Jane stretched, her muscles definitely weren't used to sitting at her desk yet. She'd been back to desk duty for half a week and she'd never been more excited about paperwork in her life.
"You wouldn't have let a couple of ribs keep you away for so long before." Frost snickered.
"Well if you had Maura telling you all of the ways you could further injure yourself you'd be more cautious too." Jane shrugged. "So did I tell you that Constance visited us last weekend?"
"Yeah, she just stopped by for no reason. It was actually kind of nice after we got over the initial awkwardness of her finding out that we're dating and living together in less than ten minutes."
This time Frost gave a full belly laugh. "That's just too perfect. You said it was a good visit so I assume she took the news well."
"She thought there was something going on between us before there was. That seems to be a theme."
"No offense but you're not very good at subtle. You blatantly checked her out a lot, how could people not think something was going on?" Frost smirked.
"Have you ever looked at that woman? How could I not check her out?" Jane grinned.
"I didn't want to lose my balls so I kept my eyes to myself." Frost admitted giving Jane a look.
Jane scoffed. "I wouldn't have done anything to you."
"I've seen the way you've looked at the men that hit on Maura. If looks could kill you'd there would be a lot of dead men in this world."
Jane laughed along with Frost. "Alright I get it."
Suddenly Frost wasn't laughing anymore he nodded towards the door. "Looks like you have a visitor Jane."
When she spun around in her chair she expected to see Maura, or her mother. Who she saw instead surprised her.
"Casey!" she exclaimed standing. Suddenly she wasn't feeling so good. Oh god I didn't expect to see him.
"Hello Jane." He smiled broadly at the detective.
"Oh my god. Hi. What are you doing here?" she walked towards him so that she wasn't being loud enough for the entire precinct to hear.
"I came to see you of course." He tugged her wrist and pulled her close. "I missed you." He said softly as he leaned in for a kiss.
Jane barely had time to react she placed her free hand on his chest and turned her cheek to him. "Casey, don't." She said softly with a frown.
She heard Maura well before she saw her. There was the sound of coffee hitting the floor and light cursing, Jane scowled at the situation. How the hell am I going to explain this to her. She's going to wonder why I never told him about us. She's going to ask me why I let him pull me so close. I need to fix this now.
Jane pulled away from Casey she gave him a distracted half smile, "It's nice to see you but I really have to go." She was already walking away from him.
"Maybe we could have dinner tonight?" he asked watching her and feeling confused.
"Maybe. I'm sorry but really I have to go." She replied but she wasn't really listening to him she jogged down the hall to the stairs not feeling patient enough to wait for the elevator.
She found Maura in her office, she was slumped forward with her face buried in her hands.
"It wasn't what it looked like." Jane said gently as she rested a hand lightly on Maura's shoulder.
"It wasn't?" Maura asked raising her voice rather suddenly snapping away from Jane's touch. "It looked an awful lot like you were being embraced by your ex. Was that not what was happening Jane?"
"I didn't expect him. He pulled me into the hug. You know you're the only one." Jane looked hurt, like the very accusation was painful. "You're the only one I feel anything like that for. Casey doesn't mean anything to me anymore. I don't know what he is here for."
"You let him hold you." Maura frowned. "Have you told him about us? Or even just that you're in a relationship. Did you ever end things with him in the first place?"
"I haven't talked to him at all in months, Maura. Today is the first time I've even thought of him since just before Dean." Jane frowned. "I thought it was over months ago apparently he doesn't think the same."
"So tell him. I'm not one to be played Jane Rizzoli," Maura sighed. "You need to talk to him. It's me or him you know."
"You. It will always be you. It has been and always will be you." Jane smiled. "You should know that by now Maur."
"So tell him. Tell Casey about us. Don't bother coming home until you do because I can't be in a relationship with you until it has been fully clarified that you are exclusively with me."
"I can talk to him at lunch. Sooner if he's still upstairs."
"Talk to him as soon as you can. I'll be waiting."
Jane nodded and left. She jogged up the stairs hoping Casey was still standing where she had left him. She seemed to be in luck because he was sitting at her desk.
"Casey, let's go grab lunch together." Jane attempted to smile. "Cover for me Frost?"
"Will do." Frost affirmed.
Jane led the way to the exit. Hot dogs in the park. It's close it's not romantic and if I get in line and pay for my own dog then there is no way it could seem like a date. Plus when we're finished talking we can go our separate ways. With their food in hand they begin to walk. The silence was not the comfortable kind that she'd grown used to whenever she was walking with Maura. It felt heavy and awkward but she didn't know how to start. Luckily Casey was the first to speak.
"I was really hoping we could have dinner together tonight. I didn't mean to interrupt your work day."
