I know, my update is veryyyyyy late. Please forgive me.

I was consumed by darkness, and I didn't have any light to guide me back. But an unexpected voice woke me from the nightmare and told me to be a good writer and finish what I started no matter how bad it is.

I really had a rough time dealing with the demons I thought that I overcome years ago, but I guess, I thought wrong. T_T

Fine, enough with the drama.

Disclaimer: I do not own GinTama :'(

For all those who were looking for gin and kagura...

* Chapter 7 *

"Sadaharu, get them!" kagura ordered her beloved huge pet dog.

"Gaaaah!" the poor henchmen ran for their dear lives away from the huge mutt.

"Oi, kagura, I think they're scared enough" gin said monotonously.

"But sadaharu is having fun, neh, sadaharu?" kagura smiled at her dog.

Sadaharu barked happily at her.


They were startled when they hear an explosion.

"THIS IS THE SHINSENGUMI! SURRENDER NOW, BASTARDS!" they heard the roaring voice of the demon vice commander.

"Yoryuza!" the chief commander called them.

"What are you doing here? this is private business" hijikata said glaring at gin.

"A certain four eyes is involve, so I can't help it" the natural perm retorted.

Hijikata snorted.

"Of course, okita's four eyes was kidnapped"

"Speaking of the devil, where is that stupid sadist?" kagura asked scanning the area.

"Sougo is in the hospital-"

"He's actually with us, gorilla" gin cut isao off.

His jaw dropped.


"I knew it" hijikata gave a knowing smirk as he light up his fag.

"Sougo likes him" he blew a smoke.

Gin scoffed.

"I figured that a long time ago, faster than you"

"I'm not in the mood to argue right now"

"Where is sougo?" isao asked.

"We don't know, we lost him when he attacked by himself-aru" kagura answered.

"What if something happened to him?!" kondo asked panicking.

"Don't worry, kondo-san, a sadist like him lives longer than a cockroach" hijikata said in a reassuring sense.

"Is that a good thing?" kondo raised an eyebrow.

"Depends" hijikata shrugged.

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"This time, I won't let you escape, ayazawa" okita pointed his sword at the older man.

"Really, okita-kun?" ayazawa gave him a smirk.

"You fucker, you dare harm something precious to me" okita hissed.

"Who? that boy?" the older snorted.

"You have no taste"

Sougo snorted.

"You're the one to talk, you fuck whores every night" he retorted.

"So, they're hot women"

"Well, shinpachi-kun is better, he's smart, kind, cute, polite, a virgin, shy, honest, and did I mention virgin?"

"He doesn't deserve you" ayazawa sneered.

"What do you mean by that?" okita asked a little annoyed at the others statement.

"You know exactly what I mean" the older pressed.

He's right, shinpachi doesn't deserve a sadist like him and he knows that too.

He can't bear to hold the boy's hands with his sinful ones, the hands that shed too many blood and kill a lot of unfortunate souls. He can't look in those innocent chocolate brown eyes with his own amber ones that are full of malice. And what hurts the most, he can never exchange his dirty heart with the others pure one.

"You're right" he admitted sadly.

"He doesn't deserve me and vice versa"

"You know, all this chit chat wasted your time" ayazawa finally said.

"What do you mean?"

"I activated a time bomb and this crappy place is about to explode in 5 minutes" he smirked.

"What?" sougo gasped.

"Shinpachi!" then he ran to look for shinpachi.

He doesn't care if ayazawa is only bluffing, he dealt with him so many times to know when he's serious and those eyes just now, held no treachery about the situation.

' He's fucking dead serious!' he screamed on his mind.

"Shinpachi!" he called desperately.

"Sougo!" he found kondo-san and the other shinsengumi officers instead.

"Kondo-san, listen, this place is about to blow up!" he informed.

"What?" hijikata raised an eyebrow.

"Ayazawa activated a time bomb and-"


He was cut off by a loud explosion, followed by another one or two.

"Shit!" hijikata cursed and immediately grab kondo and sougo to run.

But okita tried to break free.


"What the hell is your problem?! We're about to be blown up if we stay here!" hijikata yelled.

Hijikata stared at okita's scared eyes and understood.


This is his fault, he should've save shinpachi immediately, but now, he doesn't know what to do.

The yoryuza was outside waiting, like how they asked them. Kagura was knocked out by gin for refusing to comply. For the first time, surprisingly, the natural perm abide by their demand.

