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APOV:

To whom this may regard, for the record I was completely and totally against this move to this vile home. The rest of the evening was a blur, I screamed for the fire department out of fear that the house would be encase in flames and Alec was forced to pull me out of my room before I fell into hysterics. Then the cops came when they heard my shrieks, a neighbor probably called them in fear that I was being beat.

A crowd of unknown neighbors formed as the police confronted Stacy, I used this time to get a breath of fresh air and calm my racing mind. I think a part of my break down was my immense hatred, irritation and overall crazy pent up over the past year that broke loose out of one freaky encounter.

Alec, livid with my little episode practically knocked me over with a rough shove, "what the hell was that?" he growled.

With a roll of my eyes, I stuffed my hands in my pockets and shrugged. "I can honestly tell you I have no idea-"

"You almost gave mom a heart attack!" he practically shouted. "Jade's still crying, look at what you caused!"

I couldn't speak, I was mortified with myself. I could see the worry lines on my mom's face as she held a weeping Jade in her arms, the red white and blue cop light's cast dark shadows on everyone's faces. We were now the freaks of the neighborhood, Alec was right, I'd made a mess.

"You're right. I'm sorry…." I ducked my head, unable to meet his eyes without my own filling with emotions. He opened his mouth to reply but shut it and shook his head.

"Why can't you just cut mom a break for once, Liss? Geez…."

With that, he left and he might as well have punched me in the stomach before he went for how deeply that comment cut. I already felt bad but leave it to an older brother to kick you when you're down, me and Alec didn't necessarily fight but he was like a soldier. Obedient, a blind follower of our parents rules, he did what he was supposed to without a question because he was expected to and he felt it was his duty to step in as the man of the house. While I was the rebel, the bad seed, I caused problems and constantly butt heads with my mother, it was a never ending problem with this family. Sometimes I wondered it would be like if I wasn't apart of it.

"Is this your house?"

I turned to tell this person to go away and I didn't want to talk but I soon found myself incapable of speech, I'd never seen a more fine specimen. About six foot one, he towered at least five inches over me with a shock of midnight colored hair that fell in his pale face, almost covering the grayest eyes I'd ever seen. His lips lead me to believe that the gods had personally sculpted them themselves, and he had the thickest eyelashes I'd ever seen on a guy.

Ok, maybe I was over exaggerating but dang he was hot.

"Um… uh yeah" I shook my head, looking up at him and pulling my jacket closed tighter, mostly because I was in a tank top and the most torn jeans I owned. Why hadn't I done something more attractive with my hair then a messy ponytail?

"What happened?" a small smirk curved his lips, jeez I was a mess when it came to cute boys. Subtly, I slipped my hair from it's ponytail and raked a hand through my hair.

"A fire scare" I shrugged, "do you live around here?" I asked in dire need of a subject change.

"Yeah, I live right down the street" he nodded in the direction of his home and held a hand out, "Jared Villanueva, and you are?"

"Alyssa" I shook his hand, which was adorned with multiple rings, but he had the greatest hand I'd ever held. It was strong, with long, pale fingers.

"Did you just move here?" Jared nodded to my home.

"Yep, we're starting school on Monday."

"I'm not even going to ask which school you're going to since there's basically only one High School everyone goes to around here" he smiled, "so I'll see you around I guess. What grade are you in?"

"Just starting my Junior year, my brother's a Senior though. What grade are you in? Maybe we have classes together" I suggested. Maybe he'd offer to show me around and we could then skip off into the sunset happily married.

His smile, dimples and all, made me melt a little on the inside, "we're in the same grade. Show me your schedule and I'll show you around if you get lost, well if you want"

"I'd love that!" good god, that was a little too eager. Hopefully he couldn't see my blush in this darkness.

Luckily, he laughed it off which I thankfully joined in on, "well awesome" he shrugged, "I guess I'll see you around, Alyssa" he nodded behind me and I cringed while turning around. Stacy, in all her pajama-clad, Jade cradling glory was looking at me with a tired expression.

"Could you take Jade inside? She needed to be in bed a couple of hours ago."

I wanted to apologize as soon as she handed me Jade but I knew it would be to no avail, she'd brush it off as her fault and I couldn't have that. I turned around to say goodbye to Jared but he'd already left so I squeezed Jade to me and hurried inside.

"Is this house haunted, Liss?" Jade asked, sniffling as I tucked her in as tight as I could without making her uncomfortable.

"Nah, I'm just paranoid" I smiled, in attempt to make her feel bad.

"Will you sing to me like you used to?" back when Jade was a toddler, I used to sing to her to make her feel better when my mom couldn't take care of her.

"What do you want me to sing?" I climbed in bed beside her, instantly she wrapped her arms around my waist and set her cheek on my stomach. She shrugged and I racked my mind for a song that would make her feel better.

I began as softly as I could,

I remember tears streaming down your face

When I said, I'll never let you goWhen all those shadows almost killed your light

I remember you said, Don't leave me here alone

But all that's dead and gone and passed tonightJust close your eyes

The sun is going down

You'll be alright

No one can hurt you now

Come morning light

You and I'll be safe and sound

Don't you dare look out your window darling

Everything's on fire

The war outside our door keeps raging on

Hold onto this lullaby

Even when the music's gone

Just close your eyes

The sun is going down

You'll be alright

No one can hurt you now

Come morning light

You and I'll be safe and sound

Just close your eyes

You'll be alright

Come morning light,

You and I'll be safe and sound...

"You know she loves it when you sing" Stacey's soft voice surprised me, Jade was asleep as soon as the second chorus, and was now curled around me. Stacey watched us with that maternal glaze women got in their eyes, the one that said she was thinking about how blessed she was to have us, as she leaned in the doorway with her arms crossed over her chest.

"I'm sorry," I sighed, untangling Jade- who was completely knocked out- from me and going over to wrap my arms around her.

"No, I'm sorry for bringing you here in the first place-"

"You were just being a mom and doing what you felt what was right for us, I was the bitch" I sighed, realizing what I'd neglected to earlier. "Things will get better for us."

We stood there, hugging, probably thinking the same thing. Things had to get better for us, our family deserved it. But life didn't work that way.


Author's note:

Next chapter will be up this Wednesday :) thank you for any recognition of this story, if I take too long to post chapters or update this story it's mostly because I'm revising the chapter and adding/pulling thangs from the chapter so y'all can enjoy it more :) thanks again! xoxo