Title: Caged Bird
Rating: M
Pairing: Shizuo x Izaya, Side; Shiki x Izaya
Warnings: MalexMale Relationships, Smut, Rape, Slight Cross dressing


Izaya's POV

Lost in my own thoughts, I quickly head back to the room that the doctor, Kida, and Mikado were in. Even though I know that Chikage guy's eyes are on me, I don't care. I'm seething with too much anger to care that he might be scheming something. The door opens with a little more force than I wanted as I not-so-gracefully make my way in and close the door.

My blonde apprentice is curled up on the floor with his lover, fast asleep. It's enough to make my heart ache and my anger soften just a bit. When I first took Kida on, I could see that he was envious of me…but, in all truth, I am envious of him. Mikado and his love for each other are so pure and innocent…it's sickening how much they care about each other.

"Ah! Orihara-san! Good morning~" I jump a little as my eyes settle on the brunette sitting in the middle of the room. There was a cup of steaming hot tea in his hands and a kettle sitting on the little table in the center of the room. His face is gleaming with a bright smile which made me want to punch him. How anyone could be that happy is beyond me.

"Good morning…" I mumble softly as I walk over to him and sit on the other side of the table.

"Would you like some tea?" He asks kindly. I politely shake my head before looking at the curled up couple once again.

"He's going to be okay." The man says as he sips his tea. I look back at him with a sense of relief.

"Thank you…" I edge him to tell me his name. I'm a control freak. I like to know about everything, but, in this situation, I really don't know anything. I want to get out of here…but I have nowhere to go. Of course, I could always go back to the Okiya but…heh, that's not my most ideal choice.

"Kishitani Shinra." The man smiles again at me. "It's really nice to meet you Orihara Izaya~" I raise my eyebrow as I watch him sip his tea once again.

"How…do you know who I am?" The smirk behind the cup doesn't go unnoticed by me. It's actually…kind of creepy.

"Your very famous behind closed doors…I guess you can say. You're known to be a talented geisha of a…unique talent." How…he knows that, I have no idea. His name and face don't seem familiar to me and it's not customary for people to admit having sex with a geisha, let alone a male geisha. "I suppose your thinking how I know this. Well…Shizuo and I are really good friends. He told me all about how he met you instead of a girl at an Okiya." I smirk as I lean forward and place my hand underneath my chin while resting my elbow on the table.

"Is that so? What else did he tell you?" Shinra shakes his head as he sets the cup down.

"That's all he told me but I am curious, Orihara-san, what are you doing with Shizuo-kun now? From my knowledge, you only met once." The doctor also leans in as his glasses seem to glow with a malicious glare. I opened my mouth, ready to admit everything to this man, but I shut it after thinking over the consequences. Friend or not, if our randevu gets out, then we're both in an immense amount of trouble. I believe having unlawful sex with a man when one is engaged to be married is breaking the bushido code. The two of us look at each other silently before I break the contact and look at Mikado and Kida.

"How is Mikado doing?" I say as I attempt to change the subject. My breath is held as I inwardly hope that he just drops the topic on hand. Thankfully, he seems to get the hint as he does change the subject.

"Like I said, he is going to be okay. He woke up briefly and said that he couldn't feel his left hand and was very sore but soon went back to sleep. He's really lucky you know~ from a cut that bad, people normally die. Maybe his love for the other boy had something to do with it. Love is really powerful you know~ It's truly fascinating how it can give people the willpower to survive things that are otherwise impossible to overcome." Leaning back, I mask my face with a bored expression even though every word the doctor speaks makes me want to viciously attack him.

"Is that so?" The brunette nods as he rests his chin on the palm of his hand, mimicking my earlier position.

"Fascinating right? Have you ever been in love, Orihara-san?" My eyebrow twitches at the annoying question. Honestly, what's with everyone's obsession of love and my own love life? As annoyed as I am, I manage to play off the annoyance and fall into my normal playful banter.

"Ohh Kishitani-san~ obviously you haven't known too many geisha. We are mere objects of sexual fantasy. None of us really have a love life…well, except Mikado and Kida there but then again they were never full-fledged~" Shinra cocks an eyebrow as he looks at me in disbelief.

"I've known quite a few geisha actually and a lot of them had love lives. Though secretive, they definitely had them." I roll my eyes as I feel my hands tense up and roll into fists.

"How do you know so many? I'm curious~" Shinra sits up straight as he looks at me like I am stupid.

"Huh? The Heiwajima family has a close relation to Okiya's. Didn't you know that?" I'm truly confused now. What relation does Shizu-chan's family have with Okiya's? I was under the impression that the first night I met him was the first time he had ever stepped his foot in a geisha house.

"What type of relation do they have?" The doctor remains silent for a second before continuing.

