Here it is. Chapter 2. I don't have much to say so I'll just let you get to reading. This covers the Terra thing. Enjoy...
Disclaimer: (almost forgot about this) i don't own teen titans. There now on with the story.
xxxxx Introducing Terra xxxxx
He was smitten and it pissed Raven off. She wasn't even sure why it irritated her so much. Maybe it was because she was so overprotective of her friends. She didn't know this Terra girl. She could also be a complete jerk. Maybe she was some little flirt that was only toying with Beast Boy. Maybe she was an enemy out to destroy the team from within.
Okay so that might be a little paranoid, but she was the only one cynical enough to think of such things. All the others were either naive or the 'give everyone a chance' type. She was of the mind that such thoughts could get you killed. There was a such thing as too trusting.
All her suspicions aside, it burned her to see them together - them being Beast Boy and Terra. So, when Terra ran away thinking Beast Boy had broken his promise to keep her lack of control a secret, Raven felt some relief. Raven took one look at Beast Boy's dejected face and decided it was best she keep that particular feeling to herself. Terra's leaving had upset him enough as it was - which just made Raven angrier at both Beast Boy and Terra. Terra for hurting Beast Boy, and Beast Boy for...well, she wasn't sure why she was mad at him exactly.
Still, when she felt Beast Boy's agony, she sighed and went to find him. She wasn't sure what she'd do, but someone had to cheer him up. Raven found him sitting on the rocky shore surrounding their home. Without a word, she sat next to him and stared at the horizon.
It was late so the stars dotted the sky and waves rose to the moon's siren call. She could hear an owl and crickets off in the distance.
Beast Boy was the first to break the silence. "Did you need something, Raven?"
She shook her head. "No." The next sentence was harder for her to say, but he needed to hear it. "Just came to keep you company."
"Because you're my friend and you're in pain."
"I'm fine," he told her with a wide grin that didn't quite reach his eyes.
She gave him a very patient look. "Beast Boy, I know I've never mentioned this, so I will now. There's no point in lying about your feelings to me. I'm an empath."
His eyes took on a confused look. "Empath? What's that?"
"I can sense what others are feeling," she explained, still keeping her patience.
"Oh." He looked back at the horizon with a sigh. With the burden of needing to lie gone, his shoulders slumped and his eyes became sad. "I didn't know that."
"I know." She returned her gaze to the front and fell into silence.
"I really liked her, you know," he managed after the silence got to be too much for him.
"I know," she repeated. Silence fell again, but she knew it wouldn't last long this time either.
"Thanks for keeping me company."
She allowed corners of her mouth to lift slightly in a smile. "You're welcome."
He glanced over at her and grinned. "What to hear a joke?"
Raven sighed. Ruining the moment again, but it was a good sign anyway. "I think you'll be just fine now."
Beast Boy chucked, much to her relief. Touchy feelly stuff was not her forte, so it was a good thing her method worked. Hopefully, it would be enough to keep him from moping.
It must have been because the next morning, Beast Boy was back to his old self. With a relieved sigh, she also returned her behavior towards him back to the status quo. Although, she would admit that she was a lot less hostile with him than normal.
xxxxx Terra's Return xxxxx
It was a beautiful day. The entire team decided to take a break and spend it outside on the roof of the tower. Raven - after Beast Boy had begged her - joined them so she could meditate while being semi sociable with everyone. That had made Beast Boy very happy, and he didn't even complain when she said she wasn't going to play. In fact, he told her he understood and wouldn't pester her while she meditated.
"I mean, it kind of became obvious when I saw Nevermore why you work so hard to keep your powers under control," he said as they made their way upstairs. "So we'll play volleyball, while you meditate."
She actually felt her mouth twitch in a small smile. To her constant surprise, she was starting to find his attempts to make her to enjoy life and smile more endearing than annoying these days. "Maybe, when I'm done meditating, I'll play."
He grinned, but said nothing more.
And so, Raven levitated at the end of the roof facing the ocean. With careful focus, she began. "Azarath Metrion Zinthos."
Surprisingly, the shouts behind her didn't interfere with her concentration. That is, until Beast Boy shouted her name. The second time he broke through her focus, she merely let their ball go over the edge. Served them right for interrupting her. She suddenly wished she hadn't when she heard a very familiar voice say, "So which team am I on?"
