Summary: Cannon up until 02x10 Discretion. Scotty, Lilly and the gang are in Connecticut having just closed the Greg Vizcaino case and Scotty seems distracted by something.

Looking for love

Chapter One:

Scotty looked over at the rest of his squad, watched them laughing and joking with the New Haven Detectives. They had closed the case of Greg Vizcaino, a prominent attorney that was murdered during a rape and murder trial. Greg was a good, decent man who couldn't allow the innocent Antonio Mendez, go down for a crime he didn't commit and started his own investigation, which ultimately lead to his own death. At first Scotty had been resentful when Gill Sherman had brought them the case, telling Scotty that he would be interested in the case, purely because Greg was Puerto Rican. He hadn't been too keen on going to Connecticut either, he had just ended his relationship with Elisa, once and for all only a few months ago and it was still kind of fresh. To make matters worse, their doer turned out to be another cop and a fellow Puerto Rican too boot, Salvador Martin.

Scotty hated the fact that he'd like the guy to begin with; they'd had a drink together that first night and talked about their ancestry, past cases they'd worked. Scotty had actually felt an affinity with the guy and when the evidence started to point to Martin, Scotty felt betrayed.

Martin had tried to defend his actions, saying that it was only a matter of time before Antonio would be in the system and when that didn't work he pleaded to Scotty, asked him if he was going to turn on his own kind. He had called him Hermanos, Brother.

"You ain't my kind, and you ain't my Brother" Scotty had snapped back.

Scotty sighed and took another sip of scotch and ran a hand through his hair "You doing ok over here Scotty?" Lilly asked him as she approached the bar.

"Fantastic" Scotty replied sarcastically. Lilly slid into the vacant bar stool beside her slightly inebriated partner and ordered herself a drink. Scotty swallowed the glass of scotch in front of him and ordered another one for himself. "Put that on my tab" Lilly said to the bartender.

He nodded and walked down to the other end of the bar to serve another customer.

"Thanks Lil" Scotty said as he raised his glass in a toast to her

"No problem" she replied and she clinked her beer glass with his scotch

"So how's your sister doing? Ran into her the other day she said that she got a job at Mcginty's tavern" Scotty began conversationally

"Yeah, she's actually doing ok. Gave her the day bed to sleep on, after the whole George Marks case I didn't like the idea of her being out there by herself. She's my baby sister"

Scotty smiled at her "I am glad you too are patching things up"

"Yeah" Lilly replied wistfully "Me too"

She watched as Scotty stood up, tossing a few bills on counter to cover his tab "Think I might head back to the hotel and get some sleep, wanna get outta here as soon as possible tomorrow"

"Want some company? I think I need some fresh air"

"Sure" Scotty said as he slid on his coat and wound his scarf around his neck.

Lilly threw some cash on the bar to cover her tab and followed her partner out of the bar and into the cold New Haven night.

It hadn't taken them long to walk back to the hotel, and Lilly walked to her door slidding the key out of her pocket and into the lock. "See you in the morning Scotty" she said as she opened the door.

"Yeah, night Lil" he replied.

Lilly stepped out of her shower and wrapped the towel around her waist; she wiped the fog from the mirror and started to run a brush through her hair. She was just about to pick up her hair dryer when she heard a knock on her door. Putting it back down, she tightened the towel around her waist and walked over the carpeted living area to the door, pulling it open a jar. "Hey" Scotty said.

"Hi" Lilly replied

"I was gonna see if you wanted to crack this bottle of Southern Comfort with me, but I can see that now's probably a good time" he added as he saw her standing in front of him, wearing only a towel, her long wet hair resting on her shoulder and beads of water meandered their way down her neck and disappeared beneath the white cotton material that surround his slim partner.

"No, it's fine" Lilly said as she pulled the door open further "Come in, I'll just go and put some clothes on"

Scotty nodded and stepped over the threshold, watching Lilly disappear into the bathroom. He looked around her room, finding it exactly the same as the room he shared with the guys, minus the lousy cot bed that he had to sleep on. He sat down on the spare bed and wondered whether Lil would mind if he crashed here for the night.

Lilly emerged a few minutes later, her wet hair tied up in a ponytail and dressed PPD sweats and an old T-shirt.

"Are you sure that you wanna drink that?" Lilly asked as Scotty unscrewed the lid.

"Oh yeah" he said and he took a deep swig wincing as the liquid burnt his throat "I need it"

Lilly reached out her hand and took the bottle, sitting down beside him. She wasn't really big bourbon drinker but she took a sip, her face contorting in disgust. "So what's going on with you Scotty, you've seemed to a little down lately"

Scotty shrugged "Been thinking a lot lately about whether or not I made a mistake by breaking up with Elisa, feel like I abandoned her Lil" He took the bottle from her again, taking another hit.

