Let's Go Back to the Start

PROLOGUE: Cut All the Ropes and Let Me Fall…


"To die will be an awfully big adventure."

-J. M. Barrie


Life can be a true wonder.

It can feel like a thousand miracle, all happening at once.

Like the moon is smiling as you dance slowly among the millions of stars, as you glide through an inky velvet sky.

Or it can feel like lying in the soft green grass of a meadow, your toes tickled by the lukewarm water at your feet. Bright rays of rich sunlight heating the day.

It really sucks that I have to go. I had a few things left to accomplish in this lifetime.

But when it finally does happen, I'll be ready. I have to be.

Maybe everybody else won't be. Maybe they'll say that it was too soon, especially for one so young as me.

But I really do have to leave.

Right this moment, I'm so sad that I could laugh. Doesn't really make sense, I know.

I'm laughing now. It's better than crying.

As if I have a choice.

To know that none of it will ever happen is torture. I'll never see those eyes. Just that thought is making it harder than ever not to cry.

We don't have time for it.

It scares me. Of course it does. I'm bound to be afraid. Who wouldn't be?

After all, the only thing I'll ever do right will never occur.

I wish I could run. It's inevitable either way, but this is what I have to do.

I can't be a coward. Not now. It's too late.

I have to stay and let it happen.

I roll onto my side, laughing again. I don't have the right to tears. I lost that privilege a long time ago.

I touch the pillows next to my face, wondering if at this moment, you're doing the exact same.

My fingers trail across the space where your beautiful smile would be, were you lying next to me. Where you belonged.

Alas, all things must come to an end.

After so long, after so much, I've finally come to accept this.

I allow my eyelids to fall shut, a single, final grin gracing my lips.

Your familiar face is the very last thing that I will ever see.

After all, the dreams in which I'm dying are the best I've ever had.


New story :D I'm on a roll today.

This is one of my favorite movies of all time, but I just felt like something was... missing. Do you know what I mean?

Anyways, with my incredible love for OCs, I decided that this story was missing someone.

Besides, let's be honest. Donnie, as wonderfully odd as he is, can be a big jerk. Don't you all deny it. You know that it's true ;) He doesn't deserve Gretchen.

So, my extensive research, I hope that the role I've made for the new character fits in well. If not, feel free to tell me or make suggestions.

Please, just keep in mind that the world created by Richard Kelly is as twisted and convoluted as it is ingenious. Again, if you feel as if this fic is getting too complicated, don't be shy, tell me :)

As always, thank you, and I hope that my ramblings have made my ideas clearer :D