KissMeDeadlyT-T: Sorry, I've taken so long. Emilymai101, I hope you're not too mad at me D: Summer has been busy since I had a friend from Alberta visiting me here in Ontario, and I didn't get the chance to write since we were always on the go. And then, I WENT to Alberta and my wifi sucks at my dad's house and on top of that we left town for a couple days. Uuuurghhh. But, I'm back now!
-Shout out to Sean, also called theguynextfdoortoyou, who gave me the idea to throw in some people's reactions to Naruto and Sasuke being together. You're awesome.
-Warning: Smut and stupidity :o and major OOC on Sasuke's part. Ah well, that's how it's supposed to be.
They took their time getting home, winding through soaked streets and closed shops as the rain slowed to a heavy drizzle, their hands clasped together and smiles on their damp faces. To an onlooker it may have looked like an extremely cheesy scene from a romantic film or the like, but they were too happy in their own little world to care.
It was silent, but not uncomfortable. The rain made a solid pitter-patter on the gravel, and their feet made echoing taps and splashes. They were just walking up to the front doors of Naruto's apartment, when a wolf-whistle came from their left.
"Jeez, you guys are soaked! Get caught in the storm?"
"Obviously, you idiot."
Automatically, both of their heads whipped around to find the source of the voices. "Kiba," Naruto said, his voice surprised. "And Shikamaru. What are you guys doing here?"
Before Kiba could say what looked like a rude comment, since his lips were curved into a fang-baring smirk and his eyes were squinted in that douche-bag way, Shikamaru sighed, "Kiba is thinking of buying an apartment to get away from his 'terrifying family' and met me along the way, so I decided to go with him." His dark eyes drifted down to their hands. He raised an eyebrow but said nothing about it. "I was gonna stop in and say hi... but you guys seem to be busy. What a drag," he yawned.
Sasuke flushed. "We're not busy. Well, I mean, we are— we were, but it can wait, right?" He looked at Naruto, and the blond shrugged.
"Of course it can. Wanna come upstairs, guys? I was thinking of making hot chocolate."
"Nah," Kiba said. "That's fine. But uh... you know, I thought only girl best friends held hands. You guys look like a couple of fag—mmmff!"
Shikamaru had slapped his hand over Kiba's mouth. "Kiba," he hissed, his eyes flicking Naruto and Sasuke's way. "Shut your yap before you get your ass kicked."
"What?" the dog-nin asked obliviously upon seeing the embarrassed look on Sasuke's face, the smirk on Naruto's and the look of horror on Shikamaru's. "Oh, come on! I was kidding! I have nothing against gays, I'm bisexual anyway. With Shino. I was joking. Just saying it's weird they're holding hands if they're not even dating." When no one's expression changed except Shikamaru's, whose turned into one of disbelief, he said, "What?"
"Are you that thick, you moron?"
"Am I missing something?" Kiba demanded.
"Naruto and Sasuke... You don't know? Come on, it wasn't hard to figure out."
"Shut up Mr. Genius and explain!" Kiba looked confused, his bottom lip pushed out in a pout.
"I'll be blunt," Naruto said, smiling his usual cheerful smile. He pulled away from Sasuke and put a hand on Kiba's shoulder, looking at his friend like one would at an uncomprehending child. "In reality, we were going upstairs so we could make hot chocolate. Or you know, have sex. We're dating, and we have been for at least a month."
The look of utter mortification on Kiba's face rivalled the one on Sasuke's. The raven had turned an unhealthy shade of red and his eyes were wide as Kiba gaped, looking between the two with an expression of such shock that his jaw would probably fall to the floor were it not attached to his face.
"Naruto!" Sasuke finally blurted, making a sound like air escaping a balloon.
"What? I don't lie to people."
"You didn't have to—say that—you could've—"
"Well, look at Kiba's face. He looks so stupid. It was worth it!"
"Are you fucking—"
Shikamaru cut in coolly. "Calm down, yeah? It's no big deal. Most people figured it out already. Don't have a lover's spat; I'd hate to see Naruto deprived of another long period of his Sasuke fix. He gets withdrawals." He turned to Kiba, who was still staring at them in utter shock. He grabbed the stockier ninja's arm and dragged him into the apartment building, throwing a lazy grin back Naruto and Sasuke's way. "Have fun," he quipped, and then they were gone.
For a moment they stood there in the rain, and then Sasuke walked up to Naruto and punched him in the face. Reeling back in shock, Naruto rubbed his now-red cheek and grinned. "What the hell was that?"