Raven felt her blood begin to boil just hearing her, so she forced herself to remain focused on her meditation. She didn't even turn when both Beast Boy and Starfire began shouting Terra's name. A moment later, Beast Boy was saying, "Hey, Raven. Wake up. Terra's back."
Like she was supposed to be happy about this for some reason. "Super," she said making sure her tone held her wealth of sarcasm. "Help yourself to anything in the fridge and don't forget to lock the door on your way out."
Terra said the one thing Raven didn't want to hear. "Actually, I wasn't planning on leaving this time."
Raven wanted to blast her for that alone. Deciding to nip this in the bud, she stood and walked over to join the conversation. Beast Boy was trying desperately to explain why they were hesitant to let her on the team. Since he was having so much trouble, Raven took over. Through the entire conversation and Terra's little display of control, Raven remained the cynical voice of reason. She could feel Beast Boy get irritated with her calm logic after a comment about Terra not being any less dangerous.
What was his deal? Really? Terra broke his heart by leaving without even saying good-bye, then she just waltzes back in without even apologizing for doubting him. How could they just let her back like nothing happened? Like she hadn't stormed off yelling at Beast Boy for something he hadn't even done.
And okay, watching the way Beast Boy acted around her most definitely pissed Raven off. Before she could really say anything, an earthquake interrupted them. As they hurried off to check out the source, Terra bumped into Raven and she had a brief vision. Like small photos of what was to come.
"Are you alright?" Robin asked, being the only one to notice Raven's brief hesitation.
She looked at the ground. "I don't know yet." Those flashes had come with emotions. Lots of pain and anger. "Are you sure it's safe to have her around?"
"Not entirely," Robin admitted. "But everyone deserves a second chance."
'Why did she have to have a bunch of optimistic friends?' she wondered. Not everyone deserved the second shot. Not everyone got one. Well, Raven was determined that Terra would at least have to earn her trust. Which could take a while in Raven's case. It took quite a while for her to begin trusting the rest of the team completely. Actually it was the events in Nevermore that had allowed her to soften towards Beast Boy and Cyborg. Otherwise she might still hate them both.
Between her hatred and distrust of Terra, Raven was feeling very temperamental. On the way down a tunnel to follow the robotic worm, Terra tried to soften Raven up, but the half-demon was having none of that. Absolutely none. Even after they saved the tower, some part of Raven was still holding back her friendship. She tried, for Beast Boy's sake, and because the rest of the team seemed find with the earth mover. But there was still a seething part of her that absolutely hated Terra.
Needless to say, she was very short tempered these days. Which meant she was always meditating now. If she wasn't meditating, something around her broke, especially if Terra talked to her.
"Hey Raven," Terra greeted as she and Beast Boy entered the common room after she'd been a part of the team for over a week. She was always friendly with Raven, despite the sorceress's obvious dislike for her.
Raven was levitating in front of the windows chanting. A light burst at the interruption, but she didn't even pause as she continued to say, "Azarath, Metrion, Zinthos."
"She really does hate me, doesn't she?" Terra asked, sounding slightly annoyed.
"Raven just takes time to get used to others," Starfire said in her happy voice. "Just give her some time and she will come to accept you just as she did the rest of us."
Fat chance, Raven thought but she didn't say anything. Even Beast Boy never made her lose control like Terra did. Forcing her mind to focus on her meditation, Raven dismissed everything else.
She stopped her meditation to glance over at Beast Boy. "What?"
"Are you okay? You've been...touchy lately." He sounded genuinely concerned and seemed very nervous. That he would take the time to gather his courage and ask her helped her some.
"I'm fine." Despite the short answer, her tone was softer than it had been since Terra's arrival. She turned away to continue her meditation.
For a moment, she thought he would say more, but then Terra called out, "Beast Boy, come here."
He rushed over immediately, ruining the moment again - though this time she didn't find it at all amusing. Raven's anger spiked slightly causing the glass in Terra's hand to burst - and maybe deep down, Raven would acknowledge that it hadn't been entirely an accident.
Cursing her lack of control, she fazed through the ceiling to go into her room. She had to meditate. Focus...Control...Anger...Shaking her head, she shoved her anger away. Focus.
