Grabbing a mug from the cabinet I poured me a cup of coffee as I waited for the taxi. I slowly brought the mug to my pale lips and allowed the warmth to run thru my body. Placing my hand upon the cabinet I sobbed, the hardest I ever sobbed before. It was my fault she was not her, all my fault. If I would have been calm by my actions then it would have not heated up into this mess. "I-I'm Sorry….God I beg you….God please….Help me" I barley got out as I sobbed. Using the back of my hand to wipe my tears away I finished the cup of coffee and then headed out to the taxi. I packed a light bag since I planned to sleep in a motel tonight. Wanting to be away from Eric was one of the things upon my mind. As I quickly grabbed my little blue booksack that I use to use for high school and then college. Yes, I did attend college for the first three years of my marriage. It secluded the fact that I did the advertisement for Fangtasia. As my ice blue eyes fell upon the Taxi, the yellow upon the car seemed so dull and plain looking. Almost how I felt upon the inside….Dull. On the outside I just grabbed a pair of light blue jeans that hugged my hips properly and a light pink shirt. My brown hair was slowly losing it's color and seemed a little dull.

Climbing into the back seat as the cab waited for me to enter.

"where at ma'am" said the bald headed cab driver. His voice was a little raspy and he smelled like cigars.

"Broadway Street" I told him as my eyes stayed upon my fragile hands. He nodded before he took off into the busy street. I couldn't take it the silence much longer to be trapped within my own thoughts. Taking out my black and blue notebook, knowing I needed to write. Writing lyrics was a refreshment to me. The calm feeling quickly covered my body and I wondered why I had stopped this hobby. Why would I stop writing…..the answer was black and white in front of me. Since I met Eric I never knew how to tell him about my hobby.

The time must have flew by as I wrote because I could hear the man clearing his throat. I averted my blue eyes slowly to the cab driver, he had such a worry look upon his face as he looked at me.

"Fifty dollars Miss" he said in his raspy voice. I quickly grabbed the money and handed it to him. "Thank you" I said sweetly before I shut the door once I was out.

Taking that step toward John's brick home was such a challenge. Not because I didn't want to be their but I had no idea how to tell him the news, If he didn't know already. Just standing their in the driveway I held my blue booksack in my left hand and my notebook in the right. I didn't know what to do, well pretty much what to say. No words were forming into my mind but instead tears formed within my eyes.

"GET OUT THE WAY" yelled a man as a loud horn came behind me. I jumped out the way as a large blue truck came flying into the driveway. It was Alcide and he looked pissed. His brown eyes landed upon me and I noticed they shift to a golden color as he allowed a growl to escape his lips. Quickly the large man exit his truck and slammed the door before he headed toward my direction.

"You fucking BITCH….YOU FUCKING ALLOWED VAMPIRES TO TAKE HER…I SWEAR KATHERINE IF ANY HARM COMES TO HER" Alcide growled as I shirked backing up. I shook my head quickly as tears quickly fled from my eyes.

"N-no Al-Al-Alcide I didn't w-w-wa-want that" I sobbed out as covered my face with my hands.

I could hear growling but I didn't look at him. "KATHERINE I KNOW YOU DIDN'T WANT SUCH A THING BUT YOUR FUCKING STUPID ACTIONS WITH THE CAR AND RUNNING OFF INTO THAT FUCKING VAMPIRE….WHAT EVER HIS FUCKING NAME IS….BUT YOU MADE A WRONG CHOICE SUCH A STUPID CHOICE TO DO TO YOUR HUSBAND. AND WHAT ERIC FUCKING DID NOT HELP WHY BECAUSE HE WAS PISSED AT YOUR FUCKING ACTIONS…..IT IS NOT RIGHT KATHERINE, YOU SHOULD HAVE USED YOUR FUCKING BRAIN. OR DID YOU LOSE THAT WHEN YOU MARRIED THAT FUCKING VAMPIRE. YOU CAN'T DO ANYTHING RIGHT…YOUR NOTHING BUT A USELESS WASTE OF SPACE…YOUR STUPID AND SHALLOW…LIKE I SAID BEFORE USELESS" every word Alcide spoke did hit me like a ton of bricks I was speechless and noticed I felt a rush of heat. I couldn't breath it was as if I was being smothered as I held the tears back within my throat. The lump was hurting a bit within my throat wanting a release. I heard another man's voice from behind me.

