Oh. My. Gosh. I just wrote my entire a/n and edited my actual story and worked so friggin hard on it and then...POOF: ALL GONE! You don't know how frustrated I am right now. Add this to the hurricane and snow storm and no power and school and all I want to do right now is sit down and cry :'( Sorry, I'm venting to the computer screen ;) I'm just going to rewrite the whole chapter and hopefully this one will be even better than the chapter before...Sorry it's taken so long to write, 7th grade hit me hard and the hurricane hit me even harder! See what I did there? Wow, this is getting really long! Remember, this is the second time I'm replying to all of your comments so I'm sorry if they're not as good or long as they were the first time. On to the comment replies:
Heather - Wow, first comment! You don't know how much it means to me to see your response to my writing. The first always makes me smile the most :D Thank you so much for supporting, reading, and reviewing!
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AnieLee03 - Thank you so much! When I first wrote this chapter, I tried my hardest to take your advice in describing the emotions of the other characters. As I mentioned before though, that all went "bye-bye" so I'll try to keep that in mind when I rewrite it! And yes, Sharon definitely deserved everything she got from Mel ;D
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AND NOW...BEEN HERE ALL ALONG-CHAPTER 9: TAKE TWO
"Uncle Jeb, please! You don't know how much she means to me. I can't stay here. Please. Please. I know her better than anyone. Who knows what she should look like better than me?" I should have known this was coming. Who would let poor Melanie go back out into the real world when she barely escaped it the first time? It started with Uncle Jeb, and a conversation that went a little like this:
Jared: "Jeb, we want to leave ASAP to find Wanda's new host."
Jeb: "Who's we?"
Jared: "Me, Mel, and Jamie."
Jeb: "You plan on bringing Melanie back out there? Doesn't that kind of put everything we just went through at risk?" That's when the conversation took a turn for the worst.
Jared: "I guess it's really not safe for her to come. Maybe it would be best if she," he glances at me, "you, stayed here. After everything you've been through, going out there just makes the chances of it happening again that much greater…"
Jeb: "Ok then, you and Jamie can leave this afternoon." With that, he begins to leave. Like I would let them leave it at that!v
Me: "Whoa, no way. You guys can't be serious!"
Jeb: "Melanie, you know it's best. I'm just trying to look out for you."
Jared: "He's right. I can't lose you again, Mel." The pain is clear on his face, though he tries to hide it. That brings us right back to where we started.
"Uncle Jeb, please. You don't know how much she means to me. I can't stay here. Please. Please. I know her better than anyone. Who knows what she should look like better than me?"
"I get it, but I also get how much pain Jared was in when he lost you the first time. What if it happens again? What if you're gone for good this time?" This can't be happening. First I lose her, now when I finally get her back, I can't even come to pick out my replacement?!
"I'll be careful! I won't even get out of the van. She's my best friend, Uncle Jeb. You can't do this to me."
"You're right, Mel, I can't. I'm your uncle, but not your father. And I don't own you. Technically, this has to be Jared's decision." Ugh, right. The whole "who owns the body" thing. But wasn't this Jared's idea in the first place? He can't just change his mind like that. Can he?
I guess he can. "I'm sorry, Mel. It's just, now that I'm thinking about it...I can't lose you again, Mel. And the easiest way to make sure that doesn't happen is to keep you here in the caves. I promise, Jamie and I will keep your opinion in mind the entire time. You just got back...it would be my fault if something happened to you, and I was the one who brought you into harms way. I would never be able to live with myself."
"You can't keep me locked up here forever, Jared. She's my best friend, she's my sister, she's...ME! Jared, please. Don't do this to me."
He puts his hands on my shoulders, but I turn away, shrugging him off. Folding my arms across my chest, the anger becomes a physical thing, rising up from my core. It's like adrenaline, coursing through my veins, pumping through my heart. And just like that, it bursts out like an explosion.
"What do I do now, Jared? Sit here while my boyfriend and my baby brother go to find a new body for my best friend? Should I spend the time staring at that stupid Cryotank with Ian and trying not to think about where in the world the two people I can't live without could possibly be? Lose my mind trying not to think about how easily it could all go wrong? I know the souls, Jared. I've been sharing my body with one for the past year. I know how they think, feel, act...I can help you, Jared." I feel so helpless-like I'm falling, falling, falling, and there's nothing to hold onto on the way down. I've used every argument in the book. I have nothing left to make fix this.
"You know why I'm doing this, Mel. It's just because I love you…" He says it softly, as if to not set me off again. But I don't care. I've had enough of this arguing, so I slowly turn to head back to the room.
When I get back, it's all I can do not to scream and start pounding my fists against the hard cave walls. Instead, I decide to go visit Ian. I guess we're gonna be spending a lot of time together while Jared and Jamie are gone. And just like that, defeat has been accepted. I'm not one to give up, but this is Jared. And I've already used every argument in me.
"Hey, Wan-Melanie. Sorry, that might take a while." Ian looks up when the cardboard in front of his door moves aside. Cryotank in his arms, I can't imagine he's been doing anything but staring at it since I left. "Shouldn't you be getting ready to leave?"
"Apparently I'm not allowed to go. It's not safe." Sighing, I sit down next to him on the mattress and run my hand down the side of the smooth tank. "She's so beautiful…"
"I'm sorry you can't go. I know how much that meant to you." I know he means what he's saying. He gets it. And though his eyes never leave her glowing body, I can see there are a million thoughts going through his head. About me, about Wanda, Jared, Jamie, Jeb. Maybe even Sharon and Maggy. Then I remember he wasn't even there. He doesn't know what already happened in the kitchen.
"I yelled at her. Made them both come to their senses." He quickly glances at me, before returning his gaze to the beautiful creature in front of us. The confusion is evident in his expression.
"Sharon and Maggy." I laugh, a cold, heartless laugh. "They thought everything would go back to the way it was. I would be her loving cousin again, ecstatic to get that "parasite" out of my body. Yeah right."
"Thank you. For doing the things she was to...soul to do."
"Yeah, well, I'm definitely not a soul. Let's just hope I didn't rub off on Wanda too much." We both smile at that. The memory of her could never leave either of us. Someone who touched you so deeply, changed you so much, you can't forget that. Ian and I are both different people now.
I lie back on the mattress and stare up at the ceiling. "This is definitely not what I thought my life would look like." He laughs. It's full of irony, happiness, disbelief, bitterness, longing, relief. But no regret. Neither of us would trade it. As wrong as it is, as selfish as it may be. Ian and I are infinitely different, but evidently the same. And we both know that you can't trade someone like Wanda for anything.
Ian places the tank on the floor next to us, the first time I've seen him put it down. He lies back next to me, and we are more alike now than we have ever been. The anticipation could kill, stab a hole right through our hearts. Jared and Jamie, out there on their own. Wanda right next to us, but not really here. We both hold our breath, and until they return with her new host, neither of us will be able to breathe.
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