IM BACK! FINALLY!
im so sorry it took me so long to update!had so many problem it would take me days to expain! and then i was finally going to update yesterday and for some reason it woldnt let me D:
but here it is im sorry for the wait.
After the best wakeup call in the morning from my personal angel, and a big healthy breakfast form the best mom in the world, I was left alone. Charlie had to go work and Avan left to work on some mysterious project. All of the Cullen "kids" had to attend school, Carlisle had lives to save, and Esme had a very important meeting for a charity event she was helping with in Port Angeles.
Usually I didn't mind being left alone, but after meeting the Cullens I got used to the constant company of someone. I was going a bit crazy just in my room. Because of Carlisle's orders I was to stay in bead and rest up as much as possible so I could recuperate and re-energize. I had already read one of my many books, and I had also watched a movie currently I had my laptop in my lap and I was printing pictures to put on my board.
It took me forever to finally put that thing up, but when I did Edward and I spent an entire afternoon looking at all of the pictures and me trying to explain the places and the people in them. It was on one of the piano lesson days that weren't very productive. At this rate I would probably never learn to play the piano, but with a teacher as good looking as my Edward who could blame me? When I was printing the picture of Edward playing his piano for me with the most adorable look of concentration a beep alerted me of a message on my phone.
I miss you love –E
I miss you too Edward, but shouldn't you be paying attention in school? Not that I mind ;P- B
It's nothing I haven't heard before. Plus I much rather be with you, but this is as close as I can get. How are you love? –E
Bored! This might sound weird but I wish I was at school -B
I wish you were here too. But don't worry I'll be there soon. Have you emailed Dr. Fitzpatrick yet?-E
Yeah first thing I did when you left for school, I hope he comes.–B
After that last message I got no reply. I hoped he didn't get in trouble at school or something. I wanted to text him back, but I didn't know if he was busy. I tried to ignore my phone and go back what I was doing but I kept stealing glances at my phone. Although it had only been ten minutes it felt like an eternity. I was about to cave in and just text him again when there was a knock on my door.
The sound startled me at first but I went to answer the door anyways. Once I reached the door I look to see who it was but I didn't see anyone through the peephole. A bit of annoyance surged through me so I just decided to go back to bead. I was taking my first step away from the door when I heard the knock again.
"Who is it?" I asked loudly with no response.
My annoyance was getting stronger by the second. Looking again I saw nothing outside. I waited for a few minutes and still no new knock or sound came from the outside. I huffed in exasperation and walked away. My foot was just about to touch the first step of the stairs when another knock sounded at the door this one louder than the others.
Finally getting fed up I opened the door without looking, walking straight out ready to put this entire thing to an end. But once I opened the door again there was nothing outside. I let out a frustrated scream and marched back inside, slamming the door as hard as I could. Suddenly a pair of strong arms wrapped themselves around me, and I screamed.
"Shh, calm down love it's just me."
"Edward you scared the hell out of me! What were you thinking? Do you want to give me a heart attack?"
"No! Of course not! I just wanted to surprise you. I'm sorry I think I took it a little overboard. Will you forgive me?" he looked at me with the saddest puppy dog eyes and the most adorably sexy pout that I gave immediately, all I wanted to do was kiss that pout senseless.
"I can't believe you would do that. Have you been spending a lot of time with Emmett lately?" ok so the pout and the eyes were good but I want to make him squirm a bit. "Here I am, a poor girl alone at home with a weak immune system, and my boyfriend comes by to give me a heart attack. How am I supposed to get better when my poor heart its being pushed to its limit?"
The look on poor Edward face broke my heart. "Oh no! Bella I'm so sorry I really did think I was just playing. I was being idiotic and careless. I swear to you I will never do anything as careless as this."
"Edward, calm down I was joking! Now kiss me please, we are wasting precious time."
"Your wish, my command." Edward picked me up and twirled me around the living room while kissing me.
"What are you doing here? Don't get me wrong I'm so beyond happy you are, but you should be in school."
"Its nothing I haven't learned before love. Plus I was missing you with insanity and I was driving everyone nuts. They basically kicked me out of school, I don't think I'm allowed back, not that I wanted to anyways."
"You're lucky I missed you so much or I would have sent you back for that little stunt you just pulled."
With a shocked expression he said "you wouldn't?"
"Oh but I would Mr. Cullen. But I guess for this time I'll keep you here to keep me entertained. Until Esme's back anyways."
"Oh really Miss Swan? Somehow I don't believe you would prefer my mother over me."
"And why is that?
"Because Esme can't do this" ever so slowly he brought my head close to his, his eyes looking from my eyes to my lips. Right when I thought he was going to kiss me he tickles me until I can't see from laughing so hard.
"Stop please!" I try saying in between my laughter
"NO! Say you are sorry and ill stop."
"IM SORRY! Please stop!"
"Apology accepted" He said after a kiss "I love your laugh, it's contagious. I could listen to it forever and never tire of it."