Lilly shook her head "Scotty, you didn't abandon her. She's in the right place to get the help she needs"

Scotty could feel tears burning the back of his eyes and a lump forming in her throat "I promised her Lil, I promised her that I wouldn't send her back to that place and that I'd take care of her. And what do I do at the first opportunity? I sell her out, I let her parents put her back in that place and I walk out of her life. I failed her Lil"

Lilly took the bottle, put it on the nightstand and took his hands in hers "Scotty you didn't fail her, you stayed with her for fifteen years, you stayed with her long after other guys would have left her. You can't keep doing this to yourself" she said indicating the bottle of alcohol "you have to stop blaming yourself for her getting sick"

He nodded "I know but it's hard not to blame myself. You should have seen her face when I told her that I couldn't do it anymore, she told me she understood and that I should try and be happy with someone that isn't sick. But it broke my heart Lil, I could hear her crying all the way down the hall and it took all my strength to just keep walking"

Lilly placed a hand on his shoulder and squeezed it gently "I can't imagine how hard it must have been Scotty, but you know I am her here if you need to talk, or drink" she finished with a slight laugh.

Scotty chuckled and looked into her eyes, knowing that Lilly really meant what she was saying "Thanks Lil"

"No problem" she replied honestly

Scotty could feel something growing between them, something that he knew he shouldn't be happening between him and his partner, and his breathing was becoming shallower as a result.

"You should probably go before the guys miss you" Lilly said softly, snapping him out of his trance "Besides I need to finish drying my hair"

"Right" Scotty said as he stood up, and walked with Lilly to the front door. "Thanks Lil" he said as he opened the door. He leant down and pressed a kiss to her cheek, lightly grazing her lips. That was a mistake and he knew it the minute he pulled back "I am sorry"
"No, it's fine Scotty, really"

"No its not I shouldn't of kissed you, dumb thing to do" he ran a hand over his face and swore under his breath.

"No really. It's fine. It was just a friend kiss, right?"

"Yeah, friend kiss" Scotty said as he looked down at her and that feeling started to swell again, only this time, he saw it reflected in Lilly's eyes too. "And this is a friend kiss too" Before he could stop himself, he had kiss her on the lips, his hand coming up to caress her cheek.

He didn't pull back to far from her and Lilly swallowed hard, looking into his eyes. She knew that this was wrong, that she shouldn't be kissing him. But she couldn't help it, he needed her, she could tell and as much as she didn't want to admit it….she needed him too. "Friend kiss" Lilly said.

She moved in to kiss him again on the lips and this time, Scotty brushed his tongue against her lips, requesting entrance into her mouth.

She opened her mouth for him and couldn't help the groan that escaped her throat as she felt his tongue caress hers. Her eyes slid shut as she felt his grip tighten on her arms.

Scotty broke the kiss once more, looking down at her as if to seek permission for what was about to happen. Lilly took his hand and lead him back over to the bed and sat down, feeling much like a nervous teenager, having sex for the first time. "You know she was right about one thing" Scotty

"Who was right?" Lilly asked

"Elisa, you are beautiful Lil" He reached over and brushed a stray lock of hair behind her ear. She blushed and looked down at the small space between them, not wanting to look Scotty in the eye. "If you want me to go Lil, I will"

Lilly's eyes shot up to his "No, I just guess I am a little nervous"

"We don't have to do this" Scotty said soothingly

Lilly thought for a moment, weighing up her options. She could either ask Scotty to leave and they both could act like nothing happened.

Or she could take a chance and see what happens, maybe it would be good and she needed good. She took a deep breath and leant forward, pressing a kiss on his lips. Scotty kissed her back, one hand on her thigh, the other hand resting against her cheek. Lilly blindly fumbled with the top few buttons of Scotty's shirt, glad he had removed his tie.

Lilly broke their kiss and her eyes fixated on his chest as more and more of it came into view. Scotty was enjoying her perusal, her fingers joining the exploration as she peeled the material from his shoulders.

Then it was Scotty's turn, he tried not to get too excited as he pulled her t-shirt up her slim body and her pert breasts came into view.

Being that she was getting ready for bed when Scotty had stopped by, she wasn't wearing a bra. It was becoming real too him now. The only other woman he had seen naked was Elisa, the girl he met and fell in love with when he was fourteen, the woman who he had planned to spend the rest of his life with and definitely the only woman he had imagined he'd ever have sex with. But here he was in front of another woman, his best friend and partner no less, and she was topless. He gently touched the side of her breast, his thumb flicked over her nipple. He shifted closer to her on the bed and he dropped his head and started to trail kisses along her shoulder and up her neck. Lilly moaned softly, and her fingers dug into his shoulder as he slowly pushed her down against the bed. They manoeuvred themselves till Lilly was lying down against the pillows and Scotty's lower body fell between her legs. She could feel him growing harder against her centre and as his lips moved back to kiss hers Lilly couldn't help but groan loudly.

