AN: ok, I got a comment from one of my readers saying Edward threw the word "love" around a lot… they have known each other for 16 years….I'm thinking not.
I know this is a VERYYYY late update, im sorry, RL hasn't been very kind to me /:
Up dates will come sooner(: and WILL BE LONGER!
It was silent the whole car ride home. The only thing we heard was his classical music. Edward had always loved classical music, he would even blare it at times. When ever I was at the Cullen's house I knew Edward was home when I heard classical music.
He pulled into my drive way. Unlocked my door, "thank you for driving me home," I tried to smile but im sure a frown came out.
"no Problem," he said as I undid my set belt.
I sighed, "Edward, can I ask a question?" I said before I even knew what I was saying.
"Hmm?" he answered.
I didn't know what I was going to ask him so I blurted out, "Team Peeta or Gale?"
He laughed for the first time tonight, "Peeta," he sighed, "that wasn't the question was it?"
"Can we be friends?" I blurted our again. Why I am I blurting today!
His grip on the steering wheel tightened and made his fingers turn white, but his face looked sad, "I don't know,"
"It's a simply question. Kindergartners can answer it," I scoffed.
He gave me a confused look, "do we look like a bunch of 5 year olds?" it stayed silent, "I'll have to think about it,"I sighed. "Im sorry,"
"Why can't you answer now?" I asked, "if you don't want to be friends say it, don't get my hopes up, waiting for it like I was when we were teenagers."
"But were not teenagers anymore, were actual adults, it's more complicated," he deadpanned.
I sighed. He didn't like me anymore, because I was pissed. Because I didn't say anything either. I quickly got out of his car and went into my hours, I hated that I left with out saying goodbye. I didn't look back knowing he would already by gone. I shut the door behind me, and went to the kitchen, some thing caught my eye. It was the blinking red number on the answering machine.
It was Alice's and my Voice mail box, it read 2 messages, and I clicked on the play button. I headed to make my self a bowl of cereal while I listened.
"Bella?! Its mom just wanted to check on you guys! Me and your dad just arrived in Florida. Im in hopes you like forks still. Call me back! Remember our offer still stands, bye. We love you!" I would call her tomorrow; it was 9:15 now.
I sat down with my bowl of cereal as the next voice began.
"Hey, Is," I heard his voice playing. I instantly became pissed, "it's Jake, I wanted to call to tell you, I made a mistake, choosing Leah, im so sorry, I see that I've loved you all along. That's why, im coming to forks to win you back. I love you, Is, I am going to prove toy you, I'll be there in a week. Love you, Is," 'Is' is what he called me all the time, I hated it, but no matter how many time I made it known that I hated the name, he didn't cease the name. I didn't want him to come; I wanted him to stay in Seattle. He picked the wrong timing for this, Edward would just get into this, and Jacob would wish eh never came.
I took a shower then put on my pajamas I wore all the time. it was Edward's old home game foot ball jersey. He gave me it at the end of his last football game. He let me wear it before any away game, which was something I was oblivious about, considering only the girlfriends of the football players wore their jerseys, Alice did the same with Jazz, and Tanya never wore the jersey, even when they were dating. It was Yellow and purple the colors of our school, and it had the word "Cullen" on the back and the number 34. Something he was oblivious about because once he asked me what my favorite number was and I had said 34.
I was so stupid! He left so many hints! but so did I, he once left a hint when I on accident spilt chocolate milk on my shirt and Alice let my use an extra t-shirt that had read: "Before you look here you need to know: my name, age, and the color of my hair and eyes" Written on the chest part of the shirt. When Edward drove me home, I was about to get out of the car, but I gave him a hug first and he leaned into my ear and said, "Bella, 17, Mahogany brown, but in the sun it's red, and melted milk chocolate brown," did he check me out? Or was he simply curious of my shirt? I didn't think anything of it because he was dating Tanya.
Tanya Denali, a girl that made me hate life for two years, before her and Edward broke up before he went to college. Right after I told her off too. I remember it so clearly because it was one of the best days of my life.