"Azarath Metrion Zinthos," she whispered. She'd said those three words more since Terra's arrival that she had in the entire month before. And for once, they weren't helping.
Things did not get any better. If anything, they got worse. She was laying on her bed staring at the ceiling. She'd felt them leave. Beast Boy's elation at going somewhere with his beloved Terra was very difficult to miss. She seethed at the idea of them on a date, and that's exactly what it was. What else would they be doing in the middle of the night?
"I should meditate," she told herself as she floated into the lotus position. "Since I won't be sleeping anyway." Taking a deep breath, she began chanting, "Azarath Metrion Zinthos."
She didn't notice anything until Cyborg began yelling. Fazing through her floor, she went straight towards the kitchen area. Cyborg was fighting off an army of Slade's robot minions. She could feel the evil grin spread on her face. This was just what she needed. Something she was allowed to blow up. For once, she wanted to thank Slade. He just hand delivered the perfect way to soothe her temper that didn't involve blowing
Her eyes glowed as she unleashed her power without reservation. Robots fell left and right. She was vaguely aware that Robin, Starfire, and Cyborg were fighting in other areas. Someone was calling Beast Boy and Terra on the communicator, but neither replied. Go figure the two would be MIA right when a major attack on the tower took place. That had her anger sparking again as she remembered why they weren't here right now. A freaking date. Several robots exploded at once.
Thanks to her rage and okay maybe a little jealousy, Raven became a one Titan demolition crew. Of the attacking robots, she mutilated more than half of them on her own. Near the end of the battle, she felt Beast Boy approaching. Without a second thought, she fazed out of the tower to him.
He was running up to the tower in a cheetah form as fast as his legs would carry him. She was prepared to yell at him until his agony and anger hit her. A gasp escaped her at the turmoil going on inside him and all she could manage was a concerned, "Beast Boy?"
His head jerked towards her as he slid to a stop. The moment he was back in human form, he shouted, "Is everyone alright?"
"Yes." Forget the rest of the team, her emotions shouted at her. What's wrong with Beast Boy? "What happened? You look like someone died."
"Terra...she..." His ears drooped.
She could tell this was going to be difficult for him, so she gestured towards the tower. "Let's get everyone together that way you only have to say it once."
He nodded slowly. It hurt her to see him like this. If Terra did anything to him, she would hunt that blonde down to the ends of the earth and made sure she paid dearly.
What Beast Boy told them was worse than she had imagined. Terra had actually gone beyond hurting him. She had betrayed him. Betrayed them all. As Beast Boy explained what Terra had done, Raven could only seethe inside. Suddenly, those 200 robots hadn't been enough. She wanted a freaking army of them to attack so she could blast away.
What made it all worse was watching Beast Boy tell them every excruciating detail. He didn't cry, but Raven knew it would come...soon. She wanted to say something, anything. But what did you say in this sort of situation? 'I'm sorry' didn't seem to cut it.
The room fell silent as Beast Boy finished telling them what happened. After what felt like hours, he stood. "Where do we start cleaning?"
Robin looked up at his friend and shook his head. "You've been through enough for one night Beast Boy. Go rest. We can handle the mess."
Beast Boy managed a grateful look before walking out of the common room. Raven sat there for a long while, wishing she knew what to say to him. The clean up took days, and Beast Boy barely spoke to anyone. He wasn't even eating right. Finally reaching the end of what she could take, Raven went to Terra's room to speak to him herself. All the others had tried and failed to coax him out of his pain. Maybe she could...
Who was she kidding? She couldn't even handle her own anger and pain, let alone help someone else with theirs. She felt his pain radiating through the door and knew she had to try.
"This is the second time she's hurt him and I needed to mend what she's broken," Raven grumbled as she knocked on the door. Silence followed so she called out, "Beast Boy, can I come in?"
She heard a small wine. Deciding to assume that was a yes, she fazed through the door. He didn't move or make a sound. The room was dark except for a small crack of sunlight that broke through a small opening in the closed curtains. A small whimper drew her attention to the bed. Beast Boy was in his dog form curled around a small heart shaped box.
