Dave's test went well. At least that is what he thought. It was over and now they just had to wait. David's scores would be sent to the university the same time they were sent to him so he was understandably a little on edge about the whole thing. Kurt tried his best to distract him. The two of them continued to meet for coffee and Kurt went over to the Karofsky household a couple nights week to continue educating David on the joy of musicals. Dave was a begrudging student. Kurt was relieved that they were able to continue hanging out so easily without the pretense of studying. He was even more relieved that he was able to be there for his friend.
Kurt's summer was looking to turn out better than he had thought it would. A week prior he had sent off the last of the applications for the internships he was applying for in New York, including the ones that had nothing to do with theatre. Kurt wanted to go to New York. He didn't care how he got there.
Everything moved on. Kurt got to see his father and Carole on the weekends when they came home. He spent a few days at the mall with Mercedes and Tina whenever Mercedes was actually in town. He continued to help Rachel pack all her belongings for her big move and instead of depressing him it made his resolve to join her just that much more secure.
It was a pleasant little bubble. A bubble that finally popped as June ended.
"David, stop worrying. I am sure you did great," Kurt said as he tried to calm the jittery boy sitting across from him. The two were sitting at what had become their regular table near the window at the Lima Bean.
"It has been almost 3 weeks and I still haven't heard anything about my scores or anything from the university. I tanked. I know I did. They aren't even wasting their time and effort to let me know that I tanked,"
"Or… The scores just haven't been sent out yet. That option seems more likely."
"I know. I am just nervous. This is something that is important to me and I just don't have a good track record with things panning out for me, you know?"
"I'm sorry. I know this is important to you and I know you are nervous. You just need to relax. At this point worrying about it won't change anything. So relax."
"Yeah. Okay. I'll try," Dave said with a sigh. "Distract me. How is everyone? Your dad? Finn? Hell, You can tell me all about Berry's existential crisis over choosing the right comforter."
Kurt laughed softly. "My dad is doing great. He and Carole come home on the weekends and I get to see them. I think he feels bad about leaving me here alone, but I really don't mind. Plus I told him that I regularly go over to your house and he's glad that I'm not completely alone while he is gone."
"And he's cool with that? You hanging out with me?"
"Yes, David. I've told him about how I was helping you study. He's glad that things seem to be better for you now. He even offered to have you and your dad over for dinner sometime, but I told him that right now would not be a good time to do that since you are still stressed out over waiting to hear back from OSU. I was able to call him off for now, but I am giving you fair warning because I am sure he will bring it up again sometime sooner or later," Kurt said delicately.
Dave laughed. "Thanks. And Hudson? How is he doing?"
"Your guess is as good as mine. He doesn't really write home a lot and when he does it is just to let his mom know he is alive and well. Finn doesn't even write to Rachel. It is driving her crazy and in turn it is driving me crazy because she is constantly trying to get information from me, but I have none to give her. A sane Rachel is hard enough to deal with. I have just been trying to keep her busy with packing and getting ready for her move to New York. "
"That's kind of a dick move on Finn's part. No offense," Dave amended quickly.
"None taken. And while I agree I can also see why he did it. Rachel was willing to stay here in Lima for him so they could be together. He couldn't let her do that. While his method wasn't the best, he had good intentions."
"Yeah. I can see that. I would hate to be the one to hold someone back from their dreams or from reaching their full potential. The idea that they could possibly resent you for it later on. It's gotta suck."
Kurt slowly nodded. "Okay. Enough with depressing topics. Think of something happy."
Dave sat for a moment with a look of slight concentration before he spoke up. "I heard from a guy I used to talk a lot to at Scandals. I don't really go there anymore, but I try to keep in touch. Apparently they are planning a barbeque for the 4th of July. I'm thinking about going. It will be nice to see some familiar faces."
"That's great, David. It is really surreal how fast this summer has gone by. I can't believe it is almost July. I don't have a clue if I am even going to do anything for the 4th."
"Come on. The 4th of July is great. It is a holiday that you don't have to spend with family, there are barbeques and good food, and then at the end of it all you get to watch things explode into pretty balls of color and light."
Kurt smirked. "Those are all very grown up reasons to like the holiday."
"It's the little things," Dave said with a laugh before his eyes traveled to an area behind Kurt and his expression sobered.
"What's wrong?" Kurt asked and Dave merely pointed were he was looking.
Kurt turned to see what had caught Dave's attention and felt his blood run cold.
It was Blaine. And Sebastian.
Kurt and Blaine had agreed that they had needed time apart. That they were taking a break. They hadn't spoken since then. Kurt felt guilty. He had hoped that if he ignored the problem it would go away or resolve itself. He would be lying if he said he didn't think about Blaine in their time apart, but the truth was that he didn't think of him nearly as much as someone who wanted to get back together with their boyfriend. It was then that Blaine's gaze shifted and landed on Kurt. Kurt turned back to David and heaved a sigh.
