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YES I AM AWARE NEW YEARS PASSED AWHILE AGO BUT JUST PRETEND AND DEAL WITH IT :)
"…You already have."
With that, she threw the now crumpled paper on the ground, ran inside her house, and slammed the door shut. I must have stayed in that spot for a good ten minutes. I now realize why I did what I did, which was unclear to me before. I was afraid to have a relationship with Moze and risk ruining our friendship. So I ran away from it. And now, I can't reverse what I have done.
End of Flashback
A voice broke me away from my thoughts. I looked up to see Suzie walking towards me and carrying a medium sized pink bag. As she came closer, a bright smile was spread across her face. I stood up to greet her.
"Hey there Suzie!" I tried to sound as convincing as possible.
She put her bag on the floor, extended her arms, and moved in to give me a big hug. Although she was doing most of the hugging, I put my arms lightly on her back. She looked up to me and said,
"I'm so excited. How about you?"
"Oh, me? Yeah I'm totally excited!" I wondered how much longer this could last before she would be able to see through my lies.
"I'm so glad we're going to spend New Year's Eve together, Ned. I've been meaning to spend some time with you. Just us."
"Yeah, me too."
"You know what? I'm going to head off to the restroom before our flight leaves. Watch my stuff?"
As I sat back down, I grabbed the armrests of my chair for support. I then realized that my hand was shaking. Making a fist, I tried to make it stop with no luck.
I rubbed my face out of desperation and tuned everything out around me. I rejoiced in this time alone. I needed to think, and fast. The plane would take off in less than 15 minutes.
A question had been lingering in my mind all day.
Should I go?
Even though I acted like I had made up my mind, deep down I was still undecided; no matter how much I wanted to cover it up.
I really had no idea what to do and the time limit was putting even more pressure on me. I didn't know if Moze still cared about me or not. Would she even take me back if I didn't leave? She might have already forgotten about me and had gotten together with Loomer! Then something inside of me told me that she would never do that.
I needed more time! Fifteen minutes wasn't enough! Why was I deciding this all now? Why didn't I do this two months ago when I had gotten the stupid letter? I had no idea what to do. I needed a sign; something to tell me not to go!
Just minutes later, I heard,
"Attention, Flight 39 to Phoenix has been canceled due to intense weather conditions. We apologize for any inconvenience."
I turned my head in disbelief. True enough, a man with a tie and a name tag pinned to his shirt put a microphone down and walked away.
This was it. This was my sign.
"Ah, man!" I heard behind me. It was Suzie.
"Did you hear that?" She asked.
"Yeah, I guess we can't go." I resisted the urge to climb on the chairs and jump around, but it was awfully tempting.
"I guess not." She looked down at her feet and put her index finger to her chin, deep in thought.
"Well, that's too bad maybe next time." I grabbed my stuff quickly.
"You know what, let's go back to the desk and try to get tickets somewhere else. Phoenix can't be the only connecting flight. Come on, Ned, maybe we can catch a flight with the same departure time. We don't want to be late for the tour."
I couldn't move. I just stood there like a fool while she grabbed her bag and started walking towards the ticket desk. Snapping out of my trance, I quickly caught up with her.
Great! She was determined to get to the college; I bet she'd do anything! Well, maybe this was the sign that I should go.
While we waited in line, I made a promise to myself -if we got connecting tickets to New York in this short notice, I would go, but if we were unable to get any, I would ditch Suzie and go to Seth's party. That's what I'd do.
"Can I help you ma'am?"
"Yes, are there any connecting flights to New York available?"
I felt my hands get sweaty as I gripped my bag tighter. I then realized how much I really wanted her to say no.
"Let me check." She said as she typed away on her computer, her eyes scrolling down the screen.
"Hmmm, it doesn't look like it." her eyes were still glued to the computer.
"Ugh." Suzie put her head down on the desk and I couldn't be happier.
"Keep looking!" She demanded. The clerk took her eyes off of the computer for only a moment to look at Suzie. The lady sighed and kept typing.
Please no. Please no. Please no.
"Ah, here's one. They're still some seats available. Salt Lake City Flight 17. It leaves in less than 10 minutes."
"We'll take it!"
My shoe laces seemed awfully interesting at that point. Maybe I should just go to Seth's party. Forget everything and just go to her.
But I had made a promise. I needed to be happy. I'm doing the right thing, plus, this was my sign. At least, I thought it was.
"Let's go, Ned. We need to get to the gate." She grabbed my arm and hurled me off without another word.
(Change of POV)
I was looking up, looking at all of the different planes leaving the airport and making their way to destinations unknown to me. Glancing at my cell phone, the numbers "8:00" seemed to beam at me.
He should be gone now. I wondered which plane he was in.
The gentle breeze caressed my face as I stood on the rooftop of a tall building. I watched as servers hurried to place the food on the tables before more people could arrive; although it was already getting pretty packed. Seth was on the other side of the roof still entertaining some guests with that spinning basketball of his. I gripped the cement wall at the end of the roof and looked down at all of the cars. Some friends had come over earlier to try to drag me to where everyone else was, but I felt much better being alone.
Loomer would be getting here soon. I knew what he was going to try to do; rumors spread fast. I wasn't entirely sure if they were true but all rumors always have a bit of truth in them. He asked me constantly if I was going to the party today was what made me even more sure. I just always told him that I didn't know and actually, I really didn't know. After what happened with Ned and everything, I didn't feel much like celebrating. Eventually, after Lisa and Cookie's hounding, I decided to go.
I secretly hoped that he would have been here too, that he would have refused to go to New York at the last minute and come here to me. But I guess I was wrong. Silly me to hope for such things. Then again, maybe he's not even on the plane. Maybe he's on his way here now.
Maybe, just maybe, he's coming.
(Change of POV)
I fiddled with my seatbelt, trying to get comfortable. Flying in planes had never been a problem for me. I had never gotten nervous or sick. This time though, I felt like it was my first trip on one. To be honest, I don't think the fact of being thousands of miles high in the sky was the reason my palms were sweating furiously.
"Isn't this great? We're going to spend New Year's together!" Suzie said.
"Yeah! Totally great, if I can just get this stupid seatbelt to click in!" I mumbled.
Suzie sighed and clicked the belt for me.
"Yeah,whatever. It's fine that you obviously don't like spending time with me. "She turned her head away from me.
"Hey, look I'm sorry. I do like-" Then it hit me.
Saying exactly these kinds of things is what got me into this mess in the first place -lying and being around Suzie just to keep her in the picture. All because I was scared, too scared to pursue a relationship with Moze. So yeah, I don't like spending time with Suzie. In fact, I started disliking it after that one summer and I have continued to dislike it more and more. So then, why should I even be here sitting next to her on a plane?
"I do like…what?" she asked.
"…Nothing. I'm just sorry…for the outburst."
She stared into my eyes and turned away from me again.
I didn't want to lie anymore, and she knew it too.
I looked at the sky through my window. All of the beautiful colors seemed to appear on the wrong day for me.
A sudden feeling broke my thoughts. The plane was taking off.
It was too late anyway.
A/N: No, it's not over :)
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