A/N: So I didn't think I'd be updating this early, but this came to me on the bus into university and then it just flowed on from there. This continues on from Chapter 1, however, the song is 'Desperado' by the Eagles. However, the lyrics are not in the chapter this time, it's more the general feel of the song and some borrowed lines. I have a couple of thank yous, first to Darkiise, for reviewing; always being there to bounce ideas off and to offer support- I don't know what I'd do without you, secondly, to Gypsygrrl and reader713 for putting this on alert, finally to everyone else for reading. Please review,
Disclaimer: I do not own the characters or the songs… I'd be rich if I did… not a destitute student.
Desperado- The Eagles
Shinji knew how to push Kensei's buttons. They'd been friends for so long, it was impossible not to know, especially with Kensei's intolerance for stupidity, irrationality, and Mashiro. It was easy to get him riled up enough for their sparring sessions to become interesting.
However, Shinji always knew how to make Kensei see reason. He'd helped to bring him and Shuuhei together; he'd managed to persuade his rational friend, to do something irrational, but ultimately right. Yet, he now had to watch as it was crumbling in front of him, after just a year. The strain of their relationship was beginning to show and they'd started to argue. This last argument had been their worst and, even though Shinji knew they'd talked about it, Shuuhei wasn't staying at the barracks and there was a heavy tension between the two. And Shinji knew why.
"Why are you being stubborn?" Shinji asked lazily
"Huh?" Kensei grunted, looking up at the blond, stood in the doorway of his office.
"I know you heard me," the blond replied, swaggering over to the couch in the middle of the room. Upon reaching it, he proceeded to loll upon it, flicking his tie over his face, in a childish manner.
"I did and I chose to answer with a noise rather than actual words, hinting at the fact I don't want to talk about it… in fact I don't even know what you're talking about" growled the silver haired Captain in reply. Shinji scowled.
"You know damned well what I'm on about!" the blond snapped in frustration
Silence fell between the two men as they both tried to force the other to speak first, in a childish attempt to prove they were right. Shinji glared at Kensei from the couch, despite the fact Kensei had yet to look up from the training report he'd been reading since before his friend entered.
"I'm not being stubborn" Kensei said quietly after about ten minutes.
Shinji was startled by his friend's choice to speak. But it revealed that Kensei wasn't handling everything as well as everyone thought. I meant that Kensei didn't know what to do and needed someone to talk to, even if he didn't particularly want to.
"No, you're not, you're being obtuse." He replied.
"I'm a person not an angle," shot Kensei, looking up from the report long enough to meet his friend's eye and run his hand through his silver hair.
Kensei sighed, "It's not that simple."
"Really? I thought it was. You see what happened was you and Shuuhei had a fight. Now it was a huge fight- on a scale of Hollow to Aizen, this one was an Espada. However, he let you work thing out for yourself before he came back to talk it through. You talked it through. Now what's not simple about that?" retorted Shinji with a slight grin.
"Everything!" Kensei shouted suddenly.
Shinji sighed, knowing he was going to have to pull out the big guns. "It is simple Kensei-san. You just don't want it to be. When are you going to come to your senses and realise that you've been "out riding fences" for long enough? You had your reasons. You were angry and upset and lonely because we were forced out of home and hunted like common Hollows. I get it, I was there too. We all had our way of dealing with it: that was yours."
Kensei stared at his friend, unsure what to make of his blunt approach to Kensei's rather full sexual past.
Shinji had paused waiting for Kensei to respond, however, when the man just stared at him he continued, "You knew like the rest of us, it was going to hurt you eventually. None of us expected it to be Kisuke, but that's not the point-"
"Don't. Go. There." Kensei growled.
"Why not?" Shinji asked, knowing he was treading on dangerous ground, but he didn't care. Right then, he knew he had to make sure, no one got hurt from this, Kensei or Shuuhei.
"Well Kensei, why not? You drew the short straw; it was going to happen to you at some point. You got dumped because in the words of the humans 'if you draw the queen of diamonds boy, she'll beat you if she's able' and you just kept going."
"Shinji!" Kensei shouted, his sudden shout catching his friend by surprise.
"Don't you dare tell me to stop Kensei you mangy old git. You need to hear this, because Shuuhei is the best thing that has ever been laid in front of you. You aren't getting any younger and you need to come to your senses. You've got to let somebody love you, even though you're afraid of getting hurt, even though you're afraid of being betrayed again. You've got to let someone love you, before it's too late, and Shuuhei is meant for you. He's the best thing that has ever happened to you." Shinji paused from breath,
"He loves you, completely. In relationships people hurt each other, it's just what happens, but if you can forgive the act then you can get over the pain and I'll be damned if I am going to sit around and watch you ruin your life and his."
Kensei started, almost vacantly at Shinji for a few minutes, unsure what to do or say. Eventually he felt a blush working its way onto his cheeks and he let his head fall on his desk with a groan. He felt ashamed, firstly that he'd been such an ass and secondly because Shinji knew him too damned well.
"You're a bastard, you know that?" Kensei mumbled, not bothering to pick his head up from the desk.
"You've mentioned it once or twice." replied Shinji with a grin, satisfied that he'd made his point.