"Really? Well I think we can work something out and make that a reality."
"I hope we can because there is nothing I want more." My stomach did a funny flip at the mention of staying with Edward forever. I wanted it more than anything, and it felt so good to hear him want the same.
After that Edward and I went up to my room and we just talked and watched movies, he also made me lunch and waited for his siblings to get out of school enjoying some alone time. We were watching Romeo and Juliet when my phone rang. It was an unknown number so I was a bit hesitant to answer.
"Isabella? Is that you? It's Dr. Fitzpatrick"
"Oh hi Doc! I didn't expect to hear from you so soon."
"Well I've been waiting for you to contact me for a while now. I think I have a lot of new more information for you. But I have to say that your email intrigues me, what kind of changes do you mean? And what do you mean by 'new friends'?"
"I think it might be better if you were here before I told you. So what do you think? Would you like to spend some time at lovely Forks? It's a small town and you wouldn't have to deal with all the people you do at the castle. I mean there are quite a bit of us here but nothing compared to where you are now."
"I don't know Isabella… you know how I hate to move. So much of my equipment is here what if I need it? Plus I don't do well with strangers. At least here everyone knows to stay away from me, unless it's necessary. Why don't you just come here and bring your friends?"
"that not possible. I can't set foot on that land until we figure out who our spy is. There have been some problems and thats why I came here. As far as your equipment one of my new friends is a doctor. His name is Carlisle and I'm sure he has everything you need, if not we will make sure to get it for you. Charlie said to let you know that anything you need would be at your disposal. And you don't have to stay too long if you don't want to. You can just come look at things and then go back to do your experiments back at your own lab. Maybe a week tops."
"Okay when you put it that way I guess I could give it a try. Ill see what I might need and let you know what I need you to get for me. I'm going to try to be there sometime next week."
"Just please don't let anyone know you are coming here. No one is to know where I am."
"Don't worry they usually just let me be, if they ask ill just say I need a break, or that I'm going to do research some place far away. No one would ever question me."
"Thank you so much. This means a lot to all of us. And I can't wait to see you next week."
You know mw Isabella; I can't leave a mystery unsolved. And you are the greatest mystery in existence. I will email you with more details about my arrival and things I need. Until then take care. "Before I could say anything else the line went dead. Dr. Fitzpatrick was never a man who would drag a conversation longer than needed.
Turning to look at Edward I said "Great, he's coming in a week."
"Who's coming in a week?" said Rosalie walking through the door, followed by everyone else.
"Doctor Fitzpatrick, I just got off the phone with him. Didn't you hear that?"
"Umm… no, I mean we heard the last part but we were kind of distracted." Said Alice while looking at Edward.
"What do you mean? What's going on?"
"The wolfs want to talk to us." Edward looks like he wanted to break something
"What do they want to talk to you about?" Hearing them talk about the wolf was making me feel uneasy but I didn't know why.
"I don't know they said we needed to talk, and to meet them at the border tonight at midnight. They said something about discussing a deal with your father." Said Jasper coming to stand next to Alice.
I'm not sure what happened after that, I couldn't remember even if I tried. Because in that moment I knew exactly what the wolfs wanted. How could I forget that thanks to my father I was supposed to marry the descendant of the Backs? What will Edward think of me now? Would he leave me because technically I was ENGAGED to Jacob Black? Would all the Cullens hate me because I forgot to tell them about that stupid contract? I can't have that, but what can I do? Somewhere far away I heard voices but I couldn't get myself to answer them.
"Bella! Bella! What's wrong?"
"She' freaking out."
"Well help her, do something Jas!"
"I'm trying! It's not doing anything, it's like she's blocking me."
"That's it I'm calling Carlisle, she's freaking me out."
"Shut up Em! What did those filthy mudds do to her?"
"She's going to snap out of it in 30 seconds. So you don't need to call Carlisle."
"What else do you see Alice?"
"Not much she hasn't made a decision on what to do."
"Bella, love, please calm down." The voice finally got through to me and I was finally able to answer.
"Yes it's me calm down please. What's going on?"
"Oh Edward… I'm so sorry, I forgot! Please don't hate me" tears were now just rolling off my eyes nonstop.
"What did you forget? Why would I hate you? That will never happen." My heart wanted to believe him but my head keep telling me that he wouldn't. I couldn't say anything so I just ran up to Uncle Charlie's office. I had to show him what I meant, but I couldn't get myself to tell him. Once inside I left a trail of papers as I searched frantically for the document might destroy any chance of happiness I would ever have. When I finally found them, for a second I thought of destroying them, but what good would that be? Destroying it didn't mean the deal was over. I knew they had followed me to the room and where waiting for me to do something but I couldn't move.
Finding some hidden courage I was finally able to give the papers to Edward. And the time it took him to read it all was pure agony. I could see in his face the exact moment he got to the specific part I was involved. His face was emotionless and cold and his body went completely rigid. Suddenly he was gone and Alice went after him. Emmett, Rosalie and Jasper gathered around to read the document together, but once again I didn't care. He had left without even giving me a chance to explain. Leaving them all behind I ran to my room where every little thing reminded me of the happiness I would never have again.
