***If you are reading this chapter for a second time it is because it has been re-uploaded and edited a bit, the whole story so far (6 chapters) is going through a "re-edit".***

A/N: VERY AU, the characters are only losely based off of the books but through out the story you will find that they aren't really all that different from the real characters. This story has a contemporary setting and the "hunger games" never happened. I hope you enjoy it, I haven't written anything for a long, long time so please don't be too mean :)

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Disclaimer: I do not own the rights to The Hunger Games, I do however own the intellectual property of this story (the plot and what not)


"Hey Gale, while your playing Play Station I'm gonna use your computer, that cool?" I ask my boyfriend Gale.

"Yea sure Hun, I'm going to the shops later, want anything in particular?"

"nah, I think I'm right..." I sigh.

This is what it's been like between us. So mundane, no romance, no butterflies. Nothing. This is my only day off, half of the day at least, and all my boyfriend can do is play Play Station. Which doesn't even bother me, which alone, bothers me that it doesn't bother me.

Ugh. I love him, I know I do. He's my best friend. Always has been, we've been dating for 2 years and we were best friends before that too. These lulls happen in relationships though right? Aren't we meant to work through them? I don't feel like working through anything, I feel like there is nothing left to work through. Does that make me a bad person? I know I'm not an angel but I've never particularly fancied myself as being outright mean, or a bitch. I scowl a lot, I don't let people in and I don't believe in being in love but it doesn't mean I think Gale is not worthy or deserving of trying.

I think that's it, he deserves better than me, somebody who wants to get married one day, have kids and fight to the ends of the Earth for him no matter what. To put it bluntly, I'm just not that person. I never have been and I probably never will be that person. It's not the whole "it's not you, it's me" situation though because at the same time it isn't entirely my fault we are in the position today either.

I don't know. It's not like he treats me badly, not that at all. Gale has been a wonderful boyfriend, I don't think I will ever find a guy who will treat me this nicely again. Sure, we didn't have dates all the time or do all the normally couple-y things, but he was amazing, is amazing.

I'm not the easiest person to be around. Quite frankly I'm a horrible person to be around, I'm cranky, I'm moody, I have too many issues that I don't deal with. Gale accepts me for all these things, that's what makes us work. He doesn't care that I'm damaged goods, and I accept him for who he is.

Maybe that's it, maybe we accept too many things and should learn to expect something else. I don't expect anything of Gale though. If I had, would things have changed? If I expected him to be romantic, expected him to take me on dates and bring me flowers maybe things would be different. Then again if he expected me to dote upon him, expected me to fawn all over him things would be different too. That was never going to happen though. Maybe it isn't him, or me, but 'us'.

All those things aside though we have a good relationship. People always made fun of us that we were more like an old married couple then a couple of teenagers in a relationship. They were right. What about now though? What has happened to us? We fight more often than not and it feels like all the little things we do for each other, like massages or ignoring the other persons stupid comments seem like such a hard task.

When all else fails, consult Google. Google is the know-er of all. Google is wisdom. Google is there for you, when others are not. Chuck Norris doesn't search Google, Google searches Chuck Norris. Oh, all mighty Google! what does it feel like to be in love?

[Google Search Bar: What does it feel like to be in love? -enter-]

"when you always want to be together." Well I suppose that's true, I am always with him and I like spending time with him. I don't think we are ever by each others side but I could say the same thing about my younger sister Prim really, how has that got anything to do with BEING in love?


"without them, your life feels incomplete."I can't imagine my life without Gale, but does that mean he has to be in my life romantically? When I look into the future I see us living together, going to family Christmas celebrations together (with what little family we have left). We don't have to be boyfriend and girlfriend to do those things though, in fact, I've never seen a romantic future with us. Not marriage, not a family, not even romantic weekends where we do nothing but stay in bed together and light candles. Or more realistic, stay in bed all weekend and watch old friends reruns on tv and cook each other silly meals.


"Their needs come before you own, you only want them to be happy" That's definitely true. Then again, that is the same for Prim and was the same for my father before he died. I'm certainly not IN love, nor was I in love, with either of them. These are stupid results, Google why are you failing me?


"Love is giving someone the power to destroy you, and trusting them not to." Nobody has that power, or at least will ever have it again.


"When you touch, butterflies are born. When you kiss, your breath is stolen. When he's hurt, you are torn. When you're smitten, he has fallen. You smile at the very thought of him and your heart feels like it is full to the brim." Hmmm, how poetic...If you're into that kind of thing, I suppose. It makes me feel a little bit sick to be honest but I don't think those are the kind of butterflies they are talking about though.

I think I need to break up with Gale.

Turning around in my seat I look over to my boyfriend, my best friend, my lover – no, lover is a bad word - my casual booty call. He is just lying there, lounging on the bed being as lazy as ever. Is this part of the reason I feel like this? because he's so lazy he's just not trying with us anymore?

Ugh, Katniss that's not fair. It takes two to make a relationship work.

Walking over to him, I collapse onto the bed with a big huff.

"Hey Catnip, what's up?" Gale asks me, his gaze not daring to break away from the television screen.

