This is the first fanfic I've created and it's about the united states of Tara and what i thought happened after the season 3 finale and it's written in the POV of Tara. please enjoy and tell me what you think about it :). I'm not sure whether i will post more about this show but i'm sure i'll post more fanfic in the future :).

"AHHHH!" stunned awake, gasping for air, breaking out in a hot sweat. I had another dream about him, or rather a nightmare about him and what he did to me.

"He's gone" I say to myself "he's gone, dead and gone and he can't hurt you anymore".

I'm still gasping heavily, as if every breath I take will be my last, as if I can't get enough oxygen into my lungs. I try to take deep long breaths to calm me down while my breathing and my heart rate turns to normal "NORMAL" I think to myself, oh what I wouldn't give to be normal, I simply laugh at the thought.

"Babe are you alright", says a concerned max. Crap I only just gone and woken him up.

"No, not really I had another nightmare about, ab…. about bry….". I stop mid sentence then start to get a horrible gut wrenching feeling in the pit of my stomach. I feel as though I'm about to breakdown. I start again "I had another nightmare about Bryce".

I can't even say his name without feeling sick. What he did to me, what he did to my sister, he killed my altars and he could have killed my family, my kids, my the news sinks in max gives me the biggest kiss and the biggest hug imaginable. "he's dead, gone and buried. He can't hurt us anymore Tara, hurt any of us".

"I know it's just, I'm worried max, I mean what if he comes back. What if he somehow finds his way back into my head, back into my mind, into my body. It was a close call last time max what if he comes back again. I can still see his menacing and evil red eyes, as if he's staring into my very soul. I'm just so scared Max. I just want to be normal, all I want to do is go back home and see the kids, I just miss them so much."

At this point everything becomes overwhelming and I burst out crying, I can't cope, everything bad that could happen is happening to me and my family, I can't deal with it anymore.

"We're in the institution with the best neurosurgeons and psychiatrics in the world Tara, we will get help, they will help fix you and make you normal again, I promise. I love you so much Tara we won't be here much longer. Let's see, we've been here 2 months already, we've only got another 4 months to go. The time will fly by. We'll be home in no time".

He then mounts me and passionately kisses me.

"Are we gonna be ok max?".

" I don't know Tara, I just don't know anymore. But as long as we got each other we will try, god knows we will try".

"Hey max, I haven't totally screwed up our kids have I?",

"No sweetie, I mean I'm pretty sure Charmaine and Neil's daughter will be more fucked up emotionally than our kids could ever be".

I start to giggle. Then we stare longingly into each other's eyes and for once in my entire life I feel like as long as I have max and a loving family around me that everything is going to be alright.