"Alcide…how dare you, you know damn well Ricky had a choice. A choice not to follow but they both made a mistake…you cannot blame just Katherine. She did not know what was going to happen" John spoke calmly yet I could sense firmness behind every word. As I felt John slowly grab my arm to pull me closer I couldn't look at Alcide. Never again would I look at him the same way. We walked toward the house as we both kept silence. Was the cool air hit me from stepping inside I walked toward the brown sofa and sat down.

"I-I really am sorry John" I whispered as John sat next to me. John cleared his throat before he started to speak "He is upset because Ricky and Alcide were talking and fixing to date."

John's words made perfect sense obviously Alcide would be furious since the woman he was into was now gone, gone because of me. I noticed John pulling out a huge map out and I was curious as what he was doing.

"Ok Kat I need you to point at the location you were at with Katherine when you were taken"

Looking carefully at the map I pointed in the area that was ten minutes away from Sookie's house. Noticing John slowly nodding his head he placed an X mark where my finger met the paper. Then making a large circle around the X mark covering many areas, then another circle around the first one.

"Ok a normal human would be able to go this far before you would wake up, if I heard correctly from an inside source you were knocked out. But a vampire moves ten times faster than a normal human's car so the radius will move outward more."

Looking at the map it seemed that most of Louisiana was covered but I remembered information that I was told as a young girl. "In area five, Eric is the sheriff so if this happened in his area I would have heard of Victor before. So it has to be in area three….all the other areas I know the sheriffs, and area three is the second to largest area in Louisiana." John nodded his head as he marked large X's inside the circle. I knew he was planning and thinking.

John was doing geometry problems upon the map almost for the whole day then he finally stretched and relaxed a bit he mumbled a statement that I wanted to hear "We will find her…I have a clue as to where she is at" he looked deep into my eyes. I leaned against his warm body as I thought of how Eric was acting, so cold and heartless. Yet John was being their and caring.

His hand touched my soft cheek and I noticed he wiped a tear away from my eye he whispered "We will find her Kat I promise." I couldn't comprehended what he was saying because Eric's word "Own" was roaming thru my head.

"He told me he owned me…like it was so cruel that I don't know what to think…I felt like I was property as I stood in front of him" I finally told John as more tears fell from my blue eyes. John grabbed my face with his other hand as both thumbs brushed many tears away from my skin.

Shaking his head he continued to speak "You are not an object, you are not someone that is owned….if he does not love you like a person you are then I think he has personal issues….Kat I…I regret not returning to you on that night. But when your father told me you were leaving with Eric I didn't believe it. But I made the mistake by not interrupting you and Eric's talk. I made that mistake and I live with it everyday of my life. I want you to have the perfect life and not worry about vampire bull shit."

I knew what talk he spoke of it was a talk that I opened up with Eric and he did me, or so I thought. I leaned within John's hands "Promise me one thing John…Promise me that you won't ever leave me…I need you more than ever now" I whispered. His lips were getting closer to mine as he barley brushed my lips as he spoke.

"I promise" he whispered right before our lips locked. The kiss seemed to go on for minutes as his hands roamed up my sides and I ran my fingers thru his short brown hair. He slowly pulled away and stood up "Lets do something fun…lets go to our old bar like the old days…but we are legal we don't' have to sneak in." It was still daytime so we would have to wait, even though I missed Ricky I knew it would not just happen in a day to find her and we needed this break. A break from reality. I nodded as I also stood up but I turned to walk to the room I knew belonged to John.

Once I was inside I pulled out a box, it was to strip my color in my hair….I was going back natural.

XX

After five hours it was getting dark outside and I was fully dressed. My light blonde hair was straight and I was wearing a simple black dress with a red belt that was shiny and made my waist look even smaller. The red six inch heels matched the same shine the belt had making me look a tad bit taller. As I exit out the door I could hear a gasp and then "Dang" I couldn't help but smile as I looked in John's direction. Walking toward the werewolf that was wearing dark blue jeans and a black shirt he looked like a million bucks. It was clear under his shirt he was ripped and worked out more than he use to back when they were both younger.

His massive hand reached out allowing mine to easily fall in place. We walked out the door holding hands ready for a fun night at a bar. But even though we were planning to have fun I couldn't help but think of Ricky and Alcide's harsh words.

A/N: I had to cut it right here because I almost had them go to fangtasia but how ironic would that be…..well you never know where these friends will go to but I know fangtasia is not the bar..Next chapter will be more on Katherine and John but no worries Eric will have his point of view the next chapter as well…Review please thanks….

SPOILER ALERT: Alcide said what he said for a reason…..when she grows up a bit more those words have an impact as well. I don't want yall to hate him because he is really a good guy but what Katherine did was not a smart thing by beating her husband's car up…but she will learn.