"Are we in love?" I blurt out. We've always had a bit of a weird relationship, I tend to self-disclose a crap load of things to him, but it goes both ways. No bars hold, nothing is too personal. All though I do still tend to hold a lot of bars.

"I mean, it feels like we've just reverted back to being friends with benefits. You know what I mean Gale?" at this, he pauses his game and turns towards me. I brace myself. I knew it would be like this, he loved me for years before we got together. Me being my oblivious self, it took us going from friends, to best friends, to friends with benefits for him to confess his love for me and had loved me for years.

At first it scared the living shit out of me and I refused to talk to him for days, until one morning, I woke up and just decided. Why the hell not. He's good looking, we're sexually compatible, we're together 24/7 anyway. So I said 'O.K.'

I'd been heart broken before, by family and lovers, I thought I'd never feel real love again. I just didn't know. I still don't know what real love feels like any more. But really, do any of us? Is love purely just a fictional idea promoted by drugged up musicians and sexually frustrated authors? Or is it merely a force that causes people to do stupid things, let themselves get hurt and hurt others in the process. My favourite movie is Moulin Rouge but fuck knows what they're singing about.

Because Gale has "loved" me for so long I was afraid. I knew this, us breaking up, was inevitable. I knew it would be me to do it, I just don't want to see him heart broken. I couldn't possibly bear it. But it must be done.

He's just sitting there staring at me. Oh crap, say something Katniss, don't make him cry!

"It's just, I know I love you, but like...are we IN love any more? It just feels like lately we only act like friends- but we still have sex, so friends with benefits- which isn't knew to us anyway, I mean a girls gotta get some- but-" Gale interrupts my babble.

"Sshh Katniss, I feel the same way." He hushes me. Excuse me, what?

"huh?" I lamely respond. Gale shifts positions so he can look at me straight on.

"I've felt like this for a little while now, too, it's just like, the past 6 months we've reverted. I mean I love you too and you'll always be my best friend, always be a huge part of my life." Gale confesses. SIX MONTHS! What the hell? I was talking about the last couple of weeks not 6 fucking months. Is Gale breaking up with me?

"Are you breaking up with me?" what am I saying of course he is breaking up with me, didn't I want to break up with him?

"well isn't that the whole point of this conversation Katniss?" Gale reads my thoughts.

"yea, I guess, but 6 months you've felt like this? Just last week you told me you loved me during sex! Were you ever going to tell me?" I say angrily, why am I even angry? Calm down Katniss, you're being irrational, you initiated the conversation for christs sake!

"eventually I guess"

"you guess?"

"Katniss why are you getting upset, I thought this is what you wanted?" is this what I want?

"Are you only saying this because I initiated the conversation, do you really want to break up with me? I mean YOU WANT to? not just what I want? I don't want you doing anything you don't want to and I don't want to force you into anything."

"You're not forcing me into anything Katniss, like I said I've felt like this for a little while now, is this what you want? I personally think it is the right thing to do." Gale admits. So this is going not like I planned at all.

"I don't know Gale, I just thought we'd talk about things and you'd convince me I was being stupid and it would all go back to normal. I guess, I don't really know. This is all so confusing." I sigh dejectedly. What's the big problem, we're breaking up, shouldn't I be ecstatic that this is going so, for lack of a better word, well.

"is that why you're upset Katniss, because I'm not 'fighting' for you? I mean, I suppose 6 months was a bit of an exaggeration but do you want us to break up? do you want to stay with me?" Gale asks me. Do I?

"I think so...is that okay? I mean, I'm so confused, I don't want to lose you, and the thought of not being your girlfriend makes me feel sad, because I'm not feeling sad...shouldn't I feel sad?"

"haha Katniss, don't feel sad because you DON'T feel sad. We've never been a normal couple, why should our break up be any different? I mean we talked about this before we got into it, that if we felt like it wasn't right we'd be honest so we wouldn't jeopardise our friendship. Well That's what we're doing right now."

And that's how Gale and I ended up sleeping together that night, having the best sex we've ever had. All because we broke up.

What are we now? Eventually at 2 in the morning we agreed to just play things by ear and not label anything. Why must everything be so confusing.

On a brighter note I feel relief. Whether it's from being single, or just having a decision made, I dunno. Sweet relief.

[Google Search Bar: Define Platonic -enter-]

pla·ton·ic (/pləˈtänik/)

- Of or associated with the Greek philosopher Plato or his ideas.

- (of love or friendship) Intimate and affectionate but not sexual.

Well Google, I see we have to re-think our relationship too now seeing as though you've been no help today. Platonic my ass. What is going to happen to us?

A/N: Thanks for reading, a review would be nice, I'd love some criticism, I haven't written in so long (other than academic papers) so I'm a little nervous it's going to be total shit. ANYWAYS hope you enjoyed it, I will put the next chapter up if the stats show at least one person has read this chapter LOL

***If you are reading this chapter for a second time it is because it has been re-uploaded and edited a bit, the whole story so far (6 chapters) is going through a "re-edit".***