~Vegeta's POV~

I saw how they died… I saw how they got torn apart in front of my eyes… I laughed as they died… I was happy… I was insane… I was a child… The insanity passed… But… Now it's coming back… I can't control myself anymore… I start laughing in random situations… I start strangling the people around me… I never feel safe… Especially in the dark… Now, in my dark room, in the night, with my head on my knees, I still feel unsafe. My headache isn't going away, in fact, it's getting worse. I feel the tears that are falling down my cheeks; I can't hold them back… I'm talking to Oto-san to calm down, as I usually do "Oto-san… why is this happening to me…?" I thought. "Because of your new powers…" I heard him answer. I hated my new powers. I know they make me strong, and now I'm the strongest being in the universe, and I'm taller, faster, crazier… I looked through the window with my tear filled eyes. I saw how the night was calm. I wished that I would be that calm again, but that will never happen… Never …

I leaned my back against the wall and closed my eyes. The tears didn't stop flowing. I felt my heart beating fast. I tried to calm down… Didn't work… Nothing worked basically. I'm insane, and I had to deal with it. I know that fact and I accepted it, but that doesn't mean that it doesn't hurt… I opened my eyes and looked at my bandaged up hands. I un-bandaged them and looked at them. Five hols in each one… I made those holes myself, using ten nails and a hammer. I did that after hurting Kakarot with the power that wasn't even mine. I tour the bandages off that were covering my chest and shoulders. Scars, scratch marks, bite marks, pieces of flesh missing in some places, and my right shoulder didn't have any meat or flesh on it – there was only bones there. I don't know where any of these scars came from. Every morning I find a new one on my body somewhere. I always wore a bandage over my left eye. What happened on that eye is too gruesome even for me. And, unlike the scars on my chest, I perfectly remember how I got that. My body shivered just of the thought of that. I want to be the man I once was… But that will never happen… Never…

I heard voices around me, but they were far away from me, I couldn't make out what they were saying. I don't know who they are, but I've gotten used to them. I place my head on my knees again and close my eyes. The tears still don't stop… Damn' it… When I'm with everyone else, I act like I'm still angry, like I was before, but actually I'm scared… Scared that I won't hurt them… "I don't want to be like this…" I thought and sobbed, but I know that that will never happen. I remember how my life used to be so simple, but now I'm living in fear… Fear of myself. I hear how the voices get louder, and suddenly I hear how someone starts scratching the wall, like trying to get to me. I lifted my head, and saw two hands appear behind me, ready to grab me. I got scared and dashed forward. I look behind – nothing there. Just another thing I go through every day. All this because of my insanity. I sight and bandage up my hands and chest and shoulders again. I sat on the ground and brushed the tears away. Suddenly I heard how someone opened my door. I acted like I didn't see or hear that. I look blankly in front of me. I hear a familiar voice say "Geta…?" I knew who that was. My best friend… My worst enemy… My rival… Kakarot. I don't say anything; I still act like I don't see anything.

He sat on the ground next to me and looked at me "What's wrong…?" he asked. I looked at him. The voices around me got quite again. I didn't say anything. I feel how the new tears run down my cheeks. Kakarot saw that "Vegeta?" he asked, surprised "Are you crying?" I didn't answer. I brushed the tears off again. Didn't work. New ones pilled up. "Geta, you know that you can tell me anything, ne?" I heard Kakarot say. "Do you really want to know…?" I heard my voice after a few moments of silence. My voice was lower than usual, probably because I hadn't spoken for… what, an hour or two? Kakarot nodded. I looked down and whispered "I'm scared…" I'm not sure how did he react, I couldn't see anymore… another bad thing of my insanity. "Of what…?" I heard him ask. I leaned back and I could see again, but I could only see red… red… and only red… "Of myself…" I answered "The whole world has turned upon its head… I can't control myself anymore… I'm scared to be around you…" I looked at him. He was surprised "Why?" he said. I looked at the sealing "Because I might lose control of myself and kill you without regret…" I heard myself say.

I could tell he was getting a bit scared. My anger built up in me. "You probably think I'm crazy, don't you…?" I growled out, feeling how my anger started taking over me "I know that I'm insane, but I still believe that that'll change one day… and I know you don't think the same way I do…" I looked at him once more. He looked terrified "Vegeta…" he whispered "You're… you're eyes… they're…" I felt my fear again "Oh fuck… Don't tell me that my eyes are red! I CAN'T LEN MY SAIYAN INSTINCTS TAKE OVER!" "They're… bleeding…" he whispered. I lifted my hand and brushed it against my eyes. I looked at it. It was covered in blood "No… NOT THIS!" I thought and stood up. I dashed towards the window "Hey, Geta, matte! Where are you going?" I hear Kakarot ask. I opened the window and looked at him "Help me…" I whispered and flew out.

I landed in a forest. I leaned back against the tree and let the tears, mixed with my blood, fall down. I collapsed on the ground. I started hitting the ground, trying to make the pain I felt disappear… At least just a little. Didn't work. I finally lifted my head and looked at the darkness of the forest. I stared at it for a while, and then I heard myself whisper in a voice that was begging for help "Somebody… Anybody… Please… Help me…" I thought and fell on the ground. I felt how my mind started turning black. I felt my conscious slipping. I closed my eyes. The last thing I felt was the tears and blood running down my cheeks…