Adrian stepped out of the way and let Marcus and I through the door. Adrian and Marcus walked just ahead of me and were mucking around. They really were becoming friends. We walked through the twists and turns of the old hallways and finally ended up at the living room. We walked through the doors to find Clarence asleep again in his armchair and Jill, Eddie and Angeline having a debate over which was better: broccoli or cauliflower. I sat down next to Jill ready to jump into the conversation.
"The Queen of vegetables has finally arrived. Let's have your opinion Sydney." Announced Eddie.
"Well," I started, "broccoli and cauliflower are both related to cabbage. Although they do look totally different they are sometimes mistaken for each other. Also, when they are cooked they have a similar smell and taste. But if I had to say which I like better it would be cauliflower. It has slightly fewer calories in the same average size serving as broccoli."
Everyone had gone quiet and was just staring at me. Didn't everyone know that stuff?I laughed and blushed a little then everyone started laughing too. I'm not sure if they were laughing at me or with me though.
After awhile I didn't really feel like my input was necessary anymore so I excused myself to go and get a drink form the kitchen. Dorothy wasn't anywhere to be seen, so I just helped myself to a can of soda from the fridge. Diet, of course. I used the alone time to replay the conversation I had with Marcus. I tried to think of more questions that still needed answers just as the kitchen door opened.
It was Adrian.
He stood in the doorway with the door still open and I could tell by the look on his face that he was worried about how I would react to being alone with him. Honestly right now I wanted to be alone. Alone by myself. Not alone with Adrian. He didn't seem to notice though and let the door swing shut. It was quiet between us for a minute. I didn't really mind though because I was still thinking about Marcus and if he was really telling me the truth. He seemed like a good guy, but what did I know about that?
Adrian broke the silence first. "How was the drive? I hope you went easy with her." He said.
"I would never hurt her, don't worry." I laughed. "It really is an amazing car though. If you're ever selling it make sure you let me know first. You would have to sell it to me at mate's rates but I'm sure you wouldn't miss the money."
"For you Sydney, anything." He flashed me that amazing smile of his and my heart almost stopped beating. Damn it. Why did he have this effect on me?I was in desperate need to change the subject.
"So did you come in here for a drink, or…..?" It was lame I know, but I didn't want to have any discussion of feelings or anything that could turn into that. I just wasn't in the mood.
"I actually just came to talk to you." He said simply. He started walking towards me.
"Talk to me about what?" He was just a few steps away from me now.
"Actually that's a lie." He was right in front of me now. "I wanted to do this." He took one last step, and closed the distance between us. His left hand went around my waist and pulled me to him. His lips were on mine before I knew what was happening. His other hand at the nape of my neck made it impossible for me to break the kiss. And if I was being truly honest with myself, I didn't want to. His lips were like heaven. I stopped thinking and just let my body respond to his touch. I knew this was a bad idea but it was just so amazing. It was nothing like kissing Hayden. Wait, Hayden? Or was it Brady? Brandon? Brody? Bradley? I couldn't think of his name. he really was unmemorable. My hands went through Adrian's already messy hair in an attempt to pull him closer to me. There was a tiny part of me that still thought this was so wrong, but my thoughts were so muddled up that I didn't care.
I was also confused when Adrian pulled away. His face was still very close to mine though. I realised he was waiting for my reaction. Or permission? Either way I was all his. In that moment he could have done anything to me and I would have been totally fine with it. There was a nagging feeling in the back of my mind, like I really shouldn't be doing this, but I ignored it and pulled Adrian closer. A surprised noise escaped Adrian's mouth. He thought I was going to push him away. He recovered quickly though. Any nagging thoughts I had before were gone. All my thoughts were gone. I was entirely lost in him. This moment was perfect, but I knew it couldn't last.
At last I pulled away.
"I'm sorry." I sighed.
"There is nothing to be sorry for. I have been waiting so long for you to show that you actually do feel something for me." He was smiling now. It seemed there was no way out of it this time. Maybe it was better if he knew the truth.
"What do you want me to tell you?" I asked. "That you aren't the first thing on my mind in the morning and the last thing on my mind at night? That when I'm around you my heart doesn't feel like it's going to fly away? That I can think straight when I'm talking to you? That almost every thought isn't about you. I honestly can't believe you haven't noticed." I sucked in a breath and I could feel my face burning. Wow. What was I doing? Adrian's eyes were wide.
"This isn't the time to joke, Sage." He said finally. He still looked dumbfounded.
"I hardly joke, you know that." I really never thought I would be the one having to prove my love. Love. Was that what this was? I didn't know and frankly I didn't want to think about it. It was all too much. Being an Alchemist was too important to me to just throw away. What if Adrian didn't end up being the one? I would have thrown my entire life for nothing. I wasn't prepared to make that decision anytime soon.
"Sydney, are you saying what I think you're saying?" His face looked hopeful, if that was possible.
"Yes. Maybe. No. I don't know. All I know is that it doesn't change anything. And it never will. You have to understand how important being an Alchemist is to me. It's all I know. It's who I am. I can't, I won't turn my back on that." I didn't like having to tell him this but it had to be this way.
All of a sudden Adrian burst out in laughter. For a second I thought he mustn't have heard me, but he had. I truly thought he had gone insane.
"What on earth could be funny about this situation?" Did I miss something? He was acting so strange.
"You think I'm gorgeous….You want to kiss me….You want to hug me….You want to love me.." Adrian was actually singing.