Her legs wrapped themselves around his waist and pulled him closer to her. She reached between them and loosened his belt, undoing the hook and fly of his suit pants.

Scotty felt her hand brushing against his manhood and he groaned, feeling himself growing even harder. Scotty tugged free the drawstring of her sweats and his hand slipped inside. Lilly jerked against him as his hand touched her warm, dripping centre. She tore her lips from his and whimpered, she shoved his pants and briefs down his hip, using her legs to push them off completely.

He kissed his way down her chest, pausing to suck gently on her nipples. Lilly's finger gripped his thick black hair, and tried to not to cry out too loudly. She had a feeling that these cheap hotel walls weren't exactly sound proof and with the rest of the squad in the room next door, she didn't want them to hear her and Scotty having sex.

When Scotty's burning lips reached her belly button, his tongue dipped into it as he tugged her sweats down her hips.

He reached down for his pants, pulling out his wallet and searching it for a condom, which he luckily had in there. Scotty rolled it on and positioned himself over her, his soulful dark eyes staring down into hers. He kissed her gently and slid into her, groaning loudly at the feeling of her surrounding him. It had been a long time since he had had sex, almost a year now. As Elisa got sicker, her sex drive became pretty much non-existent but Scotty hadn't cared. He loved her and he wanted to be with her.

But now that they had broken up, he was free to find someone else, free to have sex with someone else. But it had still taken him months to get to where he is now.

He started out slow; thrusting into her as deep as he dared hoping that it Lilly was enjoying it as much as he was. If the moans she'd emitted and the way her fingers dug into his back, she was. "Oh God…..Scotty" Lilly whispered.

"Lil" he replied, speeding up his movements, rocking his hips in time with hers. Lilly kissed him passionately, her tongue inter twinning with his. Her hands moved up his back to cup the back of his neck, her fingers threading through his hair again.

Scotty groaned, enjoying the feeling of being inside of her. It felt different to when he had made love to Elisa, he wasn't in love with Lilly but it still felt amazing. There was a part of him that still felt guilty, as if he was cheating on her by sleeping with Lilly. But it had also been a long time since he last had had sex and he wanted it to last as long as possible.

Lilly could feel her orgasm hit her like a freight train and groaned had to tear her lips from his again so she could breath. Scotty was moving faster, her tightened centre making his own climax approaching faster. His eyes rolled back in his head and groaned low in his throat, he wasn't able to hold on any longer came, shooting himself deep inside her. His arms started to shake violently and he could no longer support himself, so he carefully lowered him body onto her.

Lilly could feel his pounding heart, matching perfectly with her own. "That was…." Scotty mumbled his face buried in pillow beside her.

"Amazing" she supplied and he nodded. He finally gained the strength to slide off her and covered himself up with the sheet. Lilly stared up at the ceiling, wondering if she had just made the most stupid mistake of her life. She had just slept with her partner, her partner and her best friend if she was being honest with herself. Suddenly feeling self-conscious, she pulled the sheet up to her neck. She turned her head and looked at him and Scotty slowly turned to face her too "This was a mistake…wasn't it?" he asked

Lilly nodded in agreement "Probably"

"I should go, get back before the guys miss me" He sat up removed the condom and tossing it in the bin bedside the bed. He pulled on his underwear and pants, standing up and grabbing his shirt from the floor.

"Scotty?" Lilly whispered as she sat up, still clutching the sheet to her chest.

"Yeah Lil?" he asked as he buttoned up his shirt.

"My offer still stands; if you need to talk I am here for you"

He tucked his shirt back into his pants and picked up his jacket "Thanks Lil".

"Is there any chance we can just go back to the way things were before, act like this never happened?"

"Yeah Lil, of course" He smiled at her and opened the door a jar, and looked around. He wanted to make sure no one saw him leaving Lilly's hotel room. He closed the door behind him and Lilly slid out of bed, realising she was going to need another shower.

Scotty opened his hotel room finding the guys asleep, Vera snoring and Will mumbling something about Lena again. He crossed to his overnight bag and pulled out a clean pair of underwear and his sweats, before he got into the bathroom and turned on the shower. As he stood under the hot stream of water, rinsing any trace of Lilly off of his body, he realised that although what he and Lilly had just done was a serious mistake, he had needed it, and that it was going to be difficult for him to pretend he'd hadn't seen his best friend naked. Pretend he hadn't enjoyed the sex, pretended that he hadn't loved hearing her moaning in pleasure under him. He closed his eyes, trying to stop the plethora of racy images running thorough his head. Groaning softly as he felt himself growing hard again, yes it was definitely going to be next to impossible to be around her without wanting to tear her clothes off.

A/n: I wasn't gonna post this story until I finished it but I was dying to know whether or not you guys would like it. Tell me what you think. :)