"That was me being nice and not breaking your nose, loser." Sasuke's cheeks were so red he looked like a tomato with hair and sexy, wide and embarrassed eyes. "I can't believe you said that."
"Aw, come on. I was just playing around." Naruto crossed his arms.
"I do it all the time."
"Yeah, but—" Sasuke cut himself off. He was fighting with the king of idiocy, and he wasn't going to win over Naruto's ridiculous logic. He sighed, throwing his hands up, and walked past his boyfriend, wanting nothing more than to punch his shit-eating grin off that oh-so-gorgeous face. When Naruto didn't follow, he threw his famous glare back and snapped, "Are you coming, or are you just going to stand there?"
"I was admiring your ass," Naruto said cheerfully, catching up to him and linking their arms. "It's nice. I can't wait to—"
"I will burn you." Sasuke's glare could wither flowers as they entered the lobby and passed a little old lady in a pink dress with a small white dog in her purse. Once she was out of earshot, he grumbled, "Stop saying things like that in public. It's embarrassing, and plus—"
"It turns you on?"
Sasuke flushed more. "Well—yes, but that's not—anyway, just don't." As an afterthought, he furrowed his brow and muttered in a pouty way, "You don't love me."
"Of course I love you." Naruto said it like it was the most obvious thing in the world. He pressed the button for the elevator, and it opened right away. The floor inside had just been washed, and it was a shame to dirty it with their muddy shoes and dripping clothes, but he dragged Sasuke in anyways. "If I didn't, I wouldn't say things like that all the time."
"And you suck with comebacks." He pressed the button for his floor, and turned to Sasuke with a huge grin. "Have you ever made out in an elevator?"
"If the other day when you molested me counts, then yes. Don't change the subject—"
Naruto's lips pressed to his, silencing him immediately. For a moment, he struggled, shoving at Naruto violently, but Naruto was just a bit stronger than him and that was enough to keep him pressed to the wall. He gave in, but made a sound to show how completely unimpressed and pissed he still was, even though secretly he was always willing to kiss Naruto. Naruto just snickered into his already-open mouth, his hands wandering down Sasuke back and steadily south until he groped the raven's butt firmly through his jeans. Sasuke jerked forward in surprise, cursing, and put all of his strength into shoving Naruto off of him just as the elevator doors slid open.
He glared with all of his strength as a mother and two little girls walked in. Naruto grinned sheepishly, mouthing a 'sorry' before turning to the woman and asking, "What floor, ma'am?"
"Oh, Naruto, you're such a sweetie. I'm going to the main floor, if you please."
He smiled and pressed the button. The elevator went up to drop them off, and he waved goodbye before it closed to bring the family down. Sasuke was staring. "What?" Naruto asked.
"We could've scarred those two kids for life, you know."
"Ah, they were girls. Maybe they'll turn out like Sakura and like that shit."
"You know." They started to walk down the hall to Naruto's apartment. "I think it's called yaoi. Sakura loves it. Two guys getting it on is apparently sexy to some girls. Can't blame them, I guess." He stopped in front of his door, keys jingling as he looked for the right one. Unlocking the door, he went on, "Sakura said she'd pay me if I ever got together with you and sent her a picture of us doing the deed." He spotted the look of horror on Sasuke's face. "Don't worry, I wouldn't actually do that," he said, laughing.
"You're a dick, you know?" Sasuke kicked his shoes into the closet in the right wall and stalked away to their bedroom, leaving Naruto in the entryway. He was already lying on the bed, glaring at the ceiling, by the time Naruto came in, a wide grin on his face.
"Naruto Uzumaki, shut up, or so help me I will kill you." Sasuke turned over to give him a glare. "I'm so mad at you right now."
Naruto sighed. "I'm sorry. I guess I did take it a little far..." He sat next to Sasuke. "Sometimes I don't think before I speak. I guess I'm just nervous," he admitted. "You know me. I say stupid things when I'm nervous."
"Why are you nervous?" Sasuke asked, puzzled.
Naruto was silent for a moment, his cheeks turning red. Then he said, "Well, it's the whole idea that you said... You said you were ready for... you know." Sasuke flushed and looked at the floor. "I guess I just suddenly realized how much trust that takes on your part, and I just... I got nervous. I don't want to disappoint you, ya know? I really love you and I don't want to hurt you or anything." He threw his hands up. "Ugh, I don't know what I'm trying to say. Are you still pissed?"
Sasuke sighed. "I guess not. You don't have to be nervous, though, I'll like it no matter what you do." He flushed delicately at the admission.
