How will Tony and Sarah cope when the unimaginable happens? All lyrics belong to Amy Lee!
5) My Heart Is Broken - Tony's POV
As I fall
Say you're here and it's all over now
Speaking to the atmosphere
No one's here and I fall into myself
This truth drives me
"He tried to hurt me, Tony… He grabbed me and he threw me on the floor…He-He touched me. And I tried to fight…"
That was it. The worst phone call I've had in my whole life. I run out of bed like crazy in the middle of the night. Put on a shirt and pants that were left over the chair as I inform Meg about what just happened. She freaks out. I get my cell, grab the car keys and we're out of the house.
As I try to stay calm while driving, I start reflecting on the situation. Sarah was supposed to have a sleepover to her friend Kate's. Where the hell did she go? Did she lie?
"What? Did someone hurt you?"
Silence on the other end.
"Who hurt you Sarah?"
I can't believe that bastard tried to hurt her. What did he do to her? I can't help but let my mind think of the worst. No way… There's no way he… That's too much to absorb. I can't believe the scenarios that are taking place all over my head.
"What? Sarah where are you?"
"I'm in the park that's near Kate's house…I-I'm alone."
"Is he gone?"
"Yes. He's gone."
"Okay, stay right there. I'm on my way."
Meg is crying on the passenger's seat. She's trying not to lose her mind. I'm trying not to lose my mind. The streets flash by so quickly. No cars around as I rush through red lights. We should have been more careful. I should have been more careful…
"Tony, I don't see her."
"She said she's here. Let's go find her, I'll leave the car lights on." We both get out of the car and into the park. Covered in the darkness, it's almost impossible to distinguish anything, any lines, any form of life. My heart is racing as I keep screaming her name.
"Sarah! Sarah where are you?"
"Sarah!" tries Meg.
I hear footsteps in the long distance.
We both stop in an instant. The footsteps sound more close now. More frequent. She's running. It's her.
My feet can barely hold me anymore. The cold is making me shiver, taking away what's left of me. Why did this have to happen to me? I was perfectly fine, I was happy for the first time since…forever. Guess I can't be happy for very long, can I? Like it wouldn't be fair. I get the chills down my spine every time I hear a noise near me.
I'm frightened by what I see
Immobilized by my fear
And soon to be
Blinded by tears…
Oh God, Tony where are you? Wait…I think I hear something. It's them! I try to run towards them as fast as I am possibly able to. It's really impossible to see anything; it's too dark. I'm afraid I'll stumble and fall. I run towards the voices. I run and I lose myself in the arms of my Mom.
"Take me away from here" I whisper and hope she hears me, my voice trembling from fear. Tony is next to her. He's talking. Probably to me, but I can't hear him. I can't. I just want to get out of here.
"Sarah are you okay? God what happened to you we got so worried!" I try, and hold my arms around them. She doesn't seem to apprehend my words. "God, Sarah…" I am so relieved we found her… I rest my head over her's. But she resists.
"Okay, let's get you into the car sweetheart, everything's okay. You're safe now." Meg fondles with her hair and holds her head reassuringly.
I open the door and help the two of them get in.
"Honey how do you feel? Are you okay?" I speak as quietly as I can.
"I don't know…" she responds tiredly.
"It's okay, lie down and close your eyes now. We'll be home soon. Mom is gonna get you cleaned up and put you into bed to rest as long as you want" Meg sais to her, gently whipping her tears away.
The drive home is silent. I can hear Sarah's gentle sobs from the back seat. It breaks my heart. It breaks my heart that he broke her heart. This won't heal easily, I know.
I park the car outside the house and open the front door for them. I lock it as many times as it will let me.
"What do you want me to do?" I ask as she leads Sarah towards the bathroom.
"Just take out a pair of pyjamas from her closet, you know where they are?"
"No, but I'll find them."
"Put them on the bed. And find some alcohol and cotton, she's got wounds all over."
My eyes are left with a blank stare towards the floor. Is this really happening?
I pulled away to face the pain
I close my eyes and drift away
"Let's get rid of these clothes, shall we?"
No. I will resist.
"Honey, it's okay, it's just you and me. We're alone. No one can hurt you now. I promise."
I can't even look at you. Strength abandons my whole being.
"I'll just clean you up with some water, and then we're gonna sleep together. I'll take care of you through the night. You won't be alone. Mom is here."
My body feels numb. I can feel the pain through my skin as the water pours over me. But it is distant, scarce. I feel like I'm not myself. What had just happened? I need for this to be over.
"There you go… all done. Now let's get you prepped for bed."
She covers me around with a towel. My feet still trembling, I hardly manage my way to my bedroom. I lie on my bed, feeling numb. I can't move.
I'm dying again
I'm going under
Drowning in you
I'm falling forever
I've got to break through…
"How is she?" Tony asks Meg as she comes out closing the bedroom's door.
"How could she be?..." I sigh. "Listen. I think it would be better if I stayed with her tonight. Maybe you should go back to your apartment."
"Oh… a-are you sure?"
"I think it might be better to let a few days pass before she has a guy around her… I'll tell you if we need anything."
"Will you call me as soon as you know what happened? If that guy molested her we'll have to do some exams before it's too late."
"Please take good care of her, Meg."
"I will. Don't worry Tony. Go home. I'll call you tomorrow."
"Okay pumpkin. Let's both get some rest now, okay? Clean your mind off, we'll talk about it tomorrow, when it'll all be better."
I sigh and close my eyes. She lies besides me, tucking me into a hug. I place my head securely over her chest and wish she never leaves me. Will I be able to sleep?
"Shh. Relax. Sing a melody in your mind. It'll help you fall asleep."
No tears coming out this time. I'm all drained.
I close my eyes and drift away over the fear
That I will never find a way to heal my soul
And I will wander until the end of time
Torn away from you
My heart is broken
Sweet sleep, my dark angel…