This is chapter 14!

The previous chapter goes through the events in the aftermath from Dan's POV. Well, this chapter goes through the events in the aftermath from Blair's POV so the beginning part will be quite similar, then it will diverge. It is shorter than the previous chapter however but a past issue of Blair's will resurface in this chapter and will be addressed more so in the forthcoming chapters. Just thought I should mix things up a bit. As you can see, things are really starting to pick up now. It's only going to get better!

Song lyrics in this chapter: "Angels Cry (Remix)" by Mariah Carey ft. Ne-Yo and "90210" by Wale

Don't own the shitty GG but the mistakes in this fic! Please R&R!


Waking up with a bit of a startle hearing Audrey's cries, Blair was pleasantly surprised with Dan's scent. This proved that what she thought happened, really did happen, I wasn't some sort of salacious dream. But when Blair's eyes opened she was disappointed to learn that his body wasn't next to hers. Taking her hand, she felt his side of the bed – it was still warm – which meant he just got up himself. Checking her phone for the time and any messages (the alarm clock fell during their hot encounter, which is going to make for odd conversation at the front desk), it read 4:00 AM and NO MESSAGES.

Blair's ears perked up when she could clearly hear her Audrey cooing and gurgling much to the thanks of Dan, who was telling a story through a sing-songy voice.

Getting up slowly, and rubbing the sleep from her eyes, she just observed Dan. He hadn't noticed her presence yet, so she just studied him… well at the least his back side that was presented to Blair.

"Dan…?"

As Dan turned around with Audrey still bundled warmly in his arms, Blair's entire body lit up brighter than the Christmas Tree at Rockefeller Center. Blair just drank in the sight of him holding Audrey so gladly, warmly, safely, and rightly. Blair noted that he never finished his story, but Audrey seemed satisfied as she returned to slumber once again. With those big doe eyes that she possessed she continued to stare at Dan even as he placed Audrey back in her bassinet and turned around.

"You're good with her, you know that, Dan?"

Instead of replying her, Dan asked his own question.

"Blair, what time is it?"

"It's 4:00 AM. Why?"

"Shit."

Blair couldn't be sure but she was certain she heard Dan swear under his breath. Things were a blur to Blair soon after as all she processed was Dan quickly fumbling for his boxers and the rest his clothes and putting them on.

"Wait… Dan… wh-what are you doing? Where are you going?"

"What does it look like I'm doing Waldorf? I'm going home, which is not this hotel suite by any means," Dan replied, sounding annoyed.

Blair's voice reached octaves higher with one word: "What?"

Finishing the last button of his now rumpled, white Calvin Klein button-up, Dan took his arms and placed them firmly on Blair's bare shoulders making her look at him with direct eye contact. Blair has never felt Dan's palms to be so cold, until this moment.


I shouldn't have walked away
I would've stayed if you said
We could've made everything OK
But we just
Threw the blame back and forth
We treated love like a sport
The final blow hit so low
I'm still on the ground

I couldn't have prepared myself for this fall
Shattered in pieces curled on the floor
Super natural love conquers all
'Member we used to touch the sky

And lightning don't strike
The same place twice
When you and I said goodbye
I felt the angels cry
True love's a gift
We let it drift
In a storm
Every night
I feel the angels cry

C'mon babe can't our love be revived
Bring it back and we gon' make it right
I'm on the edge just tryin' to survive
As the angels cry

I thought we'd be forever and always
You were serenity
You took away the bad days
Didn't always treat you right
But it was OK
I do somethin' stupid
And you still stay with me

But you can only go for so long
Doing the one you claim to love wrong
Before too much is enough
You look up
Find your love gone
And

We were so good together
How come we could not weather
This storm and just do better
Why did we say goodbye

'Cause lightning don't strike
The same place twice
When you and I said goodbye
I felt the angels cry
True love's a gift
We let it drift
In a storm
Now every night
I feel the angels cry

C'mon babe can't our love be revived
Bring it back and we gon' make it right
I'm on the edge just tryin' to survive
As the angels cry

Baby I'm missin' you
Don't allow love to lose
We gotta ride it through
I'm reaching for you

Baby I'm missin' you
Don't allow love to lose
We gotta ride it through
I'm reaching for you

Lightning don't strike
The same place twice
When you and I said goodbye
I felt the angels cry
True love's a gift
But we let it slip
In a storm
Every night
I feel the angels cry

Oh babe, the angels cry


"Look, Blair, about last night," He started, but he was promptly cut off by Blair's words.

"Don't! Just… please don't, Dan! Don't start apologizing or be an ass about this!"

"Look… Blair, I…I'm sorry." Taking his index finger and pointing it between Blair and himself, Dan continued, "This… this should have never happened. This hasn't changed anything, nor will it. I need you to understand that. I'm still engaged to Sienna even though you aren't to Chuck anymore; I shouldn't have let you play me again or taken advantage of you and acted on impulse."

Despite all of his faults, Blair loved the fact Dan still aimed to be a gentleman in some regards.

"You didn't take advantage of me Dan. I…" She paused, swallowing quietly before continuing. "I never thought I would have the opportunity to be with you again."