Naruto grinned, but he looked touched. "Aw, honey. You're too dang cute."
"Never call me honey again, freak."
"Ah, I love you so much!" Naruto cried, jumping up just to glomp Sasuke and squish him into the bed. "Seriously, you're so fucking amazing."
Sasuke looked at him like he was crazy, trying to fight the color rising up his pale skin. He pushed Naruto away a bit, however didn't shove him off. Instead, he put his arms behind his head and looked to the side with what he hoped was an annoyed expression. "What's your damage, Naruto? You're acting weirder than usual, and that's saying something."
"I don't know. I'm just hyper. I'm happy, y'know? Gotta make up for the years that all I did was cry and mope like a baby!" Naruto's grin was practically blinding. "I don't think you really understand how much I love you. I mean, you even beat ramen."
Sasuke gave him a flat look. "Thanks," he said sarcastically. "That means so much to me. I'm so goddamn glad I'm more important than a bowl of starchy noodles. Now I can die happy."
"Your sarcasm warms my heart, my love."
"I'm glad." Sasuke sat up, making himself nearly nose-to-nose with Naruto. "I was thinking we should probably change. We're both gonna get sick... and didn't you mention hot chocolate?" When he spotted the look of disappointment on Naruto's face, he rolled his eyes. "Is sex all you ever think about?"
"No. It's just what I think about most of the time."
Sasuke sighed. "Look, I understand completely. I want to as bad as you do, but right now, I'm cold, cranky and wet, and I want some hot chocolate." He pulled out the puppy dog eyes look (which he would never do around anyone but Naruto, ever) and asked, "Can't we just change, make hot chocolate and, I don't know, watch a movie, and cuddle for now?"
Naruto's eyes softened. "Well, crap. I can't say no to that face." He stood up and started pulling fresh clothes out from his drawers. "Sure we can do that. What do you wanna watch?"
"Alright, get changed and I'll go make the hot chocolate?"
Sasuke made a face. "I'll pass."
"'Kay," Naruto smiled softly. "See you in a few."
KissMeDeadlyT-T: This isn't the end of the chapter, and I know I shouldn't be interrupting the story like this, but I wanted to say that the last bit there is where I had my writer's block the most. So if it sucked, hopefully what comes next makes up for it. ^^
They were curled up together on the couch, the apartment completely dark save for the light on the hood range in the kitchen and the bright screen displaying rolling credits on Naruto's TV. Their mismatched mugs sat forgotten on the table, the last dregs of hot chocolate drying to a sticky paste at the bottom. The storm had started up again outside, and every once in a while, the room would light up with a flash of white brightness and then go back to the dark.
Sasuke's head was resting on Naruto's lap, the blond's long fingers absently and fondly running through long black strands of hair. Neither of them took notice when the credits stopped rolling and the screen went blue; they hadn't been paying attention to the movie for a while now. It was quiet in the room, rain pattering down hard on the windows and wind howling and hitting the walls, but neither of them found it uncomfortable. It was a peaceful moment, one of those ones you wanted to treasure because so few of them occurred in everyday chaotic life.
Naruto looked down to see a pair of slanted black eyes staring up at him, shining faintly in a rarely-seen show of happiness. Something inside of him twanged, almost painfully; it was hard, being this in love with someone, knowing what that someone had been through, what those gorgeous onyx eyes had seen. He managed to smile, trying not to let the whirlpool of emotions in his mind show. "Yeah?" he asked.
Sasuke hesitated, then slowly said, "...I don't say it very often, but, I really do love you, you know?"
Every time he heard those words, Naruto became so happy it was all he could do not to grin like an idiot. Seriously. How could life turn out this perfect? He let himself smile as he responded, "I know. And I love you too."
Sasuke didn't answer right away, and sat up, turning so that he was sitting Indian style facing Naruto. He looked troubled, like there was something he really wanted to say but couldn't figure out how to come across. His brow furrowed, and he raised his eyes so that they were looking directly into Naruto's slightly worried blue ones.
"Is everything okay?" Naruto asked, sensing the other man's nervousness.
"Everything is fine. It's great. Really," Sasuke stressed when Naruto looked at him dubiously. "I can't even grasp how my life managed to go from shit to...well, this. It's perfect," he said softly, letting every wall he'd ever built up crumble down. He felt somewhat awkward with Naruto's eyes on him, and he didn't think he could speak with the way the blond was looking at him with such adoration, like he was the most precious gem in the world so he looked back down at his lap. "It still freaks me out sometimes. I mean... I used to think... I'd never get out of there, never see Konoha, or my friends, or you again. But now, there's this... Sometimes I think I'll just wake up and this will all go away, and I'll be pinned down again, beaten, and just—" He broke off abruptly, his breath hitching. "Anyway. There's just— I have something I need to say."
