When I look into your eyesIt's like watching the night skyOr a beautiful sunriseThere's so much they holdAnd just like them old starsI see that you've come so farTo be right where you areHow old is your soul?
I stared into Chris's eyes, pools of shining water, they were strangely beautiful, not like any other men's eyes I'd stared into before, that's for sure. I couldn't tell what he was thinking at that moment, but it was a lovely moment. We were sat on the edge of the beach, the ocean in front of us, lapping over the sand, the sun rising on the horizon. Chris had woken me up early, demanded I get ready, or just get dressed, so there I was, 10 minutes later from him pulling me out of our villa, sitting next to his warm body in a strappy sundress. I didn't bother doing much with my hair and no make up, but Chris didn't seem to mind, he just wanted us together, and outside.
He'd taken my hand and practically pulled me down the stairs, out the back door and down the steps to the beach. Since we only arrived the day before we'd not been down there yet, I thought the view from the bedroom window was enough, but this was even more, this was spectacular.
As soon as we got down a few meters away from the sea, we both seemed to stop at the same time, no words were needed. I took in a deep breath, taking everything around me in in a breath. They were beautiful surroundings, the sky was stunning shades of orange and pink. Our hands were linked and our bodies were touching, I felt so small next to him, I had no shoes on, my bare feet sunk into the sand. I won't give up on usEven if the skies get roughI'm giving you all my loveI'm still looking up
It'd been a long journey in our relationship so far but we were both so happy in the moment that nothing else mattered, nothing else except the two of us, and as long as we stayed together then nothing could destroy us. No little argument was going to have an impact on our friendship. We'd both been through a lot in our pasts but we weren't looking behind us, because we both knew we had such an amazing future ahead of us, it wasn't worth looking back at the bad times when we had so much to look forward too. Everything that had happened before was so insignificant now, now that we had each other. And when you're needing your spaceTo do some navigatingI'll be here patiently waitingTo see what you find
Looking onto the horizon, next to Chris, hand in hand, now sitting on the cool sand, it was perfect. Everything in that moment was perfect. I hoped that everything would stay perfect between us, we weren't going to give in easily that's for sure. Looking back at how far we'd come to get to that moment, it was really quite overwhelming. I'd waited a long time for Chris before he was available, but it turned out he'd waited even longer, even though I had absolutely no idea. 'Cause even the stars they burnSome even fall to the earthWe've got a lot to learnGod knows we're worth itNo, I won't give up
I do believe in fate, whatever anyone else says about it, I believe fate brought us together - that's why it took so long. The moment had to be right for anything to happen, but I didn't want to give up hope, and I got through everything with that thought in my mind, 'don't ever give up'. When Chris told me his disappointing news I actually couldn't have been happier. He didn't know how I felt but I knew that my chance was right there in front of me, I did try and stop myself from grinning when he told me, but it was difficult. I don't wanna be someone who walks away so easilyI'm here to stay and make the difference that I can makeOur differences they do a lot to teach us how to useThe tools and gifts we got yeah, we got a lot at stakeAnd in the end, you're still my friend at least we did intendFor us to work we didn't break, we didn't burnWe had to learn how to bend without the world caving inI had to learn what I've got, and what I'm notAnd who I am
I'm so very grateful for everyone that's in my life because they're all lovely, amazing people that have helped me so much, through the good and bad. It's quite hard to believe that the person I've been all those years is really me, when now I've found this new, confident woman that won't ever give up, not that easily. A couple of years ago opportunities would just pass me by, and that would be the end, but not now. Not just with me and Chris, but my whole life, I now have so many wonderful things I'd only ever have dreamt of, but now I've got them I'm definitely not letting go. I've finally learnt who I really am.I won't give up on usEven if the skies get roughI'm giving you all my loveI'm still looking upStill looking up.I won't give up on us (no I'm not giving up)God knows I'm tough enough (I am tough, I am loved)We've got a lot to learn (we're alive, we are loved)God knows we're worth it (and we're worth it)I won't give up on usEven if the skies get roughI'm giving you all my loveI'm still looking up
I'll never give up.