I hoped no one was listening. "You're being ridiculous Adrian." I said, but I didn't think he was listening. He tried to pull me into a hug but I pushed him away. Just because he knew how I felt about him didn't mean I was going to give in and risk everything. I still stood by what I said about not wanting to leave the alchemists. I think.
"Come on Sydney, loosen up. What is stopping us now? You know how I feel and now you have finally admitted how you feel. You can't still be scared about the alchemists. I will do everything in my power to protect you from them. You have to know that." I knew he wasn't lying but it didn't make me feel any better.
"Of course I am scared. I have grown up with only knowing what the alchemists believe. I can't just change my whole life overnight. It is going to take some time. That's if I even want to change. I don't know anything else. I can't even imagine not being a part of them. They are my whole life." I was starting to get upset. I think he could see it too. It didn't stop him from saying what he wanted to though.
"Okay then" Adrian said. "I'm not going to push you into something you don't want." I could tell he was trying to use the guilt card.
"You have no idea how much I want this. But it just isn't possible right now. It might never be possible." I didn't want to hurt him. But it might be the only way to get him to take a step back, figuratively of course.
"You're right, I'm sorry." He said.
"Okay. As long as were on the same page."
"Well to be honest," Adrian said, "If this were a book I would just skip this page and turn straight to the part where we get together." he sighed. "That will happen though, wont it? We will end up together. I mean, we have to. I don't see it any other way."
"I'm sorry, I don't know the answer to that." I sighed. This was too hard for me. I could feel my face burning but I didn't care. I was just glad that I wasn't crying. At least not yet.
"Come on. We should probably get back to the others." I wanted to stay there with him though, just a little longer, but I knew if I did he would end up convincing me to quit the Alchemist stuff and run away with him or something absurd like that. A small part of me wished he had suggested that.
We walked silently back to the living room. The doors were shut.
Adrian turned to me and said "Are you sure you want us to go in together. I mean, someone could get the wrong idea about us." I knew he was just being an asshole so I laughed sarcastically and pushed past him.
Everyone was still sitting in the same spots as before. Everyone, except Jill. She had gotten up and walked over to link her arm with mine. My face burned up again as I realised Jill probably just saw what happened through the bond. She was smiling as big as she could when we sat down together. Yeah, she definitely knew.
For the rest of the night we played eye spy. Clarence's house was pretty old so it had lots of weird quirky things that made the game quite interesting.
When it was time to leave Marcus said he would show us out. The long twisting hallways were quite narrow so we had to walk in twos. Adrian was next to me and the others were all in front. Adrian was quiet for the first time I could remember. Usually he had something to say, either insulting to someone or at the very least very opinionated. I didn't want to say anything either. So we just walked in silence.
We were almost at the front door when Adrian stopped walking. I stopped too and turned to ask him what the matter was. He had a look on his face like he was trying to decide something. Before I could ask he pulled me to the left, down another one of the hallways, so we were out of view from the others. Although, they were far enough ahead that they wouldn't have seen us anyway. He pushed me up against the wall. His face was just centimeters from mine.
Then his lips were on mine, for a third time that night. This was a different kind of kiss though. It was slow and meaningful, full of love and affection. Don't get me wrong, my heart was still racing but there was more to this kiss than just lust or hunger or need. I couldn't help but feel like it was goodbye. I pulled back for a second.
"What are you doing?" I asked. Not angry at all, just surprised.
"I can stop if you want." he replied with a smirk. There was no way that I wanted him to do that.
"Don't be ridiculous." I pulled him back to me and the kiss deepened. It turned into a desperate need to be as close to his body as possible. I was squashed between Adrian's body and the wall, but that wasn't the reason I was finding it hard to breathe. It seemed like Adrian was having a hard time breathing as well. I realized that I liked having this effect on him. I was surprised though that I, Sydney Katherine Sage, the boring alchemist could make Adrian Ivashkov, the Royal Moroi party boy breathless. What was even more surprising to me was that I wasn't even pushing him away. I had been doing that for so long that I was sick of always being so restrained.
Coming back to reality now though, it occurred to me that the others would probably be waiting outside for us, again. As much as it pained me, I pulled away from Adrian.
"We should go. Curfew is soon." I said.
"Are…you…sure…you…want…to go?" he said, in between kisses.
"Yes." I said as confidently as I could manage. "I'm sure." I untangled my hands from around his neck and he took a step back. "And for future reference; you can't do this again. And I mean it. I'm not ready to throw away my life yet. I'm not ready to betray the alchemists more than I already have. I don't know if I ever will be ready."
"Okay." He put his hands up as if he was surrendering. "It won't happen again. I can be patient. I'll wait for you." Then he turned and walked away. He didn't even give me a chance to say anything else. There probably wasn't anything I could say though.
Note: I finished this chapter a little earlier than originally planned. I just got sick of writing all the lovey dovey stuff. I love Sydrian so much, but I just think its time for some action. Which is why the next chapter will contain the introduction of Ms Terwilliger's older sister. Yes guys, get excited.
I would just like to also mention that Sydney is still a developing character in my mind so I don't think it was unreasonable for her to behave this way. She hasn't been around many alchemists in a long while so her guard has been let down considerably. BUT in saying that, if you think she is WAY out of character don't be afraid to let me know.
I also realize this update has taken a very long time, but I just don't have the motivation to write very often. Maybe some reviews would help that, if I knew people actually read this. Maybe let me know if you like it, or hate it. Anything would be much appreciated. I can't improve my writing if no one tells me what I need to improve on.
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