"Well, you can tell me anything, so..."
"I know, it's just... ugh, one second. I hate trying to say what I'm thinking..."
Naruto grinned. "It's fine, I'm not going anywhere."
"I know," Sasuke said again. Those words meant a surprisingly huge lot to him— the idea that Naruto would never leave him, no matter what. He swallowed, unsure why he was so nervous. Really. It's Naruto. Plus, I said it before. So... why is it so hard? "So, uhm, Naruto."
Naruto looked thoroughly amused now. "Yes, Sasuke?"
"Don't laugh, I'm trying to be serious!"
"I ain't laughin'!" Naruto held his hands up in defence, grinning widely. "Come on, Sasuke. Just spit it out. I'm not going to laugh at you or something."
"I hate you sometimes..."
"I know. Come on, just say it."
Sasuke looked down at his lap, where his hands were wringing together in nervous anticipation. He licked his lips, and then mumbled something, his face turning a deep hue of red. Naruto gave him a 'huh?' look and leaned forward, frowning.
"Wha'd you say?"
"I said I'm ready, damnit!" Sasuke blurted, strongly resembling a beet. When understanding dawned on Naruto's face, he flushed even more, cursing under his breath. Why was this so damn embarrassing?
"Yes, that's what I mean." Sasuke bit his lip. "Look, don't make me say it."
Naruto looked like he was going to explode in joy. His eyes lit up so much you'd think he'd just been told he'd won a lifetime supply of ramen from Ichiraku's and his grin became so wide Sasuke was sure it had to hurt his whiskered cheeks. "Right here?"
Sasuke fought the urge to roll his eyes. "Sure."
"Yes! Fuck, if you're gonna be like this, I'm going to change my mind—"
"Heeeeeeeell no!" Naruto exclaimed, tackling Sasuke into a huge hug. He sent them sprawling back on the couch, and ended up bridged over Sasuke, their hands pinned together and faces barely an inch apart. They stayed like that for a minute, until Sasuke mumbled something and looked away, his face looking close to spontaneous combustion. He felt fingers grab his chin and looked back up, his heart beating impossibly quick. Tilting his head to the side, Naruto closed the space between them and pressed their lips together, smiling when he felt Sasuke kiss back right away despite the hot blush on his face. He flicked his tongue across Sasuke's lips, but pulled away before deepening the kiss, looking down at Sasuke with serious blue eyes.
"Yeah." Sasuke's voice wobbled a bit, but his eyes were steady. Naruto's smile then was so exuberant it was contagious, and he felt his lips tugging up at the sides. "Just..."
"I know. We'll go slow, okay?"
With another blinding, tearful smile, Naruto connected their mouths again. It started off slow, as promised, but as they both became more desperate to feel more of each other, their tongues clashed and teeth clacked heatedly, Sasuke's hands finding their way up to tangle in Naruto's spikes as Naruto's hands rubbed soothing circles on Sasuke's clothed hips. After a few minutes of this, Naruto stopped, his fingers dipping under the edge of Sasuke's shirt. The raven broke the kiss, his breathing uneven, and nodded, his heart in his throat. He wasn't nervous about this part; they'd done at least this much before. However, the same thought kept going through his head: This is it. Naruto and I are about to have sex. This is happening. His heart pounded dizzyingly, a mixture of nerves, heated excitement and prickly desire thrumming in his veins.
He shifted and helped Naruto take his shirt off, before sliding his own hands under Naruto's and almost shyly peeling it away from caramel skin. Naruto's blue eyes were burning as he lifted his arms to shuffle it over his head and then toss it aside. He rubbed at the trembling raven's back, trying to calm the man, who was clearly still nervous. "You know, we don't have to do this. We can wait. I don't mind, Sasuke."
Sasuke's black eyes seemed even darker than usual. "No. I want to do this now." His voice was shaky and papery, and he was pale.
"We should at least move to the bedroom."
Once they were there and situated comfortably on the bed, Naruto went on, "Are you absolutely sure?"
"Yes, damnit. You gave me a fucking handjob in the forest and I got you off, too. I can handle this."
"Okay... but you have to promise you'll tell me to stop if you get uncomfortable."
