I watched as she walked away towards Tommys room. I tried to help the crew but I just kept thinking about Hailey. I can't go there tho i should know better. I cant have feelings for this girl. I went down that road once and look where it lead me. One half of me keeps saying you seen what you went threw with Pocahontas you can't handle that again, but the other half is saying this girl isn't Pocahontas. This girl was careful but at the same time she dreams of adventure. Shes brave but only when she has to be. She friendly and not so stubborn, but I think what I like most she that she made me feel needed without being needy. Pocahontas had always wanted to do everything for her self and I respected that but sometimes its nice to be relied on. Hailey was independent but would take help if it was offered.
"Hey Tommy, how are you?" "I'm fine, you look really happy whats going on?" "Its just John is really dreamy !" I couldn't stop the smile from spreading across my face at the mention of his name. "Hai, you promised you wouldn't fall in love with him!" "Clam down Tom I don't even think I belive in love you know that. If i haven't fallen in love yet I don't think I will." "Hailey I think you do believe in love and your just afraid of getting your heart broken. You can't live like that." I just thought for a second before replying . Tommy and me hardly ever talk about stuff like this ,usally we just joke with eachother. "Your kind of sending me a mixed message here tommy, and I know I can't live my life like that but I just havn't met someone worth getting hurt over yet." Tommy walked closer to me and took both of my hands in his. "Love isn't always tragic, there is such a thing as happy endings." "Yes there is, in fairytales." "Just because Jason ended up being a jerk doesn't mean all guys are like that." I just rolled my eyesI had liked Jason and he had been a jerk but I wasnt heartbroken or anything over it. "Tommy let's go back up on deck." I said linking my arm in this.
I saw her walk up the stairs with Tommy. She looked over at me and smiled. I waved and then tured around and continued working. By the time I was done I went straight to bed. I woke up late threw the night and went up on deck. When I got there I could see Hailey sitting there looking at the stars. "Admiring the view?" She jumped a liitle when she heard me. "Oh John you scared me, but there just so beautiful. I've never seen them so bright." She looked mesmerized. "They are my favourite part about sailing."I said sitting down next to her. She kept looking at me like she wanted to say something. "What?" I said curiously. "What was she like, the girl you loved i mean." "Well she was a free spirt, and stubborn and wild. She was also caring and beautiful." "Well she sounds wounderful, what did you do to screw it up?" She giggled while teasingly hitting my arm. "I left and I never wrote her because I didn't know what to say. I couldn't it was too hardto think about if I couldn't see her. Anyways long story short she came to London saw me and fell in love with John Rolf." I had never told anyone else that besides her. It hurt just as much to tell it as it did when it happend. "Oh wow thats horrible, i'm so sorry, and hes the red head with the ponytail right?" "Yes." "Well you are by far the cuter John, and i've never been in love but it sounds like its worth the hurt." "Well hails it can be, but what is really hard is knowing she didn't love me as much as I loved her." I could feel my eyes start to water but I refused to cry. She held my hand but I pulled it away. "Well i'm going to get a drink, you want something like whine?" "Whine? No thanks i'll take a shot of the strongest thing you have." "Wow a girl who can hold her liquer i'm impressed." I came back with with two glasses of whiskey. She took one of the glasses from me, and held it up like you would if you were making a toast. "Cheers to being single, and so over love." We clinked glasses and shot the wiskey back. After a few more drinks we were telling each other everything. "I want to fall in love you know, I just haven't. Tommy says its because my expectations are too high. I want a stong sweet guy who would do anything just to be with me." "Well there's nothing wrong with wanting that, but I wouldn't hold your breath on finding it." I said laughing. "John Smith that girl that let you go was out of her mind. If I had a guy like you I would never be as foolish as she was to let you go." "Well hails was that a compliment?" "Yesyour actually a nice guy captin." She said smiling at me. I don't know if it was the whiskey but when she smiled my heart fluttered. She has the prettiest smile i've ever seen and eyes that shine like little stars.