Sighing, Raven walked over and sat on the bed. Like the last time, she said nothing. Merely waited for the silence's weight to be too much for him. It took longer than she expected, but after half an hour, she felt the bed shift beneath her as his weight was redistributed.
"What do you want?" he asked her in a slightly angry tone.
She didn't take the anger to heart. When in pain, anger was a good way to mask it. "Just came to keep you company."
Raven felt the bed shift again as he moved to sit next to her. "Why?"
"Because you're my friend and you're in pain." This conversation was starting to sound familiar. Oh right. This is almost the same one she had with him the last time Terra left.
He changed things then by saying, "Why do you care? You didn't even like Terra. Shouldn't you be happy she's gone now?"
She felt a stirring of temper but told herself to calm down. He wasn't really angry at her. "Did you miss the 'friend' part? And, it's not Terra that's upset me." And really, that was true. Terra was never the source of her irritation. The annoying changling beside her was. "It's you. You're hurt and that upsets me."
He sat there for a long moment before sighing. "Sorry I snapped at you."
"Don't be. If anyone understands using anger to hide other things, it's me." She gave him a slight smirk. "As you can probably testify to with the number of times I've thrown you out a window."
He gave a small chuckle. "Yeah." They fell into silence again before he said, "Raven?"
"Keeping me company." He stood up and stretched out muscles stiff from sitting in one place. "I'm going to go beat Cyborg at a game."
She tilted her head a little. Using her powers. She opened the curtains of the room to let the sun in. It was a very nice day out. "I have a better idea."
"We never did get to finish that volleyball game the day she came back, and I did promise to join you."
The smile he gave her had any trace of her anger and jealousy fizzing out into nothing. With a laugh, he grabbed her hand and dragged her out, surprising her. "Beast Boy?"
"We gotta hurry before you change your mind," he told her over his shoulder as he hurried towards the roof while shouting for the other titans.
She shook her head as he ruined the moment - this was starting to become a habit for him wasn't it - by acting childish again. Still, she played volleyball with her other friends and had fun while doing it - though she would die before admitting that last part because Beast Boy would never let her live it down.
xxxxx Aftershock xxxxx
Terra had blindsided them, and worse, she looked happy about it. Even worse than that, Beast Boy was still siding with her like she was some innocent victim. Despite everything, Rave held back as she fought Terra. For Beast Boy's sake, she wanted to believe that Terra would change, and yet...this was foolish. She knew better. But, she couldn't help it.
Back at the tower, everyone sat there in a kind of stunned state. Everyone but Raven. She knew what had happened and why. Terra wasn't just some other criminal. Like Beast Boy was saying. She'd been one of them. A Titan.
Despite her own thoughts, raven rounded on Beast Boy. "Terra was never our friend." Despite the anger and pain she felt coming from Beast Boy, Raven didn't stop. "She was a liar and spy trained by Slade and sent to destroy us. She was evil. Always had been and always will be."
Beast Boy didn't want to just give up. On the one hand, Raven felt bad for him. On the other, she wanted to ream him. Why couldn't he see that Terra wasn't good? Why couldn't he for once see...See what, Raven? She demanded of herself. The creepy goth girl with and evil father - even if he still didn't know about that part? Wait a minute. Why did she want him to look in her direction anyway? What did she want from Beast Boy?
The alarm went off, saving her from her own thoughts. Everyone ran to the screen to find out what was going on. Cinderblock, Plasmus, and Overload all at the same time. What were the odds? Raven decided now was a good time to put some distance between herself and Beast Boy. She needed time and space to figure out what was going on in her head.
"I can handle Overload," she told them as she turned and teleported out.
Raven chose not to hold back anything as she fought with Overload. It was a good way to burn off some of her irritation with Beast Boy. Why was she irritated with him really? There had to be more to it than just his infatuation with Terra. Right? Maybe she should visit Nevermore again and have a long chat with her emotions. One of them was definitely acting strangely.
Just as she'd reached that decision and was about to lift the chip that created overload, the room filled with mud. Terra. Even as she thought it, the mud attacked her, knocking her against a wall. Despite Robin saying that Terra would get another chance, Raven didn't hold back. She wanted Terra beaten because a part of her still seethed at the way she'd betrayed them. That overrode anything Robin said.