"I promise I will, bastard." He reached up and pulled Naruto back down, and the blond did no more complaining. Sasuke let his hands run over the familiar chest; around the hard muscles, over the perky nipples, grinning a bit when Naruto's breath hitched. Naruto seemed to feel his grin, and take it as a challenge, because he immediately broke the kiss in favour of kissing down Sasuke's jaw, nibbling on his ear, and then finally planting hot, wet kisses on the pale neck. This time, it was he who grinned as Sasuke jolted forward, a small gasp breaking their silence. He continued with this, just planting hot kisses down the raven's skin, wanting to bite, to claim, but willing to leave that until later. He didn't want to scare Sasuke away by being too fierce on their first time. His hands left Sasuke's back and circled to the front, stopping at the hardened nubs on the pale chest, flicking his nails across them ever so slightly. Sasuke let out a squeak-like sound and automatically jerked upwards.
His hips crashed into Naruto's, who had been straddling him patiently up until then, and he swallowed when he felt how hard the blond was. It made his heart swell and words failed him as he thought that he had been the one to cause that; his pleasure, not his screaming pain and terror as he used to know. He felt his eyes sting, and couldn't stop a couple of tears from sliding down his cheeks. Naruto noticed this and kissed them away gently, starting to rock his hips slowly, just enough to cause a bit of friction. They met for another kiss and Sasuke started to respond, rubbing in an almost catlike way onto the body grinding against him. He was still scared; still nervous, but he trusted Naruto, and it was getting harder to hold onto those nerves when this all felt so good. The friction, their chests melting together, the kiss, Naruto. He moaned into their open mouths.
Lust was fuelling him as his hands travelled down the blond's chest and to the button of his pants. Naruto froze for a moment, but seemed to relax immediately after. Sasuke's nimble fingers deftly undid the button and hesitantly slid the zipper down, then as if trying to be quick so as not to change his mind, he slid them down Naruto's toned thighs, kicking at them with his feet when he couldn't reach with his arms. Naruto laughed a bit and helped him, breaking away to stand up and pull them down. He threw them aside and then got back on the bed, crawling up it and Sasuke's body like a cat. Sasuke gulped and flushed even harder than he already was; he felt like he was prey about to get devoured, and not in the bad way. His heart seemed to beat loud enough for the next country to hear as Naruto bridged over him, one of his hands resting just over the bulge in Sasuke's jeans.
Naruto's eyes were skimming his face for any uncertainty. All he saw was lust, desire, the beginnings of desperation and even love, but he still had to make sure. "You're ready...?"
"Yes," Sasuke sighed for the umpteenth time, his Adam's apple bobbing as he swallowed and tried not to scream at Naruto to move his hand. He knew the blond was going slow for him, and he really appreciated it; but still, he wished Naruto could see how bad he wanted it.
Naruto nodded once more and undid the button and zipper, slipping his hands inside to tug them down slowly. Too slowly. Sasuke impatiently kicked them off, ignoring the snort Naruto made at this, and then went to grab Naruto's simple blue boxers. He gulped audibly. Once these were off of him and off of Naruto, they would both be completely naked, and he didn't know what he'd do then. Of course, he wanted this, wanted it so bad it hurt, but he still couldn't fight off that persistent feeling of unease. It was all too familiar, but at the same time, completely different. Plus, why was he so damn jumpy about this? He'd seen Naruto's dick already, barely an hour earlier. He decided it must be the fact that this time, he was mostly in his right mind and not controlled by lust, and that this time was it.
He took a deep breath and looped his fingers under the waistband, glaring at nothing as he tried to talk himself out of his ridiculous nervousness. Naruto smiled softly, understanding completely, and put his hands over Sasuke's, searching for any sign of fright as he guided their hands down. He watched as Sasuke's eyes widened and his face turned even redder, but didn't stop until his boxers were completely off and he was nude. Sasuke was trembling, and Naruto quickly said, "Are you okay?"
"I-I—y-yeah—" Sasuke stuttered, before shaking his head and trying again. "I'm fine. I just—I didn't really... see... earlier, and..." His face burned. Truly, he had been too intent on getting Naruto off earlier that he hadn't fully noticed how his cock looked; and now, all he could do was stare. Naruto was so damn perfect it hurt. Not too big, not too small, and definitely enough to please. He let out a shaky breath.
"Don't stare, it's shy," Naruto joked, smirking a bit. Sasuke's look was inflating his already overly-large ego. He rested his hands on the raven's hips, causing the other man to jolt and snap out of his trance-like state. He looked up at Naruto with wide eyes, and the blond wanted nothing more than to just bend him over and take him right there. He forced his greed down. He had to be slow, for Sasuke's sake as well as the sake of their relationship. "So," he said, a joking lilt meant to lighten the situation in his tone, "can I take these off, or am I the only one allowed to be naked here?"
