A/N: I know, I know, long time no chapter. But I had some family matters to deal with, and softball has been hectic. Then I got this taken away while I was writing. Forgive me? Or you can yell at me in a review.
From last chapter:
A few hours later, the pair was sitting on the couch. It had been a long day for both of them, and they were pretty worn out.
They had spent a while chasing Cucumber throughout the apartment building while in his batman outfit. That had definitely been fun. Jane and Lisbon had been acting like a couple.
And as mindless TV shows plagued the television screen, a question haunted Jane's mind. He couldn't get rid of it.
"Lisbon?" He asked hesitantly. "Do you love me?"
Lisbon peeked through her eyelashes at Jane from her spot to his right, curled up around his arm. She wasn't sure that she had heard him right.
What would she say if she had?
Did she love him?
She knew that the definition of love was 'a strong affection or attraction' or something of the sort. Lisbon knew she was attracted to him, and she knew that he knew it too. Earlier today had definitely been a clue. How could he possibly think that saying he would only ever make love to her wouldn't want to make her jump his bones?
He truly was an idiot. An insufferable idiot at that.
But you didn't need to love someone to want to sleep with them, right? Because she definitely knew that she wanted Channing Tatum, but she didn't necessarily love him. Well, with that bod…
A strong affection. Did she have a strong affection for Jane? Yes, she knew that without thinking. All of the Red John cases flashed through her mind. How many times had she wanted to console him, comfort him in the warmth of her arms?
An infinite amount.
She turned to him, and gave him a horrified look.
"Jane! You don't the right to ask me that! You don't have the right. I wasn't the one that walked out! I was there. I showed you thousands of times that I will always be here for you. How dare you ask me that?"
"Teresa, I know I did you wrong by leaving! I just… I just kept having flashbacks. Of her," He looked guilty. "I didn't want it to be like that. I'm not married to her anymore, and I want you. I want to be with you. And I just wanted to hear you say you want me too,"
Jane had been seeing Angela while he was kissing her.
She looked devastated.
"I should've known," Lisbon laughed, "that you weren't over her. I don't even think I care about that. But to think that you were seeing her the whole time…"
She shook her head.
"I don't think I'll be able to do it,"
"Teresa," Jane said, grabbing her hands, "look at me. Please? I didn't want to do that to you, and I needed to sort a few things out, and I left without really thinking it through,"
Lisbon turned her eyes from his.
"I promise you it will never happen again. And if it does I will stop doing whatever I'm doing. I promise. I'd do anything to have you,"
"Yeah, okay Jane,"
"Anything," He practically growled. "I may not have showed you very often, but I love you. Only you,"
"How do I know you're not lying to me, Jane? I don't have any proof. You're in the negatives with the points, right now."
"Tomorrow," Jane told her, "tomorrow I will it all about you. Anything you want. Clothes, shopping, diamond ring, another pony, whatever you want. I don't care."
"So what, now that I don't want to deal with your crap, you will be perfect? Now that I've come to terms with it, you say you love me?"
"No, Jane. I stayed for hours waiting for you to come back, with a really good reason for why you left. When I cried, I begged you for a chance to make it up to you, but now I realized that it wasn't me. It was you,"
She looked back at him. "Who do you think you are? Who do you think I am? I'm not your toy, Jane. You don't want my love. You just like to see me broken, huh? Well you got what you wanted,"
A tear trickled down Jane's cheek. He didn't even try to hide it.
"That's what you really think, isn't it? Why won't you let me make it up to you? Why won't you let me be with you?"
"Dammit, Jane! I'm scared,"
"Why are you scared? What are you scared about?"
"I'm scared of what I might let you do, or what I might do for you that would seriously screw up my life. I'm scared of what you might do for me,"
"I will always be there for you, I will never go away. I will certainly never allow you to make a decision that would put you in danger," he told her, then cupped her face in his hands. "I love you. Please believe me, Dear. I meant it when I said anything."
Jane took Lisbon in his arms and stroked her beautiful raven hair with his fingers as they both cried. He kissed her cheek.
"I will always want you, even if you don't want me. I will always protect you. Will you let me be there for you, and make my job easier? Just tell me what I can do to be forgiven,"
Lisbon swallowed heavily. "I love you, Jane,"
"I know, Teresa. I know,"
A/N2: This was a super short chapter because I have to go to my Dad's house and I don't have anything ready. This is the last angsty chapter, the next few will be relatively happy. There will be a max of three more chapters, I think. Just tell me what you want in upcoming chapters, please.