Disclaimer: All characters belong to Cassandra Clare.
Author's Note: This takes place when Alec is left at Magnus's while the rest of the gang visits the Fair People.
Time: City of Ashes
Genre: Drama, Romance, and Angst
Date Finished: May 19, 2012
Magnus waited until the door was completely closed before turning to Alec. He would rather had Alec here than Jacey. Alec was quite and not demanding. Alec was more pleasant to look at. He flashed Alec a smile instead of speaking.
Alec sighed. "So, now what?"
Magnus reached out and took a hold of the other boy's hand. "It's just you and me." He paused. "Your friends did not even ask if you would mind being stuck here with me. It was as if they knew about us. Do they?"
Alec bit his lip and shook his head. "I never told them."
Magnus reached out and stroked Alec's cheek. "We can tell them in if you want too."
Alec did not want to tell anyone. He was not ready. Being gay was not accepted in the Shadowhunter world. He could lose his Marks because of it. However, when he looked at Magnus, he felt that losing his Marks may be worth it. Magnus made him feel whole. He did not have to hide anything. He wanted the world to know about Magnus, but, yet, he was just not ready.
Magnus dropped his hand from Alec's cheek. "I understand." He walked into the kitchen.
Alec just stood there unsure of what to do. He was afraid that he had hurt Magnus's feelings. He took a deep breath and went into the kitchen. "It's not that I don't want to be with you," he said as entered the kitchen.
Magnus was filling a glass up with water looked back at him. "I told you, darling Alexander, that I understand." He took a long drink. "I like the privacy. It means that I get you all to myself."
Alec went over to Magnus. "Are you sure?"
Magnus did not answer right away. "I would also like to go out in public with me." He flashed Alec a look of hurt.
"Like other couples?"
Alec sucked in air. He wanted to be like all of the other beautiful couples too. He wanted to hold hands in the park, steal kisses, go to dinners, and stare into each other's eyes in the park. He wanted all of that. He just did not seeing it happening in the near future.
"You aren't ashamed to be with me?" Magnus inquired. Alec noticed that he had moved away from him.
"No, it's just complicated."
"You don't want to lose your Marks." It was not a question, but a statement.
Alec nodded. "I also want to be with you."
"We are just torn."
Magnus took Alec's hand and lead him back into the living room over to the coach. They sat there in silence for several minutes drinking in each other's beautiful features. They were an odd couple, but in a way it made sense. They both deserved to have someone special in their lives. Both had a hole in their hearts. When they were together, the hole was filled.
Alec sighed and laid down with his head in Magnus's lap. Magnus reached down and stroked Alec's dark bangs off his forehead. Alec had really beautiful hair that brought out his features. It went along so well with his beautiful blue eyes.
Alec looked up and saw Magnus studying him. "What?"
Magnus smiled. "You really are beautiful."
Alec batted his beautiful blue eyes. "You are not so bad looking yourself."
Magnus just shook his head. "Alexander, Alexander, Alexander," he muttered as he attempted to look offended. He failed terribly at it. His eyes were bright and dancing as he attempted.
"What? It was a supposed to be nice," Alec said as he sat up.
"It suppose you could have said worse. You could have called me ugly."
Alec got a thoughtful look on his face. "The thought did cross my mind."
Magnus hit him playfully on the arm with a laugh. "At least you did not say it."
Alec did not reply.
Magnus looked at Alec again. "When are you going to come out?" he asked in a serious tone.
Alec's blue eyes looked confused. "Huh?"
"Come out of the closet. Tell the world who you really are. Go to a support group," Magnus rattled off. "All of those things that are supposed to help those with understanding their sexuality instead of letting people be themselves. It reminds me of rehab. I can just keep ranting about all this if you do not shut me up."
"I told you, I am not ready for everyone to know," Alec snapped. He was not even sure if he and Magnus were even a couple. He did not understand why Magnus did not understand his situation.
Magnus played with a ring on his thumb. "So, does this mean that you are not interested in a relationship?"
Alec sighed. Sometimes, most of the time really, he did not understand Magnus. He was so confusing. "That's not what I meant."
"That is what it sounded like."
Alec moved closer to Magnus. "I did not mean for it to sound like that."
Magnus could see clearly into Alec's beautiful blue eyes. The eyes were filled with warmth and longing. "What did you mean?" He was inching closer to Alec. They were so close now that Magnus could feel the warmth coming from Alec's breath.
Alec leaned in. They were so close that he could hear Magnus's heartbeat. "This." He leaned in and kissed the beautiful Magnus.
"You are beautiful, Alexander Lightwood," Magnus breathed into the kiss.
"As are you, Magnus Bane," Alec replied as he deepened the kiss.