"He's coming this way. Do I need to go?" Dave asked quietly.
"Yes. I mean no. I need to talk to Blaine, but do you think you could wait around for me?"
"Okay, Fancy. I'll just be outside in my truck," Dave told Kurt as he got up from his seat. "Anderson," Kurt heard Dave say and could imagine him giving the shorter boy a nod in that way that 'dudes' do. Before Kurt knew it the seat across from him was occupied by Blaine.
"Hey," Blaine said softly as the two sat awkwardly at the table.
Kurt took in a deep breath, not really knowing where to start but as he exhaled words began pouring out. "I'm sorry I never called you. I know we were supposed to only be on break for a few weeks. Instead it has been over a month. I'm sorry."
"Kurt. It isn't your fault. It's not like I tried to contact you either," Blaine replied.
"I know, but it has been over a month," Kurt said. "How have you been?"
"Good," Blaine said with a slight nod. "I've been hanging out with Sebastain and some of the Warblers. I haven't been able to see a lot of them since I started going to McKinley. I didn't realize how much I missed hanging out with them."
It stung Kurt to know that the reason Blaine didn't hang out with his old friends was because of him. "I'm glad," He said softly.
"I miss you, Kurt."
"No. Please, Kurt. I need to say this. I miss you. I do. But over the past month I realized… I didn't miss my boyfriend, Kurt. I missed my friend. I missed the guy I could call and talk to about anything."
"I missed my friend, too," Kurt said with tears coming to his eyes. "I want you in my life, Blaine. But I don't think I can be your boyfriend. It was too much work. Shouldn't dating be easy? I mean. I know relationships require some work, but aren't some things just supposed to be effortless?"
"I don't know. But I understand what you are saying. I just don't understand how things can change so quickly. Just a few months ago we were vowing to be together forever."
"We also thought long-distance was something we could handle. I don't want you to take this the wrong way, but you couldn't tell me the truth when we were still in the same city. I'm not sure what would have happened if I was all the way in New York. But I do really care about you, Blaine. And I want you to be happy."
"I want you to be happy too. I want you to be able to go to New York. I realize now that what I said two months ago was stupid. I don't think anyone should hold you back, Kurt."
"Thank you," Kurt said with a small smile.
"So how have you been?" Blaine asked.
"Good. I see my dad and Carole when they come in, I hang out with Mercedes when I can, and I've been helping Rachel get ready for her move."
"What about David?"
"I guess the two of you have been seeing a lot of each other?"
"It isn't like that Blaine. He's a friend."
"I wasn't trying to insinuate anything. Honest," Blaine said with a smirk.
"Yes. David and I have gotten very close over the summer. He is a great friend."
"I'm glad," Blaine said honestly.
Kurt nodded and fidgeted with his coffee cup before asking. "And you and Sebastian? I guess the two of you have grown rather close as well?"
"I think I really like Sebastian," Blaine blurted out. "I just want to be truthful with you. I know you don't like the guy, but he really has changed in the last few months."
"That's … great,"
Blaine laughed. "You don't have to make it sound so forced."
"We are just now having the official break up talk and you want me to giggle and coo over the fact that you already moved on to the one person I can't stand?"
"I'm sorry. But you know as well as I do that we were done before today," Blaine said solemnly. "I think if you gave Seb a chance you would see just how much he has changed."
"I'll have to see it to believe it," Kurt said with a laugh.
"I think you've already seen just how much people can change," Blaine said as he looked out the window toward David's truck.
"There isn't anything going on between David and I," Kurt said.
Blaine turned his attention back to Kurt with a small smirk. "Sure," he said gently. "Sebastian is waiting for me. And you have someone waiting for you," Blaine said as he got up from his seat and Kurt soon followed his actions.
"Yeah. It really was good to see you Blaine. And I am glad we had this talk. I hope after some time we can see each other again and not have it be so awkward."
"I think we just need a little time, Kurt. I'll always love you, though."
"And I'll always love you," Kurt said as he moved in to hug Blaine.
The two quickly said their goodbyes and Kurt left the coffee shop and made his way toward David's truck. Kurt had ridden with Dave to the Lima Bean so he wasn't surprised to find the passenger side door already unlocked and waiting for him. He pulled himself up into the cab of the truck and pointedly ignored the way David stared at him.
"How'd it go?" David asked quietly.
"We broke up, but we are going to stay friends."
"That sucks. Do you want me to take you home?"
"Yeah. I would like to go home," Kurt said. He felt sad, but he didn't feel as sad as he had expected. It was a weird feeling. He wondered if the sadness would be more prominent when he was alone.
"I know it probably doesn't help, but if it is any consolation, I'm sorry."
"It's alright," Kurt said with a soft sigh. "I'm alright."