"N0-no—I mean, uh, yeah. Take them off..." Sasuke trailed off, his face redder than a beet. Naruto hesitated, but Sasuke wiggled his hips impatiently, so he nodded again and started sliding them down, slowly, so that Sasuke could tell him to stop if he needed to. It seemed he didn't, but he did hide his face behind his hands when they were off and thrown to the side, crossing his legs in an attempt to hide himself. He still didn't see how Naruto could love him, and his body, with all the scars covering it.
Naruto smiled gently and grabbed Sasuke's hands, dragging them away from his face. The raven's eyes were squeezed shut, his lips between his teeth. He bit down hard enough to draw blood when Naruto's hands moved to his knees, easing them apart slowly. Sasuke shook his head quickly and cried, "No!"
Naruto instantly stopped. "What? Did I go too fast? I'm sorry—"
"N-no—it's not you, it's just I—I mean, my body—it's so ugly and—"
"Sasuke," Naruto groaned. "Your body is not ugly. It's perfect."
"They make you who you are. They show the hardships you had to go through to become such a strong person." Naruto softly kissed one, which was on the side of Sasuke's right thigh, and felt the body in front of his start to relax. "I know that they don't remind you of anything good—heck, I hate thinking of what you went through—but they make you you. And I love every single one of them." As he was speaking, he again started to uncross Sasuke's legs, relieved when the raven didn't stop him but just blushed and clenched the sheets instead. "I love you. Everything about you is perfect to me."
Sasuke's eyes were tearing up again. He nodded quickly, little spasms of his head, and gave Naruto a watery smile, believing the blond's words for the first time. "I love you too," he choked out. Through blurry eyes he could see Naruto's eyes looking over his body, love and desire and everything good swimming in them. They were considerably darker than usual and his soft smile looked like it was repressing something possessive. Sasuke took a deep breath. "Naruto—I don't want to wait anymore."
Naruto laughed somewhat weakly. "So what you're saying is skip the rest of dinner and go to dessert?"
Sasuke flushed. "Yeah—that."
"Okay," Naruto said, nodding to himself. "Okay. I've always liked dessert better anyway. Here," he said, putting his fingers in front of Sasuke's mouth. "Suck."
Sasuke seemed confused. "Why?"
Naruto looked at him in disbelief. "What do you mean, 'why'?"
"I mean what I said. Why do I have to suck on your fingers?"
Naruto's jaw dropped. "You don't—you've honestly don't know?"
Sasuke frowned, pouting in a way that was way too adorable to Naruto. "No, I don't."
Naruto threw his arms around Sasuke, trapping him in a tight embrace. He started rolling around on the bed, taking Sasuke along with him. The raven squealed and kicked as Naruto cried, "Cute cute cute cute cute! You're so cute!"
Sasuke blushed and pushed at Naruto's strong chest. "Shut up!" he yelled, feeling like he was going to die of embarrassment. Naruto finally stopped when Sasuke was back underneath him, and the raven breathlessly snapped, "Tell me, dobe!"
Naruto was still grinning, his cheeks flushed. "Sorry, I couldn't help it. You have to suck on them so I can prep you. Well, you don't have to do that, but it'll hurt a whole lot less." When Sasuke furrowed his brow and murmured, "Oh" Naruto's eyes darkened as he realized something. "Wait... so he never..."
"No. He didn't care if he hurt me or not," Sasuke murmured. "I always just thought it was that painful all the time."
Naruto's face turned pale. "Fuck, I'm sorry. I didn't mean..."
"It's okay," Sasuke said, offering a smile. "You didn't know. Anyways, can we not talk about this?" He grabbed Naruto's wrist, bringing it back up towards his mouth with a coy smirk. "We kind of have more urgent matters, don't you agree?"
Naruto inhaled deeply and then nodded. "You're right. Okay, I'm sorry. Let's do this already." He'd barely finished his sentence before Sasuke opened his bruised lips and slid Naruto's fingers into his mouth, sucking on them and awkwardly flicking his tongue around, drenching them in his saliva. A flush rose up Naruto's cheeks as he remembered what that mouth had done on him earlier that day, and his length throbbed painfully. After a few moments of this semi-torture, he deemed them wet enough and pulled them from Sasuke's mouth, wiping away the strong of spit that dribbled down his chin with the side of his hand. His heart in his throat and hammering in excitement, he lowered them down to Sasuke's behind, stopping completely to make sure. Sasuke nodded, ever so slightly, and so he slowly slid his first finger in.