It was the last week of Edward and Tanya's senior year. She was in my gym class and all
the girls were getting dressed.
"Eddie's parents are letting us go to their cabin in Oregon next week," she said looking in the mirror, while putting lip gloss on and talking to her friends. Ha! She is such a liar! Carlisle and Esme would never ever in am billion years allow that. Next week all of us, not including Tanya, were going up to the cabin, including me. Something we always did, just us. "Oh, His parents just adore me! They once almost bought me a car!" she continued lying her nasal high pitched lying tone. Edward's parents hated Tanya. "Esme says she already expecting a wedding," they all giggled but that is when I spoke up.
"You're not going to the cabin with us1" I said acting confused. Catching her lying in front of her friends was something that always happened but I never spoke up until now. She looked stunned, speechless for once in her life. "It's only going to be Jasper, Alice Emmet, Rosalie, Edward, and me,"
Her friends starred at me in disbelief. "Bella, you d-didn't hear? i-I'm coming with y-you guys," she lied again.
"Liar," I scoffed, "I can call Edward right now and ask him right now," I pulled out my phone.
"you don't have Eddie's number," she said suddenly worried.
"One: it's Edward. Two: I've known him since I was 10 years old, honey, you bet your ass I have his number" I was surprised by my tone and what I said. I quickly pulled out my phone and dialed his number before she could have time to answer. I pressed speaker.
He picked up, "Hey, beautiful," it was his happy response to every time I called. He always called me beautiful or gorgeous. They all gasped at the nickname, and Tanya looked pissed.
"Hey, handsome," I played back, "I got a quick question,"
"Ask me anything," Tanya seemed surprised at his openness he had with me.
I paused, "who is all going to the cabin with us?" I asked hoping my plan didn't back fire on me.
"Uh, you, me, Emmet, Alice, Jasper, and my parents. Why?" I smiled at Tanya.
"Oh," I laughed, "I heard a rumor Tanya was coming with us,"
"You know my parents can't stand Tanya, they wouldn't in a million years let her come up with us," Ha! Take that Tanya!
"Right. No. Yeah, I know that, alright well see ya later, sexy!" we always called each other names like this.
He chuckled, "Alright, see ya after school, I'm taki9ng you home, right?"
"ok, great, see ya later sexy!" he hung up and then I smiled.
"oh, did ya hear that?"
"Shut up!" Tanya yelled.
"next time you lie about Edward, make sure one of his best friends isn't in the room," I laughed and then walked away, and then remembered something, I turned around and she was still standing there speechless, "oh, by the way, Edward HATES being called Eddie," I flipped her off and then left.
BEST DAY OF MY LIFE!
About a week after our camping trip, the whole movie theater situation came up and they broke up.
Having Tanya leave made me realize something. When someone doesn't want you, leave. They're not going to want you. They are not going to love you like you love them.
That's when I started going out on dates and had more then 2 guy friends.
But no matter other many guys I talked to or ho many dates I had I always loved Edward. Always have and always will.
I woke up the next day to another voice message on my answering machine; I clicked play and sat down with my cinnamon toast crunch.
"Bella," I heard Edward's voice; he took a sigh, "I'm sorry for calling at 1 in the morning but," he took another sigh, "im sorry for not answering your question earlier but here is my answer…No," my heart broke at the 1 syllable, 2 letter word. "im sorry but I cant be friends with someone I'm in love with…it's not fair. to see you and not be able to kiss you and tell you I love you. it's clear to me that you only have friend feelings for me." he paused, "and until I get rid of all my feelings for you other then friendship I think I need a break from you, I don't want to lose you forever Bella, your friendship means too much to me, so after I get over you, we can be-," don't say it, "-we- we—," please don't say it, he took a sigh, "—we can be-," a tear came down, please say anything else but what I think you are going to say, "—Friends," he paused, "it kills me to say this, but I know its what you want," REALLY? "Bye, Beautiful, I Lo-," then he hung up.
He thought I wanted to be friends? after almost 16 years of being friends and being in love with him? I needed to prove to him that I still loved him.