"Well…before the Heiwajima family became the high class, emperor protecting family they are today…They used to be…hmm what's the word I'm looking for…debt collectors I guess you could say. Anytime that someone couldn't pay their debts to the emperor, it was their job to go seek for some sort of repayment. Sometimes payment came in the form of food, clothing, services…other times the family had given up their own children to pay for their debts. Of course, this didn't give the emperor the money that he needed so they would go to Okiya's and higher class families to sell the children to get the money. This was a few years back though." I feel my breath caught in my throat as my face paled.

"How…long ago did they stop…?" I asked as I tried to keep myself composed in front of the doctor. He placed his finger underneath his chin and looked upwards as he thought.

"Hmm…I would say about 5 years ago…that's when they were promoted to be the emperor's personal bodyguards."

What a slap in the face. He means to tell me that Shizu-chan's family…the man I have been having feelings for and had sex with…was the one that took me away from my parents…my sisters…and sold me into a life of hell and violation…?

How revolting.

I suddenly have a bitter taste in my mouth as I get up from the table. Shinra looks up at me skeptically and I look away.

"Orihara-san…?" He begins and I lose it. I lean forward and harshly grab his kimono, pulling him closer to me.

"Where the hell is Shizuo?" I grit my teeth as I stare holes into the guy and tighten my hold. The doctor puts his hands up defensively as he appears shocked from my sudden change of behavior.

"Ah…he's…probably training…with his dad…uhm they normally do it outside!"

"Which way?!" I yell as I let my anger take over.

"O-Out the door and straight out to a left!" My grip loosens from the man's collar and I let him fall back from the slight push. I don't say anything else as I make my own out the sliding door. The hallways are dark and much more revolting now that I know the truth behind them. Heh…I wonder what other secrets are hiding behind this thick walls.

It's a risky move, I know, but I can't find myself to care. I locked away my feelings long ago, deep within me…it hurt; it really hurt but I remained strong for the sake of my sisters. I was the older child and I wanted to give them hope that it was going to be alright when, deep down, we all knew that it wasn't going to be alright. There wasn't a day that went by that Kururi and Mairu didn't cross my mind. I've come to accept the fact that I would never see my sisters again, but after finding out this information…I'm consumed with the idea that maybe I could find them again. Maybe if I did find them…all three of us could go away and start a new life together.

Not only that but I am seething with anger towards the blonde samurai and his family. Yes, I did know that it wasn't his fault nor his families that my parents had sold us…but it was like ripping off a scab on a wound. I never wanted to relive the day we got taken away…

Tears build up in my eyes but I bite back and force them down.

It's not his fault…it's really not his fault…but I feel anger towards him. Adding everything up; how he seduced me…and now how his family was the one who gave me to the wretched Okiya…I can't help but come to the conclusion that Shizuo Heiwajima is a vile man with sadistic pleasures.

I reach a door which I am assuming leads to the outside. My hand extends but stalls as it presses against the door. If Shizuo's father is out there, then I am making a huge mistake. I would surely be killed if he were to see me…

Despite this…

I push open the door.

I'm immediately greeted with a bright light which brings pain to my red orbs. My eyes blink a few times to adjust to the brightness of the day before I completely step out and shut the door behind me. A beautiful cherry blossom tree is in the center of the outside area, flowers fully in bloom. The petals are falling like gentle snowflakes as the wind blows and causes the tree to dance. The area around it is all grassy but well maintained. There are huge walls surrounding the area that kept the samurai's hidden from the preying eyes of the common people.

I look around slowly before my eyes settle on Shizuo. His sword is extended as his shirtless back glistens from the sweat that he has been building up. Caramel eyes are focused on a specific area as he takes a step forward and makes a sharp slice with his sword.

At first, he doesn't see me and I think about going back inside…but then his focus becomes interrupted as he lowers his sword and his beautiful eyes look towards my way and lock onto mine. His shirtless body glitters from the light rays beaming on it and blonde hair moves in the direction of the wind. The sight leaves me breathless and all negative thoughts seem to drift away with the movement of air. The only thing that runs through my mind is the bittersweet words that he said to me that intimate night.

'I love you Izaya…'


Okay well...now that I am out of that difficult part x.x; I should be able to write this a lot faster. Trust me guys, that whole part was as hard for me as it was for you. I apologize if Izaya is getting too OOC...I will try and get him back more into it but that whole part was...super difficult for me to get past. By the way, I have been doing a lot of research for this story...I know that there are some parts that aren't historically correct but, for the sake of the story, I had to warp them a bit.

ALSO notes on Chikage: He is a non-canon Durarara character that is only in the light novels. He is a complete ladies man that protects a 'woman's honor' no matter what and gets extremely violent if a woman is attacked...He is kind of a humble guy and always make sure to have a fair fight; if he has a weapon and his opponent doesn't, he will get rid of his. In the novels, he picks a fight with Shizuo and that's how he got his bandages.

Please review everyone!