Title: Resisting Evil

Author: Orilon

Rating: R for bad language

Pairing: Spike/Xander (implied)

Spoilers: Season 4 of Buffy

Distribution: If you want it, take it and let me know where.

Disclaimer: Everything from Buffy the Vampire Slayer belongs to Joss Whedon and Mutant Enemy.

Summary: Xander is tempted by Spike. Xander's POV.

Feedback: Please.

He came again tonight. The blond devil driving me insane. I can't mention to Willow or anyone else that he is back, because they would try to kill him and I don't want that. Not anymore at least. In the beginning yeah, I wanted him dead just so he would leave me alone. Every night I'm alone he offers his little deal: immortality and vengeance at the price of my soul. Every time he comes, he makes his deal of turning me sound better and better, or maybe my resistance is slipping more every time he comes.

Damn, it's slipping far. This last time I almost begged him to take me. He's sexy as sin and my hormones go nuts every time he's around, which makes it difficult for me to resist and tell him to go to hell. I'm not sure what gives me the strength to resist him, but I have a feeling that it's slowly going away because its harder to say no every time.

Evil blue eyes sparkle, and he chuckles, which sends shivers down my spine, as he leaves. I know its wrong to want him, which is probably what stopped me in the past. But, no one else seems to care for me. Willow is busy with Tara and we have slipped away as friends. Buffy never was a friend, just using me when convenient for her. Giles is wallowing in his own problems and I don't want to add more to them.

Spike uses that information to try to sway me to his side. Taunting me that he is the only one that cares, and that they don't give a fuck about me one way or another. They don't need me; I'm just a waste of space. Sad thing is, he's probably right