Sasuke's hands tightened a bit on the sheets, and he let out a slow, shaky breath. This wasn't so bad. It had been a while since he'd had something up there, but this little finger was too small to hurt too bad. Naruto slowly started thrusting it in and out, rubbing Sasuke's inside walls. The raven flushed, one hand coming up to his mouth so he could muffle a moan. He wriggled a bit. "Go on," he whispered.
"Okay." A second finger slid in next to the first, and this one stung; Sasuke's breath hitched and his body tightened, trying to push them out. Naruto murmured, "Relax, it won't hurt as bad." And Sasuke tried, but he found that he couldn't. Naruto frowned and his other hand moved from Sasuke's hip to his front, grabbing the raven's red-tipped cock loosely. Sasuke gasped at the sudden pressure on his painful erection and his body relaxed automatically at the pleasuring feeling it brought. Naruto began scissoring his two fingers slightly, his head falling and breathing becoming heavy. It was so tight and hot inside Sasuke, he thought perhaps he would lose his mind from this. As Sasuke began moaning softly and rocking onto the hand, Naruto quickly slid the next one in at the exact same time as tightening his fist around Sasuke's length. The raven squeaked in a mixture of pleasure and pain, but kept rocking forward, pulling Naruto's fingers in deeper. Naruto could barely control himself as he watched Sasuke practically fuck himself on his hand, his eyes shut and cheeks flushed, lips parted to pant heavily. Suddenly, Naruto felt his fingers strike something, and Sasuke cried out, his head thrashing back.
"Naruto!" he moaned, unable to hold it in any longer. "Please—nnghh... more..."
Naruto's eyes were watering from the extent of how much he wanted this. He pulled his fingers out, gulping when Sasuke moaned in disapproval, and hastily spat on his hand. He rubbed it onto his cock and couldn't bite back the moan at the feeling, letting his fingers run over it a bit longer than necessary. When he looked up, Sasuke was staring at him wryly.
"Are we doing this or are you just going to masturbate all night?" he asked, his tone dry with amusement and husky with desire. Naruto seemed to snap out of it.
"Right," he said, blinking. He lined himself up with Sasuke's entrance, which was spasming and pink. He tried to swallow back how turned on he was, but damn it, Sasuke was just too hot and he couldn't. He knew he probably looked like a huge idiot, but didn't really care. He took one of Sasuke's legs and placed it on his shoulder, shuffling forward on his knees. "Look, this is it. You can back out if you want."
"Ugh," Sasuke groaned, putting a hand over his eyes. He was trembling again, but this time, only a small, barely significant part of it was nerves. Mostly, he was riled up in anticipation, desperate for them to become one. His chest was heaving and his heart thumping. "No," he mumbled, "go in."
Naruto seemed hesitant, still. "Are you—?"
"Naruto, fuck me goddamnit!"
"Okay, sheesh," Naruto murmured, shivering slightly at the sound of Sasuke ordering him to fuck him. Without any more hesitation (he could feel Sasuke wanting to murder him for going so slowly) he started to push in, pumping Sasuke slowly at the same time to distract him from the initial pain. Sasuke's breathing stopped altogether and his teeth clenched together in pain, his fingers making fists in the sheets. Naruto stopped right away, biting his lip at how hot and tight it was. "Are you okay?"
Sasuke ground out, "It hurts. But keep going, I want this... hahh... Just do it all at once..."
"What? No, I'll hurt you..."
"Do it. I'll be fine."
Naruto frowned. "If you say so, then..." His hands gripping Sasuke's hips, he thrust all the way in with one quick push, wanting to cry when Sasuke arched off the bed and cried out in pain. "I told you!" he screeched, his voice raising hysterically. "I told you it would hurt, damnit!"
"Sh-shut up," Sasuke whispered weakly, managing to smile a bit. It was crooked, but it was there. He raised one hand to cup Naruto's cheek and pulled him down so that they were forehead to forehead. He had a light sheen of sweat all over his body, and he was shaking, but his eyes stared into Naruto's with what could only be described as love. "I can take this. I trust you, now I need you to trust me."
Naruto's eyes were wet and hazy after causing his lover pain, but he nodded. "Of course I trust you."
"Good. Now move."
