A/N: Hello out there! So, I am both giddily excited and slightly terrified to start this journey, because this is my first multi-chapter story! I want to thank you all for giving this story a chance and I hope you enjoy reading about these characters as much as I enjoy writing about them :)
I want to send out a huge thank you to my beta and pre-reader Nicole (Iamthealleycat) whose encouragement and knowledge of all things grammar and plot related make this a much better story than it was before I met her. I also want to thank Jen (Chartwilightmom) for being my pre-reader and all around Yoda, as well as Lori (Lo21) for pre-reading and fangirling over R/K with me! I also need to thank the many people in WC's who helped me with everything from the plot to the summary. The ladies in this fandom are amazing.
See you at the end!
Disclaimer: Twilight and its characters are property of Stephenie Meyer. This story is in no way an attempt at copyright infringement. However, this story and all plot lines therein are the property of Shpwhitney.
Turn My Life Around - Prologue
September 13, 2010
That's what I told Jasper the tie made me feel. It was the reason I gave for ripping it off, grabbing my pack of cigarettes and a "celebratory" beer, and rushing out of the room the groomsmen and I were using to get prepared.
That's how I ended up here on the roof of the Fairmont – one of Chicago's five-star hotels – just thirty minutes before my wedding to a woman with whom I don't want to spend the rest of my life.
I've felt this way ever since I made the choice to walk out on the woman who once made me feel that type of all-consuming love that can be the only definition of true and real. Ever since I walked back into a perfectly planned out future that I've never been sure I wanted.
It's not that I don't love Tanya and want to be in her life – it's just that I only want to be in her life as a friend. Still, it seems like all of our lives we were headed to this place. It doesn't even feel as though this wedding was arranged or even planned – it was just…assumed.
I guess that's what happens when you're both the eldest children of two of the most prominent executives in Chicago and their esteemed, socialite wives. It's what happens when you've been molded your entire life to take over a company, and therefore a legacy, that has been the focal point of your whole family and social scene. Don't get me wrong – I love the company and I appreciate what it has afforded my family, but it was my dad's passion – not mine.
One of the things the success of the company allowed for was my continued interest and focus of music. I'd always loved the art form, and to a point, my family supported that aspiration. My mother sent me to the best piano and guitar teachers, and she was more than happy to put me in the spotlight during holidays or social gatherings. When I was in school, my family attended every open mic night performance or school music recital they could. However, my love of music was always handled as if it were merely a hobby – like gardening was for my mother or collecting Abraham Lincoln memorabilia was for my father. No, just like my marriage to Tanya, my position as the future President and CEO of C&D Architecture was written in the stars – at least as far as my parents were concerned.
When I was younger and still possessed the need to emulate my father, I was proud of the fact that I would, one day, take over the company. I wanted to follow in his footsteps and prove to him that I could contribute just as much as he had to the family business, if not more. However, as I got older and started to discover my own passions that pride quickly turned to uncertainty, and finally resignation.
It's funny, because at the moment I experienced my greatest confusion about my planned future, I was actually living out parts of my dream future. In that confusion and frustration, an angel saved me.
Well if you liked this stick around because it only gets better from here (at least, I hope ;)) In terms of a posting schedule I will post Chapter 1 next Friday but after that I will probably post every other week. I also have a lovely banner for this story made by my beta (she's so talented) that I hope to get up over here but can also be found on my blog: .com. I'll be posting teasers and such over there as well :)
See you next week! 3 Shpwhitney