Fifteen

I had been dating Finn Hudson ever since I was fifteen and now at 17 after a couple of break ups I'm still dating him. Lately though it hasn't been Finn who is catching my eyes when I'm meant to be watching him a football practice I find my gaze drifting to match the cheerio's instead well one cheerleader in particular; Santana Lopez.

"Rachel are you listening to me?" Finn asked annoyed

"Huh? Sorry what were you saying?" I asked once I registered that he once impatiently waiting for an answer

"I'm done we can go. Why weren't you listening to me?" he whined

"Sorry I was thinking of songs for glee" I lied, he seemed to believe this.


Two days later he dragged me to the auditorium right before glee.

"Rachel I've been thinking about my future lately and since I didn't get the football scholarship I decided that since I love you and you love me we should get married. Rachel Berry will you marry me?" he asked, so sure that I would say yes. I'm pretty sure he insulted me twice during his proposal.

"Uh I don't know, let me think about it" I said before rushing out of the auditorium to find Quinn, I found her already sitting in the choir room "Quinn can I talk to you?" I asked my best friend

"Sure Rach is everything okay?" she asked as we walked over to the bathroom adjacent to the choir room

"No Finn asked me to marry him!" I whispered

"He what?" she was dumbfound

"Asked me to marry him and in his proposal he insulted me" I repeated

"Rach you have to tell him no and break it off we both know you're not into him anymore" Quinn stated

"But Quinny she doesn't like me that way actually she hates me!" I whined, we'd had this conversation many times before

"I know for a fact the she is into you, give it a shot and even if you don't still end things with Finn" she said as she left the bathroom leaving me to my thoughts.

"Just go ask her" Quinn pushed me towards where Santana was sitting alone

"I can't and I'm with Finn" I told her

"Only because your still living that school girl fantasy of dating a guy on the football team" she said before giving me the final push as well as un-knowingly giving me a song to sing.


"Hey Santana can I sit here?" I pointed to the empty seat beside her

"Sure" her face seemed to brighten up a little

"If I ask you something will you be honest with me?" I asked and when she nodded her head I continued "will y- is it rude to break up with someone in song" she seemed to pick up on the change of words

"What were you going to say?" she arched her eyebrow

"Nothing" I lied

"Well I think first you should break up with the giant oaf and then sing" she answer

"Okay thanks I'll be back soon" I waved as I quickly went to track down Finn


"Hey Finn" I called

"Hey Rach do you have an answer yet" he asked

"Yes I do, I I started only to be rudely cut off

"Great I was think of having the ceremony after nationals" he rambled

"Uh Finn my answer is no, I'm not in love with you" I finally confessed

"Of course you are, you're just confused" he said

"No I'm not its over" I walked away before he could say anything else . Once back in glee I asked Quinn if she would mind if I used his name in, of course she didn't mind.

"Mr Schue I have something I would like to sing" I announce as he walked in the room

"Okay Rachel take it away" he said


You take a deep breath and you walk through the doors
It's the morning of your very first day
And you say hi to your friends you ain't seen in a while
– I waved to Brittany who excited waved back
Try and stay out of everybody's way

It's your freshman year and you're gonna be here
For the next four years in this town

– after this year I would be in New York
Hoping one of those senior boys will wink at you and say
"You know, I haven't seen you around before"
– even though Finn wasn't a senior he was still the golden boy

'Cause when you're fifteen and somebody tells you they love you

– Finn didn't love me he was settling for me
You're gonna believe them
And when you're fifteen feeling like there's nothing to figure out
Well, count to ten, take it in
This is life before you know who you're gonna be
Fifteen

You sit in class next to a blonde named Quinn

– First day of freshman year Quinn and I were seated together and from there our friendship grew
And soon enough you're best friends
Laughing at the other girls who think they're so cool
– Of course Quinn was one of those girls for a while until baby gate happened
We'll be outta here as soon as we can
- she was going to Yale which wasn't too far from NYADA

And then you're on your very first date and he's got a car
And you're feeling like flying
And you're daddy's waiting up and you're thinking he's the one

– Back then I did think Finn was the one, I chanced a glance at him and he was looking happy as if I had come to my senses, just wait!
And you're dancing 'round your room when the night ends
When the night ends

'Cause when you're fifteen and somebody tells you they love you
You're gonna believe them
When you're fifteen and your first kiss
Makes your head spin 'round
But in your life you'll do things greater than
Dating the boy on the football team

I stared right at him when I sung this line and now he looked confused
But I didn't know it at fifteen

When all you wanted was to be wanted
Wish you could go back and tell yourself what you know now

Back then I swore I was gonna marry him someday

– and Finn thought I was too but no I had finally realised
But I realized some bigger dreams of mine
– I was going to succeed on Broadway and not have anything tying me to this cow town
And Quinn gave everything she had to a boy
Who changed his mind and we both cried
– When Quinn found out that she was pregnant we were both deviated and then we cried more when he told her he wasn't interested

'Cause when you're fifteen and somebody tells you they love you
You're gonna believe them
And when you're fifteen, don't forget to look before you fall
I've found time can heal most anything
And you just might find who you're supposed to be
I didn't know who I was supposed to be at fifteen

Your very first day
Take a deep breath girl
Take a deep breath as you walk through the doors


"Finn I meant what I said before I won't marry you I have bigger plans than that and I have feelings for someone else" I told him in front of the whole club, when I admitted I had feelings for someone else I glance at Santana

"Is that what you were trying to say before?" Santana asked trying to piece everything together

"Yes" I took a deep breath "Will you go out with me?"

"Yes Rae, how long? She asked as she approached me

"Most of the year" I whispered

"Why didn't you say so?" she asked, now standing in front of me

"I was afraid you would laugh and say no" I admitted shyly. Instead of answering she pulled me into a searing kiss; our first kiss. I remember hearing Finn storm out and Quinn saying 'finally'.

"Never" San said breathlessly


AN: What did you think? Oh and Puck isn't Quinn's baby daddy in this it was another guy on the football team. Faberry Friendship