If I had ever cried for anything before in my life, it was nothing compared to this now. This was pain in its purest form. I don't even know how long I was in my bead crying before I heard Avan call my name.
"What happened Bells? What's wrong?"
"He left ducky, he found out about the Blacks and he left. I lost him forever."
"That son of a… where the hell is he? Im going to find him and find a way to hurt him until he cant even recognize himself." Avan was furiously passing my room and hitting whatever was available.
"NO! you cant hurt him! its my fault I didn't tell him."
"That's a bunch of bull Isabella! How could he act like such an asshole? Is not your fault your idiotic of a father made that stupid deal! How dare he tell me that he loved you more than anything and then just leave you on the first sight of a problem?"
"Please just stop. We cant force him to come back, just let him go that's all we can do." At this point I was too exhausted to even get up. I had cried so much even my voice was not much louder than a whisper.
"what can we do? Ill tell you what I can do. Im going to go buy a blow torch and burn the mofo to the ground, that's what im going to do."
"No, I know it sounds weird but even if he walks away from me I never want anything to hurt him." every second my body felt slower like the energy was draining out, It was hard to keep my eyes open. It felt like a cloud of black smoke was covering my body.
"Forget that Bells! He will suffer, I don't care what I have to do, he will suffer."
Everything went blank after that last sentence I don't even remember if I answered him or not. The darkness overtook every sense I had, and I felt oddly numb.
I woke up standing in the middle of a dark forest, sounds and lights coming from a small clearing ahead. Suddenly someone was grabbing my arm leading me forward, I looked up to see Edward holding onto me with a cold vacant expression. He didn't even look at me, just kept staring forward leading me to the lights and sounds.
"Edward… What's going on?... Where are you taking me?" he didn't even bother looking down at me when he spoke.
"I'm escorting you to your wedding Isabella." The sound of his voice was bored and emotionless as if he didn't even care what was going on.
"WHAT?! No you must be wrong, I'm not getting married!" it was then that I noticed I was wearing a wedding dress covered in mud and blood and bouquet of black flowers in my hands. I tried to turn around and run away but Edwards hand would just tighten hold on me. "let me go!" I would scream at him but he never even acknowledged I was there; he just kept walking towards the light.
Once we made it to the clearing there was no one there but Jacob and Billy Black standing there. They were both wearing black suits with the same cold expressions in their faces. They were on top of what looked like a sacrificial altar covered in black and red candles. Suddenly a man stepped on the platform with a big sward.
"Edward please let me go! I beg of you, don't do this." My frantic pleas fell to deft ears. He didn't stop until he was close to the altar where he pulled out a long rope and tied it around my hands and legs.
"You can stay and watch if you want, but if not you are free to go." Said Jacob coming to stand in front of me. Edward just silently gave me over and walked away just as Jacob was covering my mouth. I stirred screaming and getting away but he just slapped me hard. He then pulled me to the top of the sacrificial alter. Billy then got up from his chair and started the wedding ceremony. When it was my turn to say I do Jacob just grabbed my hair and made me nod. Once it was over Jacob just pushed me down on the altar and held my head. The man I had seen with the sward came to stand next to me. My eyes nearly popped out of my head when I noticed it was none other than my father standing there.
"Goodbye Isabella." Was all he said before he picked up the sward and brought it down to my throat.
I woke up screaming, especially when I felt someone was shaking my arms. I opened my eyes to see Edward sitting on the edge of my bed holding my arms.
"Bella are you alright?" his voice was full of worry "Oh Bella I am so sorry. I shouldn't have left like that, I was just so angry I didn't think. Please love forgive me." He said as he hugged me tightly, I was crying once again.
"No… its not your fault. I should have told you, but I swear to you I forgot!"
"I know love, I believe you, but I still shouldn't have left the way I did. I was just so mad I just wanted to go find that stupid mutt and tear him to pieces. That is why Alice followed after me and then the rest of them. I am so sorry I left without saying anything.
"I… I.. I thought you had walked out on me… t-that you didn't love me anymore." I said in between sobs.
"That will never happen. I am so so sorry my love. When I saw what you looked like when I walked away… I wanted to kick myself for it but we were at the border and I couldn't leave. I all but flew here once it was done and over with. I'm so sorry I will never do anything like that again." He placed his hands on either side of my face and stared into my eyes, softly wiping away tears with his thumbs, before he leaned in to kiss me. It was soft and sweet, I could feel the love he felt for me in that kiss and It was just what I needed after all that craziness.
I knew we still had more things to talk about and things to explain but for now we were just content holding each other. My throat hurt too much to speak and even though I had just woken up from a dream I was still exhausted. Edward stayed with me the entire night just holding me while I slep, humming to me all night until sunrise.