Author's Note: Just a 500 word drabble from Sakura's point of view. This came to me randomly while I was working one day. I decided to post it. A bit experimental in flavor, I wanted to see into Sakura's mind a bit. I do not dislike Sakura as a character; I don't personally care for her, but I don't hate her either. Let me know what you guys think of this. It's not the best thing ever, I know. Do tell me if it's the worst; I won't be offended.
Disclaimer: Naruto is not my property. And I give my bow to the quotes from Highschool of the Dead.
A Debate of Emotion
Women are creatures of emotion.
We act based on our thoughts and desires, and it's not always for the better, the decisions we make. We hurt people. We lie, we cheat, we steal. We'll tell a man we love him to protect him from a truth he can't handle. For the same reason, we'll tell someone we hate them.
I've done that.
I lied to Naruto. I don't regret doing it, and I'm not going to apologize for it. It had been a stupid plan to begin with, I will admit. I don't know what I was thinking. Oh, wait, we established this. Women act on their emotions. I am a woman, and I acted on my emotions. My only disappointment was in how easily Naruto saw through the act.
They always did say honesty hurt worse than the worst of lies.
And oh, did it hurt. It actually hurt hearing him tell me how I really felt about him. Not because it wasn't true, but more because it was true.
I love Naruto. I really do.
Some days I even wish I was in love with Naruto. I wish Naruto had been the man I had fallen in love with first, then I wouldn't be suffering so. He wouldn't be suffering so.
It's all my fault
Because I was weak.
I lied to Sasuke.
He didn't fall for it either. Either he didn't fall for it or he'd care either way. I don't know if it's because I'm so transparent when it comes to him or because he just reached that point of maniacal. He really wanted to kill me.
No, he didn't want it. He tried it!
Thank you, Kakashi. Thank Kami for Naruto.
I've never been so terrified in my whole life. Horrified by what he had become. I didn't recognize him, and when he smiled at the idea of killing Kakashi, my heart broken. It just literally broke, shattered into a thousand pieces without any hope of ever being mended again.
And now here I am.
I've cried. I've screamed. I've raged.
And still I have no idea what to do. Naruto wants to fight Sasuke. Sasuke wants to fight Naruto. Sasuke wants to kill Naruto. Naruto says they'll both end up dead.
How much more will I lose before this is all over?
I didn't become a medical ninja just so I could sit back and watch two of the most important people in the world to me destroy each other. I can't save them both. But I don't want to have to choose which one to save.
I'll never be able to decide between them. I love the both of them too much.
But maybe that's just what it's going to come down to, and I won't know until I see it for myself.
Women are creatures of emotion. We hurt, we love, we cry. Our decisions aren't always the smartest, and half the time they are downright irrational. We have to power to destroy and create based off the desires of our hearts.
So when it comes down to it, I'll make my decision, not based on what my head tells me, but what my hearts screams at me. I just hope it makes the right decision.
Why would I listen to what my raw emotions tell me?
Because women are raw.
Thanks for reading. Let me know what you think. Flames and constructive criticism accepted.
Please, don't send me Sakura bashing comments, please.