Chapter 1

Whenever I see you

I'll swallow my pride and bite my tongue

Pretend I'm okay with it all

Act like there's nothing wrong

Zach knew just where to hurt me, just where to break me down, but I knew, I know, I'll always love him, and I know I have to pretend, pretend everything is okay, even though I'm falling apart, even though nothing's right. He was the best thing to ever happen to me, still is I think, why did we have to turn into this, there's a black hole swallowing me alive, and I don't know how to stay alive anymore.

Is it over yet

Can I open my eyes

Is this as hard as it gets

Is this what it feels like to really cry


I'm sick of this feeling, sick of us being apart, sick of that hole in my heart, where Zach used to be, its burning me up, taking everything with it. Zach stops right in front of me, unsure of what to say.

"I heard about the baby" Zach says not daring to look in my eyes. I look at him, what could I say.

"Don't even think about blaming yourself Zach, just don't" I say pushing past him. I see Zach's eyes lingering on me, not sure of what to do. Why did this have to happen to me?

Why was I the one who had to lose, why did Zach have to break me? Why the hell do I still love him.

If anyone asks

I'll tell them we just grew apart

What do I care

If they believe me or not

I'd told Tina and the rest of Gallagher Academy that things had just changed, I don't even understand why they believe it, everybody knew about Zach leaving to join the circle, everyone knew it hurt me but they just thought we grew apart? I mean we are spies we are meant to question everything, obviously not, I didn't care if they believed me or not, I guess it just stopped rumours that I didn't want floating around.

So what did you think? First chapter of the sequel? Still deciding on whether or not I want Nammie or Zammie, so yeah. Please review?