A/N: I'm back! Thanks for getting me the three reviews! I won't do that again for a while! Anyway, this was going to be two chapters that would both be made longer, but I decided to combine them since it seemed appropriate. I'm in crunch time here because I leave for camp in 11 DAYS! I'm so excited but I'll miss hearing from you guys! Hopefully I'll continue writing as soon as I get home! This is pretty "hot off the press" so if you notice any mistakes, please tell me and I'd be more than glad to fix them!
THIS CHAPTER IS IN HONOR OF...*DRUMROLL PLEASE*...rRACHIE! Thanks for being a fan of my writing! It means a ton to me, and I hope you like this chapter dedicated just to you! If you would like me to change anything please tell me!
LeftHandedPeopleRule - I'm so glad to have you back again! Your reviews always make me feel especially great. I'm glad you liked the chapters. I think I have a bit of Mel's feisty-ness in me, so I'm excited to write more about her temper, also! Please keep reviewing! There really is little that makes me smile more than getting a review, since my writing is so important to me!
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Disclaimer: As much as I wish I did, I do not own the Host, the characters from the Host, or even Stephanie Meyer's creativity. That's life, right?
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I wake up in Jared's arms, the heat of his breath on my neck, and the fire burning between our bodies warming me. I turn my head to look at him, slowly, so I don't wake him, but as I turn I see he's already awake, staring back a me. Smiling, I lean in to kiss him. The kiss gains passion and soon we are engulfed in flames. I turn the rest of my body around, so I'm fully facing him. Pressing myself against him, I can feel his heartbeat pick up, and I'm sure mine feels the same through my tank top. I pull away, and lie down on my back, trying to catch my breath. Jared stays on his side, gazing down at me, tracing the shape of my arm.
"Morning," He smiles, "Mel. It feels good to call you Mel again."
"It feels good to see you smile again." I reply.
"Are you hungry? It's still pretty early, so I don't think many people will be up yet. But we can wait for Jamie and Doc and Lily and..." He trails off.
"No...Ian! I need to go. He's gonna freak if he wakes up and she's not there. Oh no! What am I going to say?"
"Whoa, Mel, calm down! I'll be right there with you. Don't worry."
"No. I need to do this alone." I take a deep breath. "It'll be too much for him to see me with you. I mean...as far as he's seen and knows, this is Wanda's body." I kiss Jared quickly on the cheek and stand up, straightening my shirt and shorts.
"You're amazing. You know that?" Jared asks, still on the mattress.
"So I've been told." He laughs. "So, should I come back here after I talk to him, or do you want me to meet you in the kitchen?"
"Um...Are you sure this is a good idea, Mel? I mean, what if he gets mad and hurts you?"
"Jared, he's not used to someone more "fight" than "flight" being in this body. And watching him with Wanda...I just don't think he could do it-lift even a finger against her, even if this isn't really her."
"What if I just wait outside. Then if anything goes wrong, I can protect you."
"I'm not a baby. I can take care of myself. You don't think I can beat Ian in a fight?" I smile-a challenge.
"Mel, be serious. You know I know how amazing you are. I just can't lose you again. What's gonna stop him from slapping you like I slapped her when-" I cut him off.
"I don't wanna talk about that. Come, if it makes you feel better. But just...don't talk about that."
"I'm sorry. I promise I won't come in unless something goes wrong."
"Fine." With that I stalk out, not waiting for him to catch up.
As I slide open the cardboard in front of Ian's door, I see he hasn't woken up yet. Leaning back out, I whisper to Jared, "Not awake yet, just...wait out here. Kay?"
"Yes, ma'am." He gives me a fake salute.
"Cute." I whisper, retreating into the room. Not sure what to do next, I sit down against the wall, hugging my knees into my chest.
Ian rolls over to face me, "Wanda?" He asks, rubbing his eyes. I close mine, and shake my head.
"Ian…" I can't look at him, can't take the pain that I know his eyes will show. There is no question. I will agree with him, listen to his accusations and know I deserve every single one of them.
"No...No! You-she-didn't! She wouldn't!" I hear him come closer, gripping my arms. "Tell me you're still there...TELL ME!" He raises his voice, and I flinch, then shake my head.
"I can't, Ian! I can't, and I know it's my fault! Just...Just please, give it to me straight, I deserve it." Opening my eyes, I see him retreat back to the bed, shaking his head.
"How...how could she? Did she know I love her? Was that not enough?" He's losing it. I see it right in front of me; he's breaking down. I imagine Jared in his position, after reading my note, but I shake away the picture. This is about Ian, not Jared.
"No, Ian, it's not your fault. She's just too selfless!"
"You! What did you have to say about all of this? I'm sure you've just been so happy to have your body back, huh?"
"No! I promise, I tried to convince her to stop-tried to keep her in my body. Trust me, I love her, too!"
"I just...what was she thinking?" The tears stream down his face now. I feel as though I can see his heart breaking in front of me.
"She was thinking that she absolutely loves you, but she doesn't have a heart to love you with. She was thinking that she doesn't want to be in control of someone else's body. She was thinking that she doesn't deserve you."
He lies down on his back, letting out a breath I didn't realize he was holding. Then, flipping so his face is toward the mattress, he pounds his fist into the pillow. "So, what am I supposed to do now? Just move on? I can't, Melanie, I can't live without her! She finally made me feel like there was a reason to keep living…"
"I know, but…I feel like your holding back from me. I deserve it, I'm begging for it! I could've tried harder, I could've…"
"Melanie, look, I know we sort of just met...but I see how much you love her. I don't want to yell at you, because I know there's only so much love can do. You deserve your body back. Heck, Jared deserves your body back!" I smile.
"Thank you. But...now what?"
"I guess we get her a new body." This makes me frown.
"She said she didn't want to be a parasite anymore."
"Then we'll make sure there's no one else in the body. We're humans, we're not so selfless."
"Okay, I guess we should leave as soon as possible…"
"No, Melanie...Mel...I don't need to come. I trust Doc and all, but if she's in a Cryotank, I want to be the one holding it. I don't care what she looks like." Smiling again, I realize how much Ian really loves Wanda. Wanda, not just her host.
"You know, it's amazing...how you can look past the skin and bones and find the soul."
I hope you enjoyed this oh-so-important scene! As I said before, this is brand new, so I hope you didn't find too many errors! Hopefully I will be able to post as many chapters as possible before I leave on the 23rd! Does anyone have any ideas for a cover for this? If you haven't checked it out yet, my other Host Fanfic has a cover that I made, trying to do a sort of copy of the original host cover, but I'm not sure what to do for this one! If you have any ideas, just leave it in the reviews! Just a reminder for anyone who didn't know or forgot, YOU CAN REVIEW EVEN IF YOU DON'T HAVE A FANFICTION ACCOUNT! THAT'S RIGHT, SO YOU HAVE NO EXCUSE NOT TO HIT THAT REVIEW BUTTON! I'll take anything: constructive criticism, compliments, requests. REVIEWS ALWAYS MAKE MY DAY! THANKS!