"I was just doing paperwork anyway. Not allowed to be on the streets for at least another month. My ribs aren't fully healed yet, until they are Maura, and my doctor, say no chasing down bad guys." Jane shrugged.
"Jane." Casey frowned. She assumed it was because of the mention of her injury.
"It's not that bad. Maura takes care of me really well. I was only in the hospital for a few days and that was for the head injury not the ribs."
"Why can't you just do something safe?" Casey asked before he could help himself.
Jane frowned. "It's my job to chase down criminals. And it's not your concern."
"What do you mean it's not my concern? We've been together for awhile now. I think that makes it my concern."
"We haven't talked in months Casey. Months. How can you still think we're together after all that time of not even sharing two words?" Jane frowned. "Didn't you get the hint?"
"But I loved you. And I know you loved me." He said seriously.
"I wanted to love you. I thought it would be easy with you. You've known me for such a long time. And we had something at one point. But I can't… I can't love you like that. Casey there is someone else."
"Someone else?" Casey stared at her.
Jane nodded. "Even if their wasn't someone else it still wouldn't work between us?"
"Why not? Who is it?"
Jane looked down at the ground. "Maura, it's Maura. I'm in love with her, crazy head over heels in love. And I'm gay so even if she had rejected me, it still wouldn't work between us."
Casey stiffened. "How is that possible?"
"Shit, I don't know. I've always been this way. And Maura helped me really figure it out." Jane smiled a little. "We've been dating for almost four months now. I've moved in with her. Maybe in a few more months I'm going to propose to her. I want to spend my life with her. She makes me happy genuinely happy."
"So I was waiting for months to come home to you, to start back up where we left off, and it was all for nothing. You were stringing me along." Casey frowned.
"I didn't mean to. When we stopped talking I just assumed that you were bored with me we hadn't been talking for a few weeks already when Maura and I worked things out." Jane sighed.
"They told me that you weren't going to wait for me." Casey was staring at the ground. "I can't believe I trusted you."
"It's not like you did a whole lot of reaching out to me while you were gone. You didn't contact me either you cannot lay the blame squarely on me." Jane felt her emotions growing out of control. "I'm happy. Truly happy, if you were my friend then you'd be happy for me."
"Well I'm sorry I'm not congratulating you for cheating on me." Casey said easily.
"I didn't cheat on you. We weren't talking. It was over. You stopped talking to me. I thought you didn't want to be in a relationship with me anymore."
Casey sighed. "So then this is it?"
"It is." Jane said gently trying to control the rest of her emotions. "I'm sorry it ended this way. Had I known you were still thinking we were together I would have made it clear sooner."
"You're right though. We hadn't talked for a long time. If I had actually thought about it I would have assumed it was over as well."
"Are we going to be able to be friends still or is that too much to ask for?"
"I don't know Jane." Casey said honestly. "But I can tell you that I am happy for you. You deserve to be happy."
"Thank you." Jane replied sincerely.
"Now if it's all the same to you I think it might be time for us to part ways. I know how to reach you." Casey shrugged and turned away from Jane. "It was good seeing you, despite everything. I really have missed you."
Jane smiled. "It was good seeing you too, Casey."
Jane made her way back to the precinct. I didn't want to hurt him. But it was never him. Maura is the love of my life. I wouldn't trade her for the easy way out. Not now not ever. Now I just have to hope that she's not mad at me anymore.
She picked up two cups of coffee one made up the way she knew Maura liked it. She made her way down to the morgue with a smile.
"I told Casey. He was upset." Jane said softly setting the cup down in front of the medical examiner. "But like I told you earlier. It's always going to be you. Things were safe with Casey. No one questioned me, we got along well enough, but I would give up that safety and ease a thousand times over for you."
"I know." Maura smiled. "I overreacted a bit. I was jealous."
"Well we're all better now right? I get to go home with you after work?"
"Of course." Maura's smile grew.
"Oh Jane, two weeks when neither of us are on call for the weekend, I have something planned for us for that weekend. Make sure you keep it free for me alright?"
"Anything for you." Jane grinned. I love when she plans our dates. She always makes sure that is something we will both enjoy and they usually involve some sort of adventure. It's been awhile since we've been on a real date. This is going to be fun. I don't know if I can wait two weeks.
"So did you work things out then?" Frost asked when Jane finally made it back to her desk.
"I did." Jane smiled.
I told you that things with Casey wouldn't be so bad, there is NO WAY he could break up Jane and Maura. Also I told you I'd give you an extra update (since there is no new episode tonight.) Personally I'm looking forward to the next few updates I think you all will be pleased. so my lovely followers how do you think Jane would propose to Maura? Well that's all I've got for you right now. Thank you for reading please Review. Love and Hugs R.W.