Summary:I'm not a monster. I love her. I love her so much

Disclaimer:Unfortunately, I don't own Jem, or anyone else in here. Which is tragic, because I am in love with Jem. Even though he's a book character.

I'm not a monster. I love her. I love her so much.



Katherine O'Connor.

Kally Smith.

She loves me too.

I wish she wouldn't.

I'm so glad she does.

She thinks I shouldn't get so mad. What I did to Holly was horrible. And Matt's bike. And making Meg feel unwelcome.

But it was worth it.

It wasn't worth it. She's broken up with me. Maybe I deserve it.

Maybe I should get revenge on her. I bet I could make her leave.

It worked on Laura.

It was fun with Laura.

Maybe I should leave her alone. I love her.

I can't.

I have to.

She'll deserve whatever she gets.

I don't want to hurt her.

But maybe I do.

I took her on the train. I knew she couldn't resist trying to save the day.

But I bet she'll get mad.

I bet she'll tell Mum.

Maybe she'll tell the police.

I'll keep her. Then she can't tell anyone.

But she'll fight. I can't hurt her.

I shouldn't be so nice.

I went to jail the last time I wasn't.

Not including Laura.


Laura Baker.

I loved Laura, too.

She left.

She's gone.

She doesn't love me.

I want to die.

I want her to die.

I love her.

I hate her.

I'm so sorry, Kally.


I'm not a monster. I loved her. I loved her so much.