Despite her best effort, Terra managed to get under Raven's skin with several snide comments. "Come one Raven. What stings the most? That I tricked you? That I nearly wiped out your team? That everyone liked me better than you? Or was it that deep down you really thought I was your friend?"
Raven lost it at that point. Next thing she knew, she was dragged beneath the mud and found herself inhaling it. Her world went black. When she came to again, someone was kneeling next to her and she was coughing hard.
"Are you okay, Raven?" It was Beast Boy. He was supporting her weight and patting her back to help her get the mud out of her lungs.
"I'm fine," she managed around several hard coughs. "Just very sore."
"Are you sure?" he sounded very concerned.
"Yes." She glanced up at him to see he wasn't in much better shape than she was. Holding her hands out to him, she began to heal him.
"Can you do that to yourself?" he asked her.
"Yes and no. I heal myself while meditating. I can't do it otherwise."
"We're safe here for the moment," he told her. "I already checked out the area. Why don't you meditate while I try to find the others? That way, you can heal your lungs."
She glanced up at him and saw that he wasn't going to give up on this. That softened her slightly. "Okay."
He flashed her a quick grin, even though his eyes still seemed sad, and hurried off. She levitated and began, "Azarath Metrion Zinthos."
Beast Boy brought her out of it once he'd found all of the other Titans. It was time to get to work again. The plan was simple. They wouldn't hold back. Terra was just another criminal now. Raven sensed that for Beast Boy, she was much worse than that, but she said nothing. She was proven right when he went after Terra alone. It took everything she had not to chase after him. He wasn't some helpless kid after all. He could handle himself. And the rest of the team needed her to help them.
When they did catch up to Beast Boy, Terra had him pinned and was about to destroy him. Raven came out of the shadows pissed beyond anything she'd ever felt before. "It'll be the last thing you ever do."
It wasn't a threat. It was a promise.
Even after Terra sacrificed herself to save them, a part of Raven could only think that it was what she'd deserved. After everything Terra had done or said to her, Raven couldn't quite feel forgiving. At least, not yet. Maybe someday...Her eyes drifted over to the sad Beast Boy...Then again, maybe not.
That evening, Raven went to the rocky shore outside the tower where Beast Boy sat. This was obviously his spot to go to when he was feeling down. Sitting next to him, she just looked up at the stars.
"Just keeping me company, huh?" he asked her without looking over.
She just nodded.
"I really liked her, you know," he said, echoing a comment he'd made the first time they'd met Terra.
"You didn't, did you?"
She shook her head.
"I don't know really. I think..." She hesitated because it went against her instincts to talk about her feelings. But...She wanted to share her worst fears with someone. Beast Boy happened to be here right now. "I think I was jealous."
"You? Jealous?" He seemed very surprised by this. "What did you have to be jealous of?"
"Control. She had it and I don't." Raven looked down at the ocean. "I spend every day of my life meditating and controlling my feeling because if I don't I could hurt someone. I will probably be doing that for the rest of my life. But Terra..."
"Terra learned what you couldn't," he said as if understanding.
"Exactly." She sighed. "It was probably very small and childish of me, wasn't it? Even now after she sacrificed herself I still don't want to like her. Stupid."
"No," he disagreed. "It's human nature."
She looked over at him. "How do you feel?"
"I'll be fine."
"How? How can you be fine with this?"
"I still have you guys. My family."
"Family," she repeated as she looked back at the water, remember what he said the day the Titans were formed. "We protect each other right?"
"Exactly. And we keep each other from being lonely." He glanced at her with a sly grin. "Even those of us who would rather be alone."
"It's not that I want to be alone," she corrected. "I just don't have a choice in the matter."
They fell silent again for a long moment before Beast Boys said with a huge grin, "Wanna hear a joke?"
A sigh escaped her despite the small smile. "You always have to ruin the moment, don't you?"
He chuckled. "Maybe." Now his eyes drifted towards her. "Raven?"
"Is it because your an empath that you always come when I'm in pain or because you care?"
"Can't it be both?"
He considered this then nodded. "I guess so." His eyes moved back to the sky. "Thanks."
"You're welcome." Nothing else needed to be said.
All finished with this one. I'll have what I think will be the last chapter up asap.