Another explosion broke his trance.

He punched sougo hard on the abdomen.

"I'm sorry, sougo"

The punch was so hard that sougo lost consciousness. Hijikata can't believe that he actually knocked the prince of sadist out.

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Gin and sadaharu almost jumped because of the loud explosion they heard.

Gin pat sadaharu on the head for reassurance.

"Everything will be all right, big guy" he said.

"I hope shinpachi is fine"

He caught a glimpse of tall figures running toward their direction.

"Yoryuza!" kondo ran to him then bow his head so low.

"Commander!" yamazaki gasped.

"We..." a sob escaped his throat.

"We couldn't save him"

Gin's eyes widened at what the commander meant, he could only fall on his knees as tears are threatening to escape from his eyes.

"What are you talking about?!" he turned to see kagura, who just woke up from being knocked out.

An hour later, the broken hearted yoryuza left.

Sougo stirred and slowly open his eyes.

"Shinpachi" was the first to come out from his mouth.

Kondo couldn't bear look him in the eye.

Hijikata sighed.

"Listen, sougo, four eyes is..."

The younger man wait for him to finish his sentence.

"He's gone" he averted his eyes, he almost choke his self at the look in those amber eyes.

"You're fucking with me, right?" sougo doesn't want to believe what the other just said.

No! The boy isn't gone! He still needs to know that I...

"We're sorry, sougo" kondo apologized.

The youngest let out a bitter laugh.

"Bull crap! Shinpachi-kun is alive!" he bowed his head as he laugh some more.

Hijikata almost thought that the young man had snapped, until he notice the droplets of tears on the others dark trouser.

"Haha, all this time I tried to protect him from me, yet I still lost him!" he finally let out a sob.

"Why do I keep losing the ones I love?!" he cried.

This is one of those scenes that hijikata would never wanted to see, it's so heart wrenching and sad. Full of pain and melancholy.

Let's go crazy, crazy, crazy 'til we see the sun,

I know we only met but let's pretend it's love...

And just like that, his sadness was ruined by once again, yamazaki's ringing phone.

"Crap!" yamazaki cursed as he frantically shut off his phone.

"YAMAZAKI!" hijikata roared then chase the poor spy.

Sougo kept crying while hijikata beat yamazaki into pulp.

Meanwhile, kagura was still crying while gin kept silent.

"Shinpachi" the girl sobbed.

Gin held back the tears that are threatening to fall.

Shinpachi, how could you leave...

Gin never admitted, but shinpachi is very important to him. He's like the brother he never had.

"Gin-san" great, now he's having auditory hallucination and hears shinpachi's voice.

"Gin-san!" there it goes again, a little louder.

"Gin-san, have you gone deaf?!" then something hard was thrown at the back of his head.

"Ouch!" he grasped the offending item and realize that it was a wooden sword, shinpachi's wooden sword!

"Shinpachi!" he frantically snapped his head towards the direction where the wooden sword came from.

And there stood shinpachi.

"Ghost?!" gin let out a girly scream.

"I'm not a ghost, you idiot! I'm alive!"

Gin snapped his mouth shut.

"You're still alive?"

"Alive and kicking"

"But how did you escape that explosion?" kagura asked also happy to see their friend again.

"I don't know, when the explosion began, a large piece of hallow blocks fell on my head, knocking me unconscious on the process. Then I woke up under that tree" shinpachi pointed at a tree not so far away from them.

"That's odd" gin commented.

"Who cares!" kagura squealed then pounce on shinpachi for a hug.

"I've miss you" she said.

"Same here" shinpachi replied hugging her back.

Gin wrapped his long arms around them.

"We are so fricking sappy right now, but who give a damn!"

Unbeknownst to them, a handsome strong boy with pony tailed orange hair like kagura's, was watching them behind a tree.

"Never seen my imouto like that" he muttered then focus more attention to the bespectacled boy he just saved earlier.

"I don't like weak people, but I think you're an exception" he smirked before leaving.

He kept walking until the darkness engulfed his figure.

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So the next chapter will be the final chapter, should I make okita kiss shinpachi?: 3

I'm very grateful to all of the friends who supported this fic, no matter how crappy this is.

Thank you for the reviews, favorites and follows. I love you guys! *hugs *

I'm also sorry for any mistakes in grammar, english is not my first language...

~ Lyn