"It's fine," I whispered into the pale moonlit night sky, "It's all fine." Soft raindrops fell down from a few sparse clouds that dangled over the brick buildings. I shivered in my light shirt as it became speckled with water droplets. "Seems like I'm not the only one crying on a night like this," I whispered again.
"You shouldn't be the only one who has to suffer from this." a melodically low voice startled me out of my hunched over position on the balcony.
In the archway of the door way stood the man who had taken my heart. His dark mass of curls looked sleep rumpled and his nightgown was tied loosely around his pajamas.
"I didn't mean to wake you," I mumbled, lowering my head to hide the tears. It was no use, he could see right through me. Even if I had never spoken or looked up he would be able to read me like a book.
Avoiding the obvious, he made small talk. "Lovely, isn't it?" he asked, stepping out into the rain with me. "The rain?" he persisted.
"Yes," I said while turning my head up to feel the moisture rinse away my tears. His armed draped around my shoulders and he pulled me into a tight embrace, my front facing his. His head dropped to my bad shoulder and my vision was obscured by his hair.
"I'm sorry," he whispered sullenly into my ear, trying to portray his emotions through the hug. I hesitantly snaked my arms around his waist and held him on the balcony for a long while. Just simply feeling his warmth and the rain falling down upon the two of us.
He would give me as much time as I needed. He understood how I felt and why it was important for him to be there with me. All I wanted was to hear the sweet lull of his violin whisk me away into a land of dreams where everything was perfect and there were no threats of death looming over our heads.
Just once… I wanted everything to be okay. I wanted to be able to love him without the fear of having to lose him. I felt more tears prick my vision.
"I just want to go one day knowing that I'll still have you when I wake up the next," I sobbed into his chest, feeling his arms tighten around me. My voice broke, "Just one day."
Even with the rain pouring down around us and with the thunder echoing in the distance, he held me. Even as I sobbed into his chest and broke down completely, never once did he let go or try and get me to stop. He quietly consoled me and let me pour out all of my feelings, simply holding me through the storm.