She was being brutally honest. And that was a side that only Dan ever got to see when they were "friends."

"Blair…"

"No," She stated firmly, her eyes glazing over as she continued to look up at him. "No, you do not get to say anything. Because I hate the way you make me feel. I hate the way you used to flash me that stupid grin. I hate the way you make me feel like I can do whatever the hell I want. I hate the way you make me want to be a better person. I hate the way you tell me that I deserve more than Chuck Bass."

Blair was getting emotional, and it was only going to get worse. She curled her hand into a fist before hitting his chest and stepping away from him.

"Bl-Blair," He stuttered.

"Blair, I… I…" He couldn't even finish his sentence.

In this moment, Blair's heart sank. She swallowed hard, and tried to breathe. Because she knew this wasn't supposed to happen. This wasn't supposed to happen at all.

Dan shook his head slightly before looking around for his jacket, picking it up from the foot of the bed and putting it on.

"I have to go," He stated flatly.

"No, Dan…"

Without responding, he started to walk towards the door, but Blair managed to stop him by taking a hold of his wrist and pulling him back.

"Dan," She pleaded. He turned to look at her to see the sadness in her eyes.

"Blair, it shouldn't have happened," Dan almost whispered. "Last night was a mistake,"

She swallowed… hard

Loosening the grip around his wrist, she averted her gaze from his before Dan left the room.

As he left, she was sobbing.


After her sobfest, Blair Waldorf did something she swore she would never do again since high school.

Looking at the room service menu that lay by the bedside table, Blair placed an order for almost every item on the menu. The staff never responds to requests at 4:00 AM and normally would have questioned such a large order for a single person, but this was no ordinary person… this was Blair Waldorf. No one questions or disregards Blair Waldorf… especially a Blair Waldorf that had been sobbing.

When the food was brought up (later than Blair's impeccable standards), Blair looked at a still sleeping Audrey and brought a kiss to her temple. As she kissed her daughter's temple Blair said, "Mommy's sorry for what she is about to do. I'm at least glad you are not awake to witness this. I'm sorry, honey. Everyone is right… I am a monster and you deserve a mommy better than me. I want you to know though; I do love you, Audrey."

With that, Blair spent the hours of the wee morning, stuffing her face with foods high in fat, sodium, and carbs. Immediately after, she would force it out of her system and into the pristine white toilet bowl.

Blair Waldorf did something she swore she would never do again since high school. Binge and purge. She was doing fine for years but in those early morning hours, with Audrey sleeping in her bassinet, she relapsed. Blair Waldorf was a bulimic…again.


And she throws up whatever she eats
She leave the bathroom wit a nose bleed
Regular girl, Celebrity dreams
She is...(90210)
She live her whole life like tv
And she would do anything for everything
Regular girl, Celebrity dreams
She is...(90210)

Ms. Rodeo, tell me where your day go
Part-time waitress she really wanna make it
In the "City of Lights", it's hard to see clear
She don't really care about anyone advice
Nothing here's real, and everyone's alike
Cause everyone dreams of the millionaire's life
She barely eats at all, if she do she eats light
Indulging a meal when a toilets in sight
Expose those fries, can't hold those down
To be seven pounds, you must release several pounds
This is Heaven on Hell
This is how she wanna live
She ain't really trippin', she's on Beverly Hills

And she throws up whatever she eats
She leave the bathroom wit a nose bleed
Regular girl, Celebrity dreams
She is...(90210)
She live her whole life like tv
And she would do anything for everything
Regular girl, Celebrity dreams
She is...(90210)

Just another day out in Beverly Hills
She sing, model, and dance, but can't sit still
Believing the screens or anything there
But reality shows ain't real
So pretentious with no potential
She goes to catch up, although her rents up
In her defense-she part of the crowd
She gonna borrow some money
So she can party at Chows
It's apart of her goal
It's all she knows
Graduated from rosay, addicted to blow
Addicted to stardom, a wish to blow
So she kisses the stars
And gives them a blow
After every show, a dream she hold
Inhibition is gone, she just wanna be known
She wanna be know, she just wanna be known
Pulling down her skirt
"I never done this before", Nah

And she throws up whatever she eats
She leave the bathroom wit a nose bleed
Regular girl, Celebrity dreams
She is...(90210)
She live her whole life like tv
And she would do anything for everything
Regular girl, Celebrity dreams
She is...(90210)

You know big-breast girls
Never ever pay rent
They meet the Rich Boys
Throw D's on that Bitch
Lease on The Whip
Beach on the weekend
Hotel suite, room keys is a gift
Dream of the fame or a ring on her finger
Now you just a whore to the male entertainers
Word spreads fast that your knees spread quick
The sun's always out
But It's clouds over here
Look, cocaine addiction, apartment eviction
To add to the list of Beverly Hills victims
Hold on you can see my vision
Next to you let down on a nigga

And she throws up whatever she eats
She leave the bathroom wit a nose bleed
Regular girl, Celebrity dreams
She is...(90210)
She live her whole life like tv
And she do anything for everything
Regular girl, Celebrity dreams
She is...(90210)