Naruto couldn't say no. He planted a hard kiss on Sasuke's mouth and pulled out, gently sliding back in, wincing along with Sasuke when the latter squeaked in pain. He did this a couple more times, going slow and fighting the urge to just pound that wet, hot inferno, and slowly Sasuke started to relax and moan instead of sob. Pale hands clung to Naruto's back as the blond picked up the pace, shutting his eyes and gritting his teeth at the almost painfully good friction Sasuke's inner walls gave his aching cock. He angled his hips differently, trying to get deeper, and suddenly Sasuke cried out in ecstasy and gasped, "Right there!"
"Does it still hurt?" Naruto panted, trying not to come already. He knew he wasn't going to last long, though.
Sasuke shook his head quickly, his head falling back and eyes shut in pleasure. "No," he said through heavy breaths, "go faster."
And so Naruto did, groaning at the loud moan that fell from Sasuke's mouth. Neither of them was going to last much longer, he knew, but it didn't matter. They had forever. He moved so that their bodies were pressed together, leaning over Sasuke on his forearms, and kissed the raven's drooling mouth, swallowing choked moans and cries of ecstasy. With each thrust, Sasuke's groin would rub on Naruto's hard abs, and yet another moan would escape him. Naruto could feel how close he was, feel his heartbeat; and as his own pounded painfully hard, he thought vaguely that they were almost in sync, as though they were the same being.
Sasuke's moans were becoming more like screams now, and Naruto's name was thrown in there amidst curses and pleas for more. His fingernails dug into Naruto's back and clawed down, leaving bright red marks, but neither of them noticed. They were too lost in each other. Sasuke had tears coming from his eyes, from pleasure or emotion Naruto couldn't tell, but he licked them away before reinitiating the kiss, the tears mingling with their saliva and making it salty-sweet. He felt the length rubbing against his stomach twitch, and a bit of precome spurted from the tip—his head fell forward onto Sasuke's shoulder, and he groaned Sasuke's name, his muscles starting to seize up.
He didn't want to come first, and leave Sasuke unsatisfied, so he hastily snuck a hand between their bodies, which were pressed so closely together it was challenging, and took hold of Sasuke's cock. He pumped it fast in time with his thrusts, and Sasuke cried out, his body jerking like he was having a seizure.
"Naruto!" he panted. "I'm gonna come—!"
"Me too," Naruto moaned, thrusting impossibly fast and striking Sasuke's spot every time. With each sound Sasuke made the harder he found it to stay anchored to reality. He was teetering on the edge of bliss. "Fuuuck. I love you so much, Sasuke."
Sasuke couldn't have answered if his life depended on it. His head whipped back and his body became rigid, his lips open in a silent scream as he hit the most intense high in his life. Thick ropes of come exploded from him and splashed on Naruto's stomach and on his own heaving torso, and his inner muscles tightened so hard Naruto's head spun. He followed quickly after, his entire body shuddering and Sasuke's name flying from his lips as he released inside of Sasuke's body. The world seemed to explode, and they clung to each other, riding out their orgasms as euphoria turned everything a blinding white.
Finally they collapsed onto the bed, spent and exhausted, a fuzzy and warm afterglow falling over the room. After a few moments of lying there in each other's arms, panting and whispering each other's names, Naruto pulled out. Sasuke winced slightly, but he appeared completely content, a lazy look of love and uncharacteristic raw emotion displayed on his sweaty, flushed face. His eyes watery, he pulled Naruto in for a tight hug.
"Thank you," he whispered, so quietly Naruto might not have heard it if his ear hadn't been right next to Sasuke's mouth.
"Anytime," he responded lightly, smiling when Sasuke tiredly rolled his eyes. "Seriously though... for what?"
"For showing me." Sasuke sat up, shutting his eyes in a brief moment of pain, and decided it would be better to lay down. Naruto laid next to him and wrapped his arms around Sasuke, cradling the raven's head against his chest. Sasuke didn't complain and wrapped his arms around Naruto's waist. "For showing me that sex isn't always painful and terrifying... for showing me what it feels like to be loved." His voice was wobbly, and there was wetness on Naruto's chest. "I've never had that feeling. You have no idea what it means to me... I've always felt so alone..."
Naruto's arms tightened, and he planted a firm kiss on the crown of black hair in front of him. "Well, you don't have to worry about that anymore," he murmured as the raven drifted off. "Because I'm never going to leave your side. My home is in your arms."
KissMeDeadlyT-T: OMG FINALLY DONE! Again, I am SO sorry this took so long! I hope it was good enough to make up for it!
Emilymai101, thanks for putting up with me even when I thought I was gonna have to give this fic up! I hope you liked it and it met your expectations, and if it didn't... sorry :'(
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