fades

And all I can feel is my heart beat

All I can see is the darkness of my thoughts

But it's not enough

The pain is not enough

To make me forget the world

I look to my right

To find a bottle of pills

A bottle of vodka

An idea forms

The most twisted thought

Dark and dangerous

As if this weren't enough

Nothing is enough for me

I always need more

More of a rush

More of a dangerous thing

I know no boundaries

I know no limits

I swallow the handfull

And i take a sip

And the wrold fades away